我想,從離開的念頭萌芽,到離開後開展新生活,這個過程大概跟玩電子遊戲過關的概念差不多吧。749Please respect copyright.PENANAZfcLm571yR
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有人可能在頭一關「你是否有勇氣出走」就已經無法通過,有人可能卡在第二關「你是否放得下香港的一切」無法前進。關於關卡的內容,以上只是其中一個例子,因為當大家實際玩起這個遊戲時,就會發現每個人遇到的關都不一樣。唯一肯定的是,每個人都一定會有卡關的時候。749Please respect copyright.PENANARDdq9yVBvo
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我呢,一開始輕易過關,因此那時候的我其實不太明白為什麼有些人一開始就卡住,例如我姐。我和我姐的關係不算好也不算壞,不過談及去或留的問題時,由於決定不同,我們的關係就會迅速向壞那邊傾斜。我們吵架的模式通常以我姐生氣地罵着「這個社會也太荒謬了吧!」開始,然後以我淡淡說的一句「那為什麼你還沒有勇氣走呢?」結束。749Please respect copyright.PENANAfwQuKAwVPG
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我姐想跟我分享她的感受,而我只是趁機宣洩不滿——她知道我是對的,但沒有跟我做同樣決定的不滿。即使她在機場禁區前,遞給我利是叫我保重的那時候,我對她的不滿還是非常實在地堆疊在我的胸口間。直至飛機降落瑞典,直至我搬進宿舍,直至我卡關的時候到了——749Please respect copyright.PENANAlio59mh2fs
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我的不明腹瀉。749Please respect copyright.PENANA0VFvebdurf
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排除了因為時差和食物不潔之後,醫生替我做了食物敏感的測試,給了我止瀉藥,但終究沒有找到原因。我自己試着戒掉不同食物看身體反應,仍舊持續腹瀉。然後突然一天,我發現我原來並未試過戒掉所有「食物」——有一個東西我沒有將它視為食物,但我每天都將它放進自己嘴裡。749Please respect copyright.PENANAFNBakD6Jws
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水。749Please respect copyright.PENANA9Avdlvq4td
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我無法適應瑞典的水。749Please respect copyright.PENANAIWZ6ZUD3Ft
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不論是水喉水,還是瓶裝水都不行。749Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1jNrwdHiY
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有人聽見我對瑞典水敏感,蹙眉問我為什麼,我說,就是身體單純地不接受。對方還帶着一副「怎麼可能」的神情斷言說:人不可能對水敏感。749Please respect copyright.PENANAbu5uXrwp9k
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但問題是我的身體確實不適應啊。749Please respect copyright.PENANAVAKVyUrty8
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「那為什麼其他人都適應得到,唯獨你無法呢?」他的聲音甚至有點生氣了。749Please respect copyright.PENANAxRUS2TqLVB
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我彷彿可以看到我自己的影子跟他重疊,只是我說的那一句是:「那為什麼你還沒有勇氣走呢?」他說的那句是:「為什麼唯獨你無法呢?」749Please respect copyright.PENANASeitKW0YSj
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或許是我身體裡面有什麼不能喝瑞典水的缺陷,而我對此沒有辦法。749Please respect copyright.PENANAy8yaY8E9py
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沒.有.辦.法。749Please respect copyright.PENANA2psNWFuPkF
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我姐的沉默原來是這個意思。749Please respect copyright.PENANAjGIfpgvVot
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當然,只要我想,又不介意繼續腹瀉,我還是可以繼續喝。但我想,我也有不喝的權利。如果有人因此而生氣的話,就隨便生氣吧。749Please respect copyright.PENANAWhLd02j163
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同樣地,我姐也有不勇敢的權利。決心留下來的人,也有不玩這個遊戲的權利。749Please respect copyright.PENANAjSvP52pCav
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而且他們不需要向任何人解釋。749Please respect copyright.PENANAFlLN5K17Yn
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我姐說:你到了瑞典之後好像變溫柔了。749Please respect copyright.PENANA15yVkVUiNU
749Please respect copyright.PENANAtgSPwjKkYu
我告訴我姐關於瑞典的夏天,陽光曬着草地上的野餐墊,以及比外表看起來親切得多的當地人。但我沒有說在冬天醒來,天空是暗的,時鐘指針指向4點20分,瑞典漫長的冬天讓我無法確定當下是凌晨還是下午。在只有檯燈亮着的房間,我一個人想着4點20分到底是什麼意思,那種無法掌握現實的感覺,應該是我目前為止經歷過最深的孤獨感。749Please respect copyright.PENANAs0o2hCgJsd
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只要經歷過這樣的孤獨感,人是沒可能不變得溫柔的。749Please respect copyright.PENANA4d7RoivXM7
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我姐告訴我的也只有「你就專心出去闖啦,我會照顧阿爸阿媽。」749Please respect copyright.PENANAvTVCNLCMNx
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她沒有說的,一定也有很多。749Please respect copyright.PENANAD24fJjDmq8
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掛線前,她說,你那邊乾燥,多喝點水。749Please respect copyright.PENANATlozTRJfrF
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我會拼命喝除了瑞典水之外,世界各地的,只要我身體能承受的水。然後,我變得更溫柔,同時又更強悍吧。749Please respect copyright.PENANAFH733UWoAu
749Please respect copyright.PENANAEIc7qdq5LC
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《言點》徵稿 II:離開
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