同一時間，一艘從帝國出發前往澄冥汗國的船尚未到達目的地。這艘船的乘客之一──單心雪在房間內回想起過去。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIM8cCyzq9y
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她很怕孤獨，雖然很想克服，但總是忍不住尋找能依靠的人。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWwuiny8QN
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說白了，她不清楚自己想要甚麼。明明躺在床上，她依然很累。很累，就像在無限期追求一樣連存不存在也不清楚的事物。她在獨自旅行的這段期間遇過很多人，縱使也許不會再見，他們都在她心裏留下了印記。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QnDyPs2HQ
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然而，這些印記填不滿心的缺口。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYu04XeWZj
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她想要甚麼？逝去了又追不回來的事──人。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CGEin1nII
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「啊......」躺在床上也感覺疲勞沒有散去的她，決定到甲板上看風景。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Jrnj6NHSf
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甲板上的船員見到她都向她打招呼。不是因為她本身受他們尊敬，而是她跟著的那個人受他們尊敬。說得殘酷一點，她只是他戴在手上的一條金鏈。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIgxh1rlx0
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她倚在船邊，海風拂過，帶她的思緒一同飄往遠方。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4rQmjzEO3
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梅陀姨姨。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwotPw864j
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如果沒有姨姨，她也許還在孤兒院裏生活。大概十年前左右，一個叫梅陀的人來到孤兒院說要收養小孩。聽到有人來收養，幾乎所有小孩都爭先恐後地圍住梅陀。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTHR9EmHKi
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梅陀表面很親切，心雪卻有種她在故意隱瞞甚麼的感覺。經常被欺負的她就算說不上很會看他人臉色，也猜得到別人的心情。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr8Ju7y1qNq
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心雪認定梅陀不是自己理想中的母親，便獨自躲在一角。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNdCz6gNGCp
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梅陀留意到不合群的心雪，故意上前和她說話。心雪想激怒梅陀，不想她打擾自己，一來便說了句「我討厭妳」。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxJ0OKi8mk
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梅陀露出心雪不理解的表情，深呼吸一口，問：「妳真的討厭我嗎？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxynczyTBch
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討厭......心雪不明白梅陀問問題的理由，討厭一個人需要理由嗎？說討厭就是討厭，為甚麼要明知故問。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMRNjS9aQn
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「妳是壞人。」心雪臉上掛著厭惡的表情，別過頭說。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjP46BFMN6
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「為甚麼覺得我是壞人？我有做壞事嗎？」梅陀追問。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfPNubZjuH
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心雪自以為看穿了梅陀，梅陀也自以為看穿了心雪。事實上，兩人都沒有看穿對方內心最深處。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcPbBG9g3L
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梅陀此行確實是要收養小孩，但還有另一目的。她很怕心雪會當著眾人面前說出另一個目的。不過多麼敏感的孩子，也看不到別人的罪疚感。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBkL124qkE
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要是心雪說得出來，她的偽善就曝光了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQUcL4MH10
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「我不喜歡妳。」心雪重申，期望梅陀能趕快放過她。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjx4h5b7fa
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「為甚麼不喜歡我？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33PQGULS8G
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「不要煩我！」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNW9igZjRr
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心雪氣沖沖地跑回房間，鎖上門不讓任何人進來。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxu21xv8Wqo
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「對不起，這個小孩性格比較乖僻。」在梅陀旁邊的院長解釋，想平息梅陀的怒火。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxQEmnXQXG
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沒有生氣的梅陀問：「可以給她的資料我看嗎？麻煩了。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpgxdQbqRr
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院長不明白這位說話有口音的女士為何要自討苦吃，但還是按她的要求辦事：「好，請跟我來。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEyQSgM5yJ
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「姐姐！不要管心雪那個怪胎啦！帶我走！」孩子羣裏，一個比較大的男孩拉著梅陀衣袖。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIlBfbKUoK
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梅陀笑著跟他說：「姐姐還有些事要做，所以......」她不敢拉開男孩的手，所以只能不斷向院長打眼色求救。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHrNFlHkUf
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院長瞄到梅陀的眼色，粗魯地罵男孩：「文鋒，還不快點放手？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhm6HzP925I
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「是......」男孩垂頭喪氣。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOorhQ3msu
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「好了，你們也回去玩吧，我和這位姐姐有事要做。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2O33fSDXxW
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院長說完，小孩們都邊說著話邊回去遊樂室。梅陀不太聽到他們在說甚麼，但大概是在抱怨還沒有人來收養他們。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFdIEIYjUEe
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這些事都是梅陀後來跟心雪說的，心雪起初不知情。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ce5VOPRpx
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院長和梅陀來到院長室，院長從書櫃拿了一本書出來。書原本是空白的，每當有一位孩子入住，院長便在新一頁寫下他的資料作紀錄之用。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxuzERlWxa5
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院長翻到心雪的那一頁給梅陀看，說：「這是剛才那位孩子的資料。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngfUMMJ89K
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名字、出生日期、年齡、性別、何時住進孤兒院、大致性格、喜歡的食物和住院前的經歷等等，兩頁內寫了心雪的基本資料。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6N70hXpvU
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梅陀看完，考慮一番後問：「她在這裏經常被欺負嗎？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bWs4nkYnA
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「是。」院長點頭，「我們有嘗試過叫孩子們和平相處，但心雪本來就不太合羣，又有些孩子比較調皮。我們說教完之後最近已經沒有欺凌事件發生，只是心雪依然不願和其他孩子一起玩。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyGVZE9VmQ
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「性格已經定型了呢。」梅陀像是很有經驗地說，微微嚇了院長一跳。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa5YiVlT40I
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梅陀留意到院長的表情，「抱歉，以前工作的時候要分析人的個性，所以不經意說了出口。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBh9doQJAA
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「不要緊。」院長也認為不是大問題，「梅陀女士還有事想問嗎？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYGdxftz7Y
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「我可以收養她嗎？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsdZWPmjNw
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「她不太喜歡您，我恐怕強行讓您收養她，對您和她都不好。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNFcLc72f8S
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梅陀想起自己早前才做過的事，她是為了做對事而做錯事，背負丁點罪惡感對她不是問題。本來早已捨棄罪惡感的她要拾回它，那怕只有一點點也覺得很重。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWW9PRUeA9
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自認不是問題又覺得負擔很重，她知道這種心態很矛盾。但要說矛盾，過去的她更加矛盾。在人面前是一個樣子，工作時是另一個樣子，在某個人面前是第三個樣子，對著自己是第四個樣子，她以前也能隨意在四款樣子之間自由切換，說服一個小女孩跟她走對現在的她不會是難題。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NnSPBMgfC
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她低頭再看心雪的資料一次，有了計策。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmcs4Hk4ip
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「咯咯咯......」梅陀在心雪的房間外敲門，手上拿著一盤食物和勺子，「心雪？我是剛才的姐姐喔！我煮了妳最喜歡吃的辣豆腐，想吃嗎？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4O4DTASLAy
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梅陀在質疑自己。她知道心雪的秘密，卻不能告訴自己的秘密給她聽，這對心雪不公平。行家會說「沒有說不是騙」，但梅陀明白這跟欺騙沒分別。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AEvOzm1Hl
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「辣豆腐？」房間內的心雪好像有點興趣。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBUYTuNZgD
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「是啊。姐姐親手煮的，想吃嗎？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN81LQUgef4
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心雪沒有回答，數秒後，她解開門鎖開門。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2E00qSZuJ
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「進來。」心雪抬頭跟梅陀說。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9NLfDe9IZ
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心雪的房間很整潔，一點灰塵也看不見。房間內只有一張床、書桌椅和幾件玩具，梅陀心想這也許是孤兒院的標準配置。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡupWnmS4JRh
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心雪關門後告訴進門的梅陀：「放在書桌上。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6Jv5jPA1b
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梅陀放下盤子問：「我可以坐在椅子上嗎？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡecTJl9kfQe
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雖說如此，這張椅子對梅陀來說有點小。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtFntdp6BT
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「可以。」心雪坐在床上。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AQPzYlX4J
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梅陀看穿心雪對她仍有戒心，拿起盤子和勺子遞給她，「吃吧，小心熱。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfEOZR2RDW
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「嗯。」心雪接過盤子，用膝蓋當毯子吃豆腐。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPXpg8JKdG
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心雪吃得很慢，梅陀利用這段時間思考要如何「馴服」她。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIXS41jXvx
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梅陀自覺很壞，但為了滿足贖罪的感覺，不得不這樣做。難得能離開那個世界，她想捨棄過去。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3W0wmUrkyo
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不管以前的她是甚麼人都與她無關。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLopsw469tK
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「謝謝。」心雪吃完，遞盤子和勺子給梅陀。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWt4ELK1i59
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梅陀放好兩樣東西後拿出手帕說：「嘴邊有點髒。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDp2szCrSo
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她幫心雪抹乾淨嘴，放下少許戒心的心雪問她：「為甚麼要對我這麼好呢？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4rcoSijN4
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「哈哈！」梅陀發自內心地笑：「這很平常啊，怎會是對妳很好呢？」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRz0jQ2T5k
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「從來沒人對我那麼好。」心雪低頭看著木造地板。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXbPrONlwu
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孤獨的小孩。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFT692hnqO
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梅陀對付過這種對象很多次，要討好他們，給他們想要的就好了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjkzwwcQrf
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咳咳，又犯毛病了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84Z1V0jOOP
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梅陀用手托起心雪的下巴，看著她的雙眼說：「妳不孤單，我會陪妳。」219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPWzQta9f0
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對小孩說這句話或許太過肉麻，但梅陀正是知道「太過」肉麻的話對小孩更有用。成熟一點的青少年甚至大人會感到抗拒，不過小孩子會被打動。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNn8qxW1Mh
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心雪不知該作何反應，目瞪口呆。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3X5KIcOtFC
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想起來，她當時便是被梅陀這句話感動到而選擇跟梅陀走。跟梅陀走或者等下一個願意收養她的人，當時的她只有這兩個選擇。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvr4wka6opc
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她很感謝梅陀，梅陀教曉她許多戰鬥技巧，讓她即使被人搔擾也不害怕，又教她煮飯以及許多生活技能，當初跟梅陀走真的太好了。219Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFigGTGpAG
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