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不知道夜蛾老師跟悟怎麼跟高層周旋的，但我的學籍問題總算是順利被解決。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FGGRTTxO3
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連明裡暗裡來試探我的人都沒見著，聽說才剛進高專就被悟打回去了。物理上的那種「打」。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1xoVUrV6w
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──這些消息都是硝子打聽來的。在完成例行性的生理檢查後，她像是想到什麼似的，問：你……打算怎麼辦？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxTZtVgskL
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翻身下床到一半的我停住動作。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJTNXzecle
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她看著我的眼睛，說，不想當咒術師了嗎？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfrdrQdakr
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「硝子。」我猶豫著開口，「我不知道該不該放棄。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyfikMYLXv
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「為什麼不？」理所當然地反問的同時，她也彎下身軀拉近我們的距離。茶褐色的眼眸仍然注視我，就像是想探究什麼似的。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzr0FMd8yK
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我注意到她微帶倦意的神情；於是幾欲吐出的話語停留在舌尖，最後又重新咽回腹中。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqtp8qN3oC
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所有念想於此刻盡數消弭。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tkbzjhXJ1
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「……可能還要再想想吧。」我輕聲說。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XoUjsonJW
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「是嗎。」硝子重新直起身體，雙手插進白大褂中。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUj3yh8SXW
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「反正我也只是個醫生而已。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38AXus2cUy
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她又例行性地叮囑我幾句；態度平和，一切尋常，就好像什麼也沒發生過一樣──我卻直覺似乎有哪裡不太對勁。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnf0EDVeFt
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「硝子。」我叫住她。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIbKP0BOisJ
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即將離開醫療室的少女回頭看向我，視線於空氣中交會，表情是我見慣不驚的平淡。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxUT6LEzCa
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「你可以……抱抱我嗎？」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnNfbbriuE
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不知道為什麼說出這七個字似乎變得很困難。以前總習慣跟她撒嬌，然而現在卻連話音都會不自覺顫抖。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTleiSIwZr
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下一秒，熟悉的、夾帶著菸草氣味的，柔軟的身軀，緊緊地擁住我。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSIP44UD2G
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下巴擱在我肩上，她什麼也沒說，只感受到帶著濕氣的呼息落在耳畔。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjx7Olmr09A
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我想起那天她濕潤的棕色眼睛。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBtDs3FmY5
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「你是笨蛋。」她甕聲甕氣地說。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYUYOWd9d7
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「對，我是。」假裝沒聽出她在哭，我好脾氣地應和。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPdnj3tVmg
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「你們都是。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5sKMrKuXT
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「……他們是，我不是。」我感覺自己似乎又要喘不過氣來，只能勉強開口否認。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmdQPJtoY0
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「你前面才剛承認你是笨蛋。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiGVV2vaF4
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「……好吧，我是。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2E8hzAy597
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於是硝子不說話了。痛苦隨著她落在我背上的撫拍而緩和；我艱難地從她的懷抱中伸出手，試著學習硝子的動作，輕輕地、拍了拍她的背。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplHgA6LYH4
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懷中看似鎮定的身體也跟著顫慄。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjvO3DfZCx
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偌大的醫療室裡，只餘她小小的啜泣聲，和衣肩上暈染的濕意。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWaEbTUzfG
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硝子的情緒管理能力一向不錯，很快就止住眼淚。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3EG0O8o8C
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她沒過問我為何突然向她討抱的原因，反倒是我自己先按捺不住。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVCJKwTnYY
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「你不問嗎？」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxi2gPEkYhq
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硝子盯著我幾秒之後扯扯嘴角，反正你自己會講原因。說這話的時候語氣裡還頗有幾分勝券在握的意味，一副「你看，這不就自己說了嗎？」的樣子。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12muU0c0hc
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真是被她捏得死死的。我心情微妙。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOI7hAdjHBu
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「好吧，我只是覺得……」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uw7FAafAu
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我只是覺得你看起來很失望，我說。感覺如果那時候真的就這樣放你離開的話，大概就要變成陌生人了。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYgF0DgWUD
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她離開的背影和方向與少年重疊而合，而同樣的錯誤不能再犯第二次。我不能放她走。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8G7FcPMjD
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「──我不接受。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1k2K6VeEA
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硝子沉默幾秒，無奈地笑了笑。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28qb17iNX0
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「你要是對待五條也這麼坦率就好了。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQliqVTFuv
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「欸……欸？」什麼意思？為什麼突然扯到他？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7Aooryo1U
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人對夢遊時做的事情不會有印象，這你清楚吧？硝子問。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjA1isLsdD
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我點頭，疑惑地反問，「所以我夢遊的時候都做了什麼？」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkd7wunzn3B
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「是也沒什麼，都是些常見的而已。」她含糊地帶過，「不過你前陣子倒是做了件事，把五條嚇壞了。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMfp0rWLid
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……我突然有種不好的預感。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡySwsachVRX
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「硝子，等──」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJQf5Fpy72M
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「──你在夢遊的時候對著五條告白。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNt9QQX3gxv
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我搖搖晃晃地從病床上起身。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3zOxkzRgI
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「你幹麼？」硝子問。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNkhNSFniF
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「退學。」我要退學，就現在，立刻，馬上。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1WdMzrVHs
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「可是我還沒講完。」她憋笑。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvx5pfRDMbh
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「你別──」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8Jmr1zvQh
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她把我按在床上坐好，強迫我繼續聽。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZm5fRWJAX
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我好想逃。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNf5FrPf5jD
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「你抱著人家堅持不鬆手，說『好可愛的貓！』，然後準備親他臉頰──別這麼緊張啦，他頭一歪閃掉了，變成親頭髮；還有一次是抱住他，用撒嬌的語氣說『硝子──我好想你』……」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXK1KBvXCVJ
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她數了一堆我做過的丟臉事，最後如此總結：「你把人家嚇到現在看到你都會想跑。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUx7euFpQZ
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語氣裡倒是聽不出指控的味道，感覺更像是看好戲。我的腦袋還轉不大過來，聽見這話直接反射性問：那他幹麼不跑？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwmFuKhi8w
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……問完的時候才意識到，這種事情好像也不是他要跑，是我要離他遠點才對吧？哪有檢討受害者的道理。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFn6pe2SCC
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想到這裡，我站起身。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsF0lJVIlCK
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「你要退學了嗎？」硝子饒有興致地問。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz29xDQ4a3z
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「對──不對、不對。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnbPzvQwog
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面對她疑惑的表情，我語氣平靜地說──313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aWotcoP5R
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「我要讓自己消失在這世界上。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Dlgiqxahu
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是速速寫出的摸魚產物。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlRtUUFcbA
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很想大修，但是這篇已經兩萬多字了，不太好改，大概要等之後比較有空吧（還在忙考試ing）……唉再放下去都要瘋狂被芥見打臉了。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAwLlDrU6T
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總之希望這篇可以順利在今年完結（好難），可以的話還滿想印一本給自己當紀念的。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACQvCf44Mm
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祝閱讀愉快。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFmmcd1XTt
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240306 梔涼｜匿名交流單
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問題：請問兩位現在的感想是？（高舉麥克風）313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfiWPL1mhx
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主角（臉上打馬賽克＋變聲處理）：不想活了。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OOfQyE5Vi
五條悟（離線中）：（還在躲貓貓）313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUGfaSbw5I6
路過的家入硝子：沒差吧反正是夢遊啊（無情嘲笑）313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYTLP7JZVN
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夏油傑……夏油傑持續離線中。
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