
「你係咪有好多女性朋友㗎?」Priscilla對我說。560Please respect copyright.PENANAPw8CMFSuQO
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我:我冇乜女仔friend㗎。560Please respect copyright.PENANAkRxSqucqxj
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Priscilla:下?你咁都冇?偽娘唔係應該有好多女性朋友咩?560Please respect copyright.PENANADbpgRceLPm
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我:幼稚園至到小學初期嗰時會,但而家冇曬呢種緣份lu。560Please respect copyright.PENANAp1wR1Zeulu
我:講起上次拍拖,都已經係8年前,嗰個女仔係喺Facebook識。560Please respect copyright.PENANAvSwy9MWmpA
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說著,我又跟Priscilla說起自己的情史。560Please respect copyright.PENANAZWmVNRK0pa
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在大年初一的早上,我和Priscilla在一家中式餐廳吃點心。560Please respect copyright.PENANAtCQATfgzFR
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我是Andy,又名水神,是本長篇故事的主角。560Please respect copyright.PENANADddB87Wx6W
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這個長篇故事,就要先由我和Priscilla說起。560Please respect copyright.PENANANbVCCM8jcY
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就算沒有看過上一篇故事,看過前言的人,都大概知道我擁有「女裝大佬」我身份。560Please respect copyright.PENANAAEC8GeByDy
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先報上自己的status和stage,A1,stage最高記錄是 3。560Please respect copyright.PENANArTfYPp02n9
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自從8年前和一個在Facebook認識的女生,談過一個月這麼久的戀愛之後,我就再沒有談過戀愛。560Please respect copyright.PENANAnQ2yV0W9xj
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甚至嚴格來講,從成年人的角度看,那只是霧水情緣,算不上是正式戀愛。560Please respect copyright.PENANAurW9mKtSah
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為甚麼之後的8年都是單身?雖然我也有宅男的性格,但這不是主要原因。560Please respect copyright.PENANAoXG3HYAtoX
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真正的原因,是我沒有把意欲投放到感情生活之上。用比喻說,就像一台電腦進入了休眠模式。560Please respect copyright.PENANAWOeGc4azOf
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第二個主因,是我把「男生對女生存有性幻想」這件事,想成一件不乾淨的事情,然後再建立出「柏拉圖式的男女關係是最純潔」的價值觀;這也同時解釋了,為甚麼我一直只在stage 3 止步不前。560Please respect copyright.PENANAJtbhKp0c4C
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不像主流的宅男,我沒有心儀的網紅、主播、男神或女神。看到女神,我多數都在想:怎樣模仿她的衣著打扮?性方面,我頂多只是戀物。560Please respect copyright.PENANAaXbS1hXQ5N
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相信有不少人都會好奇,到底偽娘的感情生活是怎樣?找男生談戀愛?找女生談戀愛?560Please respect copyright.PENANAguu4vIJhwL
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在社會的價值觀規範之下,很多人都會直覺地認為:偽娘就只有找男生談戀愛。560Please respect copyright.PENANAiqcAoqQrc4
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大錯特錯!偽娘也可以找女生談戀愛。560Please respect copyright.PENANAL1hoRmPMVF
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我就是這種人。560Please respect copyright.PENANAwCWio8XgOC
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至於我的性取向,到底是甚麼?560Please respect copyright.PENANAzBcwqe0yPR
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我曾經回答過異性戀,也回答過無性戀;但無論如何,我就是最傾向找女生談戀愛。560Please respect copyright.PENANA1iU7ubeYIm
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「無性戀」這個字其實被人爭議了很久很久,有人說是的確存在,也有人說它只是個偽命題。560Please respect copyright.PENANAq8bciwwWOO
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有些觀點認為,人不可能完全沒有「性」,要麼就是「性慾低下症」,不然就是受到後天的環境影響,例如文化、成長背景的影響,所以認為「無性戀」是個偽命題。560Please respect copyright.PENANAgw1nAmkgPc
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舉例說,有些人從小時候,所接受的教育,或者是被某些電視劇集所影響(一些低質劇集甚至把「性」和「性侵」劃些等號),讓他覺得:「性」是不乾淨的東西;然後就是令他以後都會抗拒進入性愛關係,形成所謂的「無性戀」。560Please respect copyright.PENANABHkhT66nWT
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這頓早茶,以AA制完。560Please respect copyright.PENANAs00IBRU48X
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我送著Priscilla回家,在路上,「肢體接觸」這四個字像一個鋼造的框架,牢牢地鎖在自己的腦海裡,又是為做而做的接觸;我都是在最近才真正有「肢體接觸」這個概念的。560Please respect copyright.PENANANXonpzOOBe
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在過馬路時,我眼睛又是瞄著她的手臀,想了一想,好不容易才敢伸手撓下去。560Please respect copyright.PENANAT8EvMs1lQF
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我:下次再玩啦!560Please respect copyright.PENANAmTlEpFh3Dt
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Priscilla:來一個抱抱吧!560Please respect copyright.PENANAtiwbksZvKJ
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在Priscilla家的大廳裡,我和她來了一個擁抱道別。560Please respect copyright.PENANApT7JW6howu
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這個擁抱,只能算是一般社交式的擁抱;因為我很清楚地感受到,她只是來了一秒,然後就抽身離開,彷彿不再讓我擁抱多幾秒。560Please respect copyright.PENANApDwq1vUKYU
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到底,是真的無性戀,或只是未有把「性」這個靈魂解放出來?560Please respect copyright.PENANA2HD70LkBXO