「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,333Please respect copyright.PENANAGbpep9Dd0X
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,333Please respect copyright.PENANASFqMgePWFa
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,333Please respect copyright.PENANAr3qmh8jFJo
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幼小我的父母就離異,333Please respect copyright.PENANA6rZKh9L8Ng
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,333Please respect copyright.PENANAWuA95ne7El
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對母親的記憶還是有,333Please respect copyright.PENANAkDal2OSAF1
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記得她很常酗酒,333Please respect copyright.PENANArMVOwcUFOh
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後來的日子,333Please respect copyright.PENANAOtMvvj5zD4
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,333Please respect copyright.PENANAuHdLinrRYN
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忙於工作的他,333Please respect copyright.PENANAcjx9EsuUXj
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,333Please respect copyright.PENANAOPsbNUxf7c
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到了上課時間再直接上課,333Please respect copyright.PENANALcVbJtulGw
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,333Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0zZ65hmYv
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,333Please respect copyright.PENANAwfK0DdCT1n
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,333Please respect copyright.PENANAUjlosFbJj6
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,333Please respect copyright.PENANApo5CNPND8p
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,333Please respect copyright.PENANACeNJLN0dDE
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父親工作的地方不一定,333Please respect copyright.PENANAEZe6CsgCGz
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輾轉的換了三所小學,333Please respect copyright.PENANAadJlYwvCIf
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,333Please respect copyright.PENANABJmbQOgsWf
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他開始會喜怒無常,333Please respect copyright.PENANAuOqtXHlZcO
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,333Please respect copyright.PENANA3xe5crOxw6
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,333Please respect copyright.PENANAZVxdJIVCza
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很小我就與異性交往,333Please respect copyright.PENANAnA5TUsJ6Au
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,333Please respect copyright.PENANAC54b98lz0y
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,333Please respect copyright.PENANAunqBURShsT
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,333Please respect copyright.PENANAY1N59SV6U2
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我會睡在工地,333Please respect copyright.PENANAOzO8XSZ7vx
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,333Please respect copyright.PENANAbYq34K9opu
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,333Please respect copyright.PENANAZQJJW0ti3i
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,333Please respect copyright.PENANAM72K2bHPO5
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他開始會講貶低的話語,333Please respect copyright.PENANAHN7wmhfkQk
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那些原本用來工作的用具,333Please respect copyright.PENANAoXCGGL1aXb
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,333Please respect copyright.PENANASEBGbuchha
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」333Please respect copyright.PENANA8rZrxHOqDI
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,333Please respect copyright.PENANAblk9Pyprwr
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,333Please respect copyright.PENANA0GIjzzEHwR
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要我轉告給老師,333Please respect copyright.PENANAIP2YbKEC6P
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」333Please respect copyright.PENANAWzc8SET9A7
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,333Please respect copyright.PENANAFstwutiVi1
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,333Please respect copyright.PENANAB1AN4GIPPb
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,333Please respect copyright.PENANA1OjNAkmKIz
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細細去回想每個片段,333Please respect copyright.PENANAcxnS7B9SK5
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,333Please respect copyright.PENANA3GOXYYCIuM
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,333Please respect copyright.PENANAB12ecUrHSU
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,333Please respect copyright.PENANAAbofmHzhvB
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」333Please respect copyright.PENANAHtQi5QYlOB
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,333Please respect copyright.PENANAEFmK9XKfSF
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,333Please respect copyright.PENANAGWU0frYtm9
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,333Please respect copyright.PENANAEqoK35Iene
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,333Please respect copyright.PENANA8u6KKHWMBS
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,333Please respect copyright.PENANAOj9dFKhmyo
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,333Please respect copyright.PENANAl7KC6c8mgQ
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」333Please respect copyright.PENANAnlVaNfTo8f
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正準備吃下第一口時,333Please respect copyright.PENANASNsjf29oJV
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,333Please respect copyright.PENANAb1ccOUYNpp
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。333Please respect copyright.PENANAKS1VtRV7nY