「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,334Please respect copyright.PENANAM1sePfoxZA
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,334Please respect copyright.PENANAmeYEBkNQZf
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,334Please respect copyright.PENANAijdIoKNqCw
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幼小我的父母就離異,334Please respect copyright.PENANA7RrlMH7wnJ
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,334Please respect copyright.PENANAnc0P6SCLHv
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對母親的記憶還是有,334Please respect copyright.PENANA9sSis6rBrH
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記得她很常酗酒,334Please respect copyright.PENANAqqIR4xpL4r
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後來的日子,334Please respect copyright.PENANA9i5U50aICb
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,334Please respect copyright.PENANA2VRMEcQ5gG
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忙於工作的他,334Please respect copyright.PENANAhTtGnWMwBx
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,334Please respect copyright.PENANAQN1t3figaN
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到了上課時間再直接上課,334Please respect copyright.PENANAC51tg8bUnF
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,334Please respect copyright.PENANAgv5Uq5eQh2
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,334Please respect copyright.PENANA4SKWVB6dni
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,334Please respect copyright.PENANAsAmCnQcS6M
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,334Please respect copyright.PENANAk6CRC0q77X
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,334Please respect copyright.PENANALidrGrEmzi
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父親工作的地方不一定,334Please respect copyright.PENANAxkzM6lgifG
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輾轉的換了三所小學,334Please respect copyright.PENANABxAcz2LbLc
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,334Please respect copyright.PENANApFgkxL5DTC
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他開始會喜怒無常,334Please respect copyright.PENANAVpI3kmbqKm
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,334Please respect copyright.PENANADWjuz0brNs
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,334Please respect copyright.PENANA5nPs6ymCpk
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很小我就與異性交往,334Please respect copyright.PENANAfU7uKc1mLN
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,334Please respect copyright.PENANAypS5zxr7hS
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,334Please respect copyright.PENANAsl1Nf9Wwmc
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,334Please respect copyright.PENANA6c1KQeFyOs
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我會睡在工地,334Please respect copyright.PENANAJqOdZ2xjrI
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,334Please respect copyright.PENANAWk40yp2paZ
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,334Please respect copyright.PENANALEIOd1o2Qg
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,334Please respect copyright.PENANA1MCtfEyDyW
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他開始會講貶低的話語,334Please respect copyright.PENANACUQDxSiiDs
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那些原本用來工作的用具,334Please respect copyright.PENANAtXSTDzRPOE
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,334Please respect copyright.PENANAru4boVI7cD
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」334Please respect copyright.PENANADlCNYkhR0b
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,334Please respect copyright.PENANAXL8W5GRgJa
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,334Please respect copyright.PENANAiatObrZlrl
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要我轉告給老師,334Please respect copyright.PENANAQeUd0RQAEO
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」334Please respect copyright.PENANAumHGcsSdoW
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,334Please respect copyright.PENANA5mQgVAiDWM
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,334Please respect copyright.PENANAH9Giad5xet
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,334Please respect copyright.PENANAy33j2Y5RtW
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細細去回想每個片段,334Please respect copyright.PENANAAIhz1Va4UW
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,334Please respect copyright.PENANAzCgj2L1i3y
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,334Please respect copyright.PENANAEWR6d8oflQ
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,334Please respect copyright.PENANANc94vDalyq
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」334Please respect copyright.PENANA2rXzYNWE0O
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,334Please respect copyright.PENANAje8oFNWT2r
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,334Please respect copyright.PENANAkHAl2AVt1f
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,334Please respect copyright.PENANAo2nsVkZ3ky
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,334Please respect copyright.PENANAc8fEF9fZWt
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,334Please respect copyright.PENANA8Jw7k5K5zs
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,334Please respect copyright.PENANAhk9bo1Nhnw
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」334Please respect copyright.PENANAtLlrhHPkGZ
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正準備吃下第一口時,334Please respect copyright.PENANA1UJPiGP9h9
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,334Please respect copyright.PENANAUIa1uijtKL
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。334Please respect copyright.PENANAw6mpb2X6IE