「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,335Please respect copyright.PENANAkPCbuTdhZP
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,335Please respect copyright.PENANAOKDciaK2kg
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,335Please respect copyright.PENANAfsswAUJPDK
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幼小我的父母就離異,335Please respect copyright.PENANAghmlwR47gV
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,335Please respect copyright.PENANAYgoLh9l3hm
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對母親的記憶還是有,335Please respect copyright.PENANAdyhwOPmuWV
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記得她很常酗酒,335Please respect copyright.PENANAKuEinxlFCn
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後來的日子,335Please respect copyright.PENANAh94PRkGdld
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,335Please respect copyright.PENANAosd402jJXP
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忙於工作的他,335Please respect copyright.PENANAE9TPLyViVq
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,335Please respect copyright.PENANApOmYTLLsnI
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到了上課時間再直接上課,335Please respect copyright.PENANAJgl9CsYKSs
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,335Please respect copyright.PENANAkN952EdqyO
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,335Please respect copyright.PENANAHltHP4PLxj
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,335Please respect copyright.PENANAOFiRIUCdia
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,335Please respect copyright.PENANA3eMJiGnU15
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,335Please respect copyright.PENANAd8DO35op7F
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父親工作的地方不一定,335Please respect copyright.PENANAJnLMkA3vIi
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輾轉的換了三所小學,335Please respect copyright.PENANA6KpExC1JWr
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,335Please respect copyright.PENANAPF9AihBbnY
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他開始會喜怒無常,335Please respect copyright.PENANAzcRGuIX2c7
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,335Please respect copyright.PENANAo68SP45vgs
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,335Please respect copyright.PENANA2XSDGOvTbv
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很小我就與異性交往,335Please respect copyright.PENANAR2HwEzAAbq
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,335Please respect copyright.PENANARToe68BUFd
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,335Please respect copyright.PENANABKPqyjU4I8
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,335Please respect copyright.PENANAoQo7DxfQCF
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我會睡在工地,335Please respect copyright.PENANACMV47ZdN0G
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,335Please respect copyright.PENANAkeqFgGykxd
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,335Please respect copyright.PENANAlFmrrlNKIH
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,335Please respect copyright.PENANAHshqNvzzIe
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他開始會講貶低的話語,335Please respect copyright.PENANA6MTBxBpF0L
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那些原本用來工作的用具,335Please respect copyright.PENANAUcjzfySSWp
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,335Please respect copyright.PENANAjKNHLyzLSp
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」335Please respect copyright.PENANAFTRiIy5TFd
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,335Please respect copyright.PENANAMk5uj1TugP
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,335Please respect copyright.PENANADWKBI9WzuI
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要我轉告給老師,335Please respect copyright.PENANAcLk8SMuK4z
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」335Please respect copyright.PENANAucryZRzZUJ
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,335Please respect copyright.PENANA1WGrGI539j
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,335Please respect copyright.PENANApuuq8BC1Ve
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,335Please respect copyright.PENANA7oeeslqjK7
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細細去回想每個片段,335Please respect copyright.PENANAKbZ0yBs534
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,335Please respect copyright.PENANAf0rCRvk9PM
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,335Please respect copyright.PENANAitTGNbDGh1
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,335Please respect copyright.PENANA9RyEBt1drC
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」335Please respect copyright.PENANAQctLOPOu4M
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,335Please respect copyright.PENANAjPEOuw6u9O
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,335Please respect copyright.PENANA4UcaVXk7st
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,335Please respect copyright.PENANAcCrr0x67OG
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,335Please respect copyright.PENANAeHmvd6hgG7
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,335Please respect copyright.PENANAV1KU2fwJsu
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,335Please respect copyright.PENANAI4ZZz8aKiD
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」335Please respect copyright.PENANAaV26LZJyJd
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正準備吃下第一口時,335Please respect copyright.PENANAO5tt1hmeR4
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,335Please respect copyright.PENANAJMbCTFAoif
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。335Please respect copyright.PENANA5OMVCYJGjx