「果然係對我有好感。」恆樂自豪地點頭。433Please respect copyright.PENANAGVFPdT1BXY
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「你講咩話?」子瑜抆住恆樂耳仔講。433Please respect copyright.PENANAfZW3dF70Dr
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「無講嘢呀,我等緊你分享。」433Please respect copyright.PENANAFRq8tr5AL6
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「衰人!」子瑜行過梳化坐低後講:「坐低再慢慢講啦。」433Please respect copyright.PENANAbl4lhidm3w
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恆樂馬上狗沖去梳化坐低聽故仔。433Please respect copyright.PENANA9aVsNSoGSG
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子瑜本來係大學話劇社嘅成員,一直都對表演都有份渴望同追求。話劇社每年都會有兩到三套話劇,每次都係由個人自薦casting選角。子瑜同今朝班八婆就係話劇社到認識,因為大家都鐘意動漫,加上係同一個year,所以好快就混熟。開頭大家都好好朋友,可以講下八婆嘢又會一齊出街,當時嘅子瑜真係當佢哋係朋友。433Please respect copyright.PENANAhu0dPRddVE
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只不過,呢啲只係子瑜嘅一廂情願。433Please respect copyright.PENANADg0NJVHucL
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當年嘅5月,有個大學聯校話劇show,當時嘅子瑜就cast中咗女主角,要知道有參加casting嘅有嚟知唔同大學嘅人,亦有同子瑜同一間大學嘅前輩,所以呢個角色係子瑜打敗咗好多人先拎到手。433Please respect copyright.PENANA3mzNVDKO7x
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如果只係校內嘅校劇,通常都係由老鬼去揀人做演出,老鬼可以揀角、揀劇本,每一個演出都係由老鬼做主導,正路嚟講,子瑜呢啲新人唔會有太多機會演出。433Please respect copyright.PENANASkRx1o4RF3
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但係聯校show唔同,揀人嘅外校嘅人,無咁黑箱作業,所以子瑜先有機會係老鬼中突圍。433Please respect copyright.PENANAg0NKXf3qPt
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呢件就係關係破裂嘅開端。433Please respect copyright.PENANANuyz8QoXsg
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當時嘅子瑜喺某一次返到自己大學嘅話劇社嘅會室到拎化妝品,因為大學生們都要準備final exam,照理嚟講唔應該當時嘅會室唔應該有人,但係事與願違。433Please respect copyright.PENANAYXWE6sCVYI
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當時會室嘅有嘅就係恆樂見到嘅幾個八婆同埋一位落選casting嘅前輩,嗰位前輩cast嘅位就係正正俾子瑜拎咗。433Please respect copyright.PENANASRwAuJ6Ch1
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全部都係女人。433Please respect copyright.PENANAMibjwPUEZA
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女人嘅圈子,可以話係麻煩。433Please respect copyright.PENANA15yI7Ec5Q0
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本來想走入會室嘅子瑜因為聽到有人提及自己個名而停落嚟。
「係囉,我哋都話過子瑜,但係佢又唔聽。」433Please respect copyright.PENANAzhNEupRjUS
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「我哋都話過佢,前輩就嚟畢業,唔好去亂試鏡留返啲機會俾就嚟畢業嘅人。」433Please respect copyright.PENANAB3sC5OGagt
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「係子瑜太固執搞到我哋點阻止佢哋都無用。」433Please respect copyright.PENANANqSQOIqwRx
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三位八婆向前輩表明自己係無辜,大概係為咗保全自己係劇團嘅地位,因為老鬼點都係劇社有啲話語權,唔想係話劇社被老鬼玩嘅話就一定要附和老鬼。433Please respect copyright.PENANA7MhyGu8spO
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門外嘅子瑜聽到就呆咗,明明呢啲朋友就無同自己講過呢啲嘢,但係就係前輩面前獻眉,亦因此加入指責子瑜嘅一方。433Please respect copyright.PENANAHriTCAfFfA
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子瑜困惑。433Please respect copyright.PENANAOFwMqBKyX7
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子瑜唔明點解朋友會咁樣係背後話自己,點解要攻擊自己?點解要為咗奉承他人而出賣自己?433Please respect copyright.PENANAGgp30gqoee
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「總之你哋同佢講快啲退出呢套劇,等我可以擔正。」前輩講。433Please respect copyright.PENANA7aSHBFbOP7
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「我哋會同子瑜講㗎啦,叫佢退位,等你呢個後補主角可以擔正。」433Please respect copyright.PENANA6tMkHfhxol
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「我哋會好好幫你㗎啦前輩,之後幫有演出俾我哋就可以。」433Please respect copyright.PENANAsTPUe8oT5C
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「放心等我哋幫手,我哋會將子瑜從你畢業劇中趕出去。」433Please respect copyright.PENANAI9cIwHnPKL
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八婆們一致地背叛咗子瑜,完全唔似係朋友嘅作為。433Please respect copyright.PENANAIJtT4X5EJ8
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原來友情可以咁脆弱。433Please respect copyright.PENANAWZeVFv6iJ7
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比起朋友,八婆們選擇自己係話劇社嘅地位,放棄同子瑜嘅關係。433Please respect copyright.PENANATyAbbSAINz
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子瑜無好唔開心,無想大叫,無崩潰。433Please respect copyright.PENANA30ZUCSvd2D
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子瑜好平靜,內心安靜都自己都唔相信。無內心戲,內心戲係零。
子瑜無問點解啲朋友要咁對佢,無問點解受苦嘅係自己,佢乜都無問。433Please respect copyright.PENANAfNu6hd1PUI
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被相信嘅人背叛,無翻天覆地嘅傷心,無傷心欲絕嘅情緒,平靜到好唔自然。433Please respect copyright.PENANASibEhIqKTq
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平靜過後嘅係罪疚感,佢覺得因為自己唔識考慮前輩嘅感受先會咁樣。433Please respect copyright.PENANAKfVl1BNHJw
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因為無考慮到人哋就嚟畢業、呢個係人哋嘅最後演出機會,自己膽粗粗咁去試鏡仲搶咗人哋個位先搞到「朋友」都怪責自己。433Please respect copyright.PENANARvoQ0KaV0X
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好神奇,子瑜仲當佢哋係朋友。433Please respect copyright.PENANAZNdOBNPpBQ
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因為做錯事嘅係自己,所以「朋友」怪責自己都無可厚非。433Please respect copyright.PENANADhOC7N6SlI
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係門口嘅子瑜無走入去會室,佢轉身離開。433Please respect copyright.PENANA1qtPcZU2zK
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翌日排練時,係台上嘅子瑜聽到「朋友」同佢打氣,叫佢加油。平時唔理他人目光嘅子瑜突然感覺到好多視線,而呢啲視線彷彿伴隨無盡嘅惡意,即使對方無呢個意思,子瑜感覺到嘅就只有惡意。433Please respect copyright.PENANADGA3RIYInH
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企係台上嘅子瑜怔著,郁都唔郁咁望住台下,天旋地轉,眼前嘅畫面化成模糊嘅油彩畫慢慢分散,雙腳莫名其妙地感到酸軟。433Please respect copyright.PENANAju48t4bA4H
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子瑜覺得所有人對佢對有一種無講出口嘅負面諗法,覺得在場嘅人都討厭佢。433Please respect copyright.PENANAGaH8ocZ3dY
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點解你會係到?433Please respect copyright.PENANAT6nAZ9Y6vZ
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你憑乜係到?433Please respect copyright.PENANAXtQqjcu3St
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無人鐘意你呀?433Please respect copyright.PENANAb4x5IFdk61
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面皮咁厚都有。433Please respect copyright.PENANAJRvuVUEfqZ
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幻聽。433Please respect copyright.PENANAdoJKPS5e8E
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無盡嘅負面想法有如颱風般湧入子瑜腦海,惡意刺痛子瑜全身,入血入肉。433Please respect copyright.PENANAkl3n1yZvvx
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反胃,係台上嘅子瑜因為一股反胃感而奔去廁所嘔吐,呢刻嘅獨自攬住馬桶子瑜知道要離開。433Please respect copyright.PENANAoJtHfmD85e
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子瑜無視前嚟關心佢嘅「朋友」,子瑜轉身離開劇團,離開話劇,離開「朋友」。433Please respect copyright.PENANAc59z7FndkP
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之後八婆們有whatsapp問子瑜點解突然之間潛水,但係子瑜完全無心機去回覆。433Please respect copyright.PENANAv5zR8ny6uA
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自此之後,子瑜就懼怕人群,驚咗人群嘅視線,假定所有人都對佢有惡意。433Please respect copyright.PENANArYc1dLSxjs
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當然,子瑜話恆樂係例外,因為佢係一個不折不扣嘅on9仔。433Please respect copyright.PENANAiXgI3NVDfG
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離開話劇社後,子瑜嘅表演慾還在,輾轉之下佢選擇成為vtuber,本身鐘意動畫嘅佢出盡全力自學coding同時學畫3d模組,只係一個暑假就搞掂所有嘢再成功出道。433Please respect copyright.PENANAKkxJszyYD2
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螢幕背後就唔會直接感受到惡意,所以呢個就係子瑜選擇嘅方法。433Please respect copyright.PENANA8tsW8veukf
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一切都係自己一個。433Please respect copyright.PENANAZyW9CyuQLw
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「我嘅故事就係咁無聊。」子瑜苦笑道。433Please respect copyright.PENANAYYwuykj9GN
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子瑜嘅表情痛苦非常,但又勉強擺出苦笑,就好似叫恆樂唔好關心佢。433Please respect copyright.PENANA7XqIUOwptx
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但係就因為咁,恆樂先更加扎心。433Please respect copyright.PENANAGreHOWogxP
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或者子瑜都唔知道自己想點,唔知道自己想要啲係自己身邊嘅人。433Please respect copyright.PENANAl4jlUdiwWE
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一切都係或者,恆樂無嘢可以好確切咁講。433Please respect copyright.PENANAso36xUcTGf
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但係因為佢迫子瑜講,子瑜先將自己喺內心唔想講嘅人係自己面前宣之於口。433Please respect copyright.PENANAWPMZ3i8HtL
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所以恆樂點都想好好安慰子瑜,因為自己就係令佢講出呢段難陷過去嘅原因。433Please respect copyright.PENANAxQbzvek6cX
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所以恆樂決定踏出一步。433Please respect copyright.PENANAdSvyrkGJtz
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「你⋯⋯」恆樂輕輕攬住子瑜再講:「佢哋根本唔係你朋友,你無做錯過事,根本唔需要咁自責要受苦嘅應該係佢你而唔係你。」433Please respect copyright.PENANAOhu4mx7HC1
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「唔好抽我水喎。」子瑜雖然嘴上咁講,但係毫無甩開攬住佢嘅恆樂嘅意思。