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奇怪的夢
Published:
May 27, 2017
ENTRY #11
如此這般的我夢見自己消失了
Author:
貓繪子
Published:
May 27, 2017
1 Min Read
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好幾次我試著回想自己是否真正愛過誰,但是記憶背叛我,甚至不願意替我捏造出這樣一個人,就連生我愛我照顧我的父母親,我都不曾愛過嗎?738Please respect copyright.PENANAYZsn0Q0SGt
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每一次醒來,我會拼命的抓緊身邊的感覺:恐懼、不安還有窒息感。738Please respect copyright.PENANA1x6kKzDybB
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而最令我看到不快的,是這根本不是什麼惡夢,而是我現實人生的寫照。我是一個空殼子,是零,沒有愛沒有恨,什麼都沒有,我虛弱無力的腦袋沒辦法製造如此強烈的情緒,這點卻讓我恐懼。738Please respect copyright.PENANAff7sUg4pMt
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這樣真的夠了嗎?夠我活下去嗎?又夠我去死嗎?是不是曾經有人剜出了我的心,然後把我丟在這裡?空虛的呼吸?738Please respect copyright.PENANAUxHY2IToHK
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一個人死的原因只有「活不下去」和「沒有理由活」這兩個選項嗎?會不會,是發現自己其實不該被定義為人呢?創世主,祂搞錯了,做出了了一個沒有靈魂的人,所以消失才能矯正這個世界。738Please respect copyright.PENANAAg9Qn2NvLu
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「這就是原因,媽媽。」我雙手環抱著母親比我瘦弱的身軀,缺乏想像力的我不知道她臉上現在是什麼神情。神哪,一次也好,不能讓我觸摸一次愛嗎?一次?738Please respect copyright.PENANADgTlZrjruZ
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淚水浸濕了我的衣服,母親哭了,她不知道怎麼反駁我,她聽不明白我在說什麼,她太愛我了,這使她愚笨而看不清真相,她是生出缺陷兒的母親,本身就是個缺陷。738Please respect copyright.PENANA9F8tGtn24i
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「再見。」我摸摸手腕上那些毫無理由出現的傷疤,紅紅的,微微凸起,撫摸的方式幾乎就像是懷舊一般「懷舊是死亡的副作用」我想起我曾在一本書讀到的這句話,嘴角漾起笑容,將重心向前傾。738Please respect copyright.PENANAHZ95voht6d
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沒有靈魂的人不能死,我只是消逝了。ns 172.70.100.51da2
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