【實體書有售】《青梅竹馬真係最難追》 - 結局篇Ｉ：我們都不甘寂寞01082022

夢醒來了。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRGGqqAXvl
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不論是昨天的那個。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdv5L2rquw
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還是從孩童時期開始的那個。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM56a4GCW8q
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早上８時。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAQpWjxeBk
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「嗶嗶嗶，嗶嗶嗶！」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zq8NiupAq
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我拍熄鬧鐘，結果它自動轉成了收音機。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9wxdHtFJA
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「斯里蘭卡經濟一夜間突然崩潰，有專家以”雪崩＂形容，根據外電報道…」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OvnVnhq94
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直接拔電！1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKVhVLbxoW
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房中又回歸了平靜，我把電池扔到一旁，喘一口氣躺回床上。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jP2ijoLe5
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這下子該怎麼辦？我扶扶額頭，以眼角餘光望向躺在我旁邊全身赤裸的妍妍，沒想到最後我和她還是越過了那一線。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYYNCGIck9
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本來應該是目標達成，處男畢業，我應該歡呼才對，但現在心頭更多的卻是不安。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2kPGXLPdD
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明明沒有對不起任何人，我又為何這樣動搖？我的良心為何在責難我？1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7I1v4Lj6M
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我聽從了自己的感覺行動和妍妍渡過了這一春宵，現在本應消失的另一個盤算卻好像冤魂不散似的，要把我從內撕裂！昨晚的躊躇沈澱成劇毒，鑽入我的骨髓中折磨著我！1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jvwTd4VCV
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…總之，先穿回褲子洗個臉吧。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVCc6oC8VG
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我到床尾執回自己的褲子和內褲穿好，跑到浴室胡亂梳洗一下。已經接近枯萎的體力經過一晚的睡眠後已回到了最低水平，至少現在能站穩。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlomi8zPnas
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妍妍還沒醒呢，她也筋疲力盡了吧。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2fSqJBFdU
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感覺現在跑掉會使情況更加糟糕，所以我在妍妍家廚房搜索了一輪，然後熟練地煮起了早餐。油香四溢，感覺這早上要多吃點蛋白質補充一下。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtzyPxV62R
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親身上陣比想像中更累人啊。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN3WsJCM6R
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不知道是香氣還是聲音，妍妍從睡房中探出頭來：「嘩，第一次事後朝早有人煮埋早餐俾我食。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsU4XHw9NYb
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再炒一隻蛋。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWdBqrxZdj
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「煮慣晒。」我說，「希望岩你食，我係你間屋只搵到呢Ｄ。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL67amNOXBA
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「哦，我買返黎放架咋，我本身懶煮飯。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeyzF4FQ5O
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「你去刷牙洗面先，就搞掂。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDdqxnp08m
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再再炒一隻蛋好了。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa20wXbrLbm
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把早餐擺好，將幾乎全新的圍巾掛回原處後我坐下來等正在梳洗的妍妍。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDHonbC3NA
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……屋中靜得耳朵發痛，這已經不是安靜。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWc2Gn6WbW6
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這是冷清。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0QDcgOn91r
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當中的分別是…我們的家，我們居住的空間或多或少也有一些和我們掛勾的東西，飾物之類吧。我屋有我和童桐的合照，亞基成長的照片，我拿過的獎牌獎盃。無論是童桐的毛公仔，Beta的飛機杯，程太家中的刺繡之類，除了是一個空間外，家應該是我們留下歲月痕跡的地方。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKGkNFkK2m
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但這兒…甚麼也沒有。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYm7IQgFwQ
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牆上是空的，廚櫃的調味料連包裝也沒有打開，電視櫃內的遙控已經封塵。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnDwX4LExb
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相比起「家」，妍妍的這個單位我更覺得像是一個戲棚，只是裝成家的樣子，但根本只有表象，內在…1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLeDHnMJwU
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…甚麼也沒有。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvrTtFtfv3
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這就是我所感受到的「冷清」，按我媽的說法就是沒有「人氣」吧。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRggm16o2t
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正常來說準備好早餐後我應該會玩著手機等她，但是現在我對自己的手機只感到恐懼。手機還躺在豆袋沙發上吹著冷氣，早就因為電池耗盡而黑屏。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCvwVztbV8
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不過叉電線就在手機旁邊不到兩米，手機只要一插便能復活，但我卻不敢這樣做。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMUC8S0AxQ
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爸媽先不說，童桐會有多少個未接來電，未讀訊息？1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsbKLrbBRE
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明明妍妍說叫我別再理童桐，我就是沒法…真的沒辦法。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1k7gN8JUs
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「唉。」我嘆一口氣，因為打從心底覺得自己無藥可救1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwOych5v5a

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「晨早流流唉聲嘆氣做咩？」化好淡妝的妍妍冷不勝防地從後出現環抱著我，從後把頭輕輕枕到我肩上。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaXGsUrpcM
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「哦無，我驚亞基無早餐食拆屋。」我撒謊。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMyRvHia6X
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「……」妍妍表情微妙，然後放開我站起來，「收音機既電，你拆既？」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxo4RRwhz1h
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我苦笑：「我對斯里蘭卡經濟雪崩無咩興趣。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPowRrFJtRn
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「你撳呢度就熄到。」她把裝好電池的收音機型鬧鐘展示給我看，「我啊…自己一個人住，有時候全日都唔會同人講野，咁亦代表全日都唔會聽到人講野，所以我好似d老人家咁。部收音機除左做鬧鐘，夜晚有時都會聽下等間屋無咁靜，係唔係…好老套？」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9krnhzgYX
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字句中，滲透著落寞。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWAlIaKB5M
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剛剛屋中的冷寂感浮現腦海。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8zNHkYvBb
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回想起剛剛她說有人為她寫早餐，那份發自內心的喜悅和喜出望外…1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHbQkTPHHU
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…叫我心痛。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4xKsOobBpP
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「點會老土啫。」我說，「今時今日一天都係衛星，我仲練緊射箭喔？」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTelhWe0Cgq
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妍妍吃笑：「依加我知你射野叻啦…我地都就黎俾１０後叫阿姨，食早餐啦，唔使等我…咁多炒蛋?」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBmsEQVtHQh
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「易整。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN6Q5tr5C7
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我把那句以形補形吞回肚中。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡup56ufTSIr
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妍妍與我都好像有種默契：誰也不正面提及昨晚的事，誰也不確認我們現在的關係，直到早餐完結為止我們都處於這種曖昧狀態之中。

終於連碗也洗完，我和她坐到沙發上，她摟住我的手臂把頭靠到我肩上。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBBAS18PgE
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我們都不願打破這寧靜。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZhE95aYw9K
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我是她的甚麼人？她是我的甚麼人？朋友？但我們有這種關係；性伴？但我們只有過一晚這種關係；一夜情？我又不覺得止步於這種關係；情侶？我們誰也沒有向過對方表白，甚至—1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObn70wlrqz
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—甚至知道我們對彼此都沒有愛情。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOlZOOJMHO
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她只是想找人提供一個肩膊，一種慰藉；我只是想找機會鬆開煞車，試圖否定童桐是我的世界中心。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPXkZJu6NL
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老天，我做了甚麼。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOUZHoVAOy
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感覺糟透了，我指心理上，五味雜陳也沒法形容現在我的感受，好像把所有人際關係塞進攪拌機打成一團然後喝掉，不難喝，但味道過於複雜混沌，難以陳述。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rlrfHmPG0
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「之後…你有咩打算？」我先開口，感覺在沒有感情基礎下和她有了這種關係，有點佔她便宜，所以我心中或多或少有種負責任的感覺，剛剛那頓早餐是，現在先行開口也是，我希望使她感受到我的關心。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcW3mhXmXzc
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「…我應該唔再做ＰＴＧＦ。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX993gxnvmN
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「都好既，你係唔係就畢業？」妍妍比我大一年。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNjSPoMb1g
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「就快。」她說，「諗緊…都係唔搵工住。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCe6i3Y6L0c
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「抖下先？」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFFp3BAF5z
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「嗯，我可能去個長旅行， Working Holidays之類。」她說，「我都唔知，我個人無咩計劃，可能話過去咁多年…我都無任何方向，得過且過，依加有種從新出發既感覺。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQf1ulY6UY
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她口中沒有一絲自由的喜悅，我想起情聖說看到我鎖定目標卯盡全力的身姿。我和妍妍可能有類似的過去，但我們的背影大概不一樣吧。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGU49patZ4e
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「你會搵到既。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcRo7OFEts
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「…你唔係會同我一齊既咩。」妍妍卻說。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqDwRGekzO
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「其他人即使岩Feel，我信任佢…都未至於做到呢個地步。」她說，「你對我黎講已經係…最特別既人，呀遊。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINDgblvVgw
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妍妍已經說得好婉轉了，現在她已經把交球權交到我手上。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cAi87QDuy
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她閃亮的眼神，又有點期待，又有點害怕。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08HELKYDK9
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「…對唔住。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHFwOeNddm
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她先是默靜了片刻。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlcDuO030b
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「點解要道歉？」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNgy6lDfam
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我搖頭說：「如果你想我同你起一齊，我好榮幸，係我修到既福氣，我亦都好樂意，搵一日我會正式向你再表白一次，然後正式係一樣…」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExfp3aYqss
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她嘴角揚起。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1Cn6u6MyF
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「…但係。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqD3b2D3VHZ
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她嘴角塌下。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkL0IAhimJ
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「我心入面仲有童桐，我仲未完全放低到佢，當然我可以呃住自己再呃埋你同你一齊，但我…唔想咁對你，我唔可以明知道自己仲掛住佢既情況下同你係埋一齊。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sejD30QOm
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「………」我未見過妍妍這樣抑鬱的臉。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoRZiHofNB
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那不但是傷心，更加是絕望，對上一次看到這表情是在被核彈爆破的植嵐晨臉上。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BgqhQxnC4
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糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕！1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuC0OBU0GPi
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發現自己鑄成大錯的我手足無措：「我，我，我會努力去忘記佢…然後同你係埋一齊！你你你俾少少時間，我處理好我同童桐之間既事，我就會…」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbY5yVdape
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「你唔好呃人，馬川遊。」妍妍冷冷地說，她眼中充滿了冰冷。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QaYSymH59
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…我就說了，我從來不是甚麼好人。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYauNP6jXu
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「我無呃你，我會努力忘記佢…」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuep8Y5WbUE
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「你係度呃緊既唔係我，係你自己。」妍妍凝視著我說。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSW6yaFo0W
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「……」我無言以對。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwKkk58dyY
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「我都係過來人，我都曾經同你都一樣，曾經將一個人視為我既一切，我既全部！」她痛心地掩著胸口說，「根本無可能！無論過幾耐都無可能忘記到！你唔止想呃我！仲要連自己都呃埋！！」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5e9Z5gPCe
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回音在寧靜的房間中激蕩，窗邊花瓶折射的晨光也如凝結了一樣。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMJMOhzViH
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「……我…」我沒法斬釘截鐵的否定她。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUL9xAtk4aQ
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由於壓制率不足，呀遊處於兩頭唔到岸的心理狀況

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「我唔想做衰人。」妍妍說，「唔好搞到我逼你係我同佢之間揀一個咁。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTJAqT2g8E
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不，童桐沒有錯，妍妍也沒有錯。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCGCnr1Hbc
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錯的只是我罷了。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4RCFaWrIq
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我才是那個最該死的垃圾，沒想到連我也有成為渣男，賤男的一天。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wzaBWLkSp
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「我本來就唔期望你會放得低佢。」妍妍黯然地說，「…我係度期望咩啫…唔通你真係會放低佢…然後同我一齊咩。我只係個PTGF…俾錢就可以擁有既人…童桐係你眼中係完美女神…由細玩到大既青梅竹馬，我又點及得上佢…」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbz9ksx6edO
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一連串的喃喃自語我盡數聽到耳中，本來打算安慰妍妍的我，在一晚的縱慾後成為了傷害她的另一個混蛋。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaC3iqW8s5Z
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老實說，我希望妍妍痛揍我一頓，這樣我心可能會好過一點。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxy7MK1TSyQ
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我連說抱歉也覺得更抱歉，我不知道可以怎麼辦，果然沒有感情基礎就不應該在這兒過這一晚嗎。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUnJ12wwxn
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這種級別的關係困境，已經不是我可以解決得了。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2kspYXqDV
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面如死灰的我走向手機插回叉電線，開機。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLEHpFg9W01
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未讀訊息：７1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdyTlh7Tg7
［來自阿媽的２個未讀訊息］1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xpvbyOeAu
［來自童桐的４個未讀訊息］1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYcsTPHRRA
［來自英姐的１個未讀訊息］1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghJrw0zdRu
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我通通無視，打開Beta情聖所在的群組，輸入：「黑色警報，集合時間２３００」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2GNMHaMph6
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[OK] Beta1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72T1NmWIUB
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[黑色！？你唔同童桐一齊左咩，ＯＫ喇不過，不過個個時間我應該睇緊大瀑布未必收到漫遊]在渡蜜月的情聖。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NK4Eh98oH
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加拿大時差是１２小時，但情聖還是照樣答應。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW12xVthRrg
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鎖機後我轉身坐回妍妍身邊，她臉上的愁雲慘霧沒有消散過，看到她這樣我也很難過。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXT9pSml6Mt
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「…」喃喃自語完畢的她看著我，然後說，「我唔係個Ｄ…依加我係你既人，你就要負責任個種，其實尋晚對我黎講只係好平常。只係…你知唔知自己想點？呀遊。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhbgtaMSuMv
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平日那個成熟知性的她似乎回來了些許。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRaiD956MH
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不，好似不對勁？1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzQTqAmOvk
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「…我唔想你傷心。」我說出心底話。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3bl8dw3hF
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和童桐平日的那種一哭二罵三掀桌比，妍妍的確是在我和認真討論我們之間的關係。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaZlEs9KH5
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「但係我又放低唔到童桐。」這也是心底話。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡec1Kk9Xubi
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「我亦唔想你扭曲自己，一邊掛住童桐而硬夾同我係一齊。」她苦笑,「點可以要你放低一個你愛既人，同一個你唔愛既人一齊？如果係咁，我就好自私。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzvB31SgmA
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但我可能是。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXwFUFvBTT
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「…你真係好好。」我說，「唉，我尋晚…或者真係唔應該…」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjK6tZWDKhJ
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老實說我那時也是十五十六，可能沒這樣少，大概是七十多對八十多吧。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgxsIhlNbw
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「我尋晚好開心，喊得好痛快，之後…都好享受。」她說，「你唔使覺得後悔。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVDCQ0Qsjd
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「…但我依加好似對你唔住咁。」我說，「明明無打算同你係一齊，但又同你…」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9WpobMAOg
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「我本來就唔應該期望你放得低佢，依加咁樣我都有份自己攞黎。」她哭著搖頭說，「其實我都唔知自己對你係咩感覺。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisc1QbuRWp
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解決辦法我真的想不到。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSnQdOEJlF
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但接下來妍妍的那一句，重擊了我的心坎。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhA9HDRgrx
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「但係你再咁樣…我怕我真係會鐘意左你，呀遊。」

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和妍妍在一起，我便扭曲了自己，即使我自己願意也辦不到，她也不樂見。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzOoGEcgMb
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放棄妍妍，我和她之間的關係更加是不知所謂，而且我也成為了傷害她的人。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SOfasshZW
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我們已經走到了死胡同。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwahUii0Ne
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「記唔記得尋日我話童桐一定有一個原因先唔做你女朋友?」妍妍說,「就好似你依加唔同我一齊既原因係童桐一樣。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmQFIQidqN
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「…嗯。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZsU37AqOD
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「或者你應該搞清楚呢個原因係咩，先至再諗我同你之後點算。」妍妍說。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zxDV9kR7w
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不，我知道她在打甚麼主意。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJPzlIgt28
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「個原因係咩，我都唔會放棄童…」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvMDLxhTOg
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「你諗清楚先好講。」妍妍瞬速打斷我的狂言。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP07lamPWBI
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「…」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbcTYsIYrc
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「你咩意思。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjijPrkKN65
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「對我黎講，你唔同我一齊既原因就係童桐。」妍妍說，「佢既原因係咁既份量，咁既級數，而且我同你之間係無感情基礎，而你，童桐兩個之間係有，佢咁都拒絕你…佢個個原因既嚴重程度，恐怕超乎你想像。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pMdJTDSFG
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「……」我突然心中生畏。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrTBwhssB8
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到底是…甚麼的理由？1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4b4VdDyjJ
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妍妍有著情聖一樣對於人際關係的洞悉和掌握，她的分析合理得叫我恐慌。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBtnP8lEOS
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「所以到時你搞清楚決定放棄童桐既。」她欺近我身前，「我又未必會肯同你一齊，你準備繼續打飛機喇，Ａ０遊。」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7dTxPl8My
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…妍妍竟然…1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOLu53Kb5y
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「…多謝你。」我已經明白了她的心意。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKLlwSCYen
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「嗄？做咩無啦啦多謝我，我，我要脅緊你喎，我，我明明笑緊你A０，做咩…」1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡft10PacA3h
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她只是在給我一個下台階。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWeV1z0iDK
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妍妍為了我不要這樣苦惱，故意叫我去查清童桐的那個原因，使我不用繼續在這死胡同中打轉，使我可以繼續前進，不用理會她，掌握著所謂的初心，所謂的理想，所謂的目標志向初衷決意真愛！！1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVpTYGqrh6
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那麼。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRlOja0eU2
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當下困在迷宮之中的人。1189Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqfIp2V1mn
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