「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeg3OLisPLl
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAen6lOEqwc
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOPrZDicmC
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幼小我的父母就離異，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZ5a0fulBA
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeloETsaSc
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對母親的記憶還是有，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8HA8ismH7
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記得她很常酗酒，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZG4FRxtSG
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後來的日子，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNt2gFIYbeu
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSslSfr4XWA
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忙於工作的他，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQUFAdgOwY
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjyN9mObpg
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到了上課時間再直接上課，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYORjuq4me
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmJzc4TWKc
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKn4zCZ2FW4
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8kJpMVOTa
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0wL54VWW5
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGaZYKTFYY
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父親工作的地方不一定，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAsyByuJV2
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輾轉的換了三所小學，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdOaZuDEnv
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelWrgf4sTu
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他開始會喜怒無常，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvGAEKEAzb
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxu6g6Lg9Q5
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGPi3uoS60e
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很小我就與異性交往，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMVzKf6pdw
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDo1A18et3J
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJmV6Sjl6m
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LYjrTfasV
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我會睡在工地，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMulJJLGB3N
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjeuTo4mAzh
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1dZBgA3yL
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8EOh7tOwAk
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他開始會講貶低的話語，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIo5hTs8hRs
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那些原本用來工作的用具，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClEorFmcII
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5vnCK4Y5k
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ktRJed24U
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmRrSROnhR
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPdqRG0LXI
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要我轉告給老師，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUEzS40Pem
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETOmcAqNXh
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VDcS22ct4
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZh2RQi6Aa
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAMjCOazWvl
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細細去回想每個片段，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtUtPUxg3q
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRYABThYnu
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcneaL0RMrs
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKGtTUh1gk
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWs2pAYJmg
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3fLiU2u4u
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxw5aWAuDL
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbltqDQI2F
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXtKXGcgqC
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNC7A0OSnk
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCt9IfoqBy
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlHx3VX671
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正準備吃下第一口時，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7oWtSfOkG
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPWP4R0e5w
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。643Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5IbCxuuW8
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