Drift Space Log - 3009JUN28 (23:59)

Am I already a monster?

Five days have passed.

Today is the sixth day.

I am still neither hungry nor tired.

My mental state is very abnormal...

Wide awake?

Not sober?

It seems that it has evolved into a beast fight between myself and myself...

I don't want to drive myself crazy...

But the other side is thinking more and more that it is better to make myself crazy...

Or just let me die...

If I go crazy or die myself? I might be free from this!

If I am crazy...I can live in my own fantasy world like a mental patient.

If I die...I don't have to face the current predicament.

It's just... I can't control myself to go crazy or die...

My body no longer wanted to move, I was lying in the center of this white space and looked up at the ceiling...

My mind has been thinking about how I can make myself go crazy or die directly...

Strange... The row of blue virtual numbers suspended in mid-air... is it counting down rapidly...

"30090628 23:59:59"

"30090628 23:58:24"

"30090628 23:57:50"

"XXXXXXXX xx:xx:xx"

Strange... The floor also seems to be shaking...

Is my senses finally getting worse?

Or have I finally reached my spiritual limit?

Limit?

Finally reached the limit?

I'm finally free?

I cry......

I laugh......

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