好幾年時間入面,我都好糾結一個問題。988Please respect copyright.PENANAo8LRZmIGBF
988Please respect copyright.PENANAE4f06HbVsG
係我嘅不安懷疑令芯玥走,定係佢同個男仔一早曖昧緊先會令我懷疑?988Please respect copyright.PENANAIuNviZ6l8g
988Please respect copyright.PENANAliEIg7qIjk
分手未夠兩個星期,就有條新仔,仲要一早就無取消張機票,兩個星期入面就一齊再去旅行?988Please respect copyright.PENANArSVcYhJAdC
988Please respect copyright.PENANAzqUbXVz7Dz
點解一開始要呃我取消咗?988Please respect copyright.PENANAeZST8oZMAt
988Please respect copyright.PENANAQvzZCZOkff
可能因為唔想被人罰錢,所以留住張機票先,但就算佢嚟都唔會被我知,直至話取消咗等我死一條心。988Please respect copyright.PENANAJI3UeEhjcA
988Please respect copyright.PENANAEiB7wLrwgu
點知分手之後好快搵到另一個,咪轉做同新嗰個去囉。988Please respect copyright.PENANAveuhCXsnIs
988Please respect copyright.PENANAaDFqCkMEuv
定係由同我分手嗰陣已經計劃好同條新仔去旅行,所以無取消張機票呢?988Please respect copyright.PENANAmBUNUlzbw6
988Please respect copyright.PENANAFv2QDKguNk
好多我無辦法確定嘅答案,令我每日個腦都七國咁亂。988Please respect copyright.PENANA59EP1D8Iwc
988Please respect copyright.PENANAtDVUU4Txe5
唯一可以肯定嘅只有一樣嘢,就係喺機票依個問題上,芯玥呃咗我。988Please respect copyright.PENANAMmIPxjbm2G
嗰陣喺台灣自己一個,日喊夜喊,搞到喉嚨勁痛。988Please respect copyright.PENANAtMVV85m7MR
人生路不熟又唔去睇醫生,淨係求其買啲喉糖食,舒服少少又喊過。988Please respect copyright.PENANAxv9A06eTU0
988Please respect copyright.PENANAPwfMKcdESW
當時棟宿舍多咗個鬧鬼傳聞,話夜晚走廊盡頭會聽到男人喊聲,其實就係我嚟。988Please respect copyright.PENANAtpdNsO2mX2
988Please respect copyright.PENANAIdGzOdRm3X
喊吓喊吓發覺把聲沙咗,都無乜為意,聲沙好小事、喉嚨痛好小事以為自己會好,點知就無再好過。988Please respect copyright.PENANAGJyvDcxJex
988Please respect copyright.PENANANROmMW4FkH
嗰次分手,驚動阿爸阿媽打電話過嚟,阿媽同其他朋友各自又喺聖誕節過嚟搵我。988Please respect copyright.PENANArqXcSFvh2c
988Please respect copyright.PENANAj2onN41zwR
我去食煙,聽講可以排解寂寞。但呼出嘅只有空虛。988Please respect copyright.PENANAHDGTJgusAk
988Please respect copyright.PENANAPzcVc4mLnG
我去飲酒,酒入愁腸愁更愁。我以為食酒止到喊,點知之後好幾年都係飲醉就諗起芯玥再喊過。988Please respect copyright.PENANAogLr2U5CLq
988Please respect copyright.PENANAuECpuGA2H3
我去隊草,但佢只係放大晒我嘅傷心,喉嚨被火燒嘅感覺更強,見到任何男女都變成芯玥同條新仔,一邊恥笑我一邊愈走愈遠。988Please respect copyright.PENANA0JEQw4lnET
988Please respect copyright.PENANASKT2GJ95JK
後來每個朋友都話,嗰幾年我個樣好似隨時會死咁。988Please respect copyright.PENANAtZHswqfLz7
988Please respect copyright.PENANAuwBK8wU300
但唯獨自殺我無做到,可能因為分手嗰日我就搵晒所有朋友同親人大肆宣揚,諗返起都覺得醜,不過每個人都安慰我。988Please respect copyright.PENANAo9AG8zJHSB
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雖然安慰係無補於事,但我都慶幸大家會安慰我。988Please respect copyright.PENANAaZq4tYlcZm
同芯玥一齊嗰陣我已經講晒畀朋友聽,分手嗰陣都講晒,之後再無一個女朋友係我會主動同班朋友提起。988Please respect copyright.PENANAQbT9WzA3EY
988Please respect copyright.PENANANvt4fXtV7O
蠔哥話:「留有用之軀,無謂送頭吖。你死咗佢會唔會在意先?唔會吖嘛,咁你死嚟做乜先?」988Please respect copyright.PENANALyPkMGLBsQ
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或者係逃避痛苦。988Please respect copyright.PENANA8B0x8HNuVu
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雞腎話:「痛苦總有一日會過,到時你就會慶幸自己當初無死到,原來個世界仲係咁靚。」988Please respect copyright.PENANA11COXqGH8H
988Please respect copyright.PENANAZmNYlCIMrC
蘿蔔話:「計我話,快啲搵個第二個啦。」988Please respect copyright.PENANAJQC8hyJfY7
988Please respect copyright.PENANAXBebbD13x0
結果我頹廢咗好耐,每日都想死但又要控制自己,先發明咗「由瞓醒開始將所有嘢諗到最壞」嘅方法幫自己留意日常微細嘅美好。988Please respect copyright.PENANAt90wgtSqTh
988Please respect copyright.PENANAYIyvtwtn2k
所以你問我有無自殺?我係每日都想死持續咗一年半,但事實上又的確係咩都無做過。988Please respect copyright.PENANAN97yAX3muu