「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBo9lp34JX
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjUSsurJQf
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONJmdqRWbF
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幼小我的父母就離異，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrdCZgxy9j
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwMeaKO9rb
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對母親的記憶還是有，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uHs0xxm0V
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記得她很常酗酒，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVLzcUnJZXR
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後來的日子，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8R09dIUrY
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptKL2llyhO
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忙於工作的他，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCCsoXjM6n
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnB5CzIPBYz
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到了上課時間再直接上課，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDogobFkyQR
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwL5DohEFw
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDB4okbvMS
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyuozek3fu
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfjZ7gCzvvj
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kvyZ9xRAN
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父親工作的地方不一定，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HTDOWKUYF
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輾轉的換了三所小學，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSg6V5ZKknw
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQ132vVGgX
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他開始會喜怒無常，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDcRGkIlGs
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2mYsvOamf
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGwv21gkmt
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很小我就與異性交往，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxoZ2mBoP9
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwlc4y935DM
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMqLLgW2LLb
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgT0F4X1g6A
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我會睡在工地，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQeekxsMrc
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOoZtNXoMYF
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboiREESEKF
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakq2rff8EQ
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他開始會講貶低的話語，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8poxgLfXv
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那些原本用來工作的用具，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CpZ914gsd
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAZq1R8XVI
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡku5H1klWU7
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVteEbsSs7
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVAtzZdwVb
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要我轉告給老師，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HUwg3vrQ2
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTuBjCRw5qo
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsjtWVhUmM
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZ6MApnCcV
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkomfB1J7AC
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細細去回想每個片段，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7is5iZqF7o
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSdyjI2ApdY
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzBk9BPVYlG
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTParw1GSt8
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9Pus7p54E
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgedZacmhfa
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwiO196Q2T
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6fbCVeWtl
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihmPDl27lK
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1B8BhtQqsw
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3jBX5Qdl9
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpxS0weKT2
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正準備吃下第一口時，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEr7fSI6Y7p
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7c6niBVDmv
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。861Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjlwCKK7i9
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