「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORlBQuhSyr
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡls5ZnUT9Dk
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hRdWvrYR9
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幼小我的父母就離異，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiIS1BEqBs
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqLM07ONzu
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對母親的記憶還是有，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q7IJ5mcTq
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記得她很常酗酒，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDRrDEb42w
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後來的日子，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oKid5klzI
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOte5OdOIaM
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忙於工作的他，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMF3Y6UJe1
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7tifA59uG
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到了上課時間再直接上課，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8e2O4ao4K1
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFDW7yMvJr
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7ajK7JskP
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2Rs6IJ0WR
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdZZs7idYa
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCbQcp4mer
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父親工作的地方不一定，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCC9B7p3Yj
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輾轉的換了三所小學，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DyBmmJcwi
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEk91TJjKuY
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他開始會喜怒無常，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡukYYLJycxm
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHJ8BeVugJ
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyd46EbfMpW
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很小我就與異性交往，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd66no77rIB
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8FBRYiSOp
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8aauPBDA1
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIU7virAkz
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我會睡在工地，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTVtRbCl1y
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoCMp0Wlfb
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3FTdmWiWf
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjV0csocNWV
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他開始會講貶低的話語，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnfQnXcSvT
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那些原本用來工作的用具，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEMAPIOr5F
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhcpzi3Xdl
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxucE0zu8i
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡignbSsDkmf
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeKI4qI4lK
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要我轉告給老師，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPSNOl3FOh
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1oL3V7ARuk
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGoer296MF
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqO4EaTQXZ
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWS9jjyCF1r
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細細去回想每個片段，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBM4Cb5Zmib
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8mFYMmM5k1
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiEjaZf3wQ
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡffK1nort8J
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3hOpJ0H9s
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxksHZhYMS3
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoS30G96qY
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5DZdIZoPp
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSQqV7Wbmo
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHbJRfXkKt
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7fBuSX8A8
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNinl0x8UkK
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正準備吃下第一口時，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DoAooeJDw
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwS6SYUhhK
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。659Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIVE2ucwwR
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