No Plagiarism!CXvheeZm9SAvUjL0qTGMposted on PENANA 由於時日如常,加上盧冰刻意逃避的關係,她和陳之漢、林奇峰都沒有太多交流。8964 copyright protection83PENANATI7MRXI5AG 維尼
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她在數算自己的生命,近年眼底多了乾紋,雖然不近看不會發現,但這也令她驚慌。眼角輕微下垂,法令紋加深了些,她盡量減少做大表情——她實在不夠活得輕狂、恣意,竟然為容貌傷心。不,她根本就從未有過散漫的年少時期,傳說中的青春,都被她以每日打三份工、擔心無法揹起家頭支出填滿。8964 copyright protection83PENANAwwOYdntqIS 維尼
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偶然,她自覺失敗。8964 copyright protection83PENANAADXyk1S7z6 維尼
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明明不是出生於富裕的家,父親自身尚是一個貧窮因素,竟然選擇了不能致富的科目,出來工作,每個月才逗少少錢,結果三十歲人,尚要母親擔心生活。8964 copyright protection83PENANAQY7ikwkLBT 維尼
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年少時的辛勞沒有令她轉行,反而令她覺得生命短促,不想為了迎合資本而選擇自己不喜歡的事。偏偏她喜歡的事,都十分貧窮,譬如以前寫作散文小說,及至現在的專欄稿。8964 copyright protection83PENANAnpLkHOFQXp 維尼
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真不智。8964 copyright protection83PENANAuEW4z7I42G 維尼
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但這是她,這是她舒適的生活,不需時常堆起笑臉迎合生人,只埋首以工作狀態交際、書寫表達。她也曾盼望過她的理想是印刷假鈔,可惜不能。8964 copyright protection83PENANAXnPlaz11o4 維尼
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晚上,盧冰在塗抹抗皺面霜在脖子上,她發現自己的頸紋又加深。別人不覺她的容貌有變化,她卻輕易地捕捉到自己的疲態。8964 copyright protection83PENANAcnQCpjiRtj 維尼
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林奇峰致電她:「姐姐,喺hall嗎?」8964 copyright protection83PENANAMBNTUYoS0K 維尼
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「喺。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAeyyX1btt7O 維尼
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「可唔可以幫我一齊搬房,原先我住緊嗰間,要交返出去畀聽日入住嘅人,我想你幫手搬去第二間。」8964 copyright protection83PENANA3yVa89KunP 維尼
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「哦、哦,可以啊……」8964 copyright protection83PENANAizf08DSG8P 維尼
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她有點不解,仍然收拾一下自己,便下樓,在走廊張望,看他在哪間房。8964 copyright protection83PENANAFgsWh45nP3 維尼
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噢,眨眼已是第二個學期,中間幾個月,她都盡量避免與他相見。在樓上做了愛,等一等,等一等,自行回房間,等到廁所無人才去。訊息回得冷淡,全因不知怎樣才叫最合適,她怕稍為熱情,會害他無法找尋同樣年輕可愛的伴侶。8964 copyright protection83PENANAmHUhYY2pQN 維尼
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她清楚自己的定力不是很高,只要再被引誘一下,她就會前去享受他的善意,即使口中嚷著「佢真係太細個」。但是,她實在寂寞太久,而又不忿於自己竟不配熱鬧——同時,她又會跟別人做愛。8964 copyright protection83PENANAH1JDnRbsCD 維尼
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「點搬?」盧冰敲門,問。8964 copyright protection83PENANASIxhH65Jlm 維尼
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「搬去右邊斜對面嗰間房。」林奇峰說。8964 copyright protection83PENANAEtp3xprWGH 維尼
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「點解要咁搬?咪又係同一層,唔可以揀返呢間咩?」8964 copyright protection83PENANApBhd2qsXP7 維尼
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「原本我就係住嗰間,不過每一層都太吉啦,我就自己霸埋呢間。但今個sem有新入宿,我要去返原本嗰度。起初揀霸呢間,係因為個景靚好多,你望吓。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAwutZP9lJe0 維尼
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盧冰多行入幾步,她第一次進入林奇峰的宿舍房間,跟隨他看外面海天一色的風景,萬家燈火在水上飄游,光與影不斷浮蕩,世界忽然變得廣闊。8964 copyright protection83PENANAvpsfiG9cSr 維尼
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「你為咗個景,偷偷哋霸人哋間房?」她笑問。8964 copyright protection83PENANAqGnJH2b2G4 維尼
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「都唔止,呢間房好似乾淨啲,冇咁多飛蟻。」他窘困。8964 copyright protection83PENANAXYjulBTbop 維尼
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「OKOK,開始搬啦。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAVwu1jefrSS 維尼
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她替他將同類物品放在袋子中,然後放過去他原先的房間,極其輕鬆,動作利落。重物,他拿,房間原先結構也由他自行移位,她只在旁邊靜靜看著,還怕自己礙事。整個過程,都不到半小時。8964 copyright protection83PENANAfV0Y6y4ooO 維尼
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林奇峰坐在已添置物品的房間,盧冰半蹲,又將袋子中的東西取出,根據記憶放回房間的位置,像複製貼上。她偶然忘記,便問:「呢嚿要擺喺邊?」他給她指:「嗰個區,是但放都OK,亂啲冇所謂。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAWFMuJEfrWe 維尼
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「點解你咁他條?」她問他。8964 copyright protection83PENANAvG9Kai2hf8 維尼
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「因為有你幫我手囉。」他半躺在床上。8964 copyright protection83PENANAP9Edxtmbso 維尼
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盧冰伸手:「𡃁仔,咁耐冇見,一嚟就點呀姐做嘢?起碼收返你最低工資啦。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAmbFXsXKN58 維尼
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如同本能,在他面前,她放鬆得不同於平常沉默。她察覺到自己這一點,覺得可笑,這種生理反應,比濕漉的呻吟更加可貴。8964 copyright protection83PENANAspjJtIttLd 維尼
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林奇峰順勢捉住她的手:「係,我哋好耐冇見。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAQYL8zrAGzK 維尼
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二人靜默,她盯著被捉住的手,十分曖昧,一想到他有情意,而她在數算他的缺點,便默默歎了一口氣。8964 copyright protection83PENANAESH5OgubHP 維尼
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「你都覺得太耐冇見我,唔開心呢?」他捕捉到她的哀傷。8964 copyright protection83PENANAaovTRdZ0Lo 維尼
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「唔係。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAchi94zpX9T 維尼
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「點解你咁少落嚟,又咁少應我?」他睜起大眼,用頭髮磨蹭她的手肘:「好明顯同以前唔同,你要結婚啦?」8964 copyright protection83PENANAVX0kLnFmLM 維尼
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他正正是想問這些問題,才會致電見她。8964 copyright protection83PENANAK15djcgvYw 維尼
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「唔係……」8964 copyright protection83PENANA5y8kqCfkTT 維尼
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「咁點解?」8964 copyright protection83PENANAQurVS0ujgq 維尼
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「我廢事分薄你嘅青春。」她故作輕鬆地說:「你啲時間,應該用嚟好好讀書、拍拖、同屋企人見面。見我呢啲閒人,唔係咁好。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAZyNzF0zW5a 維尼
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「但係冇咗你,我原本唔能夠用咁平靜嘅心去同其他人相處。」他沒有撒謊,對她的感激,又何止是對一個女人的喜歡。8964 copyright protection83PENANAeFWezE4m76 維尼
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「唔好講咩冇咗,都冇擁有過。」她提醒他。8964 copyright protection83PENANAvvnV4Ggb4e 維尼
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「咁我可唔可以擁有——擁有嘅機會?」8964 copyright protection83PENANAph0qpdWk59 維尼
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他問得真誠,她盡量保持臉色自如,畢竟已太久沒有聽見如此的話,與陳之漢建立關係時,也只有寛限期的列點說明;如今,她有點震撼,卻仍然保持冷靜。8964 copyright protection83PENANAiAm5dD1Yx4 維尼
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「我要結婚。」她說。8964 copyright protection83PENANAvs9W899HZN 維尼
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「你唔一定要同某個人結婚,點解一定要拒絕我?」他緊緊地盯著她,眼神極其清澈,毫不迷糊。8964 copyright protection83PENANAJR8DsHanky 維尼
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「我唔想同你一齊。」她沒有撒謊。8964 copyright protection83PENANAXnWYqDbMjb 維尼
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「你對我真係少少感覺都冇?」他輕輕捉住她另外一隻手肘,將她拉得更近:「我哋一齊傾偈、食飯嗰陣,好似幾開心,點解突然咁冷淡?」8964 copyright protection83PENANAH139y0mlus 維尼
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她不應,他又說:「我唔係想質問你……只係想知。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAExXBJbVfII 維尼
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「我其實唔想同任何人一齊,有感覺還有感覺,一齊還一齊,係唔同概念。我放唔低以前鍾意嘅人。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAXAyjVGTxXG 維尼
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「我知道,你要相處到吖嘛,但係我哋相處得好好。放唔放低,可以慢慢嚟,佢本來係你生命嘅一部分。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAUNeLge6C3q 維尼
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「你先廿三歲,仲讀緊書,期間會遇到好多好多後生嘅靚女,你會被佢哋吸引,而我只會一日一日咁樣老落去,頸紋明顯,身體變差。」護膚品的氣味,不斷被她嗅到。8964 copyright protection83PENANAzODmMK4YXX 維尼
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「好正常,所有人都會老。」他毫不在乎。8964 copyright protection83PENANAaFCABwuBvT 維尼
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「但係你身邊嘅人會令你覺得我特別老,呢種落差,好難接受。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAiTZUB2W3Hm 維尼
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「未試過你又點知?」8964 copyright protection83PENANAS26ogxNLdi 維尼
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「我唔想承受呢個風險,」盧冰此刻極其冷靜:「我會如常生活,叫做有得揀,年紀又到咗,我對你嘅感覺冇多到要我願意承受呢個風險。對唔住,我知道你認真、用心,同我認識嘅其他大人唔同,但正正係咁,我無辦法應承。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAoKYPWtrxGw 維尼
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「我係真係鍾意你,唔會覺得年齡差距有問題。」林奇峰大聲了一點。8964 copyright protection83PENANAdrF3BOOO3U 維尼
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「我覺得有,好多嘢都未必相處得好。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAuKZyx7KNPB 維尼
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「你覺得我太細個,唔識照顧人?」8964 copyright protection83PENANAl8qvnuDmNR 維尼
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他覺得這是合理原因,要「照顧」姐姐,從不是容易的事,尤其她應該感受過無數驚喜,生活上的溫柔也算平常。8964 copyright protection83PENANANntt6SOnTq 維尼
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「唔係覺得你係咁,而係相比起大個嘅人,後生嘅會比較吃力。」她嘆氣:「閱歷會令人可以盛載嘅嘢有所加減,所以人嘅capacity,正常會與年俱增。仲有啊,錢呢,工作呢,雖然係好現實,但冇呢啲點樣結婚,到頭來係咪要為咗生活而嘈交先?」8964 copyright protection83PENANABZZ2vB44jv 維尼
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「你好現實。」他失望。8964 copyright protection83PENANARl2iTr3ooR 維尼
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「係,我好現實,而且會為咗呢啲嘢計算好多。真係好差,只不過係大咗幾歲,所有嘢都變晒。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAUDXqf1L5cf 維尼
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他沒有回應,只道:「年紀大啲,唔代表識照顧人㗎喎。如果佢會令人唔開心,係咪就冇emotional support啦。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAO8jji6uQXq 維尼
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「哈哈,我唔介意攞啲一大張一千蚊紙抹眼淚,再攞五百蚊紙嗔鼻涕。」她自嘲。8964 copyright protection83PENANAhPC8LaB7dF 維尼
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「喂,你作家嚟㗎喎,點解咁功利,」他苦笑:「我可以陪你吸風飲露。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAJmt78GoqiE 維尼
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「唔得,人要食飯,玩光合作用,成塊面綠晒。」她又想起自己的臉。8964 copyright protection83PENANAESiyPxQkko 維尼
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「不如你信我,我真係可以。」他再一次認真地說。8964 copyright protection83PENANA0f8ElUHSt7 維尼
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「無謂令大家痛苦,真係唔得。」8964 copyright protection83PENANAaWlZKDVqyd 維尼
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「我知道,你可能覺得我幼稚,明明得嗰少少嘢搬,都為咗見你先叫你落嚟,我知道你睇得出。但係鍾意一個人,有呢啲把戲,有時低能吓,我情難自禁。」8964 copyright protection83PENANA1WS1g8gvHS 維尼
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