「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,313Please respect copyright.PENANAg29vwkt0hJ
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,313Please respect copyright.PENANAFjXvq8tZrc
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,313Please respect copyright.PENANAzaU8OwRj0J
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幼小我的父母就離異,313Please respect copyright.PENANAdoT6kqyx4g
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,313Please respect copyright.PENANAuJvl37rRCG
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對母親的記憶還是有,313Please respect copyright.PENANA7mPp1utFfS
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記得她很常酗酒,313Please respect copyright.PENANAAQxjiiUSzW
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後來的日子,313Please respect copyright.PENANAPXNvjPRFR7
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,313Please respect copyright.PENANAfC6m8lGyuu
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忙於工作的他,313Please respect copyright.PENANAylhPAOVEmZ
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,313Please respect copyright.PENANA2LXycvSHp0
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到了上課時間再直接上課,313Please respect copyright.PENANAYzwk8uIQtC
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,313Please respect copyright.PENANA6XsNe71iAQ
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,313Please respect copyright.PENANAJN8jDDYCGm
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,313Please respect copyright.PENANAFYITSBiDwx
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,313Please respect copyright.PENANAIt4Rp89pWc
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,313Please respect copyright.PENANAtqcSWy8u5v
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父親工作的地方不一定,313Please respect copyright.PENANAIyakg6vjoL
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輾轉的換了三所小學,313Please respect copyright.PENANAkaiqM6mci6
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,313Please respect copyright.PENANAw9sGtVeeUF
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他開始會喜怒無常,313Please respect copyright.PENANAjIKgcu63tZ
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,313Please respect copyright.PENANAYxwlTD131c
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,313Please respect copyright.PENANA9aLZoPGDuC
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很小我就與異性交往,313Please respect copyright.PENANAiwIxPkzVpM
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,313Please respect copyright.PENANA8AN8SO5Cxi
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,313Please respect copyright.PENANAVEUCLzaxUo
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,313Please respect copyright.PENANAFVhO9WeeJ4
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我會睡在工地,313Please respect copyright.PENANArQAe9zlJq4
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,313Please respect copyright.PENANApAAhg1xd25
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,313Please respect copyright.PENANAtQ9l3dMl1b
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,313Please respect copyright.PENANAH2KHdkPsQd
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他開始會講貶低的話語,313Please respect copyright.PENANA2HNRaW4ZcL
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那些原本用來工作的用具,313Please respect copyright.PENANAo3muZvvaKp
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,313Please respect copyright.PENANAFItM7oFYCx
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」313Please respect copyright.PENANALTw1oMBy1S
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,313Please respect copyright.PENANA1E8zAuvS8Y
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,313Please respect copyright.PENANAj93RcYHDv9
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要我轉告給老師,313Please respect copyright.PENANARArwD58FHH
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」313Please respect copyright.PENANANjiDMJASnm
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,313Please respect copyright.PENANALkRkiNSziX
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,313Please respect copyright.PENANAjwVQnfhD3S
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,313Please respect copyright.PENANAe9TS3XYxrQ
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細細去回想每個片段,313Please respect copyright.PENANAPdwGDOd3wA
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,313Please respect copyright.PENANAZN1wV76RXJ
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,313Please respect copyright.PENANAr9jvNLqc7i
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,313Please respect copyright.PENANA4Xy1oNMIDP
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」313Please respect copyright.PENANAu8WLMGuYb5
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,313Please respect copyright.PENANAuIPmlvfc75
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,313Please respect copyright.PENANAFHMOY9JUiW
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,313Please respect copyright.PENANA0dFcy39yL5
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,313Please respect copyright.PENANAdI6CW4simO
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,313Please respect copyright.PENANAEeQWncOQ3X
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,313Please respect copyright.PENANAzcYrKavU3i
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」313Please respect copyright.PENANAbQOycY0ss7
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正準備吃下第一口時,313Please respect copyright.PENANAH2PfJyl3CX
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,313Please respect copyright.PENANAeN4RglNMxy
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。313Please respect copyright.PENANA30EdRwb3ll