【實體書有售】《青梅竹馬真係最難追》 - 結局篇Ｉ：我們都不甘寂寞01082022

夢醒來了。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0dIp1hb4mm
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不論是昨天的那個。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcosMSBYHy5
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還是從孩童時期開始的那個。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvHs88Jpwl
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早上８時。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OLL100BIg
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「嗶嗶嗶，嗶嗶嗶！」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuF3VCSzO8T
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我拍熄鬧鐘，結果它自動轉成了收音機。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY83QtkVWaz
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「斯里蘭卡經濟一夜間突然崩潰，有專家以”雪崩＂形容，根據外電報道…」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnIMuwNwd6
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直接拔電！1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2bQoYmjry
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房中又回歸了平靜，我把電池扔到一旁，喘一口氣躺回床上。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2PMBSnxfch
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這下子該怎麼辦？我扶扶額頭，以眼角餘光望向躺在我旁邊全身赤裸的妍妍，沒想到最後我和她還是越過了那一線。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJuURMdeIW
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本來應該是目標達成，處男畢業，我應該歡呼才對，但現在心頭更多的卻是不安。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyj5RJGUvGl
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明明沒有對不起任何人，我又為何這樣動搖？我的良心為何在責難我？1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgL0CrLICqM
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我聽從了自己的感覺行動和妍妍渡過了這一春宵，現在本應消失的另一個盤算卻好像冤魂不散似的，要把我從內撕裂！昨晚的躊躇沈澱成劇毒，鑽入我的骨髓中折磨著我！1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBtFnCE6lf
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…總之，先穿回褲子洗個臉吧。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUde1K2SfF
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我到床尾執回自己的褲子和內褲穿好，跑到浴室胡亂梳洗一下。已經接近枯萎的體力經過一晚的睡眠後已回到了最低水平，至少現在能站穩。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15I6flo1dG
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妍妍還沒醒呢，她也筋疲力盡了吧。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYV2nuFgGeH
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感覺現在跑掉會使情況更加糟糕，所以我在妍妍家廚房搜索了一輪，然後熟練地煮起了早餐。油香四溢，感覺這早上要多吃點蛋白質補充一下。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujlKtC4S2R
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親身上陣比想像中更累人啊。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07nAj0c2et
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不知道是香氣還是聲音，妍妍從睡房中探出頭來：「嘩，第一次事後朝早有人煮埋早餐俾我食。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNu8Y06T4u
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再炒一隻蛋。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgQkwmk3sI
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「煮慣晒。」我說，「希望岩你食，我係你間屋只搵到呢Ｄ。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNp0E8nvaco
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「哦，我買返黎放架咋，我本身懶煮飯。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6i0qZAZwq
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「你去刷牙洗面先，就搞掂。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtoRWxqKl6
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再再炒一隻蛋好了。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGPVdRrAWF
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把早餐擺好，將幾乎全新的圍巾掛回原處後我坐下來等正在梳洗的妍妍。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjw1V7yGowo
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……屋中靜得耳朵發痛，這已經不是安靜。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOfVHQzIZt
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這是冷清。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JZXjnXAbr
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當中的分別是…我們的家，我們居住的空間或多或少也有一些和我們掛勾的東西，飾物之類吧。我屋有我和童桐的合照，亞基成長的照片，我拿過的獎牌獎盃。無論是童桐的毛公仔，Beta的飛機杯，程太家中的刺繡之類，除了是一個空間外，家應該是我們留下歲月痕跡的地方。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKACebsaE3a
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但這兒…甚麼也沒有。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvntvPzPCN
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牆上是空的，廚櫃的調味料連包裝也沒有打開，電視櫃內的遙控已經封塵。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCQj6wB3cb
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相比起「家」，妍妍的這個單位我更覺得像是一個戲棚，只是裝成家的樣子，但根本只有表象，內在…1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGZDfVPfM0
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…甚麼也沒有。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZMfrQrw7z
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這就是我所感受到的「冷清」，按我媽的說法就是沒有「人氣」吧。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6X1XmYLGy
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正常來說準備好早餐後我應該會玩著手機等她，但是現在我對自己的手機只感到恐懼。手機還躺在豆袋沙發上吹著冷氣，早就因為電池耗盡而黑屏。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYeETQCZw6
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不過叉電線就在手機旁邊不到兩米，手機只要一插便能復活，但我卻不敢這樣做。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDA3BOir9LS
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爸媽先不說，童桐會有多少個未接來電，未讀訊息？1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QSy2UrT3S
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明明妍妍說叫我別再理童桐，我就是沒法…真的沒辦法。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsgto00oqe
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「唉。」我嘆一口氣，因為打從心底覺得自己無藥可救1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmkh8fIDYAj

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「晨早流流唉聲嘆氣做咩？」化好淡妝的妍妍冷不勝防地從後出現環抱著我，從後把頭輕輕枕到我肩上。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrdsWwfY54
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「哦無，我驚亞基無早餐食拆屋。」我撒謊。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgHn1aefVI
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「……」妍妍表情微妙，然後放開我站起來，「收音機既電，你拆既？」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VkLJJPHw2
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我苦笑：「我對斯里蘭卡經濟雪崩無咩興趣。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPixiBli4Qd
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「你撳呢度就熄到。」她把裝好電池的收音機型鬧鐘展示給我看，「我啊…自己一個人住，有時候全日都唔會同人講野，咁亦代表全日都唔會聽到人講野，所以我好似d老人家咁。部收音機除左做鬧鐘，夜晚有時都會聽下等間屋無咁靜，係唔係…好老套？」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9peXv5ygiW
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字句中，滲透著落寞。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HaJ34rNgS
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剛剛屋中的冷寂感浮現腦海。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JlXzAFCPS
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回想起剛剛她說有人為她寫早餐，那份發自內心的喜悅和喜出望外…1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDv4nfboeB
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…叫我心痛。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFT6xMrL51
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「點會老土啫。」我說，「今時今日一天都係衛星，我仲練緊射箭喔？」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8HMCEh7ek
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妍妍吃笑：「依加我知你射野叻啦…我地都就黎俾１０後叫阿姨，食早餐啦，唔使等我…咁多炒蛋?」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Skngn2GLv
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「易整。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLtiQt8ODJ
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我把那句以形補形吞回肚中。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjnO2mttH2
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妍妍與我都好像有種默契：誰也不正面提及昨晚的事，誰也不確認我們現在的關係，直到早餐完結為止我們都處於這種曖昧狀態之中。

終於連碗也洗完，我和她坐到沙發上，她摟住我的手臂把頭靠到我肩上。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVJTUkHgwb
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「……」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UjEhawGLa
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我們都不願打破這寧靜。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3Cq4BDQLv
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我是她的甚麼人？她是我的甚麼人？朋友？但我們有這種關係；性伴？但我們只有過一晚這種關係；一夜情？我又不覺得止步於這種關係；情侶？我們誰也沒有向過對方表白，甚至—1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvWYTZCCx7
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—甚至知道我們對彼此都沒有愛情。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NRdjQ4OLr
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她只是想找人提供一個肩膊，一種慰藉；我只是想找機會鬆開煞車，試圖否定童桐是我的世界中心。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2BXEgCSIo
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老天，我做了甚麼。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDfMl9ys3l
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感覺糟透了，我指心理上，五味雜陳也沒法形容現在我的感受，好像把所有人際關係塞進攪拌機打成一團然後喝掉，不難喝，但味道過於複雜混沌，難以陳述。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNlimMrEMA
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「之後…你有咩打算？」我先開口，感覺在沒有感情基礎下和她有了這種關係，有點佔她便宜，所以我心中或多或少有種負責任的感覺，剛剛那頓早餐是，現在先行開口也是，我希望使她感受到我的關心。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEmkiSWRWn
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「…我應該唔再做ＰＴＧＦ。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4cD9PPs3Af
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「都好既，你係唔係就畢業？」妍妍比我大一年。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DZkO6Xfj2
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「就快。」她說，「諗緊…都係唔搵工住。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoR38n3nwy
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「抖下先？」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEHUXRYbFS
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「嗯，我可能去個長旅行， Working Holidays之類。」她說，「我都唔知，我個人無咩計劃，可能話過去咁多年…我都無任何方向，得過且過，依加有種從新出發既感覺。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYTNIfFesK
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她口中沒有一絲自由的喜悅，我想起情聖說看到我鎖定目標卯盡全力的身姿。我和妍妍可能有類似的過去，但我們的背影大概不一樣吧。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqctJ1aFEH
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「你會搵到既。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Q8Qn0J5nY
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「…你唔係會同我一齊既咩。」妍妍卻說。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscaBCyreNP
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「其他人即使岩Feel，我信任佢…都未至於做到呢個地步。」她說，「你對我黎講已經係…最特別既人，呀遊。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FvgDm7N3Y
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妍妍已經說得好婉轉了，現在她已經把交球權交到我手上。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbop9j7o4Ju
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她閃亮的眼神，又有點期待，又有點害怕。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaVMREqzlX
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「…對唔住。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2ghxeRTAp
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她先是默靜了片刻。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEcei6mMX2
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「點解要道歉？」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB66hMSH9wM
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我搖頭說：「如果你想我同你起一齊，我好榮幸，係我修到既福氣，我亦都好樂意，搵一日我會正式向你再表白一次，然後正式係一樣…」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohSCPhmFJU
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她嘴角揚起。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9k6LkZtVb
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「…但係。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRP5hEVw5yD
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她嘴角塌下。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHtuh51yn7
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「我心入面仲有童桐，我仲未完全放低到佢，當然我可以呃住自己再呃埋你同你一齊，但我…唔想咁對你，我唔可以明知道自己仲掛住佢既情況下同你係埋一齊。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38LHqy3G5M
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「………」我未見過妍妍這樣抑鬱的臉。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDb3orneEI4
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那不但是傷心，更加是絕望，對上一次看到這表情是在被核彈爆破的植嵐晨臉上。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemJIXP14cC
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糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕糟糕！1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBqXUllt9n
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發現自己鑄成大錯的我手足無措：「我，我，我會努力去忘記佢…然後同你係埋一齊！你你你俾少少時間，我處理好我同童桐之間既事，我就會…」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1XSTiR7k6
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「你唔好呃人，馬川遊。」妍妍冷冷地說，她眼中充滿了冰冷。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdCtmQ4k92
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…我就說了，我從來不是甚麼好人。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJZbUIBPyg
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「我無呃你，我會努力忘記佢…」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SZ6NaRkNS
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「你係度呃緊既唔係我，係你自己。」妍妍凝視著我說。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgqiDmDcga
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「……」我無言以對。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYOUmiZKvYo
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「我都係過來人，我都曾經同你都一樣，曾經將一個人視為我既一切，我既全部！」她痛心地掩著胸口說，「根本無可能！無論過幾耐都無可能忘記到！你唔止想呃我！仲要連自己都呃埋！！」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthwsXQ13X5
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回音在寧靜的房間中激蕩，窗邊花瓶折射的晨光也如凝結了一樣。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqN96O3o3S
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「……我…」我沒法斬釘截鐵的否定她。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoftL2QagJR
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由於壓制率不足，呀遊處於兩頭唔到岸的心理狀況

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「我唔想做衰人。」妍妍說，「唔好搞到我逼你係我同佢之間揀一個咁。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOwZT3Ohnq
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不，童桐沒有錯，妍妍也沒有錯。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9KJVQbwPS
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錯的只是我罷了。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBi4fM2ix3
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我才是那個最該死的垃圾，沒想到連我也有成為渣男，賤男的一天。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC33pGA8B59
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「我本來就唔期望你會放得低佢。」妍妍黯然地說，「…我係度期望咩啫…唔通你真係會放低佢…然後同我一齊咩。我只係個PTGF…俾錢就可以擁有既人…童桐係你眼中係完美女神…由細玩到大既青梅竹馬，我又點及得上佢…」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTw07Ub5ff
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一連串的喃喃自語我盡數聽到耳中，本來打算安慰妍妍的我，在一晚的縱慾後成為了傷害她的另一個混蛋。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAmoHWgL5v
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老實說，我希望妍妍痛揍我一頓，這樣我心可能會好過一點。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3g1UbHIez
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我連說抱歉也覺得更抱歉，我不知道可以怎麼辦，果然沒有感情基礎就不應該在這兒過這一晚嗎。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDh7VEQAPrD
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這種級別的關係困境，已經不是我可以解決得了。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1OEacnNJP
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面如死灰的我走向手機插回叉電線，開機。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTutp3HV8pm
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未讀訊息：７1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsFTP7Dmc2
［來自阿媽的２個未讀訊息］1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡclwifMXJ6a
［來自童桐的４個未讀訊息］1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjpObjLraR
［來自英姐的１個未讀訊息］1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0VcApJVCJR
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我通通無視，打開Beta情聖所在的群組，輸入：「黑色警報，集合時間２３００」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1YQuKDoFS
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[黑色！？你唔同童桐一齊左咩，ＯＫ喇不過，不過個個時間我應該睇緊大瀑布未必收到漫遊]在渡蜜月的情聖。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1Ug7LiFC5
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加拿大時差是１２小時，但情聖還是照樣答應。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQF4aiyfxo7
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鎖機後我轉身坐回妍妍身邊，她臉上的愁雲慘霧沒有消散過，看到她這樣我也很難過。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0TrM813rn
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「…」喃喃自語完畢的她看著我，然後說，「我唔係個Ｄ…依加我係你既人，你就要負責任個種，其實尋晚對我黎講只係好平常。只係…你知唔知自己想點？呀遊。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOl90Z8SO1
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平日那個成熟知性的她似乎回來了些許。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVBbkHIQOj
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不，好似不對勁？1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUIoPnr067
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「…我唔想你傷心。」我說出心底話。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLwulHPwwj
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和童桐平日的那種一哭二罵三掀桌比，妍妍的確是在我和認真討論我們之間的關係。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0m2N592AJM
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「但係我又放低唔到童桐。」這也是心底話。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbez5ODujly
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「我亦唔想你扭曲自己，一邊掛住童桐而硬夾同我係一齊。」她苦笑,「點可以要你放低一個你愛既人，同一個你唔愛既人一齊？如果係咁，我就好自私。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVWFg5rcjM
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但我可能是。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJCpLs25qT
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「…你真係好好。」我說，「唉，我尋晚…或者真係唔應該…」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6TS0HguCW
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老實說我那時也是十五十六，可能沒這樣少，大概是七十多對八十多吧。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bczH9h9Fp
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「我尋晚好開心，喊得好痛快，之後…都好享受。」她說，「你唔使覺得後悔。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjiXI9IwWI
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「…但我依加好似對你唔住咁。」我說，「明明無打算同你係一齊，但又同你…」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1l97zz66S
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「我本來就唔應該期望你放得低佢，依加咁樣我都有份自己攞黎。」她哭著搖頭說，「其實我都唔知自己對你係咩感覺。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSA0BGv4YuB
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解決辦法我真的想不到。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Rn675h1Tg
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但接下來妍妍的那一句，重擊了我的心坎。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKQlHmUzNA
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「但係你再咁樣…我怕我真係會鐘意左你，呀遊。」

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和妍妍在一起，我便扭曲了自己，即使我自己願意也辦不到，她也不樂見。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7Pi9WAKkU
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放棄妍妍，我和她之間的關係更加是不知所謂，而且我也成為了傷害她的人。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YL0OuUCBw
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我們已經走到了死胡同。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs64LNT27qv
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「記唔記得尋日我話童桐一定有一個原因先唔做你女朋友?」妍妍說,「就好似你依加唔同我一齊既原因係童桐一樣。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMvY3v2n2T
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「…嗯。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42ooCy0tWc
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「或者你應該搞清楚呢個原因係咩，先至再諗我同你之後點算。」妍妍說。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqBpdhqSIV
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不，我知道她在打甚麼主意。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqPFEfqxtZ
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「個原因係咩，我都唔會放棄童…」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDR97OxjqH
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「你諗清楚先好講。」妍妍瞬速打斷我的狂言。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvchdnTF3K
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「…」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGqhYJypyK
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「你咩意思。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcjwsDHIFC
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「對我黎講，你唔同我一齊既原因就係童桐。」妍妍說，「佢既原因係咁既份量，咁既級數，而且我同你之間係無感情基礎，而你，童桐兩個之間係有，佢咁都拒絕你…佢個個原因既嚴重程度，恐怕超乎你想像。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvreimXv3R
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「……」我突然心中生畏。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMahoyqo9ug
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到底是…甚麼的理由？1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgeATpYE4U
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妍妍有著情聖一樣對於人際關係的洞悉和掌握，她的分析合理得叫我恐慌。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkM7H0oH3pZ
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「所以到時你搞清楚決定放棄童桐既。」她欺近我身前，「我又未必會肯同你一齊，你準備繼續打飛機喇，Ａ０遊。」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLqUrOJA8Y
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…妍妍竟然…1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHgGuXjzpJ
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「…多謝你。」我已經明白了她的心意。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZBeBPdQop
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「嗄？做咩無啦啦多謝我，我，我要脅緊你喎，我，我明明笑緊你A０，做咩…」1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKm7GqyOH4
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她只是在給我一個下台階。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1oJgwG1yML
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妍妍為了我不要這樣苦惱，故意叫我去查清童桐的那個原因，使我不用繼續在這死胡同中打轉，使我可以繼續前進，不用理會她，掌握著所謂的初心，所謂的理想，所謂的目標志向初衷決意真愛！！1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Y4KdBIREB
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那麼。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Np36pSX8q
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當下困在迷宮之中的人。1525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU71L4OS1tj
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