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我是一個與眾不同的軍醫。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdqCy6MMcM
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關於是什么時候到達的這里我早就不記得了，在這無數子彈的喧囂中我的任務只有一個，那便是救治傷員。我和我的助手在這里沒日沒夜的工作，即使見到了無數慘不忍睹的傷口和尸首，但助手把這位傷員運過來的時候，我還是感到了膽戰心驚。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFODFmdPPi2
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待我驚魂稍定之時，我開始為這位戰士進行治療。他靜靜地躺在那血紅色的病床上，在我的眼里像個做錯事的孩子一樣，什么聲音都沒有發出。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQyd0SScf2
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房間內寂靜的可怕，雖然屋內有我和他兩個人一起，卻像墓地中兩個挨着的墓碑一樣，沒有一點活人的氣息。我偷偷地望着他的臉，那之上沒有任何的表情，根本不能說是活人的樣子。也許那個詞叫血色來着，總之是人的那種充實感，就算連對傷口而產生的疼痛表情，也都蕩然無存。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnLyzyj3eR
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一切都充滿了虛無感，像一張染了血的白紙。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqaIT2DFb7
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不過好在我們不用接觸很長時間，因為大概兩分鐘，他就可以痊愈了。送走他后，我緩緩地轉向我的助手，打開了几乎兩天沒有動過的嘴巴說道：336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScr4xqXEuM
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「累。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zqI9znolV
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我最終只是擠出了一個字，但我的嘴唇卻干裂了，血的味道在我的舌尖蔓延。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNivQqM33i
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不過即使這樣，我的助手也不會回答我，甚至不會看我一眼。因為我的助手正是那一部醫療器械。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPUjXTvVNt
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2PsuvrBGT
不過正是這台機械，又或稱為我的好助手，才使得我和其他的軍醫與眾不同。這台機械擁有着極其先進的治療功效，平均不過兩分鐘就可以治愈一切傷勢。中槍的可以馬上恢復，斷手腳的也能再次接上，只要沒有掉腦袋，在我這里都可以恢復如初。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9qot8mBaY
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFS3DLDECOf
機器量產了幾臺，分布在不同的戰區。隔一段時間我就要每個戰區去一次，調試機器以保證核心運作。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5iOCG8A1T
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhdMASvI5y
這的確讓戰爭的局勢明朗了起來，很多傷員可以再次投入戰場，一連几次下來，對方潰不成軍，四處逃竄。我們的士兵就在這循環往復中肆意地進攻，或說侵略着他國。即使我發明這台機器的本意只是幫助那些在病痛中痛苦的人們，到了現在也只成了一部戰爭機器。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NurpygTek
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至於為什么會戰爭，什么時候來到這里這樣的事物早已化成了記憶的碎片，在沒日沒夜重復的工作下，這些碎片早就不見了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7WKktDrnv
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「哐當」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiVcXlZ6BF
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用力的開門聲打斷了我的思緒，眼前的一幕讓我嚇了一跳。一個年輕的士兵捂着胳膊大喊着沖了進來，嘴里還有很久沒聽見的哀嚎聲。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUcXk0453N
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「好疼啊，我要死了…….醫生你快救救我吧！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUuNWEJfRc
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJftbYHUwg
面前的士兵臉很干淨，看着也有几分少年的英氣。這着實讓我震驚了一下，但隨即想到了甚么不好的東西。我臉上剛剛擠出的表情又一下子消失了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboF583LO9o
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「怎么辦，醫生，我的胳膊被子彈打中了，好疼啊，流了好多血啊！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj2SB8EuVq3
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「不要着急，坐下讓我看看。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOusKAZP91F
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少年的胳膊其實比較縴細，對比起那些老兵粗壯結實的手臂來說，這只看着弱不經風。手臂上有着看起來很突兀的肌肉，可以感受到是最近加強的訓練快速形成的。以及那個流着血的傷口，其實只是子彈從外側擦過去留下的一個痕跡。的確流了很多的血，但對於見慣了各種死尸，各種斷臂的我來說，這似乎根本就不叫傷口。為了他開機器治療反而是浪費時間。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjg0CXNikhZ
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwl2G6dwrog
「醫生，救救我吧，我是不是下半輩子要殘疾了。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeW7DfioqHM
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAV0owAHWI
他面露膽怯和驚恐，夸張的表情和之前的那人又截然不同。若說上一個人是一張沾了血的白紙罷了，那么這位少年就是一本彩色的漫畫書。瞬間讓我的病室中有了一絲人的氣息，打破了長久的寂靜。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBqOkRPTVo6
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反而，我更想治療他了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdZnJSXRBc
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「來，放輕松，我給你包扎。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4goiSUOLC
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HfbyVd6tU
我沒有使用那兩分鐘就能搞定一切的機器，而是從櫃子中拿出久違的紗布和酒精，用這些「老家伙」幫他處理傷口。而且故意包扎的很慢，慢過剛入職的護士。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHqBRp47ou
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4P3QIVmPS
這之中，我開始主動和他搭話。這是第一次我和傷員有病情以外的交流。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSTR96BjJi
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「你是新兵吧？剛從高中畢業就過來了？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZObJYKytS
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「是，是啊。哎呀！疼疼疼疼。」少年對酒精的反應很大，不過稍微整頓下就繼續回答著，「我們聽說軍隊戰事吃緊，又打得正在關鍵時刻。我們好多人一心報國就直接來參軍了。兩三個月我就從大后方趕過來啦。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZhcobiiFs
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIwYD9MtUZ
「兩三個月？」我的眼皮微微跳動了下，只是想起正常的練兵需要很久才能摸到槍，才會開始真正軍事訓練。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wW6PBMOWz
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「是這樣，我還聽說西邊的戰區只要一個月就可以上前線了。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1tt1aKxhw
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不知為何，看著他那真誠的眼神和激動的語氣，我只是感到悲傷。但他們并沒有在我的臉上顯示出來。我開涮轉移話題。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnyp7ogeD6
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「你之前是在哪個高中？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjT74M5XUsC
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少年轉動了下眼球，笑著也很自豪地回答我說：336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡceJWh7kyfk
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「紀念中學。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ByRoQ7Xpb
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紀念中學？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdQhrO6oKy
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那個全國聞名，以優異的文化成績著稱的學校。那個學術自由，校風開放的學校。那個我呆了三年的學校，擁有著快樂青春記憶的學校。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWb6wbt4M1
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「我們學校很多人都參軍了。現在國家大力宣傳當兵報國，我們整個班基本都去當兵了，還有幾個去了軍校升學。」他自豪地和我說到。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnZyJkgxE2H
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHU5DyOQbK
「不用去考大學了？」我一邊包扎一邊問他。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwPxmTpTe3
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「現在誰還考學啊，國家有戰事，這才是最緊要的東西嘛。我們學校還大力推舉我們參軍呢，有的人想考大學還有可能被談話。啊疼！醫生輕一點啦！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVO24FZcmoz
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我聽到這話身體一震。不小心捏了一下少年的胳膊。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdAvMefkS0
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「話說醫生你這醫療器械看著好棒啊。看起來很有科技感耶。那是怎么運作的？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvuqyjw9Lb
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcgtG00I0m
「這個啊……」我轉翻頭看向那機器，一些往事突然涌上心頭。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnmZ20agdv
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記不清多少年前我站在領獎臺上的時候，我是那么自豪地，挺著胸脯地站在那里演講。方方面面地推介著我的「助手」，恨不得讓全國人都知道他。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbkQn2BYv8
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwOYhm6FSk
「這個機器可以治好任何的疾病！心臟病，腦血管病，甚至斷手斷腳都能馬上治好！它搭載的是最新的醫療科技芯片…… 」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFR2iXfXem
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6HJlNdb1I
就像那個少年說起自己的學校，也是我的母校時那樣地得意與自豪。可是如今在他面前，我盯著這機器，回憶起我的母校。現在我只有一種莫名的心痛和難過，十分不想介紹，甚至根本就不想看見它。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2EZFwSHDg
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡap8Psv1jOs
「到底是甚么時候開始這樣的呢。」我心里默默念了一句這樣的話。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iExRmx5P5
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然而為了回答少年的問題，我還是詳細講述了一次機器的功效和用法。只是我的語氣無比的平淡，我甚至想快點結束這個話題。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlKIlZpMF9
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9RVpDIju9
少年聽得很認真，我竭力不去和他對視。然而他眼中那種屬于少年的光芒和青春氣息是擋不住的。他們拼命地向外跑，直擊我的靈魂。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyFMBYUgQry
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那是我丟掉了很久的東西。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4A4TtllcG
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那也許就叫人的氣息吧。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNDvnG1lrQ
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「你叫甚么名字？」口罩下是我略帶膽怯的一句話，輕輕地，但卻是我用了好大力氣講出來的話。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPx1Qc2V6j
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「我啊，你可以叫我阿鐵，鋼鐵的鐵。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkdwZI4H7R
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「阿鐵，」我語重心長地張開了口。我想說些甚么，但是那話語，那些我想講的一些道理，一些可以說是真理的東西卻一點也說不出來。最終我只是說了一句，「好好活著，為了自己，為了你愛的人。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWPV9mm6uX8
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「好啊！我一定會好好的活著，但也要殺掉很多的敵人，為祖國盡力！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7wWG89Pzb
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他的眼睛在發光，我的眼神在逃跑。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAf3u1KQBF6
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「不是這樣的，阿鐵…….我是說，好好活著，好好做人，不要想著殺戮死亡，只是做好自己，等待正常生活後好好地生活啊！你要結婚生子育子，享受人世間的美好，但那些絕不是戰爭，不是殺戮啊！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7yfssSDFd0
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當然，我根本沒有膽量把他說出來。這些話撞擊著我的心靈，但是我根本沒有辦法讓他們出來。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLxwvKWaZN
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包扎終歸是完成了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbxQTehGf9
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我又想繼續和他說些甚么，這和已往是不同的。以前病人對我問東問西，我都是想趕緊把他送走。但他不一樣，雖然我對這樣的談話，這樣的思想有很大的傷感和愧疚，但是我…….336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarJucCbaLl
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「好了，你現在沒事了。你看，你根本沒有要死要殘疾嘛。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PCp2pPggY
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4AYGpjvZxQ
他揮了揮手臂，那種傷口的酸痛感仍然在他的表情中流露。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qeC4VU5xY
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「謝謝醫生，那我回軍營了。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMupc7FbGG
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快說啊，想說的那些話，快點告訴這少年，甚么是好甚么是錯。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzONvUUt2E
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「嗯好。過兩天就可以拆開紗布了。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9C3ifRXfx8
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為什么不說？我在害怕甚么？‘336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZu6nS68nv
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我甚至不敢再看那少年，我害怕我會記住他。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXPwlMx8Ew
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「哐當。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7b1DToXzd
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門關上了，只留下了我一個人和我的助手。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvh3x59PNG
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「這樣……真的好嗎」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuTZEIpzIMa
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至于剛剛說，想到了不好的東西，它具體是甚么？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2nvWzo8QN
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來不及思考，助手送來下一個病人，又是那種白紙一樣的士兵。而我剛才心中升起的那些久違的人的感覺，又再一次消失了。一樣的無聲，一樣的沒有血色與神情，仿佛和那剛剛的少年不在同一個星球。我此刻才夠膽看向病人，看向我的「助手」。死一般的寂靜又回來了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMy91RPeTc
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收起紗布和酒精，我變回了那個與眾不同的軍醫。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiI9kauyFVs
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又不知道過了多久。戰線又向前推進了一大步。我方打到了一個易守難攻的地方。作為核心醫務人員的我自然也到了前線。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWJ9gNSd8W
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這里的環境比上一個地方差得多。我甚至要拆開機器的核心部分，抱著我的機器四處跑。這里掉胳膊的需要我幫摸接上，那邊大出血的要我來止血。我就在嘈嘈切切錯雜的子彈聲中四處奔波。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbY60BWCbmY
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夜晚時分有了短暫的寂靜。我癱倒在戰壕中，早就不在意灰土甚么的了。我旁邊的大兵面無表情地吸著煙，好像在神游一樣。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2i5RJcxHBw
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他吸一口煙，會隔很久才吐出來。那種尼古丁在嘴巴中難受的感覺，他反而毫不在意，甚至喜歡上了這種感覺。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVFIZwUCcf
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「你這樣不苦嗎？」我望著他問道。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Fy3cbPzj9
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煙絲慢悠悠地飄著，飛入我的鼻子中，刺痛著我的神經。我個人是最討厭香煙的味道的。但是現在我根本不在意這些，甚至想吸入很多很多，再一股勁地咳出來。然后再吸，再咳出來……循環往復。至于為什么-----336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdfmjolYVD
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「苦。」大兵沒有轉頭看向我，繼續神游著，「覺得苦才能證明我還活著啊。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOA3VE9bgyM
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「哪都苦，哪都苦啊。」我身旁另一個年輕一點的士兵這樣說著，「我已經好多年沒見過我的家人了。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMBrgO3ciC
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「哈哈，我也是。」那大兵這樣回覆著，僵硬地把頭轉到了我身旁，打量著我和我手中的機器。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnS6xldVnsP
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「這東西這么好用？我今天胳膊都快斷了也能給我接回來？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uJI8a6FwT
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我笑了笑說：「是啊，只要你不掉腦袋我都能給你救回來。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvawFRtAlH
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大兵臉上的微笑還凝固著，他盯著那機器不斷地打量著，我沒有擋住機器，反而拿了過去給他讓他拿著看。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFF6KEDrwE
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「真神奇啊，這東西救了我好幾回了。」雖然是這樣說，但他的表情沒有任何的喜悅，或說劫后余生的興奮。我仿佛聽到的是「真撲街啊，我能不能死一次看看啊。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8TmWimxmY
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「真想讓我爹也用下這東西，他心臟不好。」大兵苦澀地擠出了這樣一句話。我客套回去道「那等戰爭結束我幫你爹用下吧。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9iGD8o9b0
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大兵沒有說話。見沉默許久，身邊的年輕士兵開口了：336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAniIrpa5Ww
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「他爹啊，前幾天去世了。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaErddCYTi3
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「啊……節哀。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUt4u8Ek61
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大兵還是沒有表情。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR98lZK0T13
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「節哀？我現在其實一點感覺都沒有。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEfHAH4700
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我知道軍部是不給批假的，所以也大概能猜到他這幾天只是在子彈中度過的，看見很多人血肉橫飛，甚至自己就是打死對方的那個人，他也許麻木了吧。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4443nMN0p5
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「我其實更想哪天去找我的父親，在上面好好聊一聊。」大兵這樣說道。旁邊的年輕士兵只是補了一句：「就我們這樣的還能上天？不在地獄里就不錯咯。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcw6FjFJyv
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死亡，天堂，地獄。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcQJdLpDvm
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這些平日生活中我們故意躲開，認為不吉利的詞語，此刻竟然毫不避諱地說了出來。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fKCPQmmwT
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「我說醫生啊，」大兵頓了頓，「你每天救多少人啊。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLSuPr79R4
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「我哪記得住。光你就好多次了。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1sBrBGt6X9
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「有沒有那種不想被救的？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVemga5UeY4
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「這個……」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dfbH4g5XI
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我陷入思考和沉默。旁邊年輕的士兵笑著回覆道：336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUA4AOc0S3
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「還是那種一槍打爆頭的好啊！一下子就沒有痛苦了」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaCMlLR3OLS
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「確實啊哈哈。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EA31tNF5v
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兩位士兵笑談起自己見過的爆頭死狀。但那種笑并不代表開心，那是一種痛苦的笑，說是掩蓋心中悲傷刻意做作的笑，卻也不盡然。我似乎看到在那天軍隊報道時候的他們，舍棄了工作家人學業的兩人，就站在那里呆呆地望著遠方，他們笑不出來，對未來是無盡的恐懼和未知，對死亡的膽怯和懦弱流露在眼神和偷偷非走到眼淚之中。他們根本不想笑。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDkdzJxxKv
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可是現在讓他們流眼淚？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu966lRPnOj
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他們真的還有眼淚這種東西嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkEXXurZvt
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或是說竭盡全力才能流出一滴不知道是血還是淚的液體，從臉頰滑下。那也許就是當他們回憶起舊時光的時候惟一會難過的一秒鐘吧。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugl0S07NDr
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「哈哈哈，那死的也太慘了吧。頭插到刀子上面然后噴血。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaE2vVgzlr
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「哈哈哈哈，還有一個……」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmcUf70oJm
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哈哈。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9C1dYG8LD
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那是真的在笑嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzuTgY98hH
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那是他們用力證明自己還在人世間吧。畢竟死人是不會笑的。等等，似乎我之前病房里的活人也不會笑……那種比死人還可怕的感覺難以言表。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CDqRJOuzc
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我想到了阿鐵。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuhxErc0dn
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那個孩子，他現在還好嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEQ5IIQsKP
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還像那時一樣活蹦亂跳嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAamiI56WTk
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或說，走向另一面，我當時見他想起不好的事情的那一面？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEsiZaAVzN
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「醫生啊——」我的思緒被兩士兵打斷。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsCaU5bL9p
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「戰爭過后你想做什么呢？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNJW9Mq6mb
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做什么呢？也許我還是只能繼續做醫生吧。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd65QDqq55a
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「回家看看，回以前的城市看看吧。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIzEe3G7IQ
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「我想考大學。」那個年輕一點的士兵說道，「其實本來我是文學系大一的學生，但是有戰爭之后，就來戰場上了。當時國家還宣傳當兵有獎呢。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhUZrvmxXH
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「大學好啊，文學系也有很多漂亮女生吧。」我竭力回憶起我的校園生活，那隱藏在塵封的記憶中美好的一段往事，閃現著偶爾跑出來。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKkaUmDvon
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「是啊，我那班里美女很多啊。我還打算寫小說呢。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsB6yvSukP2
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「作家好啊。」我連連點頭。回憶起中大學時期班里總有那么幾個文豪喜歡寫作，寫的小說在班內傳來傳去。不知道他們現在怎么樣了呢？也像我這樣在戰爭中苦苦掙扎嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DqNypcwBB
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阿鐵呢？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGDxFv9qHEK
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沒有參軍他也會讀很好的大學吧？然后相遇一個愛他的女孩，兩人一起生活，一起出游。多年過去帶著愛情的結晶出門，享受著人類應有的權利。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjwDEMSCW4
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「你呢？」我問道另一個大兵。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYmOobyY8M
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「我啊，我想……」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFPvrsN7R9x
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少見的，我們三人的臉上恢復了一些血絲，喚醒了人類本該擁有的一些情感和記憶。這在戰爭中屬實難得。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukfZLLW6H5
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但是，上天打斷了我們之間這短暫的美好。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIAqAp2LTH
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短暫急促的爆鳴聲打斷了我們的美好，爆炸的火花在旁邊絢麗地綻放。旁邊圍在一起吃罐頭的幾個士兵從爆炸中心點飛出，他們的身體各處開滿了血花。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLhehjtXYd
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我身子一顫，抓起我的儀器就準備跑過去。兩個士兵也拿上了槍準備還擊。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1VUpj7uPo
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「嗖嗖。」子彈飛速地衝過來，好像在打響復仇的號角一樣。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIHkTsygH9
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敵人并沒有手下留情，最先補槍殺死了幾個被炸傷的士兵，他們吃一半的罐頭被打飛在天上，勺子碎成數不清的小片飛在半空中，食物就散落在地上。一個被炸得沒有腿的士兵手里趕緊捏了槍，另一手把罐頭用力丟在趕來的敵人腦袋上。趁著對方反應的空隙，大概也就那零點幾秒吧，掏出手槍翻轉身，一槍打死了敵人。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXlmOR5NEV
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反應很快，用手槍的他一連打死了三個拿沖鋒槍的敵人。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfi9OjmhctD
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看到這個場景我卻愣住了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFS1wY5FBB
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那幾秒鐘里我的大腦飛速運轉，回憶著人類該有的模樣，無論是生理上還是心理上。我不再認為現在在我身邊的這些生物是人。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1JWrw5F6I
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我的腦海中創造了一幅場景，海灘邊上有一個帳篷，一群人圍著點著篝火。篝火旁是剛剛那幾個士兵吃著罐頭；那年輕的士兵成了大作家，躺在海邊尋找新的創作靈感；大兵的父親終于醫好了病，他和老婆來海灘久違地散心。我放了假，離開醫院在海灘上散步；阿鐵考上了名牌大學，和幾個要好的同學，有男有女，都來海灘上慶祝。其中一個人把我們大家都集合起來，在海灘上點燃了煙花。「嗖嗖嗖」地煙花在天空中綻放開來，配著夜空中的繁星勾勒出一幅美好的景象。大兵拿著相機，給我們一起拍合照。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIArD4ZCUl
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每個人都是開心快樂的，臉上充滿了笑容，以及可以看得出一個活生生的人的氣息。不僅有散完步的我小口喘氣，還有幾個人圍著吃罐頭，放煙花的人間煙火氣息。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDIf8jPHBv
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我愛死這樣的景象了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnCNICTrXYf
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「咔擦！」大兵按著快門給我們幾個拍著大合照，「別愣著啊，繼續來！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj93eX0s2ou
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「再來一張！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNjvrOnORH
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「咔擦咔擦咔擦。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRJ4yOPgS3
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「再來一張！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9RAxKZ44P
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「嗒嗒嗒噠噠噠。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbHFAqB0Go
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「再來一盒子彈！別愣著啊！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡostSHWfxYF
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大兵失去了剛才的笑容，又回到了那種白紙一樣的臉，面無表情地拿著手中的「照相機」，實際上是機關槍。「鏡頭」像咆哮的惡龍一樣嘶吼著，紅色的火光里飛出一個一個火球，向著衝過來的敵人進行火力壓制。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjPvnk0CLs
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那個年輕一點的士兵呢？他躺在我的前面，但卻不是在找靈感。他的頭部被一槍打穿，所有的靈感也都飄散在了血泊中。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIGthGsIuj
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那個炸傷雙腿的呢？雖然他拔槍飛快，但最終也被手雷炸的四分五裂。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9s1FXbSEl
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeoubxjmleR
阿鐵呢？我呢？放煙花的各位呢？合照里的大家呢？人間煙火呢？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMzmmTq9Nh
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我恨死這樣的景象了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB20u2oSrcY
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5SqHKHLoC
等我緩過神來的時候，我才發現我抱著儀器和一把手槍站在旁邊的掩體里。身旁是那大兵，那已經中了三槍倒地喘氣的大兵。他呆呆地望著我，我下意識的想救他，但他卻喊了一句「不要！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpralTAu3t
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我愣住了。看著他沒有表情地躺在那里，就像一朵花正在凋謝。血不斷地涌出來，但他甚么都沒在乎的樣子。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcgkuXp9AA
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmIm595CQe
「我，原先是個小學老師。」大兵緩緩地說道，「如果戰爭結束后我還能看看孩子，看看我父親的墓碑，我就心滿意足了。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTO8Qhxd6T
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eaPjyMHMR
「堅持住啊！」我又開始打開儀器，不想他卻拿起手槍指著我。我自然不在意這些，我知道他是不想讓我救他，但是他也不會對我開槍，我們兩人都知道的。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJID4C1XBfA
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2D2uI5aNr
「哈哈。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNfe0vOpxg
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdB2zvNu6Tk
他不會射我，于是笑了笑。這一笑里面似乎有很多東西，有他的過去，有他的夢想，有他的事業，有他的家人。是他極力證明自己還是個人的努力。難道他想變成那種行尸走肉，戰爭機器嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFefHaHyxw7
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgX1sVt8D8
如果我再把他救回來，他還是他嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtlCfRFAYR
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJ4UAOoATr
「砰」的一聲槍響，他在我打開儀器之前給自己腦袋來了一槍。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLxG7d1pEM
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlqY50a7F1
他本來兩分鐘后就可以無事了，但他不曾猶豫。我也知道他的想法，這一晚，有太多這樣想法的人了。然而我還是在四處奔波，幫助那些傷員。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFD9Jtxu461
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6bvTOITUr
或說讓他們重返痛苦？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡam5ORpY8Ly
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNERuj83mtO
我軍遭遇奇襲，上級命令向后撤去。作為醫護人員的我自然是先救人送傷員，算是比較后撤的那一隊。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUkdFZYLI8
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撤退前我才發現，我的身旁有一個手部受傷，身體也中槍的敵人，他躺在附近，一直在盯著我看。我下意識地掏出手槍，準備一槍解決他。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zejuKWfsK
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdDQj4hDgh
他的表情突然充滿了驚恐和憤怒，也有面臨死亡卻視死如歸的一種堅定。直白地說，他的臉和我們軍隊的士兵完全相反，他不是染了血的白紙，也不是經常在墓地前出現的菊花或白玫瑰。他反而像阿鐵一樣，是一本彩色的漫畫書，只是現在上面有許多彈孔罷了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIlXXRscoAE
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEvR7IiHQSN
我慢慢走了過去，甚至打開機器為他治療。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlvnbu31bh
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJvcw0vkB9
他惡狠狠地盯著我，卻又被我奇怪的行為震驚。他向我臉上吐了一口吐沫。用他國家的語言咒罵著我，用還能動的腳發力踢我。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68IzDF331I
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseyii4LEVK
「滾啊！我不會做你的俘虜的！你就等死吧！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtRyBewAlD
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOHffuKL0b
我會說這種語言，但我面無表情。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMobf1Bhhg
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriXMAjNgiK
「罵吧，等你好了一槍打死我也行。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHK3pdomHf
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFm5qzWU5I
他突然癡呆地望著我，滿臉的問號跳著舞。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYmQTZIxxq
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPTLtDbxkN
「你們這群惡魔，為什么要侵略我們的國家？我媽媽就是被你們炸死的！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFxypVdvbE
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7tTgReZfe
他嘶吼著，不斷用腿踢著我，想拒絕我對他的治療。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7q3polOWn
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是啊。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfAJUbe6JGH
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為什么我要站在別人國家的土地上呢？為什么我要用我的「助手」制造戰爭機器呢？因為高官的野心和我「助手」高超的戰略意義嗎？我心虛地眨了眨眼，336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡciJlHggJYG
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgxj94wzzH
手第一次在救人的時候顫抖了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0RKC3JxK5
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlgiKGuoUsZ
我看到他那被槍打得破爛的雙手，仍能感覺出來他的手曾經應該很漂亮，很修長，絕對是彈過很久鋼琴和結他的。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98a15CdepZ
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「我以前也喜歡彈鋼琴。」我這么說道。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGUzlo7yI7
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbnhbj2Fn3
或許他以前是個玩樂隊的？音樂家？音樂老師？然后今天因為戰爭出現在這連塊完整的地板都找不到的戰場上。也許他曾有美好的家庭，夢想，想守護的一切？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoUBlBTSK1
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBM95avtmZ7
我知道為什么他的臉不是那千篇一律的白紙了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7WDIBMOrm
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WGnpUiitq
兩分鐘過去，他自然痊愈了，雖然那雙美麗的手不再那么好看，而是明顯修補的痕跡和握槍生長的老繭子。他不會和我道謝，而是從地上抓起一把手槍頂著我的腦袋。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLgLpUwBxP
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cV0sS03hG
我還是沒有任何表情。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTlQFjWqPl
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7S98E4Fny
「咔，咔，咔」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmksfvb7Nbl
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他一早就知道手槍沒子彈了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUF1N6QiqJy
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CnJrG25Cb
我們誰都沒有說話，那一瞬間除了槍沒子彈空殼的聲音什么都沒有。我明顯感受到我們之間的差距，我是僵尸他是活生生的人。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjt4cHD131D
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkSzRaceeN
「希望戰爭過去，我能去聽你的音樂會。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlFXUJw6kg
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEh4T1kEKb
「你……」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyF1IhDvLZg
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75tsBi7kaU
沒等我多說，也沒等他多說甚么，我起身準備離去。而我的身后不遠處，是因為發現我沒上車而跑過來的一個士兵。他看起來很眼熟，但還是那千篇一律的，沒有靈魂的臉。有著和這敵人不同，和之前的阿鐵不同的那一空洞的眼神。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8KvEI9pT6
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIFvqadGXd
「喂，你在干嘛，快上車！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHX1xXGKLc
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkQbucco1f
「等等。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡor9WxlCirL
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9ICmCLZHP
我突然看清了那臉，也認出了那聲音，那不正是阿鐵嗎？那不正是前一陣子我幫他包扎的少年嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTGXOqaNll4
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpivnbC4Q2r
沒有血色的阿鐵。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mIBEKDlXf
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwTK5rPKqv
他看到我身邊的那個敵軍拿槍指著我，就在不遠處停了下來，飛速掏出武器準備射擊。即使他的腿和胳膊再一次受傷了，也沒見他露出怎么樣的表情。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeB4Xs28P9m
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XHd3ChJWN
「不要！阿鐵不要打他！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLyEHL6u3HR
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAwqtjGZsS
當然和上次一樣，我并沒有說出口。這又是何解呢？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrJTmzgDKo
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRaOAMNvjg
「阿鐵，放他一條生路吧！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkiBHfowJE
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1bt4n6BWc
「阿鐵，我們都只是想活命的人而已啊！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluXJKPWFn8
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nOtbJGK9Q
為什么說不出來呢？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqEPzvEBfk
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「砰！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FvgxfYyj4
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYIh6gIDuR
敵軍死了，阿鐵放下槍意識我上車。我望著手中冒著一絲青煙的手槍，和另一只手剛使用過的醫療器械。我不知道說些甚么好，也沒時間給我思考，我關掉保險收起槍，近乎絕望地望著阿鐵和那尸體。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2bBV0784eQ
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRaJGE6Li0
我想我見到死人那么多次，終于自己也「死」掉了嗎？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUmcEL60J1
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrRTsmhBcn
我跟著阿鐵向軍車走去，這世界又回到了那一般的寂靜。在我眼前的那人其實也「不是」阿鐵，和我當時在阿鐵前面救的那個人沒有甚么區別吧。即使當時我沒有用機器幫他，而是仔細包扎了他，他最終還是和那些被機器治療的士兵成了一樣的殺人機器。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpF90M9A7j
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Rseqdngjp
從一個眼睛有光的少年，一個受傷亂喊叫的少年，到一個麻木的，快速掏槍的士兵。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqyxJFM87t
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmS1ln2412x
這就是當時我想到的「不好的東西」吧。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCOhtrxv9E
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqGrXGEWBz
眼淚從我的眼角奔涌出來，但也只是來了一滴便再也出不來了。我把它一把擦掉了，那稱之為人性的東西，不能讓前面的「人」看見。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFcqSxP86U
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0f0Ndch0uv
我還是沒有表情，上了車。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYW9NvHjScc
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7ST0yZuNl
阿鐵全程沒有說話，沒有任何反應，沒有像初次見面時候那樣有點令人煩躁的性格。而我卻不愿意為他治療了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneDQHVUvFU
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzgVmAVBxn
我們都「死了」。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIc3X6BJWtO
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三336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsqfjILts2
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首都的空氣和前線不同。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJxmBGKhfl
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcYFrXg8dy
這里似乎沒有甚么戰火味，但大街上卻少見青壯年男子。女人們以異常的眼光打量著穿著一身西服的我，小聲議論著。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0JIHq2zMC
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvaHEaUi3QF
「這又是哪個高官。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHz7dMKXCa
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48o24qP3OD
「不會是沒去報名的男人吧。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMuFuKuUJZ
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRyqm4NEMT
「真膽小，我家男人都去前線了。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWloh4U6xGm
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAidGImebMk
但這里的空氣和前線本質上還是一種東西。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHWI3JUtHm
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrBstRRfUQ
人類啊，就是這樣好戰吧。當自己強大了就要去打別人，當甚么東西能大力發揮軍事用途就會一股腦地開發它們，作為自己拳頭上的指虎擊打著弱者。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8vDozkWPH
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtegWpXk0S
我回到了倉庫前，數著曾經的「助手」的數量，確認下有沒有遺漏。一周前，我以重大檢修的名義把所有的機器都回收了過來。我的手上攥著兩個東西，一張是政府開資資助我研發更多機器的文件，一個是炸彈遙控器。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kaW1259af
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是的，我想炸毀這些機器。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDl8fcW6WC2
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRyS1D7AwsQ
即使在最初這些東西交給軍方投入戰爭時，我還是保留了一點最核心的技術沒有泄露出去。這些東西在我的腦子里一輩子都不會揮灑去，那是我設計這機器的初衷。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40aghXaenX
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWcCk0muSz
沒有了這一層關鍵技術，沒有人可以做出一模一樣的機器。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9f5u1kF6L
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23SdcjVxxl
但在我決心按下那按鈕之前，我去了城市的各個角落，找尋著我以前的記憶。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIf1zmKuWse
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkiEkJEGIq
「紀念軍事中學。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcWKFqqKrF
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSVHuzlvJv
這幾個字映入我的眼眶，我看到了校園內半軍事化管理的模樣---跑操軍訓的學生，戰區退下來的教官，各種鼓勵從軍的標語。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvgfZD2aWR
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我的表情凝固住了，不同於之前的面無表情，而是一種心絞痛和悲傷。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngmgg6Nfef
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「這還是我的學校嗎？這是我想要的模樣嗎？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8vnf09y2u
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLA41om23Zf
曾經的班主任就在前面，只要我和他打一聲招呼我就能進入校園。但我完全沒有那么做。我看著校園外貼著的著名校友一欄，我的名字赫然擺在第一位。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZvMUUD6UG
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剛上大學那幾年回來看到這個，伴隨著老師無窮盡的夸獎，我的虛榮心得到了極其的滿足。全校都把我當作一個神話。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKPnMSirGj
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「那個開發醫療機械的前輩是我的偶像！我也要成為這樣的人！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE2xR2p7O0o
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「從軍報國，還改變了戰爭形勢，實在是太厲害了！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5KaOnwnhH
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但現在，我的心里很不是滋味，只是充滿了難以言表的感覺。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC88wYarVpz
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「是否我丟失了甚么東西呢？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Lvn03peHJ
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OMsYIDbWM
我在優秀畢業生上看到了阿鐵的名字。說起阿鐵，我才知道他之前是學校學習最好的同學之一。如果放在我的年代，是可以和我上一樣的名校的。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYQ8Zb6siz
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但他最近被炸死了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cm4t1NyJW
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臨死前我在他的身旁，他也一句話沒有說，只是靜靜地讓血流干，任憑子彈穿透。他就那樣真的死在了我的面前。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHlk1oqBEC
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「這真的是阿鐵想要的嗎？」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMACaj938W
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpen4btpIi6
我開始后悔當初把機器賣給軍隊。這根本不是甚么治療儀，這就是地獄之門。我們的青年一次又一次為了某些口號，從這個門進進出出循環往復。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVdXN0fyxI
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「為了國家，上戰場，殺敵，我們是正義之師！」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPgUgbw1lw
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我看著這標語冷笑出來。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUxB56H2Yv
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我還特地去看了那大兵的父親的墳墓，把他生前的頭盔放在了他父親的墳墓前深深鞠了一躬。起來時我才看見墳墓是刻了幾個大字：光榮之家。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyajzJ3QTd
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這就像對我的嘲諷一樣，但我又能做什么呢？336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvdrHFukE2
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尾聲336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ416m03Sn4T
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最終我到了首都中心的的大樓下。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1YC4IBIGp
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還有一分鐘國會大廳就要就關于我的儀器量產一事開會了。會議廳門外的安保看見是我，便沒有過多阻攔，直接讓我帶著公文包進去了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTQutf0h20
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最高會議室在5樓。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCum9w2p6U
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「軍部最高長官，總統，軍醫最高領導人，中央政府……」我一個個回憶著參加會議的人的官職，在只有我一個人的電梯里默默度過這一分鐘。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4rwwVubLW
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拿起遠程遙控器，我沒有猶豫按了下去。相信不久就可以看到醫療器械倉庫被毀滅的新聞了。只是我不可能等到報紙出版了。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡux7r6TVv6R
336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZ7tED2QDK
我從公文包里拿出一把手槍，裝好了子彈上好膛，關掉保險扔掉公文包。靜靜默數著樓層的遞進。336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgjalQmUiC
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「5樓到了。」336Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfOlnkas2x
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然後按「加至主畫面」