「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWFBZBrSIM
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVo8tQSylF
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡys0hlPJ2T0
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幼小我的父母就離異，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PjmNdZWDz
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8qIIg1K0C
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對母親的記憶還是有，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3h2aPBmou
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記得她很常酗酒，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FOxvIHaAi
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後來的日子，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLIIiAVCiv
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplM0AI65oR
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忙於工作的他，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJ0wB5mUmJ
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkseIkdMa7N
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到了上課時間再直接上課，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZzbJhewqL
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GIvdpDYhF
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixIPgpRFTf
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtoPKynRIb
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFe4vsEzcz
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbpzzVUCVG
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父親工作的地方不一定，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Yae89hlXv
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輾轉的換了三所小學，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdjvdqcDy0W
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeTj93YvLp
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他開始會喜怒無常，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBjIPmfry6
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONELaTUUTG
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYvZestHd8
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很小我就與異性交往，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEzmLu24bY
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaR3Zf9NOj
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3oS1Bhauw
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnD8ldFiGh
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我會睡在工地，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY75fTutnLC
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqNu7RuVMD
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ7VcCc2wOe
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PrGs478PP
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他開始會講貶低的話語，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLTOcus991
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那些原本用來工作的用具，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCTB33nhDX
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9grZMMU0JI
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GMfkCrgD4
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllXzd2SWIW
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdOs75Kw5J
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要我轉告給老師，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uoFhco9Qc
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszHnKfgzoN
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCluYGQ8HUC
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tKS0WrPNO
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1sTmoikRW
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細細去回想每個片段，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePsFreS1tB
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfzC3iqrsV
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwXQDQkE6o
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnefiUTzHIx
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlfmOH9lZ7a
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2HAzRSUk5
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBkSIAl0yM
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlD7DX6bXtd
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWChOn3jpC3
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCS9ReS8vnb
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhjLxEugQF
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8lSPB6eAe
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正準備吃下第一口時，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1z43y4HED
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gfG7ZOk4P
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvxDgpLQ9W
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