「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,316Please respect copyright.PENANAU3AT6m9kew
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,316Please respect copyright.PENANAmOIycj57tt
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,316Please respect copyright.PENANA8MDteTm365
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幼小我的父母就離異,316Please respect copyright.PENANAwILo7DXQ6y
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,316Please respect copyright.PENANA5get1EXwLM
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對母親的記憶還是有,316Please respect copyright.PENANAas8Oh0mS3y
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記得她很常酗酒,316Please respect copyright.PENANAQIGialSmes
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後來的日子,316Please respect copyright.PENANAUIzBVylCqu
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,316Please respect copyright.PENANA6KVzaEk4hA
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忙於工作的他,316Please respect copyright.PENANA8Ms68boyYl
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,316Please respect copyright.PENANAxWg332BTs6
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到了上課時間再直接上課,316Please respect copyright.PENANA0zMqWEQ95s
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,316Please respect copyright.PENANAg4iIzc8WNZ
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,316Please respect copyright.PENANA0tyUeG7Zpp
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,316Please respect copyright.PENANABpHkP2H7gf
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,316Please respect copyright.PENANAZC0gN6dK7B
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,316Please respect copyright.PENANA6gYY3HOrNk
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父親工作的地方不一定,316Please respect copyright.PENANASH5P6WUlMU
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輾轉的換了三所小學,316Please respect copyright.PENANAfiTyoqhtVX
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,316Please respect copyright.PENANAdtcZY37WDx
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他開始會喜怒無常,316Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZeIrtgijf
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,316Please respect copyright.PENANAdqt1BFbMaa
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,316Please respect copyright.PENANAChgQaVI9ZH
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很小我就與異性交往,316Please respect copyright.PENANAsm4Vy1JOXZ
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,316Please respect copyright.PENANA741PjUcNLc
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,316Please respect copyright.PENANAQXbNWxjjli
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,316Please respect copyright.PENANAmOwtlf7u8Q
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我會睡在工地,316Please respect copyright.PENANAQPfOaHlkcf
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,316Please respect copyright.PENANAlclD6aooQH
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,316Please respect copyright.PENANAGyAbXmjfiO
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,316Please respect copyright.PENANAiNifOxlHBW
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他開始會講貶低的話語,316Please respect copyright.PENANAaJtno3ZNGI
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那些原本用來工作的用具,316Please respect copyright.PENANA541tD76fKs
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,316Please respect copyright.PENANAmNb2aiJZ39
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」316Please respect copyright.PENANAAGhrKbX2xX
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,316Please respect copyright.PENANA2lmbsqULfx
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,316Please respect copyright.PENANAxXMdcE2cue
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要我轉告給老師,316Please respect copyright.PENANAVSoUgBcCvO
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」316Please respect copyright.PENANA7ldRv7PJOn
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,316Please respect copyright.PENANAHxyjZY590v
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,316Please respect copyright.PENANAYEn6u0pAVc
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,316Please respect copyright.PENANAzmRgcUGWxD
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細細去回想每個片段,316Please respect copyright.PENANASSkM7eyp3e
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,316Please respect copyright.PENANAsLY09Oypen
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,316Please respect copyright.PENANAOu7r8YnGK3
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,316Please respect copyright.PENANAm5XMzPT4Sa
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」316Please respect copyright.PENANAGkuNd0ozyV
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,316Please respect copyright.PENANA4wDTJVnD2o
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,316Please respect copyright.PENANA6Ey931fwKQ
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,316Please respect copyright.PENANAnliz5BPkFC
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,316Please respect copyright.PENANAMYu4fPoIdV
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,316Please respect copyright.PENANAsE9vmURzVE
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,316Please respect copyright.PENANAr98tgUllea
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」316Please respect copyright.PENANAblHNJW9J2m
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正準備吃下第一口時,316Please respect copyright.PENANA2akSBsjAzb
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,316Please respect copyright.PENANAgvfvU6Ja4q
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。316Please respect copyright.PENANAtcAwIRg7Sl