「果然係對我有好感。」恆樂自豪地點頭。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSnWIWGFV1
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaINKmRFZGh
「你講咩話？」子瑜抆住恆樂耳仔講。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMqBu35Cro
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NmYhfwgdm
「無講嘢呀，我等緊你分享。」414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VMpajiOOC
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlUlwZ8GhJ
「衰人！」子瑜行過梳化坐低後講：「坐低再慢慢講啦。」414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9h9AnIIxcd
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRZmjSWbyK
恆樂馬上狗沖去梳化坐低聽故仔。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUOxfc8qgP
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZZnXFDSuy
子瑜本來係大學話劇社嘅成員，一直都對表演都有份渴望同追求。話劇社每年都會有兩到三套話劇，每次都係由個人自薦casting選角。子瑜同今朝班八婆就係話劇社到認識，因為大家都鐘意動漫，加上係同一個year，所以好快就混熟。開頭大家都好好朋友，可以講下八婆嘢又會一齊出街，當時嘅子瑜真係當佢哋係朋友。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nYO2QMoRh
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKxJL2uMEu
只不過，呢啲只係子瑜嘅一廂情願。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoST8tpaQ12
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGcwnfGKS4
當年嘅5月，有個大學聯校話劇show，當時嘅子瑜就cast中咗女主角，要知道有參加casting嘅有嚟知唔同大學嘅人，亦有同子瑜同一間大學嘅前輩，所以呢個角色係子瑜打敗咗好多人先拎到手。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyG6fOfDUb
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpf5p7R4MXk
如果只係校內嘅校劇，通常都係由老鬼去揀人做演出，老鬼可以揀角、揀劇本，每一個演出都係由老鬼做主導，正路嚟講，子瑜呢啲新人唔會有太多機會演出。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSeVplbakH
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKcYKEQJiU
但係聯校show唔同，揀人嘅外校嘅人，無咁黑箱作業，所以子瑜先有機會係老鬼中突圍。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9w7YptFUFk
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0elQaMWgi
呢件就係關係破裂嘅開端。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPkV073AmA
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgC7z6Icik
當時嘅子瑜喺某一次返到自己大學嘅話劇社嘅會室到拎化妝品，因為大學生們都要準備final exam，照理嚟講唔應該當時嘅會室唔應該有人，但係事與願違。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XEfduDT0V
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWVbaIDAgi
當時會室嘅有嘅就係恆樂見到嘅幾個八婆同埋一位落選casting嘅前輩，嗰位前輩cast嘅位就係正正俾子瑜拎咗。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pfyiq2XL0
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslpSKyLlfP
全部都係女人。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrKxbcrbpD
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvnjccmJCn
女人嘅圈子，可以話係麻煩。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZf4CvT5Fsd
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkJzfFOfe0
本來想走入會室嘅子瑜因為聽到有人提及自己個名而停落嚟。
「係囉，我哋都話過子瑜，但係佢又唔聽。」414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgc8Wcn7ISN
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7yCqH6FN5
「我哋都話過佢，前輩就嚟畢業，唔好去亂試鏡留返啲機會俾就嚟畢業嘅人。」414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyvYk7LBsp
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RgvtRCsYv
「係子瑜太固執搞到我哋點阻止佢哋都無用。」414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdBemv3naj
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70XFvvfTMj
三位八婆向前輩表明自己係無辜，大概係為咗保全自己係劇團嘅地位，因為老鬼點都係劇社有啲話語權，唔想係話劇社被老鬼玩嘅話就一定要附和老鬼。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNB6X6LCtX3
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzIA17XeKJ
門外嘅子瑜聽到就呆咗，明明呢啲朋友就無同自己講過呢啲嘢，但係就係前輩面前獻眉，亦因此加入指責子瑜嘅一方。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vqRrSllKF
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmnS7LfpSV
子瑜困惑。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQfr0v20pW
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXFwOuYSzB
子瑜唔明點解朋友會咁樣係背後話自己，點解要攻擊自己？點解要為咗奉承他人而出賣自己？414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLcFy8V3eU
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2e8OgEfY2
「總之你哋同佢講快啲退出呢套劇，等我可以擔正。」前輩講。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmpZkr2j8j
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirQGDGBioU
「我哋會同子瑜講㗎啦，叫佢退位，等你呢個後補主角可以擔正。」414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJeWjPR90mE
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hIEdjFlTP
「我哋會好好幫你㗎啦前輩，之後幫有演出俾我哋就可以。」414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHSXf9zHkF
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6eWdcaOBM
「放心等我哋幫手，我哋會將子瑜從你畢業劇中趕出去。」414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRF1YmVaTM
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwd2rWiEvB
八婆們一致地背叛咗子瑜，完全唔似係朋友嘅作為。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLop16ItV4
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Wcu9ZAZbZ
原來友情可以咁脆弱。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHVDxsd3qq
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡImxyvIEqKj
比起朋友，八婆們選擇自己係話劇社嘅地位，放棄同子瑜嘅關係。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRloMBlO4Hx
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWfjDLjzQu
子瑜無好唔開心，無想大叫，無崩潰。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVeiFeqj4A
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYavrvFzKj
子瑜好平靜，內心安靜都自己都唔相信。無內心戲，內心戲係零。
子瑜無問點解啲朋友要咁對佢，無問點解受苦嘅係自己，佢乜都無問。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLWT1wAL61
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmzzsItvL7
被相信嘅人背叛，無翻天覆地嘅傷心，無傷心欲絕嘅情緒，平靜到好唔自然。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZVOCrCoAl
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22Q8PgX1sw
平靜過後嘅係罪疚感，佢覺得因為自己唔識考慮前輩嘅感受先會咁樣。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbgzn4uf1s
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCjuSi7mDNx
因為無考慮到人哋就嚟畢業、呢個係人哋嘅最後演出機會，自己膽粗粗咁去試鏡仲搶咗人哋個位先搞到「朋友」都怪責自己。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4S21sjiBk
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8xOt4yyN2
好神奇，子瑜仲當佢哋係朋友。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WKpyCfbln
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnH0PlDCok
因為做錯事嘅係自己，所以「朋友」怪責自己都無可厚非。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrIXb7W43b
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9vNWH8nwE
係門口嘅子瑜無走入去會室，佢轉身離開。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvXQvx2cUAW
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9Dcf94G9a
翌日排練時，係台上嘅子瑜聽到「朋友」同佢打氣，叫佢加油。平時唔理他人目光嘅子瑜突然感覺到好多視線，而呢啲視線彷彿伴隨無盡嘅惡意，即使對方無呢個意思，子瑜感覺到嘅就只有惡意。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFvOexZMLf
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCv3u8p7seL
企係台上嘅子瑜怔著，郁都唔郁咁望住台下，天旋地轉，眼前嘅畫面化成模糊嘅油彩畫慢慢分散，雙腳莫名其妙地感到酸軟。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkuXdGZKBL
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvXHmZVdyL
子瑜覺得所有人對佢對有一種無講出口嘅負面諗法，覺得在場嘅人都討厭佢。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2P3kCP0nde
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVMJlf7nTgV
點解你會係到？414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIea0VtioIF
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAE15wAguu
你憑乜係到？414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCTw7CRu3i
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqIqvUKjKo
無人鐘意你呀？414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4Y5CYv2Bt
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMHexku1gO
面皮咁厚都有。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2lyWwFEVr
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmb3RQpS5fM
幻聽。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvFK4YcuBN
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCCTMmlpD4
無盡嘅負面想法有如颱風般湧入子瑜腦海，惡意刺痛子瑜全身，入血入肉。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OXf3OhYVN
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxlsP2c1tb
反胃，係台上嘅子瑜因為一股反胃感而奔去廁所嘔吐，呢刻嘅獨自攬住馬桶子瑜知道要離開。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWht92LS5F2
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rp6lYBJAP
子瑜無視前嚟關心佢嘅「朋友」，子瑜轉身離開劇團，離開話劇，離開「朋友」。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhcRf1Gvne
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1HkEfG1u7
之後八婆們有whatsapp問子瑜點解突然之間潛水，但係子瑜完全無心機去回覆。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6q9JsMNcC
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLgVhyXLMO
自此之後，子瑜就懼怕人群，驚咗人群嘅視線，假定所有人都對佢有惡意。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaWdSkRQ0F
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgK7DWDfaim
當然，子瑜話恆樂係例外，因為佢係一個不折不扣嘅on9仔。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrQ0CGccbD
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVslfPuc3f5
離開話劇社後，子瑜嘅表演慾還在，輾轉之下佢選擇成為vtuber，本身鐘意動畫嘅佢出盡全力自學coding同時學畫3d模組，只係一個暑假就搞掂所有嘢再成功出道。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19oyXXDqqK
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AE6G6tSg4
螢幕背後就唔會直接感受到惡意，所以呢個就係子瑜選擇嘅方法。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74qukUR9Jz
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoRzCNQXfF
一切都係自己一個。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJg84qQTta7
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡju9YJ5TkfK
「我嘅故事就係咁無聊。」子瑜苦笑道。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTSl5pOC4xk
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxDg1E2URD
子瑜嘅表情痛苦非常，但又勉強擺出苦笑，就好似叫恆樂唔好關心佢。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdbHTFhepb
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkd3mHIm1m
但係就因為咁，恆樂先更加扎心。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMiF77kxZ9
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OqCDdtpb0
或者子瑜都唔知道自己想點，唔知道自己想要啲係自己身邊嘅人。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDsAZpjUqQ
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOgysDa3II
一切都係或者，恆樂無嘢可以好確切咁講。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6LPQgL5qu
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhEXjNl18wS
但係因為佢迫子瑜講，子瑜先將自己喺內心唔想講嘅人係自己面前宣之於口。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwH1IKtwlW
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGHXCwCl3c
所以恆樂點都想好好安慰子瑜，因為自己就係令佢講出呢段難陷過去嘅原因。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHy5PG0n2Zf
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUtEirrhQY
所以恆樂決定踏出一步。414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxe8aYl0LP5
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMmkQzgj8E
「你⋯⋯」恆樂輕輕攬住子瑜再講：「佢哋根本唔係你朋友，你無做錯過事，根本唔需要咁自責要受苦嘅應該係佢你而唔係你。」414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDbBVsa2w1
414Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDFNDfZOUjI
「唔好抽我水喎。」子瑜雖然嘴上咁講，但係毫無甩開攬住佢嘅恆樂嘅意思。
然後按「加至主畫面」