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不知道夜蛾老師跟悟怎麼跟高層周旋的，但我的學籍問題總算是順利被解決。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqIyf5EPOT
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連明裡暗裡來試探我的人都沒見著，聽說才剛進高專就被悟打回去了。物理上的那種「打」。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUJtOICKJW
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──這些消息都是硝子打聽來的。在完成例行性的生理檢查後，她像是想到什麼似的，問：你……打算怎麼辦？255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwT5e3QQy31
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翻身下床到一半的我停住動作。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTe8UdeV2lN
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她看著我的眼睛，說，不想當咒術師了嗎？255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5tI7z4oS1
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「硝子。」我猶豫著開口，「我不知道該不該放棄。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczOxBgvstp
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「為什麼不？」理所當然地反問的同時，她也彎下身軀拉近我們的距離。茶褐色的眼眸仍然注視我，就像是想探究什麼似的。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMzvITf8UM
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我注意到她微帶倦意的神情；於是幾欲吐出的話語停留在舌尖，最後又重新咽回腹中。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5OTAJ7mwo
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所有念想於此刻盡數消弭。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMIpCFUWTx
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「……可能還要再想想吧。」我輕聲說。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eoMrff0Sr
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「是嗎。」硝子重新直起身體，雙手插進白大褂中。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7xGEkInaR
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「反正我也只是個醫生而已。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bd7CNgoh3
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她又例行性地叮囑我幾句；態度平和，一切尋常，就好像什麼也沒發生過一樣──我卻直覺似乎有哪裡不太對勁。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG44OxWUMVb
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「硝子。」我叫住她。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQp0wMaMYo
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即將離開醫療室的少女回頭看向我，視線於空氣中交會，表情是我見慣不驚的平淡。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zVOdaqz7H
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「你可以……抱抱我嗎？」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiF8mfO0DCb
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不知道為什麼說出這七個字似乎變得很困難。以前總習慣跟她撒嬌，然而現在卻連話音都會不自覺顫抖。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz92hOHqBl3
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下一秒，熟悉的、夾帶著菸草氣味的，柔軟的身軀，緊緊地擁住我。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLncdj637je
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下巴擱在我肩上，她什麼也沒說，只感受到帶著濕氣的呼息落在耳畔。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPZOdr9aDj
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我想起那天她濕潤的棕色眼睛。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3X1kwYh6Uv
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「你是笨蛋。」她甕聲甕氣地說。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSJ2ZBLzbS
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「對，我是。」假裝沒聽出她在哭，我好脾氣地應和。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXPS6esMj8
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「你們都是。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyOXySwM3I
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「……他們是，我不是。」我感覺自己似乎又要喘不過氣來，只能勉強開口否認。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrp9i8SuBZd
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「你前面才剛承認你是笨蛋。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCtTLpHOBZ
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「……好吧，我是。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HvO6kZrRS
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於是硝子不說話了。痛苦隨著她落在我背上的撫拍而緩和；我艱難地從她的懷抱中伸出手，試著學習硝子的動作，輕輕地、拍了拍她的背。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrvF7qI2uz
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懷中看似鎮定的身體也跟著顫慄。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZUeacxA1G
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偌大的醫療室裡，只餘她小小的啜泣聲，和衣肩上暈染的濕意。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgOfEobhwK
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硝子的情緒管理能力一向不錯，很快就止住眼淚。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vBrtU4Zev
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她沒過問我為何突然向她討抱的原因，反倒是我自己先按捺不住。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwPtnqZAvX
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「你不問嗎？」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhrfp6Htj4
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硝子盯著我幾秒之後扯扯嘴角，反正你自己會講原因。說這話的時候語氣裡還頗有幾分勝券在握的意味，一副「你看，這不就自己說了嗎？」的樣子。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8RXJGLMUM
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真是被她捏得死死的。我心情微妙。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSD4bC622oV
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「好吧，我只是覺得……」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpl0LyfQMeG
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我只是覺得你看起來很失望，我說。感覺如果那時候真的就這樣放你離開的話，大概就要變成陌生人了。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshgbFnogtR
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她離開的背影和方向與少年重疊而合，而同樣的錯誤不能再犯第二次。我不能放她走。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05lccjk7yA
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「──我不接受。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemlmtNfqra
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硝子沉默幾秒，無奈地笑了笑。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUNjP5kKeQ
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「你要是對待五條也這麼坦率就好了。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhv32Dh9fGy
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「欸……欸？」什麼意思？為什麼突然扯到他？255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjSIehidhK
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人對夢遊時做的事情不會有印象，這你清楚吧？硝子問。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchQS2YbrCy
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我點頭，疑惑地反問，「所以我夢遊的時候都做了什麼？」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1ubnBlk7f
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「是也沒什麼，都是些常見的而已。」她含糊地帶過，「不過你前陣子倒是做了件事，把五條嚇壞了。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmu1eqq1CKm
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……我突然有種不好的預感。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAEZmQbhv5
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「硝子，等──」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbr8Hbf808n
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「──你在夢遊的時候對著五條告白。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2v0W0Ti1EM
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我搖搖晃晃地從病床上起身。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopFvbxtgV0
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「你幹麼？」硝子問。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8a7y3g1TJC
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「退學。」我要退學，就現在，立刻，馬上。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRamGsCdVjC
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「可是我還沒講完。」她憋笑。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8Ali5VVBC
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「你別──」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiy1jiclUSr
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她把我按在床上坐好，強迫我繼續聽。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GdFdXrgAk
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我好想逃。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZAMRkj0tP
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「你抱著人家堅持不鬆手，說『好可愛的貓！』，然後準備親他臉頰──別這麼緊張啦，他頭一歪閃掉了，變成親頭髮；還有一次是抱住他，用撒嬌的語氣說『硝子──我好想你』……」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMKDPmWWqF
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她數了一堆我做過的丟臉事，最後如此總結：「你把人家嚇到現在看到你都會想跑。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCrAPE7YxM
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語氣裡倒是聽不出指控的味道，感覺更像是看好戲。我的腦袋還轉不大過來，聽見這話直接反射性問：那他幹麼不跑？255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqBbF1JKP1T
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……問完的時候才意識到，這種事情好像也不是他要跑，是我要離他遠點才對吧？哪有檢討受害者的道理。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxLfABCLwS
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想到這裡，我站起身。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiUoa4ydDV
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「你要退學了嗎？」硝子饒有興致地問。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dSrxQzx6Q
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「對──不對、不對。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqTqJNdjrm
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面對她疑惑的表情，我語氣平靜地說──255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7Rg51jDli
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「我要讓自己消失在這世界上。」255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2uiFydsm4
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是速速寫出的摸魚產物。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFfcF49MBT
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很想大修，但是這篇已經兩萬多字了，不太好改，大概要等之後比較有空吧（還在忙考試ing）……唉再放下去都要瘋狂被芥見打臉了。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSA9uW1QrCU
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總之希望這篇可以順利在今年完結（好難），可以的話還滿想印一本給自己當紀念的。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyZwJNNtaY
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祝閱讀愉快。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNS5vDjFBcv
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240306 梔涼｜匿名交流單
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問題：請問兩位現在的感想是？（高舉麥克風）255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiLFLFggw2
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主角（臉上打馬賽克＋變聲處理）：不想活了。255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7hBvOZOr4
五條悟（離線中）：（還在躲貓貓）255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOkmmz7e2g
路過的家入硝子：沒差吧反正是夢遊啊（無情嘲笑）255Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtezjTEag0C
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夏油傑……夏油傑持續離線中。
然後按「加至主畫面」