i dont know if i believe in god or the lord. i mean for a long time i was in a place that i didnt feel or see the presence of a god or a higher power. ive gone to church a thousand times before but not once did i find god. and ive looked and continue to look but i cant find this holy ghost people talk about. i think at one point in my life i believed and had faith but then everything in my life crashed before my eyes within the span of a year. and now, i hate to admit it but i done lost faith and hope. i ant to know that there is a god full of light and love but if there was then my life wouldnt be full of hate and darkness. i try to believe but it feels like false hope. sometimes i want to cry out to a god and ask for help but im not sure if i can because im not sure if there is a god i can cry to and ask help from.8964 copyright protection208ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJwuqZTYzj 維尼

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