「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7640Q6QQSL
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtlvcuogVy
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlvQPcUy2PW
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幼小我的父母就離異，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1k5nZL6WbQ
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXUaI37LQe
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對母親的記憶還是有，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDg322lVSO
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記得她很常酗酒，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOTG9W2gJs
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後來的日子，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVV77tyBcsv
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXQdn9PThy
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忙於工作的他，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwI9LfQZB4D
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCJjLsVp4k
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到了上課時間再直接上課，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqlLRjj4r8
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5kt9IoneZ
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYG7jhkP5RQ
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEP02lz7kZU
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ajwkpNAvB
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzRmZBae6f
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父親工作的地方不一定，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelWV908vL4
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輾轉的換了三所小學，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2vBlF7U8P
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QHXxIVqFA
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他開始會喜怒無常，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEydwb6DdAo
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7gQHjGt3M
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZScKAK4tm
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很小我就與異性交往，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqAQKjSmsc
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQU3wJxkzXM
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXL893DGh01
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MF2Od18pC
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我會睡在工地，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1hPpoI8OS
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMLdmquN3y
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxbDFlWsSa
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDzdCRGBfr
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他開始會講貶低的話語，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt71ByG53oc
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那些原本用來工作的用具，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLATvTFL7r
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvu45PYf052
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVpiMWkYg0
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODhzpD53dK
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXiVCGpjsn
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要我轉告給老師，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bn4pxfyj0
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0a3gub75J
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSfLCR1y91
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XyrTwNz9i
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JFIHPydHx
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細細去回想每個片段，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4VGDnIS3n
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdlY0LLBrY
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjEKvjWG9F
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8e1vMdj0Vz
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeqNDsWb3f
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6S8nzQiYJU
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMitHMSc2lD
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxUzjAGXZ0
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVpl0tSGRD
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNZ1plJrlT
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWQNqu94dw
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwIR8J6pIHU
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正準備吃下第一口時，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSi8nybV9tk
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡge60TeZUao
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。627Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8veHvpUIgt
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