
你問我喜歡甚麼類型的男生。我說自己喜歡某個二次元人物,他是個山賊,性格很惹笑,與他一起我會很快樂。你笑了,你身邊的她也笑了,於是我亦跟著咯咯發笑。237Please respect copyright.PENANA4ihHoQ0YXi
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我記得你曾在多年前問過我同樣的問題,我當時交出同樣的答案。之後我感覺到你沒有喜歡我。為甚麼會知道?如果你是喜歡我,你該會去找找我所講的山賊;如果你有去找他,該會發現你和他同樣惹笑;如果你發現了,你該會明白我喜歡的是你……237Please respect copyright.PENANAwhhlKoBHUh
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太複雜?我的心事就是這樣難懂。所以你不會喜歡我。237Please respect copyright.PENANA2FbFw3nTjo
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我是知道的。你的新娘子會是一個大方得體、善解人意的女人。我不是這樣的人。237Please respect copyright.PENANAFNWbMqEi1V
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你身邊的她笑了,我咯咯發笑,你也笑了。這場聯誼聚餐笑聲不斷。237Please respect copyright.PENANAzstUPyyiog
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她是適合你的。她懂得適時主動為你遞上紙巾;在你離座良久未返時,她就知道你菸癮發作,跟我講個笑話排遣時間;她知道很多你的事情,亦了解你的習慣和口味。這證明你已認定了她,因為你願意讓她知道有關你的一切。237Please respect copyright.PENANAhTz0r0OkPS
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妒忌?悔恨?傷心?沒有。我很冷靜。我從沒料到自己可以如此冷靜。你單身多年,想要找到伴侶。現在你如願以償,我衷心為你高興。不過,若說我對這事全然沒有負面感覺,卻又不盡然。237Please respect copyright.PENANAnZMVuU9qpz
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難以察覺的揪心,微的,弱的,如心跳。不需特意去控制,沒法故意去停止。理所當然得不太自然。真要命。未嚴重得令我呼救或咆哮,未輕微得可以被無視或不理會。該如何處理?有辦法處理嗎?有辦法停止心跳卻又不死去嗎?237Please respect copyright.PENANAYXrW9Adi8h
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我咯咯發笑,你笑了,你身邊的她也笑了。237Please respect copyright.PENANA6q1Srchqwn
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晚餐後,你送她回家,還打趣說可以順便送我一程。我回嘴說你當然想送我一程。她輕易被逗笑了。整趟車程都默默在旁聽著、笑著,沒有插話。我偶爾偷瞄她。她是典型的小鳥依人,溫文有禮,細心體貼。237Please respect copyright.PENANA9kKY6czhkU
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難怪你會喜歡她。237Please respect copyright.PENANAEPvKYR7R6k
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難怪你沒有喜歡我。237Please respect copyright.PENANAboYLTABHtg
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我要下車了。你們跟我說再見。我不想道別,但我必須離開——我找不到任何合情合理的藉口多留一段路程。237Please respect copyright.PENANAJK2CkPSFE3
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我揮揮手,轉身離開,不敢回頭。237Please respect copyright.PENANApv1kpFZnUN
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竟有流淚的衝動。237Please respect copyright.PENANAsCe3iSiQzS
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我問自己:為何要哭?237Please respect copyright.PENANAz2HLxKw1YO
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的確,不是甚麼大不了的事情。237Please respect copyright.PENANAiskTvIQIG9
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有如孩子看著雪糕球掉到地上去。237Please respect copyright.PENANAPh0TeOQ5M4
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有如在那電腦未普及的年代,家中的老人強佔電視,我無法收看動畫大結局,無法知道山賊的下落。237Please respect copyright.PENANAL59ceDnG8c
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有如我當年交出答案後,感覺到你沒有喜歡我。237Please respect copyright.PENANAjUkIqIFYP4
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有如我看著你興高采烈地介紹她,卻要不動聲色地咯咯發笑。237Please respect copyright.PENANAkVniIpx9xi
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根本不是甚麼大不了的事情。237Please respect copyright.PENANARHSeGmDyzf
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沒有流淚的原因。237Please respect copyright.PENANA2gPGM569Ut
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我唯有笑。237Please respect copyright.PENANAp9WElbnOOS
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咯咯發笑。
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