「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnUrUVyj0i
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOs6Qf9dpYP
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5IyTKSMIB
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幼小我的父母就離異，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SY2WAixCz
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7E5BnzM7Nq
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對母親的記憶還是有，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hp4f3B4E0
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記得她很常酗酒，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCrrtvt9PE
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後來的日子，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ais6TYRNX
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jVXD1VZLa
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忙於工作的他，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUgbHeAY7Qx
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzKQMu8jgr
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到了上課時間再直接上課，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBvyayFJyw
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEPuTOUwWl
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0lNesXGFk
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlDHOjz8Yq
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rqbZMEXLy
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiy3j8fu0e
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父親工作的地方不一定，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEYYAFSfVHh
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輾轉的換了三所小學，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWigzAOWUy
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEwANqBLns
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他開始會喜怒無常，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NxkSM8ofy
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCG1MNBxyss
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgkNcXcMT0
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很小我就與異性交往，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2RHTIbuTO
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu719oMNJ7t
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLl3jnOqck
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXkZkF9NZA
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我會睡在工地，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuA2XbyJkOC
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbLfYvpyDu
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7y1Ijxi0E
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHx663g2uuR
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他開始會講貶低的話語，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ZvKSonHcC
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那些原本用來工作的用具，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5K4hHPkDf
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqAr8ZtMAH
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2R2TrnUe3
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNCownlJvR
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgayWJTG3ce
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要我轉告給老師，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOgXdjU993
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYBHsrxgf8
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXSckE8ISO
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvjowN68Vp
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77Ug5aYjkn
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細細去回想每個片段，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡClGddzcOof
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxTLrrrtVX
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42W49qQxA2
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwuw1ddZpR
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2TjesBoRN
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmL2RMCcaMH
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVA34MV0U9
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBXeFvC0hu
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFd216xJOD3
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWgMavDPj2
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8k6ycESAU
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9ZLDM6n95
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正準備吃下第一口時，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkt0ilMW0EV
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxWAJZrNJM
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。593Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2adSdm6jCt
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