「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,332Please respect copyright.PENANAwm6QO6t7TP
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,332Please respect copyright.PENANAK36TE1xzOg
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,332Please respect copyright.PENANAbDwGdocA5t
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幼小我的父母就離異,332Please respect copyright.PENANA1I6FdiNrzD
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,332Please respect copyright.PENANAGFlCuHa9P8
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對母親的記憶還是有,332Please respect copyright.PENANAZdj8XvlRHr
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記得她很常酗酒,332Please respect copyright.PENANAvSzQ5i9ofF
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後來的日子,332Please respect copyright.PENANASDJI8wHCiq
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,332Please respect copyright.PENANADowHWoiHst
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忙於工作的他,332Please respect copyright.PENANAPlYMXx4gMK
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,332Please respect copyright.PENANAGo2cfjSeCn
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到了上課時間再直接上課,332Please respect copyright.PENANAmsU9E9Itco
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,332Please respect copyright.PENANAUcKF4FvHik
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,332Please respect copyright.PENANAtFpgBrb42B
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,332Please respect copyright.PENANA3XUJsSaUYE
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,332Please respect copyright.PENANAdzmiQGt3Pg
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,332Please respect copyright.PENANAakGdb2ckVB
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父親工作的地方不一定,332Please respect copyright.PENANAq7Mip86vU9
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輾轉的換了三所小學,332Please respect copyright.PENANAL7hOuDeZW0
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,332Please respect copyright.PENANAoVr0A49DHc
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他開始會喜怒無常,332Please respect copyright.PENANANSkutfUC5C
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,332Please respect copyright.PENANAE0sUQpvxgc
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,332Please respect copyright.PENANAT1UtYTLrt6
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很小我就與異性交往,332Please respect copyright.PENANAA9DcxdQSAE
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,332Please respect copyright.PENANAlLYZCWGL5U
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,332Please respect copyright.PENANAFXCrnNcL5W
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,332Please respect copyright.PENANAB7K4DiPYuj
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我會睡在工地,332Please respect copyright.PENANA86GubExfko
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,332Please respect copyright.PENANAYfk0tBb03O
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,332Please respect copyright.PENANAGKmdVRxwRt
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,332Please respect copyright.PENANAvuzBitebAm
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他開始會講貶低的話語,332Please respect copyright.PENANATSOd2FQJyj
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那些原本用來工作的用具,332Please respect copyright.PENANAqlRcgZyhXe
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,332Please respect copyright.PENANAhdXxlsQCGG
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」332Please respect copyright.PENANA9Yh0Slo2iB
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,332Please respect copyright.PENANAjlsypkKUdB
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,332Please respect copyright.PENANAkA0f87hoJt
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要我轉告給老師,332Please respect copyright.PENANAJVurQAQJWo
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」332Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6m7rjabjA
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,332Please respect copyright.PENANAoJYc6T3AHP
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,332Please respect copyright.PENANAOk67wPf1mY
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,332Please respect copyright.PENANAWJQ51sLxQ3
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細細去回想每個片段,332Please respect copyright.PENANArykmhiAWAZ
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,332Please respect copyright.PENANAHLl56h6Y7w
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,332Please respect copyright.PENANA2hEjvFOtUu
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,332Please respect copyright.PENANAKK5hK8RYWV
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」332Please respect copyright.PENANASreU4t0qJb
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,332Please respect copyright.PENANAo1rafr9aFN
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,332Please respect copyright.PENANApM24Z6lvcM
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,332Please respect copyright.PENANAfGTtp8FbzG
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,332Please respect copyright.PENANAh4NpU8ldIv
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,332Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0m0bPRFdd
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,332Please respect copyright.PENANA2zDPPW5Uho
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」332Please respect copyright.PENANAGMuCuil78X
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正準備吃下第一口時,332Please respect copyright.PENANAvIu6rtKE1m
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,332Please respect copyright.PENANA5t45cArYcx
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。332Please respect copyright.PENANA2wzw2MCFkl