同一時間，一艘從帝國出發前往澄冥汗國的船尚未到達目的地。這艘船的乘客之一──單心雪在房間內回想起過去。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprNnCP0vry
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她很怕孤獨，雖然很想克服，但總是忍不住尋找能依靠的人。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGI4m8ElyMn
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說白了，她不清楚自己想要甚麼。明明躺在床上，她依然很累。很累，就像在無限期追求一樣連存不存在也不清楚的事物。她在獨自旅行的這段期間遇過很多人，縱使也許不會再見，他們都在她心裏留下了印記。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzemHstikC
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然而，這些印記填不滿心的缺口。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JNVjyOLgF
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她想要甚麼？逝去了又追不回來的事──人。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1IJ58pKjU
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「啊......」躺在床上也感覺疲勞沒有散去的她，決定到甲板上看風景。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeN92fGRbFx
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甲板上的船員見到她都向她打招呼。不是因為她本身受他們尊敬，而是她跟著的那個人受他們尊敬。說得殘酷一點，她只是他戴在手上的一條金鏈。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91PiyKnsND
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她倚在船邊，海風拂過，帶她的思緒一同飄往遠方。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRjOBb1pV1
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梅陀姨姨。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeezIJd6OuS
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如果沒有姨姨，她也許還在孤兒院裏生活。大概十年前左右，一個叫梅陀的人來到孤兒院說要收養小孩。聽到有人來收養，幾乎所有小孩都爭先恐後地圍住梅陀。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1UCSNBa7g
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梅陀表面很親切，心雪卻有種她在故意隱瞞甚麼的感覺。經常被欺負的她就算說不上很會看他人臉色，也猜得到別人的心情。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyq54Q41UI
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心雪認定梅陀不是自己理想中的母親，便獨自躲在一角。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmAZPF53ahZ
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梅陀留意到不合群的心雪，故意上前和她說話。心雪想激怒梅陀，不想她打擾自己，一來便說了句「我討厭妳」。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTauumAMpFE
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梅陀露出心雪不理解的表情，深呼吸一口，問：「妳真的討厭我嗎？」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaQxIuw8FX
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討厭......心雪不明白梅陀問問題的理由，討厭一個人需要理由嗎？說討厭就是討厭，為甚麼要明知故問。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHSJdZUejB4
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「妳是壞人。」心雪臉上掛著厭惡的表情，別過頭說。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3qTkcnMO4
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「為甚麼覺得我是壞人？我有做壞事嗎？」梅陀追問。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzQhzSpWXA
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心雪自以為看穿了梅陀，梅陀也自以為看穿了心雪。事實上，兩人都沒有看穿對方內心最深處。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5f5Lq2wRKb
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梅陀此行確實是要收養小孩，但還有另一目的。她很怕心雪會當著眾人面前說出另一個目的。不過多麼敏感的孩子，也看不到別人的罪疚感。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPmxsKEwwQ
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要是心雪說得出來，她的偽善就曝光了。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XtWbk9RK2
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「我不喜歡妳。」心雪重申，期望梅陀能趕快放過她。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn76zIgBFmL
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「為甚麼不喜歡我？」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTViN6Smuqm
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「不要煩我！」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiucInGhx3
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心雪氣沖沖地跑回房間，鎖上門不讓任何人進來。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjB8jUDmgMB
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「對不起，這個小孩性格比較乖僻。」在梅陀旁邊的院長解釋，想平息梅陀的怒火。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0o5NqciFLH
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沒有生氣的梅陀問：「可以給她的資料我看嗎？麻煩了。」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJsuRRhN4I
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院長不明白這位說話有口音的女士為何要自討苦吃，但還是按她的要求辦事：「好，請跟我來。」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1XoNPYho3O
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「姐姐！不要管心雪那個怪胎啦！帶我走！」孩子羣裏，一個比較大的男孩拉著梅陀衣袖。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5juGg7FJWw
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梅陀笑著跟他說：「姐姐還有些事要做，所以......」她不敢拉開男孩的手，所以只能不斷向院長打眼色求救。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvRgL76hVt
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院長瞄到梅陀的眼色，粗魯地罵男孩：「文鋒，還不快點放手？」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVQnKnEdfu
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「是......」男孩垂頭喪氣。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6MDIGmk58
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「好了，你們也回去玩吧，我和這位姐姐有事要做。」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4ctvZFdus
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院長說完，小孩們都邊說著話邊回去遊樂室。梅陀不太聽到他們在說甚麼，但大概是在抱怨還沒有人來收養他們。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsYMzLuU4Y
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這些事都是梅陀後來跟心雪說的，心雪起初不知情。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeFvQJInPf
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院長和梅陀來到院長室，院長從書櫃拿了一本書出來。書原本是空白的，每當有一位孩子入住，院長便在新一頁寫下他的資料作紀錄之用。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfmWRVuaejX
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院長翻到心雪的那一頁給梅陀看，說：「這是剛才那位孩子的資料。」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGW0y8mU6pF
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名字、出生日期、年齡、性別、何時住進孤兒院、大致性格、喜歡的食物和住院前的經歷等等，兩頁內寫了心雪的基本資料。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOjYzsF7Q0
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梅陀看完，考慮一番後問：「她在這裏經常被欺負嗎？」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxsEUwX76R
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「是。」院長點頭，「我們有嘗試過叫孩子們和平相處，但心雪本來就不太合羣，又有些孩子比較調皮。我們說教完之後最近已經沒有欺凌事件發生，只是心雪依然不願和其他孩子一起玩。」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5NcBdlhkx
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「性格已經定型了呢。」梅陀像是很有經驗地說，微微嚇了院長一跳。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6czq5nGR0P
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梅陀留意到院長的表情，「抱歉，以前工作的時候要分析人的個性，所以不經意說了出口。」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg54VuaftRn
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「不要緊。」院長也認為不是大問題，「梅陀女士還有事想問嗎？」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgor1FZhLP
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「我可以收養她嗎？」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YhqKW3puO
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「她不太喜歡您，我恐怕強行讓您收養她，對您和她都不好。」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgcTBlwPoj
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梅陀想起自己早前才做過的事，她是為了做對事而做錯事，背負丁點罪惡感對她不是問題。本來早已捨棄罪惡感的她要拾回它，那怕只有一點點也覺得很重。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1glxfujEw6
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自認不是問題又覺得負擔很重，她知道這種心態很矛盾。但要說矛盾，過去的她更加矛盾。在人面前是一個樣子，工作時是另一個樣子，在某個人面前是第三個樣子，對著自己是第四個樣子，她以前也能隨意在四款樣子之間自由切換，說服一個小女孩跟她走對現在的她不會是難題。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXdrPYIwfg
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她低頭再看心雪的資料一次，有了計策。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9mDV7JSET
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「咯咯咯......」梅陀在心雪的房間外敲門，手上拿著一盤食物和勺子，「心雪？我是剛才的姐姐喔！我煮了妳最喜歡吃的辣豆腐，想吃嗎？」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNG8acJKdi
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梅陀在質疑自己。她知道心雪的秘密，卻不能告訴自己的秘密給她聽，這對心雪不公平。行家會說「沒有說不是騙」，但梅陀明白這跟欺騙沒分別。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTCBpLpA6B
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「辣豆腐？」房間內的心雪好像有點興趣。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3CyjVx7HR
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「是啊。姐姐親手煮的，想吃嗎？」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZA6MctTqGz
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心雪沒有回答，數秒後，她解開門鎖開門。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAC5H0DP3TJ
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「進來。」心雪抬頭跟梅陀說。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqop70XTBDM
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心雪的房間很整潔，一點灰塵也看不見。房間內只有一張床、書桌椅和幾件玩具，梅陀心想這也許是孤兒院的標準配置。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XlGmyXb9p
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心雪關門後告訴進門的梅陀：「放在書桌上。」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdOU5czNTv
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梅陀放下盤子問：「我可以坐在椅子上嗎？」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIf7H9sAup
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雖說如此，這張椅子對梅陀來說有點小。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRg5mj4Voh7
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「可以。」心雪坐在床上。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqdJhTxLAf
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梅陀看穿心雪對她仍有戒心，拿起盤子和勺子遞給她，「吃吧，小心熱。」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnO7ydBXvrX
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「嗯。」心雪接過盤子，用膝蓋當毯子吃豆腐。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hDacdwly2
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心雪吃得很慢，梅陀利用這段時間思考要如何「馴服」她。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKnUKqPLMg
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梅陀自覺很壞，但為了滿足贖罪的感覺，不得不這樣做。難得能離開那個世界，她想捨棄過去。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZeibOCdcH
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不管以前的她是甚麼人都與她無關。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tU2z3XHoU
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「謝謝。」心雪吃完，遞盤子和勺子給梅陀。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyVqCuRxIA
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梅陀放好兩樣東西後拿出手帕說：「嘴邊有點髒。」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1tDFlocE3
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她幫心雪抹乾淨嘴，放下少許戒心的心雪問她：「為甚麼要對我這麼好呢？」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7jD4RMr66
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「哈哈！」梅陀發自內心地笑：「這很平常啊，怎會是對妳很好呢？」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCkCP27ncR
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「從來沒人對我那麼好。」心雪低頭看著木造地板。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRAz64gNqE
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孤獨的小孩。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQbC56oulI
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梅陀對付過這種對象很多次，要討好他們，給他們想要的就好了。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCtG6ZF6Ye
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咳咳，又犯毛病了。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaY0Vn1axb
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梅陀用手托起心雪的下巴，看著她的雙眼說：「妳不孤單，我會陪妳。」426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ryFV95X2k
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對小孩說這句話或許太過肉麻，但梅陀正是知道「太過」肉麻的話對小孩更有用。成熟一點的青少年甚至大人會感到抗拒，不過小孩子會被打動。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnT7iMkrUi
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心雪不知該作何反應，目瞪口呆。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbK0cbI6x2N
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想起來，她當時便是被梅陀這句話感動到而選擇跟梅陀走。跟梅陀走或者等下一個願意收養她的人，當時的她只有這兩個選擇。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mbkIXqapB
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她很感謝梅陀，梅陀教曉她許多戰鬥技巧，讓她即使被人搔擾也不害怕，又教她煮飯以及許多生活技能，當初跟梅陀走真的太好了。426Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe8o3w9g0Q
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