「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來,325Please respect copyright.PENANArUPlrvjTGQ
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒,325Please respect copyright.PENANATOJh00lnAo
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的,325Please respect copyright.PENANAFCvmIooFT6
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幼小我的父母就離異,325Please respect copyright.PENANAXidZlP1gCS
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了,325Please respect copyright.PENANAPLZ7OUwd9H
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對母親的記憶還是有,325Please respect copyright.PENANADMAwwTVyNS
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記得她很常酗酒,325Please respect copyright.PENANAudS0SgNdf7
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後來的日子,325Please respect copyright.PENANASfiCIrwOp3
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活,325Please respect copyright.PENANAyYOur63gnJ
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忙於工作的他,325Please respect copyright.PENANATDZ9uUfb7c
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園,325Please respect copyright.PENANAFKzVQhKnh5
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到了上課時間再直接上課,325Please respect copyright.PENANAbUDE3kfMxj
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什麼?為什麼能睡在那裡,325Please respect copyright.PENANAy5bKYWIJPQ
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師,325Please respect copyright.PENANAKy8nY7SAOB
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡,325Please respect copyright.PENANAz6FGCMYmBQ
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼,325Please respect copyright.PENANAooGkIdJJjd
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課,325Please respect copyright.PENANAh2qNBdK2Oy
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父親工作的地方不一定,325Please respect copyright.PENANAzMBo7zguW5
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輾轉的換了三所小學,325Please respect copyright.PENANAHuTXO7MUSN
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲,325Please respect copyright.PENANA24v5bUO9JR
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他開始會喜怒無常,325Please respect copyright.PENANAoCSuii36wp
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沒來由的找我發脾氣,325Please respect copyright.PENANA2s5sg4qERF
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺,325Please respect copyright.PENANAdvjYihp1T8
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很小我就與異性交往,325Please respect copyright.PENANA9Jx5dJUAuN
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親,是一名水電工,325Please respect copyright.PENANAolSx6y0BT6
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作,325Please respect copyright.PENANAeeItvblRH1
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作,325Please respect copyright.PENANAArWZsyFtnh
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我會睡在工地,325Please respect copyright.PENANAPA43haIlzy
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩,325Please respect copyright.PENANAQjL8UoEuAg
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業,325Please respect copyright.PENANAASKDCxnnT1
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級,325Please respect copyright.PENANA6tLVSXMNaw
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他開始會講貶低的話語,325Please respect copyright.PENANA4FSA5LV9qf
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那些原本用來工作的用具,325Please respect copyright.PENANAqQRkcZaAVQ
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具,325Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZJJIzPHXL
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他會拿著水管說:「你信不信我會打你」325Please respect copyright.PENANA0VZM3Qcx5G
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有次,他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我,325Please respect copyright.PENANArBECPddtBe
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課,325Please respect copyright.PENANAscwQKFsRL5
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要我轉告給老師,325Please respect copyright.PENANAArbXTCnaMu
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電話裡他說:「老師吼?有種你就報警」325Please respect copyright.PENANA59QdEXyuOx
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老師報了警,結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後,我偶爾會逃家,325Please respect copyright.PENANAQYEGhnJ8uF
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班,325Please respect copyright.PENANAjAbb3PiYG4
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那樣的對待仍然持續,而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來,325Please respect copyright.PENANAPjh7g3YF5V
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細細去回想每個片段,325Please respect copyright.PENANAtEaPjHcTgk
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父親,很不容易的照顧了我的起居,325Please respect copyright.PENANAaxvbHl1Rkw
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩,325Please respect copyright.PENANAE4Mlag5AWA
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對他一個大男孩很不容易,325Please respect copyright.PENANAgThKPJY2Rs
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所以他很常說:「我是個意外不該出生」325Please respect copyright.PENANAfnU1emIRui
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許,我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒,325Please respect copyright.PENANAwFKxCjvvrR
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣,325Please respect copyright.PENANAQ5DdpPS8n4
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我打開冰箱,拿出冰牛奶,325Please respect copyright.PENANA7s5j1P5njO
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐,325Please respect copyright.PENANAv3tsWASBw7
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點,325Please respect copyright.PENANAq3tGWZTHa2
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶,325Please respect copyright.PENANA90BMSlT1BY
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我喃喃自語到:「好想失憶啊~」325Please respect copyright.PENANA1PY5ruwSq1
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正準備吃下第一口時,325Please respect copyright.PENANAzz5GFQdEjZ
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞,325Please respect copyright.PENANAMAYXwJ9YIw
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時,回憶到了我國二那年。325Please respect copyright.PENANAkuvYxRvSPm