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~ 聖城中有 神的榮耀,城的光輝如同極貴重的寶石,好像碧玉,
明如水晶。牆是碧玉造的,城是精金的,如同明淨的玻璃。~
冗長又疲憊的周末,家裡面亂七八糟,東西雜物被亂翻得像剛被小偷洗劫過,散落一地,整間屋子凌亂的像豬窩一樣,無人打理。我整日窩在書桌前,靠在那張硬邦邦的手扶椅上,埋在書堆中,尋找資料,探索真相,腦子裡面再也裝不下除了李清照《聲聲慢》之外的任何東西。書桌上擺滿了有關宋詞的釋義本,各朝代文豪對此首詩詞的解釋與獨到見解,還有李清照的身世與顛沛流離的一生。
整個周末,我伏案苦讀,疲倦的頭在昏黃一片檯燈光裡來回晃動,緩慢而辛勤地朝桌上蜿蜒在兩堆書之間的山谷進行,從面前打開的一卷卷書中挑出各種細節,採摘出來,抄在一本筆記本上。我讀來讀去,思來索去,卻不得其門而入。令人苦惱地食不下嚥,夜不能寐,臉上一顆顆小青春痘直冒出來,一個晚上的時間,我的一張小臉蛋已經成為名副其實的小花臉。
傍晚,一人坐在書桌前發呆,面對桌上凌亂的一大堆疊文案,一籌莫展,令人不自覺地喪氣,連連唉聲嘆氣。我用手托著沉重的腮幫子,兩眼無神,整個人像洩了氣的小皮球,無精打采地翻覽桌上的文件。我打了一個大哈欠,欠一欠身,揉一揉痠痛的眼睛,疲倦睏頓之意襲湧上來,眼皮如千斤重,睡意正酣濃。不知不覺,小臉蛋兒趴在書桌前,竟沉沉入睡了,進入美妙的夢鄉。
我魂遊向外,身體如一縷白煙兒飄飄然,飛翔在虛無飄渺之中,如做夢一般,彷彿來到另一個虛幻世界!
「咦!這裡是哪兒?」
「好陌生呀!」
恍然置身於白色雲霧之中,身邊圍繞五彩繽紛的可愛小雲朵,宛如各種顏色的棉花糖,紅、黃、綠、藍,小雲朵在身邊飛來飛去,互相追逐,飄浮嬉戲,真有趣!我伸手觸摸小雲朵,柔軟如白色羊毛,真想抓一口咬下來吃!
這是一座天空之城!
一片煙霧瀰漫,朦朦朧朧,渺渺裊裊,迷迷茫茫,多麼的空靈、虛幻、美妙!宛如來到天上仙境,那美麗如此令人著迷。
前方,有一座宏碩偉岸的白色大宮殿,高聳直立於雲霧之上。白色大宮殿的外觀不僅壯麗、輝煌、雄美,甚至整座城堡都閃閃發光。它散發出耀眼的金色光芒,遠至千里之外都能刺人眼目,已經無法用言語形容的光亮、強烈、奪目。此光線比太陽光至少強烈上千萬倍,燦爛程度超越自創世以來世人所曾見過最陽光燦爛的日子。我的雙眼完全無法直視它,深怕再多看三秒鐘,眼球從此會瞎盲。雖然這大光十分明亮,但卻有一種純淨、無瑕的韻動。因為,這大光實在太亮、太刺眼了,我只能半瞇著眼睛,觀看周遭一切。
更神奇的是,這座天空之城沒有日月光照,光的來源、聖城的光輝,完全是上帝的榮耀。因為,祂是眾光之源。實在令人太驚奇!
在那裡原沒有黑夜。
一股強烈好奇心的驅使,吸引我的雙腳不自主地驅向前…………
白色大宮殿氣派非凡,是一座歐洲古典式白色皇宮建築,外觀雄偉,氣勢壯闊,金碧輝煌。宮殿由精金鑄造,金光閃閃。城牆內外綴滿珠寶的寶石基座閃耀出無與倫比的光芒。城的光輝如同及貴重的寶石,好像碧玉,明亮如水晶!城牆的根基是用各樣寶石修飾的。宮門的棟樑,高高聳立數根偉碩的大理石圓柱,圓柱上雕刻許多精緻的美麗圖案,有上帝的寶座、天使、四活物、約櫃、十誡法版、摩西的杖……等等。城是四方的,長、寬、高都是一樣。一千五百里長、一千五百里寬、一千五百里高。城堡的城門是拱圓形,宏偉寬闊,若把城門打開,可容納約莫十排馬車軍隊同時通過,真是壯麗無比!
「哇!太令人嘆為觀止!地球上尚未有如此榮耀輝煌的大宮殿!」我發自內心嘖嘖稱奇。
佇立於這一座白色宏偉宮殿前面,我好像一隻小小黑螞蟻,渺小的微不足道!
「咦?好熟悉的身影!」
「那是誰?」
「是祂!」
「祂怎會在這兒?」
我快跑奔飛過去!
嘿嘿!果然是祂!
「咦?祢怎會在這兒?」我張大一雙圓圓的眼,萬分好奇。
第一眼便認出是祂———星巴克的那一位白衣長袍怪咖。
祂,一副久候多時的模樣,一臉笑瞇瞇,神秘兮兮說:「這裡是我管轄的地盤,本尊當然要出現在此地囉!不然應該在哪兒現身?」
「嗯?」此話難懂?
祂,眼目如火焰,發出能力的光芒。靠近祂,感覺有一股能力穿流過身體。祂身上依舊一襲白衣長袍,潔白無瑕,長衣袍在此地會發光發亮。不同於之前,初次在星巴克咖啡碰面之時,第二次在美國聖地牙哥的海港灣,祂的白衣袍不會發光。
祂展開雙臂迎接我:「喬昀,歡迎來到我的皇宮!」
「唔?祢的皇宮?上帝居住之所?難道……莫非……這裡是天堂?」我抱著好奇心打量四周,十分新奇。
祂點點頭微笑:「正是!」
「哇!太不可思議了!」我驚訝嚷道。
「這裡和我生活的地球,是截然不同的兩個世界,天堂是一個奇妙國度!如此美麗虛幻,如詩如畫,仙仙飄來的朵朵雲彩,飛來飛去,宛如置身童話故事裡的夢幻仙境!光明純潔,幽靜唯美。連平時隨意說話的音量,都會破壞這裡的詳和寧靜…………」這是我對天堂的第一印象。
我像是個沒見過世面的小女孩,四處環顧,好奇探索。天堂的一景一物,都令人嘖嘖稱奇!
「喬昀,我要正式領妳進入皇宮!首先,妳必須先把身上那一套骯髒污穢的舊衣裳給脫下來!」祂一臉嚴肅命令。
我注視著祂,一臉茫然,不知其所云。
隨後,低頭俯視自己的一身裝扮,實在嚇了一大跳!
「OH!My God!」我驚聲連連尖叫:「自己怎麼會變成這副德性?」
天啊!好萊塢電影的魔幻情節顯現――――我的身體竟然縮小了、變小了!
…………突如其來的巨大轉變,讓整個人震驚嚇呆…………
我彷彿跳進卡通小叮噹的「魔法時光隧道機」,搖身一變成為五、六歲的小女孩,身體不再是二十六歲的成熟女人,而是轉變為小女孩。一剎那之間,軀殼縮小了!身體變小了!容貌返老還童了!這……這究竟發生什麼事???
不僅如此,身上的裝扮確實如祂所言,穿著破舊不堪的衣裳,骯髒污穢、破爛不堪、補丁交痕。小女孩粉嘟嘟的小臉蛋兒,沾滿汙漬泥巴,髒兮兮、黑抹抹,只露出一雙明亮的小眼珠子是乾淨的,一副可憐兮兮的模樣,像是已經遺棄在外多年、流浪求乞的———乞丐小女孩。
「這發生什麼事了?」我莫名其妙地盯著自己縮小的身軀,戒慎恐懼,全身抖瑟問道:「我的軀殼怎麼會變成這樣?」倏地,聞到身上傳來一陣陣的惡臭味,好像多年沒洗澡的發霉臭味,令人作嘔。
祂直注視我,一點兒也不訝異,面容十分平靜說:「喬昀,這個乞丐小女孩就是妳!」
我馬上大聲抗議:「祢胡說!我在地球上又不是小乞丐!」
祂噗哧笑了一聲:「這位乞丐小女孩的形像———是妳生命的真實寫照!她是你在地球上人類社會裡面,辛苦求生存的樣子!天堂的大光,只不過反射出你生命真實的景況。」
祂不疾不徐的解釋:「天堂的大光,猶如一面明亮光淨的鏡子,完全反射出———人類心靈的真實狀態,你生命體的原始樣貌!」
我心裡暗自碎道:「鬼才相信!又不是照妖鏡!」
但是,嘴巴上還是佯裝的臣服於祂,假意附和問道:「祢是指………我的靈魂,在人類地球上,完全是個不折不扣的———乞丐窮小孩?」
祂點點頭:「正是!」
此說辭令人更不服氣了,我緊緊皺起眉頭,極力辯駁,定意要替自己板回顏面:「不明白祢的意思,我在地球上———有工作、有金錢、有親人、有朋友、有房子……吃得飽、穿得暖,生活不虞匱乏。雖然,沒有大富大貴,但也活得小康自足!至少,與許多人比起來,我算是『小資女孩』!身邊還有一筆存款,祢怎麼會說我活得像小乞丐呢?」我鼓著小腮幫子,粉臉蛋兒氣嘟嘟的反駁,極力擺脫祂口中乞丐窮小孩的壞形象。
祂對於我的辯駁,無動於衷,甚至覺得好笑:「既然在地球上妳擁有許多物質,為什麼老覺得不滿足?覺得還不夠?還要費盡心機努力抓取?一天到晚怨天尤人!哀嘆老天爺不公平?抱怨東、埋怨西。為什麼妳的心靈如此饑渴、貧窮?」祂質問。
「呃?」我無言以對。
祂一語道破我生命中的問題,令人無話可答。
祂並沒有輕易放過我,輕瞥了我一眼,逕自繼續說道:「你自小用功讀書,考上好學校,出社會拼命努力工作賺錢,不斷的往上爬,企盼能夠擠上金字塔的頂端。唯一目的———就是用世人羨慕的成就,來證明自己存在的意義與價值,不是嗎?」
我深皺眉頭,心裡頭十分反感,義正嚴詞的反駁:「難道追求這些有什麼不妥嗎?全世界的人類不都如此活著嗎?」
祂瞇著眼看我:「常理而論———一個人用功讀讀,努力工作賺錢,並無不對!此乃針對一個人的外在行為而論。但是,倘若你必須倚靠外在的物質、成就、金錢,才能證明自己存在的價值,凸顯你的與眾不同,贏得人們對你的喜愛。就心理動機而言,凡出於恐懼的努力,出於恐懼的任何回應,都是不健康的,屬於負面能量。因為,生命中所有的奮鬥努力,若不是出於積極樂觀的信念,皆是錯誤的。人之所以為人,是來地上修練一生的功課,我們一生努力奮鬥的目標,應該是成為更好的人,更好的自己,在這個世界上化身為———美麗的祝福,讓周圍的人因你的存在而幸福。況且,一個人擁有財富,不代表他活得很豐盛,人們可以物質環境很富裕,但心靈世界卻很貧窮。所以,天堂的大光反映………你是一位可憐的孤兒!一個窮乞丐!」
祂不解釋還好,一解釋我更加迷糊了。
「我是個可憐的孤兒?我是個窮乞丐?」我瞇著雙眼,心上兒揪成一團,困惑更加深劇。
「不會吧!我明明有父母親啊?」我一團困惑不解。
祂說:「對!在地球上你有父母親。但是,『生命之根』很重要!」
祂繼續說:「父母就是你的生命之根。你與雙親有生命深層的連結嗎?你接納自己的雙親嗎?你愛他們嗎?你接納原生家庭嗎?如果不行,潛意識裡你也無法接納自己。因為,你與自己的生命之根斷絕了。一個不能接納自己親生父母的人,潛意識裡必定不能接納自己﹔無法接納自己的人,自我價值必定產生懷疑。這樣的個體,是一個失根的人,就像浮萍一樣四處飄流,找不到人生定向。這樣的生命個體,一生都在汲汲營營追求,緊張兮兮地停不下腳步,深怕自己落後他人,在社會上卡不到好位置,怕被世人遺忘了!因為,他不知道自己是誰?不曉得自己的真實身份?所以,需要靠傲人的學歷、賺許多的金錢、了不起的成就,來裝扮自己,粉飾內心的自卑,不希望別人看輕自己。」
祂一針見血,刺入剖開人類的靈魂世界,教人看見血淋淋的不堪畫面,讓人們無地自容。
有誰願意真實面對醜陋不堪的自我呢?
心臟好像被重鎚一擊,劇痛得啞然失聲。半晌,我沉重沙啞地說:「祢完全說中了!我與父母親的關係並不親密,原生家庭的關係很淡薄。事實上,父母親令我相當失望…………」
「所以,你找不到自己?不知道自己是誰?就在錯誤的地方尋求肯定與被愛。用工作、金錢、成就、權力、美貌……一塊一塊的大石頭,堆砌生命中『安全感的城堡』。然而,安全感從來不是建立在外面的物質,真正安全感的來源自你知道自己是誰。一切外在的物質都無法完全滿足你,即使功成名就、物質豐厚。人類相當奇怪,二十一世紀擁有了這一切的豐盛物質,心靈反而更加空虛了。」
祂指著我的鼻子問:「你知道自己是誰嗎? Who are you?」
我愕然退後一步,張嘴卻說不出一句話。
祂沒有放過我,刀刀見血的直逼追問:「喬昀,你真的認識自己嗎?真知道自己是誰嗎?如果,你真的認識自己,真實知道自己的身份。那麼,在地球上,你不需要活得如此辛苦!活得那麼卑微!」
「這……這……」我低頭羞愧地道不出一句話。
祂繼續說:「這就是為什麼你有父母,但是在靈魂深處,卻像一個流浪在外、無依無靠的小女孩,一直找尋自我歸屬感,生命的依靠。當外在一切物質都無法滿足你,人便四處尋找「愛」,向人乞討「愛」。所以,一個不知道自己真實身份的人,經常需要去四處討好別人,搏取人們對他的愛。因為,人類靈魂深處極度渴望『愛』與『被愛』。不幸的事實是,人類活在這個殘缺醜陋的世界裡,只能為了求生存,苟延殘喘的活著。人生活得精彩豐盛,那是極少數開悟之人的特權,因為他們尋得生命的寶藏與根源。而大多數的人,畢生忙碌沉淪於紅塵俗世之中,活得疲累不堪,忘記此生的意義與目的。」
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我點點頭。
「這個不可愛的世界讓你徹徹底底的失望,人與人之間的訛虞我詐、爭權奪利、自私貪婪,讓你對「純潔的愛」,不再抱任何期盼。所以,天堂的大光反映———你的心靈世界,一個不折不扣流浪在外尋找真愛的乞丐孤兒!」
祂說得完全無誤!
祂,像一位專業的心靈外科手術醫師,鋒利的手術刀切割下去,完全切中目標,祂絕不手軟,一刀切除人類生命中、靈魂中的殘留發膿的惡性腫瘤。
一陣長時間的沉寂:「…………………」
祂的眼神,具有一種穿透力。在祂面前,我無所遁逃,完全赤露敞開,絲毫不能隱藏掩飾自已。當一個人赤裸裸地被剖開時,有一種衣不蔽體的羞恥感,襲湧上心頭。我滿臉羞慚愧紅的低下頭,不想再言語。
祂強迫我去面對生命中的黑暗之處、醜陋之處、軟弱之處。這些令我十分痛苦,簡直想要直接撞壁去死!強迫一個人接受生命中的黑暗與脆弱,需要極大的勇氣。因為,撕下假面具之後的真實面目,經常更讓人難以承受。所以,大部分的人會選擇「否認」,某種程度就是選擇「逃避真相」!不願意相信自己原來如此醜陋不堪。因為,讓生命本體還包裹一層糖衣,比較賞心悅目,不會叫人難堪!
祂咄咄逼人,十分嚴厲地教導我,抽絲剝繭,完全不讓我有喘息的空間,繼續說下去:「不僅如此,你經常喜歡與他人比較。然後,自艾自憐的以為———生命是不公平的!Life is not fair !………因為你沒有傲人的家世背景,你沒有別人的聰明才幹,你沒有出色的美貌,甚至沒有別人擁有的機會。總而言之,你覺得老天爺待你是不公平的!」
淚水忍住在眼眶中打轉,一顆心感覺好刺痛、好刺痛!祂怎能把我成長多年,暗藏於心底的秘密給揭穿,一語道破我心痛之處。我心臟隱隱在作痛,心痛的感覺好像有一隻大手伸進胸腔裡,箝夾持出你的心、你的肺,劇痛得眼淚快噴流出來。
內心不得不承認:「成長過程中,確實喜歡與人比較。一旦有『比較』的心態,就產生嫉妒、憤俗、自卑感。接著,苦毒、怨恨、自憐……種種負面情緒接踵而至。讓自己深陷情緒的漩渦之中,愈活愈不快樂!慢慢地,不珍惜身邊擁有的一切,反倒覺得自己很可憐,活在自憐裡。其實,世上比自己不幸的人實在太多了,非洲有許多瀕臨餓死的孩子,張大眼睛瘦骨嶙岣,等待我們伸出援手;敘利亞無家可歸的難民,在國際間如人球被踢來踢去,他們可憐不幸的遭遇,令人同情!人和比自己命運悲慘的人比較,就會覺得自己幸運、幸福!可惜大多數的人喜歡和比自己優秀、富裕的人比較。所以過得很痛苦、自憐。當然,包括我在內!基本上,比較的心態就是不健康,那是孤兒的心態作祟,不論你是『向上比較』,或是『向下比較』。一個人能安份、守份,樂於做自己,喜歡做自己,真的不容易!」
祂再次強調:「永遠不要和別人比較 ~ Don’t never compare yourself with104Please respect copyright.PENANAipVebWASVD
others!因為,你會得到的答案都是不對的!如果你跟別人做比較,會發生兩件事情:如果你比別人的條件更優越,你就會變得驕傲﹔而如果你發現自己的樣樣不如人,就會喪失志氣。而這二者的心理情緒都是不健康的。」
我拭去臉上的淚水,點點頭。
祂說:「你們人類活得很貧窮,活得像乞丐、活得像孤兒,你明瞭是什麼原因嗎?」
我不解搖頭。
祂說:「那是因為你們生命很窮乏!生命活得不豐富精彩,在於你們眼睛瞎了!」
我睜大眼睛,一頭霧水,傻呼呼地問:「沒有呀!我的眼睛明明看得見。」
祂瞪了我一眼:「你靈裡的眼睛瞎了!只能看見物質界的事物。那些看不見的事物,往往比看得見的事物更真實。」
「呃?」我更迷糊了,頭頂上遮蓋一團團烏雲,好奇問道:「可否賜我一雙祢的眼睛,讓我能夠看見祢所看見?」
祂微笑著說:「妳的要求很好!只要妳的眼目經常定睛在我身上,妳就會看見我所看見的世界。」
我十分驚奇地看祂一眼,眼神散發著光亮。
祂繼續說下去:「豐盛生命的呈現,一切都是現成的,活活潑潑,自由自在的展現,無須汲汲營營去抓取,無須假借外求,一切都是從自性中活潑的變化。倘若人類謙卑下來,承認自身的有限,願意與造物主的生命連結,支取無窮無盡的活水泉源,便會有源源不絕的生命活水,從天而降,湧流在生命之中。如果世人曉得一切有形有體的豐盛,都豐豐富富蘊藏於造物主的手裡。那麼,你們會竭盡所能,癲狂尋找隱藏於秘密之中的生命寶藏,絕不歇手,直至尋找到為止。而一個連結於造物主的生命體,應該是充滿自由、豐盛、喜樂、平安的生命,而不只是苟延殘喘的活在地球上而已。」
祂說得口沫橫飛,我聽得一頭霧水,似懂非懂。
「人類需要無止盡地貪婪抓取,用愛情、房子、車子、權力、地位、名聲………來鞏固自己的世界,以為城堡堆得愈高,就愈妥當安全。殊不知外在物質的一切,就像蓋在海灘邊的沙屋一樣,容易被海水給一夕沖垮,脆弱不堪,一切終歸於無有。」祂似乎覺得人類很愚蠢。
祂犀利地問道:「你以為自己的雙手真能抓住什麼嗎?」
「啊?」我愣住了,低頭俯視自己的纖小雙掌。
「什麼也抓不住!」祂直接了當喝道:「你手中所握有的一切,也不過是捕風和捉影!虛空的虛空,虛空的虛空,凡事都是虛空。」
「………………」
祂正拆毀我苦心積慮在地上建立的『安全城堡』,那些我以為躲在城堡裡面很安全的外在條件。祂完全顛覆我的價值體系、生存法則。並且,祂的國度與地球世界的價值體系———格格不入。
「人一生的勞碌,就是他在日光之下的勞碌,有甚麼益處呢?一代過去,一代又來。你眼見高樓起,高樓塌,人不能說盡,地卻永遠長存。一個人從出生、成長、老去……慢慢死亡。明知會有一死,生命體最終會消失,為什麼活得那麼努力呢?為何拼搏的如經歷戰爭般,咬緊牙關的過生活呢?站在旁觀者看地球人,你會覺得心寒又空虛,不明白為什麼他們如此過日子?因為,你生命中所擁有的一切都將如過眼雲煙。」祂說。
我露出慧睫的笑容。
「其實,妳也不必太難過。整座地球,就像一座巨大無比的孤兒院,裡頭住滿了大大小小、男男女女、老老幼幼的孤兒!妳只是其中一位罷了!」祂試圖安慰我。
「唔?」我睜大雙眼,詫異萬分。
祂反諷道:「不是嗎?地球上充斥著失落無依的靈魂。回歸原點,一個人不知道『我是誰?』不知道自己的真實身份,不知生從何而來?死將歸何而去?就如同失根的落葉,漂零不定,四處找尋生命歸屬感———這不就是孤兒的寫照嗎?」
「也對!」我同意。
「從今以後───妳要脫去過去的舊人舊衣,披上新人新衣。若有人在基督裡,就是新造的人,舊事已過,一切都變成新的了!妳將擁有嶄新不同的全新生命,我要帶領妳進入豐盛、富足、喜樂、平安、尊貴、榮耀的新生命!我要賜給妳一個新名字,妳將不再叫安喬昀,妳的新名叫―――雅各!」
祂此番話語,彷彿對我注入新鮮的生命力,點燃心中澆熄已久的盼望,帶來極大安慰與鼓勵。
「雅各?好特別的名字喔!」我一臉傻呼呼的,不明其意。
「以後妳會明白,這個名字在妳生命中特殊的意義!」祂神秘說道。
祂揪一眼我手裡的小玩意兒,十分嚴肅命令道:「把妳手上的玩具彈弓,丟掉!」
祂,伸出右手指向我懷裡的小東西兒。
低頭一瞧,果不其然,手掌心緊緊握住一個Y形木頭彈弓———它是乞丐小女孩最心愛的玩具,陪伴她童年成長的寶貝,自然愛不釋手。宮殿外面的平民小孩們也喜愛的玩具,極其普遍。尤其當宮殿外一群小朋友,鬧玩騎馬打仗的時候,Y形彈弓是最好玩、最有利的攻擊武器。
我緊皺眉頭,面有十分難色。手掌心仍緊緊握住彈弓,不肯鬆手。
雖然,這Y形木頭彈弓,外表沾滿了黑黯黯、髒兮兮的汙漬,但它仍是乞丐小女孩最心愛的玩具,怎麼捨得扔棄呢?說什麼也不肯!
「為什麼?為什麼要丟棄?我不要!」我嚴正抗拒,反手將Y形彈弓藏於身後。
祂說:「妳即將進入上帝的居所───神聖皇宮,成為上帝的女兒!」
「我是宇宙至高無上的榮耀君王,而妳………即將成為大君王的女兒───―君尊皇族的高貴公主!小公主尊貴的身份,不適合,也不能玩外面野孩子的玩具!我的聖殿何其聖潔,不允許外面骯髒污穢的玩物,玷污了聖所。」祂嚴肅的神情,絲毫沒有妥協讓步的餘地。
祂,帶著無比的威嚴與權柄,陳述祂尊貴的身分,榮耀的國度,與居住其中所需具備的條件。我,沒有討價還價的餘地,只能乖乖接受一切的要求與條件。否則,不被允許進入榮耀聖潔的宮殿。
我俯視手裡的小玩意兒,心中滿是憐惜:「是的!我明瞭了………」
愛撫手掌心上的Y形木頭彈弓,翻來覆去,認真端詳。一股淡然的惆悵,滿懷的不捨。小彈弓雖然骯髒污穢,卻是陪伴自己多年的寶貝。如今要割捨,談何容易?
祂,可以視透我心中的眷戀與不捨。
「喬昀,妳在皇宮中會有新的玩具!」
祂用眼神示意———此時此刻,乃是關鍵抉擇的一刻。
我內心天人交戰不已,若不選擇拋棄木頭彈弓,將永遠不可能進入上帝的宮殿。
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我吃了秤陀鐵了心,把心一橫。
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我做了一個極深的呼吸,點點頭,降服於祂的指令。
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我挽起袖子,不顧一切地將手中的小東西向空中扔拋出去。
木頭彈弓「咻咻咻———」地飛了出去,在半空中劃出一道呈半圓形的拋物線後,消失得無影無蹤,連落地「碰」一聲!都聽不見。
〜 〜 丟棄Y形彈弓,象徵拋棄外面花花世界的價值體系、思想邏輯、生存法則,以及一切不討上帝喜悅的事情。〜 〜
如果你曾見過天上聖潔的榮耀,你會驚訝於地上大多數的事情,是不討上帝喜悅的。也就是說,在神看來都是骯髒污穢的,無法進入天堂的聖潔。天堂是個令人持續驚嘆和敬畏的地方。
對於已經生活26年的熟悉世界,狠心要分手道別說:「掰掰!」心中無比難以割捨。我萬般的眷戀,依依不捨,頻頻回首,宮殿外面繁華的虛榮世界………畢竟,外面的世界也頗吸引人的眼目。
此刻是關鍵性的時刻,心裡十分清楚,上帝要我選邊站,祂不允許我腳踏兩條船。倘若選擇虛繁的花花世界,便不能進入宮殿;若選擇進入宮殿,就要與外面花花世界Say Good-bye!我必須在生命上做一個明確、正式的切割。拋棄Y形木頭彈弓———是一個宣告的行動,我願意放棄虛榮的繁華世界,進入上帝聖潔光明的國度。
臉上掛著兩行淚水,心底不禁悲從中來,喃喃自語:「應該是向外面的花花世界―――說bye-bye的時刻!」
我朝向著宮殿外面,揮揮手,高聲道別:「再見了!再見了!」
擦乾臉上的淚水,頭也不回,轉身奔向上帝。
倏地,皇宮厚重拱形的大城門,笨重緩慢的為我倆打開了。我機伶的尾隨於祂身後,進入宮殿。此座宮殿是正四方的,長、寬、高都是一樣。宮殿設有十二個城門,東南西北各三個。城牆有十二座根基,根基上有刻字,走近一瞧,原來是希伯來文,我讀不懂!在地球上,我只懂中文、英文和台語。在天堂很奇妙,即使你不懂得外國文字,在靈裡也可以閱讀,甚至明瞭意義。瞬間,我理解根基上鎸刻希伯來文字的涵義,那是跟過耶穌十二個使徒的名字,據說他們最後都為主殉道。除此之外,每座城門上,都有一位巨大的天使長,手持火把看守,不能隨意進入,把關森嚴。我們是從正中央的大城門進入。
進入皇宮,印入眼簾的是富麗堂皇、金碧輝煌、氣勢恢宏的大廳,偌大挑高的正廳,空間寬敞到令人乍舌!正廳大到足以容納一個世界盃足球場,超級氣派!宮殿是用白色大理石、精金鑄造而成,金光閃閃。樑柱上鑲滿藍寶石、珍珠、瑪瑙、水篬玉,翡翠、水晶、黃金。寶石多到眼花撩亂,璀璨耀眼,閃亮奪目,每一顆寶石都價值不斐。在天堂裡,黃金、鑽石、寶石,一點兒都不值錢。因為,滿地滿屋到處都有,讓你撿都撿不完。米白色的牆壁上,掛滿精緻的宮廷壁畫,精工細雕。五彩的拼花瓷磚,乃為藝術結晶之作,閃耀得令人目不暇給。
此座輝煌的宮殿,巨大的像一座大迷宮一樣,至少有上千間的房間,每個房間各有不同用途,若無人帶路,肯定會在王宮裡面迷路。
我無暇參觀停留,因為皇宮中有許多地方是「禁地」,任何人都不准隨意進出走動,除非有大君王的玉璽令──――「上帝的允准」。想要進入大宮殿,沒那麼容易!基本條件是你的名字要寫在生命冊上。不僅如此,靈體還要夠純潔清淨,才准允進入。至於,你能夠進入哪個房間、領域,也不能隨心所欲,乃依照靈體的「清徹度」決定,愈純潔無暇的靈體,能夠被允許進入較多的領域。基本上,過於混濁的靈體,連皇宮外面都無法靠近,即使生命冊上有你的名字。宮殿內部,階級分明、規矩繁瑣、戒備森嚴,宛如古代的帝王皇室。我被匆匆地帶領穿過正廳,越過一個挑高明亮的長迴廊,再過幾個轉角,來到一間房門口。
終於,上帝停住腳步,佇立於一間房門外,祂和藹親切地告訴我:「這間是皇宮裡的公主臥房,以後就是妳居住的地方了!」
我心上大驚喜,伸出粉小手指,輕輕撫摸白色大理石紋的房門,不由地興奮叫道:「好別緻的房間喔!」
我迫不及待地推開房門,一股馨香草菊花的氣息,芬芳撲鼻而來。
公主房以香檳色系為主調,不似正廳那麼富麗堂皇、雍容華貴,卻有淡淡典雅的浪漫氣息。白色大理石的地板,壁上有精緻浮雕,中央擺放一張歐洲貴族床架,粉紅色絲綢床罩,白色蕾絲圍繞,充滿浪漫情懷!床頭邊擺滿可愛的洋娃娃布偶,每一個娃娃布偶都穿著華麗高貴的禮服,典雅的造型,讓人愛不釋手。地球上的芭比娃娃和這些布偶娃娃比起來,那真是粗俗遜色太多了。
祂手指向床頭邊,一排排擺設整齊的娃娃布偶。然後,祂笑對著我說:「這些娃娃都是妳的新玩具!我曾經說過:在皇宮中,妳會有新的玩具!沒有騙你吧!」祂如同慈祥的父親哄寵小女孩。
這些娃娃布偶,不同於普通的娃娃玩偶,一件件都是一流手工精緻的極品,宮廷內的藝術珍品。宮殿外面的平民小孩,一輩子都不可能擁有如此珍貴的玩具!他們若見到我手中的娃娃玩偶,肯定羨慕的流口水!當然,更遑論之前我緊握在手掌心,執意不肯放手,那個髒兮兮的Y形木頭彈弓,根本無法相提並論,二者之間,簡直天壤之別!
「還好!當初選擇丟棄―――Y形木頭彈弓!」心裡暗自慶幸做對的選擇。
我飛跑過去,欣喜若狂地抱起娃娃布偶,抱在懷裡不停把玩,輕柔撫摸,布娃娃的一頭金色長髮與絲質晚禮服,讓人眼睛為之一亮:「哇!全是夢寐以求的布偶玩具!有生以來,從未想過,有一天真的可以擁有它們!每一件布偶都別緻新奇喔!」
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我將它們溫柔擁在懷裡,親吻它們,這些是小女孩們夢想的珍貴玩具。
「幫她換上一套乾淨的衣裳!」上帝轉身吩咐。
「是的!主人!」一群小天使們,恭敬回應。
沉浸於布偶娃娃的世界裡,上帝宏亮的吩咐聲音,才將已樂昏頭的我喚醒過來。
驚然發現,房間上方一群可愛的小天使盤旋,成群結隊,飛來飛去,灑下滿屋子的金粉,好不熱鬧呀!這群小天使,身軀比我嬌小,全身潔白放光。頭頂上,有奇亮無比的小光環,如閃爍的小星星,一閃一閃發亮。身體上有一對白色小羽毛翅膀,可以輕盈自在飛翔。它們擁有一雙靈活的小手,矯健的小雙腳。忙忙碌碌,飛來飛去,井然有序,穿梭於整座宮殿之中。
原來在天堂裡,天使的角色如同───「服役的僕人」。它們被創造用來聽命、服從於偉大的君王───「全能的上帝」與「上帝的兒女」───―公主與王子。所以,身為上帝的兒女,可以使喚這些天使,因為有君王賜予的權柄。當下明瞭自己的身份地位之後,對於身為上帝的兒女,感到無比驕傲。
小天使的粉臉蛋,圓嘟嘟的泛紅暈,像小紅蘋果唷!小小圓圓的亮眼睛,眨呀眨的,可愛無比!臉上掛著天真無邪的燦爛笑容。每位小天使,均有專職的任務。有專司打掃整理宮務的小天使;有管理維修宮御花園的小天使;有負責膳用御食的小天使;也有貼身服侍公主生活起居的小天使。它們各司其職、各安其位、井然有序,飛翔穿梭在整座宮殿之內。
有三位小天使,飛進衣櫃裡,挑出一套粉紅色蕾絲小禮服,貼心地替我換裝。這一套宮廷的小公主禮服,百摺繡花的荷葉袖子,多層次波浪雪紡篷篷的裙襬,高貴又可愛。這一襲小公主服,彷彿是特別為我量身定做,合身又舒適!
我脫下污穢破舊的乞丐服,換上絲絨蕾邊的公主服。從髒兮兮的流浪小乞丐,搖身一變,轉變成氣質高雅的可愛小公主。如此巨大的轉變,簡直是神蹟!上帝見到祂親手改造之後的我,煥然一新,清心典雅,頗為滿意,不住地點點頭微笑。
隨後,五位小天使,翩翩飛來,從御膳房端出一道道美食。小天使手上各端著一道金色發光的盤子───―裡頭盛滿各式各樣的美味佳餚,珍羞異饌,香味四溢。望著面前的御膳美食,垂涎欲滴。此刻,再也顧不得什麼形象,我食指大動,大快朵頤!
第一口塞進紅通通的鮭魚,超軟Q彈的鮭魚和著淡淡玫瑰花香,令人讚不絕口:「哇賽!這輩子沒吃過如此好吃的玫瑰薰紅鮭!」
「天堂裡的食物,都這麼美味可口嗎?」我不由地發出驚嘆,一邊咀嚼食物,一邊詢問侍立一旁的小天使們。
小天使們,個個微笑而不答,安靜侍候。
我叉起一塊烤牛肉洋蔥黃瓜捲,上面擺放幾粒黑橄欖,多汁美味的牛肉,入口即化。搭配酸酸甜甜的小黃瓜和洋蔥,奇妙無比!
「太絕配啦!天堂的珍饈美味───人間絕對享受不到!哈哈!此味只應天上有,人間能得幾回尋。」嘴巴裡的美食,令我有一種超級滿足感、幸福感!
肚腹飽足,小天使們自動自發收拾餐盤,井然有序地退出房間,看得出是訓練有素的――――服役僕人。心裡讚道:「真不錯!非常貼心的服務!」
我如君尊貴族般的享受禮遇,心滿意足地躺臥於柔軟的大床。琢細回味,一切不可思議的奇妙際遇,宛如童話愛麗絲夢遊仙境一般,出人意外地踏入虛幻奇妙之旅……………
好想好想………永遠居住在美麗的天堂,暖洋洋如大海浪潮般的愛水,一波波襲湧過來,被幸福溫暖的光環圍繞,無有邊際,人間找不到的愛與幸福,在天堂裡被豐豐滿滿的飽足。大君王的恩寵披身,我的身份地位完全的改變與提升,著實令人受寵若驚,萬分捨不得離開。
「被幸福環繞的感覺真好!倘若這是一場夢境,多麼希望………永遠………永遠………都不要醒來…………」小嘴巴喃喃低吟,長眼睫毛慢垂閉下來,小臉蛋兒埋在絨質的枕頭裡,迷迷糊糊,矇矇矓矓地睡去。
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