「果然係對我有好感。」恆樂自豪地點頭。432Please respect copyright.PENANAuDWLsCggFh
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「你講咩話?」子瑜抆住恆樂耳仔講。432Please respect copyright.PENANA9QeV5qBwPR
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「無講嘢呀,我等緊你分享。」432Please respect copyright.PENANAH6dJtnSAwp
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「衰人!」子瑜行過梳化坐低後講:「坐低再慢慢講啦。」432Please respect copyright.PENANAdSPfU5hkae
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恆樂馬上狗沖去梳化坐低聽故仔。432Please respect copyright.PENANAVj4ZZTlgYA
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子瑜本來係大學話劇社嘅成員,一直都對表演都有份渴望同追求。話劇社每年都會有兩到三套話劇,每次都係由個人自薦casting選角。子瑜同今朝班八婆就係話劇社到認識,因為大家都鐘意動漫,加上係同一個year,所以好快就混熟。開頭大家都好好朋友,可以講下八婆嘢又會一齊出街,當時嘅子瑜真係當佢哋係朋友。432Please respect copyright.PENANAlvas1FHg3t
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只不過,呢啲只係子瑜嘅一廂情願。432Please respect copyright.PENANAzC5Qn4pPQj
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當年嘅5月,有個大學聯校話劇show,當時嘅子瑜就cast中咗女主角,要知道有參加casting嘅有嚟知唔同大學嘅人,亦有同子瑜同一間大學嘅前輩,所以呢個角色係子瑜打敗咗好多人先拎到手。432Please respect copyright.PENANAR7q9GH1FMU
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如果只係校內嘅校劇,通常都係由老鬼去揀人做演出,老鬼可以揀角、揀劇本,每一個演出都係由老鬼做主導,正路嚟講,子瑜呢啲新人唔會有太多機會演出。432Please respect copyright.PENANAHnptQcLe3F
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但係聯校show唔同,揀人嘅外校嘅人,無咁黑箱作業,所以子瑜先有機會係老鬼中突圍。432Please respect copyright.PENANAiNrBHcD5r4
432Please respect copyright.PENANA6bww51o1OX
呢件就係關係破裂嘅開端。432Please respect copyright.PENANAYVBBVKWg3P
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當時嘅子瑜喺某一次返到自己大學嘅話劇社嘅會室到拎化妝品,因為大學生們都要準備final exam,照理嚟講唔應該當時嘅會室唔應該有人,但係事與願違。432Please respect copyright.PENANA2VwVKpOaCO
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當時會室嘅有嘅就係恆樂見到嘅幾個八婆同埋一位落選casting嘅前輩,嗰位前輩cast嘅位就係正正俾子瑜拎咗。432Please respect copyright.PENANAIjzZvXevIE
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全部都係女人。432Please respect copyright.PENANAR4n3myrrRg
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女人嘅圈子,可以話係麻煩。432Please respect copyright.PENANAlHSyKE6oWs
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本來想走入會室嘅子瑜因為聽到有人提及自己個名而停落嚟。
「係囉,我哋都話過子瑜,但係佢又唔聽。」432Please respect copyright.PENANA8i5wVftt7E
432Please respect copyright.PENANAmbhzwnn5sg
「我哋都話過佢,前輩就嚟畢業,唔好去亂試鏡留返啲機會俾就嚟畢業嘅人。」432Please respect copyright.PENANAiwGFgXYqx1
432Please respect copyright.PENANA12TY6MB8Rm
「係子瑜太固執搞到我哋點阻止佢哋都無用。」432Please respect copyright.PENANADjO04zcR9W
432Please respect copyright.PENANAxgTrukDCDk
三位八婆向前輩表明自己係無辜,大概係為咗保全自己係劇團嘅地位,因為老鬼點都係劇社有啲話語權,唔想係話劇社被老鬼玩嘅話就一定要附和老鬼。432Please respect copyright.PENANA5Zl5ADoFVt
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門外嘅子瑜聽到就呆咗,明明呢啲朋友就無同自己講過呢啲嘢,但係就係前輩面前獻眉,亦因此加入指責子瑜嘅一方。432Please respect copyright.PENANAsRaHyu9KlW
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子瑜困惑。432Please respect copyright.PENANADdCjcBIXPV
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子瑜唔明點解朋友會咁樣係背後話自己,點解要攻擊自己?點解要為咗奉承他人而出賣自己?432Please respect copyright.PENANAATa7XH9hEo
432Please respect copyright.PENANAXJ5PrzRQyF
「總之你哋同佢講快啲退出呢套劇,等我可以擔正。」前輩講。432Please respect copyright.PENANAvFABKuloDv
432Please respect copyright.PENANAhGmm4JpkhX
「我哋會同子瑜講㗎啦,叫佢退位,等你呢個後補主角可以擔正。」432Please respect copyright.PENANAO9gNzXL0X2
432Please respect copyright.PENANAmgdEz5FSZZ
「我哋會好好幫你㗎啦前輩,之後幫有演出俾我哋就可以。」432Please respect copyright.PENANA1DN3NSyIP6
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「放心等我哋幫手,我哋會將子瑜從你畢業劇中趕出去。」432Please respect copyright.PENANAREyBZhXObV
432Please respect copyright.PENANAKkt42NHXMH
八婆們一致地背叛咗子瑜,完全唔似係朋友嘅作為。432Please respect copyright.PENANApbzuNG4If1
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原來友情可以咁脆弱。432Please respect copyright.PENANAnm9vhPv7yW
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比起朋友,八婆們選擇自己係話劇社嘅地位,放棄同子瑜嘅關係。432Please respect copyright.PENANAkulXAENFcA
432Please respect copyright.PENANAXXAxoJCO8T
子瑜無好唔開心,無想大叫,無崩潰。432Please respect copyright.PENANAuilQ67SvR6
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子瑜好平靜,內心安靜都自己都唔相信。無內心戲,內心戲係零。
子瑜無問點解啲朋友要咁對佢,無問點解受苦嘅係自己,佢乜都無問。432Please respect copyright.PENANAcg3YNaXvtK
432Please respect copyright.PENANAsGkgdEQX9D
被相信嘅人背叛,無翻天覆地嘅傷心,無傷心欲絕嘅情緒,平靜到好唔自然。432Please respect copyright.PENANAyq8t8EnqK0
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平靜過後嘅係罪疚感,佢覺得因為自己唔識考慮前輩嘅感受先會咁樣。432Please respect copyright.PENANAfNkJIImmof
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因為無考慮到人哋就嚟畢業、呢個係人哋嘅最後演出機會,自己膽粗粗咁去試鏡仲搶咗人哋個位先搞到「朋友」都怪責自己。432Please respect copyright.PENANAIUpIPJDXAT
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好神奇,子瑜仲當佢哋係朋友。432Please respect copyright.PENANAMbRJ9SN5XI
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因為做錯事嘅係自己,所以「朋友」怪責自己都無可厚非。432Please respect copyright.PENANALq374iP2mf
432Please respect copyright.PENANAMyvNSoKTgi
係門口嘅子瑜無走入去會室,佢轉身離開。432Please respect copyright.PENANAZsokqFh4R9
432Please respect copyright.PENANAMdV8ZyYeGN
翌日排練時,係台上嘅子瑜聽到「朋友」同佢打氣,叫佢加油。平時唔理他人目光嘅子瑜突然感覺到好多視線,而呢啲視線彷彿伴隨無盡嘅惡意,即使對方無呢個意思,子瑜感覺到嘅就只有惡意。432Please respect copyright.PENANAJrbrozD4v3
432Please respect copyright.PENANAztbzz98Fvh
企係台上嘅子瑜怔著,郁都唔郁咁望住台下,天旋地轉,眼前嘅畫面化成模糊嘅油彩畫慢慢分散,雙腳莫名其妙地感到酸軟。432Please respect copyright.PENANA8Js7iJJxJT
432Please respect copyright.PENANArujbgzJj6w
子瑜覺得所有人對佢對有一種無講出口嘅負面諗法,覺得在場嘅人都討厭佢。432Please respect copyright.PENANAZNVpLRZ1V3
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點解你會係到?432Please respect copyright.PENANAXpVHCDSQq2
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你憑乜係到?432Please respect copyright.PENANA6Np7ZbJgAn
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無人鐘意你呀?432Please respect copyright.PENANAMDucS9fwvP
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面皮咁厚都有。432Please respect copyright.PENANA8cDc20CJYf
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幻聽。432Please respect copyright.PENANAiGXYYWWkku
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無盡嘅負面想法有如颱風般湧入子瑜腦海,惡意刺痛子瑜全身,入血入肉。432Please respect copyright.PENANAtysDxYOMHr
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反胃,係台上嘅子瑜因為一股反胃感而奔去廁所嘔吐,呢刻嘅獨自攬住馬桶子瑜知道要離開。432Please respect copyright.PENANApvs5SvAcMa
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子瑜無視前嚟關心佢嘅「朋友」,子瑜轉身離開劇團,離開話劇,離開「朋友」。432Please respect copyright.PENANAyJoROqqNwL
432Please respect copyright.PENANAzp223bnHql
之後八婆們有whatsapp問子瑜點解突然之間潛水,但係子瑜完全無心機去回覆。432Please respect copyright.PENANAUuOblZnHZF
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自此之後,子瑜就懼怕人群,驚咗人群嘅視線,假定所有人都對佢有惡意。432Please respect copyright.PENANARm7Vbmp8fv
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當然,子瑜話恆樂係例外,因為佢係一個不折不扣嘅on9仔。432Please respect copyright.PENANA2RckH6MGaf
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離開話劇社後,子瑜嘅表演慾還在,輾轉之下佢選擇成為vtuber,本身鐘意動畫嘅佢出盡全力自學coding同時學畫3d模組,只係一個暑假就搞掂所有嘢再成功出道。432Please respect copyright.PENANATELkpEn5Nj
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螢幕背後就唔會直接感受到惡意,所以呢個就係子瑜選擇嘅方法。432Please respect copyright.PENANAgBre5e7haI
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一切都係自己一個。432Please respect copyright.PENANAs8Ldyv0pv5
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「我嘅故事就係咁無聊。」子瑜苦笑道。432Please respect copyright.PENANABxd7rCeU1S
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子瑜嘅表情痛苦非常,但又勉強擺出苦笑,就好似叫恆樂唔好關心佢。432Please respect copyright.PENANAWuXKnOJO94
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但係就因為咁,恆樂先更加扎心。432Please respect copyright.PENANA5c5vvGyVk7
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或者子瑜都唔知道自己想點,唔知道自己想要啲係自己身邊嘅人。432Please respect copyright.PENANAkherM947yV
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一切都係或者,恆樂無嘢可以好確切咁講。432Please respect copyright.PENANAgKI0fEPLdQ
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但係因為佢迫子瑜講,子瑜先將自己喺內心唔想講嘅人係自己面前宣之於口。432Please respect copyright.PENANAT1JINtnCZo
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所以恆樂點都想好好安慰子瑜,因為自己就係令佢講出呢段難陷過去嘅原因。432Please respect copyright.PENANA7ONWLtwRtS
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所以恆樂決定踏出一步。432Please respect copyright.PENANAM9LjUQBttL
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「你⋯⋯」恆樂輕輕攬住子瑜再講:「佢哋根本唔係你朋友,你無做錯過事,根本唔需要咁自責要受苦嘅應該係佢你而唔係你。」432Please respect copyright.PENANAlRFz8uPzrx
432Please respect copyright.PENANAKaVdU2b5Oq
「唔好抽我水喎。」子瑜雖然嘴上咁講,但係毫無甩開攬住佢嘅恆樂嘅意思。