「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3CKlZ4M4A
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdGCyDAzLs
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQOrovIxJw
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幼小我的父母就離異，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdnNLisZuX
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOo0JXZRt5
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對母親的記憶還是有，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLRVora3t0
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記得她很常酗酒，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGmjuoxjNz
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後來的日子，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dCXgMf7BR
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RQ6ZaL7Fr
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忙於工作的他，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7z8dmCz6X
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcCVp1D6sO
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到了上課時間再直接上課，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYKfuwLw0I
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdw45hcPiat
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSN7ejB8kGr
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73K3PAQJxt
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1D7ysekBN
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFtWl3kG1DU
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父親工作的地方不一定，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7VGMX3jaa1
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輾轉的換了三所小學，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SCUsIq64F
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhR3StEYGzx
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他開始會喜怒無常，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJ3yW67Mp1
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmk360OthY8
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxe3GFZX1b
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很小我就與異性交往，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhGNBrdn4X
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NmKgkQfXi
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡahhV9LrUIo
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmN4GQM4q7
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我會睡在工地，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqet6bSmQK
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbu9Jbuk5U
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufgerDPuW1
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8fHWQVejB
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他開始會講貶低的話語，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqg3Q5VwYb3
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那些原本用來工作的用具，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ9uzONLUH
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRidfI18O2
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRTd5xxJQY
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNHDlO77M2
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7iwW805WGV
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要我轉告給老師，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeH6zX1bVTv
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZONPgtXMc7
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0d3JoFRiUV
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOr3YttFq2
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6qoCM6Lq7
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細細去回想每個片段，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbXAdUcuDOV
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwUURNppXFw
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ufenWCxew
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOBidHpgPe
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MfEAkcDgC
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCrJlZhywh
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJ7VZ7ziDg
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1J6F7wpQOZ
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJAWnoODJl
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikNZGh4rNS
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSQyNImy0h
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHEO9rB0fg
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正準備吃下第一口時，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9g9I6TcoeX
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnggky8WOhd
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。701Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4biPQAh3v
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