傍晚,我滿懷五彩繽紛的期待,抵達理學大樓六樓。81Please respect copyright.PENANAWKbrywNjSY
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然而,一進到研究室,阿則的一句話使我不明所以的愣在原地。81Please respect copyright.PENANAZeC3feeoGb
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日光燈越明亮,他的背影越是陰暗。本該是渾厚如萬里晴空的嗓音,如今通通變回初見時,讓人不寒而慄的冷酷嚴厲。81Please respect copyright.PENANAcQpwqzzL6O
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他肯定親展我送的卡片了吧,他讀了後,心得呢?81Please respect copyright.PENANAvt2bmOrZRl
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這就是他的心意?81Please respect copyright.PENANAroOi2slHeG
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宛如置身平行時空的衝擊,使我頓時喑啞。摸不著頭緒的我好不容易才組織出幾個字:「那為什麼還要向我示好?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAWUdIYyBRi4
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「我從沒對誰示好。」81Please respect copyright.PENANA7xOsL1nfrh
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我艱難地開口,而阿則的口吻似是比我還苦澀。不知是我的移情作用,還是真如他所說,一切都是我的一廂情願,從他決絕的語句裡,我彷彿聽見了那緊咬的牙關。81Please respect copyright.PENANAYmyAupgs2D
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他臉上的口罩使我無法得知下半張臉的表情。那也許是故意的,但我不懂,為什麼就算咬緊牙關,任憑雙目流淌著無法攔阻的體貼,他還是要將那些話說給我聽?81Please respect copyright.PENANAiVrgOZQrMT
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「為什麼?你真的這麼想嗎......」81Please respect copyright.PENANAg5ikhJauZl
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「不要自作多情!」81Please respect copyright.PENANAqaS6kCFa71
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他深吸一口氣,收回任何可能透露心底的情緒,他這次的口氣無比冷漠,對比早晨的溫煦顯得更加絕情。81Please respect copyright.PENANAljy37L8AVq
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這算什麼?81Please respect copyright.PENANAV2vaJ9SGcn
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你帶我望遍的天涯星空、81Please respect copyright.PENANA9G1SQmdSMt
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你撫摸我頭髮時的溫柔、81Please respect copyright.PENANAflHsJqxoLL
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早上收到卡片時,你情意深切的靦腆燦笑......81Please respect copyright.PENANAvDC1QmrMDg
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這些究竟算什麼?81Please respect copyright.PENANA7K6yY15xp0
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我不喜歡死纏爛打,我這輩子最害怕的,就是麻煩他人。在善意與溫情的引導,我願意一點一滴的將毫無防備的自己與你分享。可是,你現在告訴我,一切都是我的自作多情!81Please respect copyright.PENANAnt7wyHfDH8
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一股怨氣與委屈衝上我的喉際,我忍不住受挫的激動,聲音顫抖到令我覺得可笑:「如果你早知道這一切都是我的幻想,就不該對我這麼好,早上也不該露出會讓我誤會的笑容!」81Please respect copyright.PENANAtgq6jeihgE
說完,我頭也不回的跑下樓。我已經沒有勇氣揣測他的心情、他的表情,以及與他有關的任何感受。在那之後,他會是什麼模樣,我不敢,也無從得知。81Please respect copyright.PENANABhj9CgZtr1
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我的步伐在離開理學大樓後,越來越緩慢無力,最後,我一人茫然的走在回去宿舍的道路,剛修理好的路燈將我的影子拉得有整條人行道那麼長。81Please respect copyright.PENANAR9HdZlTrYx
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我失戀了。81Please respect copyright.PENANAsQYqQIkD58
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莫名其妙的,連朋友也當不成的失戀。81Please respect copyright.PENANAx6NmrokkK8
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回想起上禮拜與阿則相視的溫存,對比剛才他毫不遲疑地拒我於門外,現實突然變得與夢境一樣模糊。81Please respect copyright.PENANAZMNpAKYBDI
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阿則,終究還是那個學期初,我所畏懼的冷面助教。81Please respect copyright.PENANAre4THdJziH
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當我滿懷期待時,發展總會事與願違。這副狼狽的樣子,真不想讓任何人瞧見。81Please respect copyright.PENANAHhG1xz3C1Q
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宿舍房間的門口,潔瑜似乎有事找我,但在看到我後,她立刻將原本要和我說,看來不大重要的事拋在腦後,著急的關心:「妳怎麼了?臉色那麼難看?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAg7qZccKo1p
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當下的我肯定面無血色吧,吹了一路的冷風加上情緒的波瀾,臉上還有血色才怪。81Please respect copyright.PENANADW8AMGsqMF
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「沒~」81Please respect copyright.PENANAsio2mwa113
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「妳去找助教了嗎?」不等我說完,潔瑜隨即睜大飽含驚訝的雙眼問。81Please respect copyright.PENANADw3JpIi2dO
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關於情感方面的事物,潔瑜非常的敏銳,敏銳到我只想當隻土撥鼠,挖個地洞埋藏自己。81Please respect copyright.PENANAeM5Sn2DTkI
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我說不出話來,只能默然的點頭。81Please respect copyright.PENANAdK31FStqRT
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潔瑜從我的語態釐清事情原委,忿忿不平的罵說:「欸不是,我有目擊妳送卡片給他的現場,他那誇張害羞的笑臉連口罩都藏不住,一臉就對妳有意思啊!還搞得妳那麼傷心?根本渣男欸?」81Please respect copyright.PENANA5KkRVkrRug
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「我不知道......」我沮喪的說,先前他明明看起來滿滿真心誠意,我曾說服自己相信早上以前的他是真正的他,但經過剛剛的打擊,我已無法理性辨析。81Please respect copyright.PENANAnPVvix2azK
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「沒關係,我還不會回家。」潔瑜似是捨不得看到我的萎靡,義憤填膺的說:81Please respect copyright.PENANAXCYzQqPthe
「他的研究室在哪?我明天一早陪妳去問清楚!」81Please respect copyright.PENANA0AEqphlH04
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這時的潔瑜又再次擁抱了醜陋灰暗的我。胸口有如被大石塊頂著,悶得難受,倒不如痛哭一場好受。但不曉得為什麼,失戀的我哭不出來,彷彿這樣的情緒已然化為肉體的一部分,無法隨意割捨。81Please respect copyright.PENANACQtO2A6cEW
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在潔瑜的陪伴下,阿則會跟我說清楚嗎?81Please respect copyright.PENANAJaNmzKV7Gl
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阿則是真心排斥我,抑或另有我不曉得的隱情?
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