「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdMMdxyP2o
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKXxsATD93x
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpQNzIcRaY
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幼小我的父母就離異，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzEe71jHHi
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XkehtNfHI
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對母親的記憶還是有，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagDii20OL1
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記得她很常酗酒，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGReeT0gvIu
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後來的日子，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYcBIjckze
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIKqniRRAZ
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忙於工作的他，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDm2RQn1ics
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYIExk1eSa
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到了上課時間再直接上課，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHpWZCJXaW
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9t4ug3Age5
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pACWqMNAt
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIrunLrOye
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfO19Om7DC
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLMXbdkgEC
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父親工作的地方不一定，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgYff22kco
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輾轉的換了三所小學，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GsvndrrW5
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtf32OXhdSi
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他開始會喜怒無常，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gJTfrFpJn
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3ctjBuXod
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXSTTnw3f2p
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很小我就與異性交往，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbPu7LZzcQ
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3cMXkZsYF
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEy7OcHT3NZ
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKAdLWc9Ht
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我會睡在工地，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPe331cykH2
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlCPV4Asi5n
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTIgBdZbfV
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMRa9iiaywe
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他開始會講貶低的話語，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yVtWDWlO1
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那些原本用來工作的用具，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgOZMz0NZ9
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDCV0XfxmF
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiSglPlCigO
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSdH7YwzpR
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ98ZInj8ZCl
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要我轉告給老師，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13rAGUEBFs
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpyASa8mLz
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhjZC3S2A7
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmX10e0JU2Y
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0heTBbp3vw
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細細去回想每個片段，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpn0CQwBZbG
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHVONNEntw
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0ro9IYQ9Z
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ23d8KuObIo
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzP7n1bKmw
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcr2Jn7oCTX
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKP4QzgaZEl
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ74Jed9biDt
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MGQEOhtif
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxozN7Mtiws
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFNvj5fS7F
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xTMdLUIdJ
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正準備吃下第一口時，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdCWZYU95v
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYm70RiMbz
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。797Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhdDiyBOh8
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