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「我的雖然沒有你的那麼悲慘,不過應該還算是不好的吧。」235Please respect copyright.PENANApOFBdTXnf1
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櫟彬原本沒什麼想聽的意思,但看在丹竣這麼想說的份上,還是裝做認真地聽著他說著。235Please respect copyright.PENANAdvKOwlx2nQ
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「在我很小的時候,父母就過世了,變成孤兒的我,沒有任何親戚想要收留,只好進孤兒院裡,等別人收養我。」235Please respect copyright.PENANA7berQXg14p
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「當我一進去時,照護阿姨把我一一介紹給院裡的孩子們認識,之後她將我交給一個比我小兩歲,暱稱叫作『小凡』的男孩,讓他帶著我熟悉環境。」235Please respect copyright.PENANAqQOh9I9WRr
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回想起兒時記憶,照護阿姨讓他們兩個互相認識的畫面,那個畫面他到現在還記著。235Please respect copyright.PENANAu4sBM5aiPA
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「小凡,這位是丹竣,是今天剛進來的孩子,大你兩歲,從今天起,你要好好帶他認識環境,跟他好好相處喔!」235Please respect copyright.PENANAs8ALGTqimo
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在不適應的地方,講話不免有些緊張,斷斷續續地,雖是緊張,但還是把手伸起來,示出善意地要和對方握手。235Please respect copyright.PENANA8F8SMxY55b
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「那個…你好…我叫丹竣…請多指教。」235Please respect copyright.PENANAyX5KfFcFVx
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那個留著一頭黑色中長髮的男孩,對自己伸出小手握了回去,笑臉迎人地說。235Please respect copyright.PENANAog8YWmDAPa
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「我是書凡,也請你多多指教,這樣以後我們就是朋友了喔!」235Please respect copyright.PENANAbFM9Uq41pD
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殊不知自己在這時就逐漸引起了他的強烈佔有欲,也在不知不覺間讓他對自己的依賴性變得更重。235Please respect copyright.PENANAsx3mr1WERL
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「之後他帶著我結交了許多朋友,不過我覺得他比誰都還要令我擔心…」235Please respect copyright.PENANAbR1wAtd3Yy
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「他和我的相處時間越來越多,我就害怕他一直離不開我,明明是他帶我認識了這些人,結果發現我比他還要常和他們相處,要是我離開的話,他是不是會很孤單?會不會有其他狀況發生?我很想知道。」235Please respect copyright.PENANA78E2Cuk0Ct
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「其他人我倒不擔心這麼多,但唯獨他是讓我最在意的,放不下心只留他一人在那裡。」235Please respect copyright.PENANAg4uYtx361s
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「我和他長大後,從孤兒院離開,搬到一間小房子一起居住,互相扶持,不過就是因為這樣,反而讓他對我的依賴提升不少了,這成了我擔心的事。」235Please respect copyright.PENANAQwSMF4WFWD
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櫟彬從這段故事當中,得知到另一個名字後,深覺那個男的對丹竣而言,是個放不下心的存在,於是便將限制放寬,讓他能回現實世界一趟,至少這麼做能讓他比較安心吧。235Please respect copyright.PENANAWdEJhonw0A
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「看你這麼想去見他,我就放你回去一趟吧。」235Please respect copyright.PENANAZfS5BsWgKA
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「真的?」235Please respect copyright.PENANAoE4OLnnVsn
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看到丹竣眼神轉變的模樣,櫟彬也鬆了口氣,希望他別在那時候讓自己不放心才好。235Please respect copyright.PENANAGvmzKznf7D
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到了隔天,他就趁他離開時,回到現實世界去,見書凡一面,即便是到那間很久沒見的房子,心裡還是緊的。235Please respect copyright.PENANALpBhzEh3IM
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在敲門幾下後,才看到對方打開了門,留著一頭依然沒有變的熟悉黑色中長髮,原本臉上的稚氣倒是褪了不少,多了幾分成熟。235Please respect copyright.PENANAab1acPBQ8g
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進到屋內後,坐在沙發上的兩人便寒喧了幾句。235Please respect copyright.PENANAeGv7MBXhtI
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「哥,我一直都很想你,最近是去哪了?我怎麼找都找不到你。」235Please respect copyright.PENANAkba3PGBu0z
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「抱歉啊,讓你擔心了。」235Please respect copyright.PENANATA2Wvsya3S
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「不會,哥願意回來就好,我還想說是不是哥不想回來了?惹你不開心了還是什麼的,才會讓你不想回來家裡。」235Please respect copyright.PENANAlG61PHJQ5h
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「沒有啦,就是去別的地方交朋友而已,沒什麼大不了的。」235Please respect copyright.PENANAlI0BPk8BsN
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「這樣啊…看來是我多慮了。」235Please respect copyright.PENANAF05sed3ZwM
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隨後,書凡遞杯水給丹竣,笑著說。235Please respect copyright.PENANAXJl93ZFNjp
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「哥這麼大老遠過來,怎麼沒告訴我?都沒去市集買點東西…」235Please respect copyright.PENANAg4zq7Vx580
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「沒關係,不用特別準備。」235Please respect copyright.PENANAry5Y3Wybd2
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當丹竣喝下一口水後,覺得不太對勁,感覺意識似乎越來越模糊,過了一會,即刻倒在沙發上。235Please respect copyright.PENANAznNItHvQ6q
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「哥,抱歉了,讓我暫時越界一下吧。」235Please respect copyright.PENANA2mux9CjuUF
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接著,書凡抱起了他,將他身體移到床上,只有在藥效退去之前,才能夠真正擁有他的軀體。235Please respect copyright.PENANAWjx79257Mv
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想起自己為了能保護好這大兩歲的哥哥,學了基礎魔法後,便離開了學院,自學黑魔法,因為它有著比一般通用的新興魔法還來的更強,能與古魔法並駕齊驅的能力。235Please respect copyright.PENANAmtR4HPnUGc
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(關於三者的比較,會在文末說明)235Please respect copyright.PENANA2XEo3BuOgN
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自己由於黑魔法的關係,以捨棄掉愛情做為代價,不能對他有任何存有曖昧的舉動,只能用這種方式,讓他留在自己身邊。235Please respect copyright.PENANAdHZogoa1v1
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過了許久,丹竣醒來,發現自己不是在客廳沙發上,而是在臥室裡,感到困惑的他,正要拉開被子準備起身時…235Please respect copyright.PENANAbi1OgIFCRI
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…咦?怎麼自己是光著身子的?235Please respect copyright.PENANAHkJcrKAate
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瞥向一旁躺著的書凡,丹竣急忙想出各種可能性,來合理化這個問題,深思熟慮後,臉色大變,該不會是這樣子吧?自己的初次就這麼獻給他了…不可能吧…235Please respect copyright.PENANA5YUpMehJMS
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覺得一切都來的太突然了,超出自己的預料之外,嚇壞的丹竣趕緊穿好衣服、褲子,趁書凡還在熟睡的時候,回到櫟彬家裡。235Please respect copyright.PENANAK6NXvDKaQn
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「他應該是這時候就會回來了,回去還來得及。」235Please respect copyright.PENANA6GYNNyiFOe
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丹竣沒料到自己處在危險的時候,竟然第一個想到的人就是他,那個對自己說「不可能喜歡你」的人。235Please respect copyright.PENANApepdd2IieV
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自己也沒想到這個小兩歲的弟弟會做出這種事來,原本以為他還是以前那單純可愛的孩子,結果卻是會對自己下藥,做出踰矩事情的人。235Please respect copyright.PENANABdp3nykr9A
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「剛才要是你就好了,跟我做那種事的人,只能是你啊。」235Please respect copyright.PENANAzqtXiu2NIX
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自己好像真的喜歡上他了,才會有這種想法吧,想要徹底地擁有他,即使不明白他的想法,只要能跟他在同一個空間,自己也會感到滿足。235Please respect copyright.PENANASNiNRs8vqF
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此時唯一的念頭就是想要趕快回到那個地方,能讓自己感受到溫暖的處所。235Please respect copyright.PENANAulQDD6qTQn
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令丹竣失望的是,打開門時,看到櫟彬還沒回家,人在回來的路上。235Please respect copyright.PENANA6CX4YGBfA3
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無聊的他走到床邊坐下,聞著被單熟悉的氣息,檸檬清香加上香茅淡雅的味道,是洗衣精存留在布料上的香味,光是聞到氣味,就使自己莫名覺得安心。235Please respect copyright.PENANAfdulhPIA2m
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不久,他聽到鑰匙打開門的聲音,於是走過去看看,發現是櫟彬回來了。235Please respect copyright.PENANAWaAiOHdWJL
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「你怎麼在這裡?不是讓你回去了?」235Please respect copyright.PENANAgwvCxKUjpr
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看到這哥難過的樣子,只好把語氣放軟地說。235Please respect copyright.PENANAYVOO0oma3s
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「怎麼了?發生了什麼事?」235Please respect copyright.PENANA8HADLvedbH
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拉近一看,見到他強忍著淚水的模樣,不免開始擔心起來了,不怎麼會安慰人的櫟彬拿起面紙幫他擦拭眼淚。235Please respect copyright.PENANAZQ3ONz7CmP
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「好啦好啦,別哭了,儘管說出來沒關係,我不會生氣的。」235Please respect copyright.PENANA7JwvGCpZRL
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「真的?」235Please respect copyright.PENANA59xDdXBwjt
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看見眼前的人點了點頭,丹竣才說出口。235Please respect copyright.PENANA5PP472Ru7H
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「他…對我…做那種事了…我不知道他會這樣的…」235Please respect copyright.PENANAo7qzHSj4Gn
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「明明該是要和你的…真的不明白他對我的感情竟會變成這樣的…」235Please respect copyright.PENANAFUso8qOcTf
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原本以為是發生了什麼大事的櫟彬,結果聽到這樣的答覆,這哥對自己的想法不料竟然是這麼一回事,愣了一會後,問道。235Please respect copyright.PENANAmmrY1XXpY2
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「所以你就跑回來了?」235Please respect copyright.PENANA3GFwOi4D6G
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「嗯…」235Please respect copyright.PENANAGx1nNSLlyj
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「我好想忘掉這件事…可不可以幫我?」235Please respect copyright.PENANAp5mM6h3rxm
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「說真的,我不知道要怎麼幫你,也不了解我到底是有哪一點值得你喜歡的…」235Please respect copyright.PENANA4UnM6ntRqw
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仔細想想,自己就只是個再平凡不過的人罷了,怎麼會有人喜歡呢?235Please respect copyright.PENANAFchtbGMudn
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「跟他…做同樣的事…讓我抹去痛苦…拜託…」235Please respect copyright.PENANAIAd3OF09By
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「一旦開始了,我不會輕易停手的。」235Please respect copyright.PENANANJro7zOBIu
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「…我不怕。」235Please respect copyright.PENANA6GXkqJBev3
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「能跟你在一起就好了。」這話只放在自己心裡面,不打算說出。235Please respect copyright.PENANA1XedfbWOrm
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接著,兩人進到書本裡,之後走進了屋子,一到床上的他們不用言語表達,只用親密的肢體接觸感受著彼此的體溫,就這樣過了一段時間後,疲憊的丹竣躺在床上,展露微笑的睡顏讓櫟彬看到出神。235Please respect copyright.PENANAQv6zHWUcIw
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「抱歉,沒辦法把最真實的想法告訴你,為了能繼續活著,就讓我自私一點吧。」235Please respect copyright.PENANALR2Hqvcx2H
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在他的額頭上落下一吻後,自己便去沖洗身體了。235Please respect copyright.PENANAQnKkjs4kQe
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原先不怎麼熟悉,對彼此還有些隔閡的兩人,現在已經坦誠相見,讓關係更進一步了。235Please respect copyright.PENANABuSCCHJV7e
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————以下為解說————235Please respect copyright.PENANAntXZQjKPgN
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【黑魔法、古魔法、新興魔法的比較】235Please respect copyright.PENANAkHs9Sq3CrM
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為現行法規當中,不適用於普羅大眾的魔法,因有其傷害性,所以被規為不建議使用、傳授、學習的魔法體系。235Please respect copyright.PENANAtfWdce2xts
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黑魔法效能上,和古魔法相近,比新興魔法還來得強大,發揮上有許多空間,但有著極大的風險,想習得黑魔法可要付出代價,得要捨棄掉一項事物才行,一旦違反了自身訂下的約束或使用超出自身負荷,都會被魔法反噬,造成死亡。235Please respect copyright.PENANA1t1fegry1a
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在學院當中,教授並不會讓學生修習此魔法,若有學習者,皆為自習而來,書凡就是以此途徑學到黑魔法的。235Please respect copyright.PENANATta9SXoOTi
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它能複製、吸收別人的魔法來加以運用,沒有接續往下細分的魔法分類,加上有一部份的人都會拿來做不當用途,因此有人譏稱為「偷竊魔法」、「不入流的魔法」。235Please respect copyright.PENANA1xUyeYgjlc
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為一切魔法的根源,有了它才有新興魔法的存在,古魔法書和新興魔法的書籍文字系統不同,因為閱讀困難,所以學院目前只有少數教授才會研究、解讀相關書籍。235Please respect copyright.PENANAWWmAL60jmN
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和新興魔法不同,不是直接修習即可,還要先經過儀式,才能開始修習魔法,櫟彬就是在老魔法師的幫助下,展開學習古魔法之路。235Please respect copyright.PENANAbByZHZaY61
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許多的新興魔法都是由古魔法所衍生出來的,分類不像新興魔法那麼詳細,以二分法(抽象、具象)開始細分,效能遠大於新興魔法,與黑魔法互相抗衡。235Please respect copyright.PENANAZT5D4D260s
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不只先前要有儀式,它也是要捨去自己一項事物做為代價才行的,習得古魔法的儀式,請參閱前序中,後半段所題及的部份。235Please respect copyright.PENANA2APm8NivWX
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現今擁有古魔法的魔法師屈指可數,學院裡並沒有教授會古魔法,從以前魔法還未普及,到今日魔法盛行,古魔法可說是一大重要功臣。235Please respect copyright.PENANAFDBD4exWd6
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由古魔法延伸出來,現今所提到的「魔法」一詞,大多是指新興魔法,為了和古魔法區分先後,因此加上了「新興」二字。235Please respect copyright.PENANA5hJS8nmPDi
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與古魔法不同,細分出眾多不同的類別,書籍編寫比古魔法書還要來得有系統許多,較能分出不同能力的學習者該學的內容,學院規則所分類出基礎、進階課程,就是以書籍學習上的難易度來調整的。235Please respect copyright.PENANARsiFvWLStx
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想在學院裡學新興魔法,可說是較為容易的,古魔法修習的課程,要看教授有沒有另行開設,不過櫟彬是屬於自己先前有在研讀的,大概算得上是一起研究的團隊成員之一。