天亮，上班。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIthaFHZVP
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEllsaHn24H
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oxFJ915Rn
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0xqmRJpy4
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWyzroTGKT
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看不見，罷。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcorIoNzko5
天黑，下班。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MdBg16bVZ
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡle9WeVWnih
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNY5y26LhI
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBs5nRSDlVD
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWj7b270V2
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKwVDKvIHm
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKX0u0odSBQ
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlUQW2cPO8
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnH0OTJXsM
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoWIoIqhsy
公司，午飯時間。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPgkUIT5JX
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQA1sABpT4L
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHzz3hFaJ4
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF46qUyTcvf
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrZIYPkypP
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5YBvT3gC8
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ewQ2xJVSJ
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OoBanX1ar
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還是……390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNunVQyLSc7
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHSm6gi6Q3
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoygwhb7XSl
公司，工作。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkUcRIK1SH
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1E7zxsRNNS
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvsOQOy96K
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKufgiTBmz
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9mX6eqzkW
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NDtac17gl
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3ywLBnj5W
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYrkAq5hML
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXr0izH2II5
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kXACrMnfs
快意，笑了。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzGAj6LHsn
酒吧，喝酒。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZyuL1ZQrU
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9fHM2P0xH
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdajkeMEJu
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2DmrOOjXO
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJeWwtB9MO
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhW8zfdKsqJ
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdKP55TcCH
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04nKPJTRFx
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfWzGHkdNt
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYD33PtTJN7
醉倒。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw4CfoVN9W0
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbx2Oo2SUdA
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkANi3aZ5z
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHZnaiSAIw
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvASlgho1Wm
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FGYTusX4o
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhF5H4QwIK
假期，醫院。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMbya3UM8K
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHe0XwDol8r
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPXFYB9VuX
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcadQT7ke6U
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeNWgDzCMaA
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFTHsdf73a
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8ufdlL2l6
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ylkLAWwc1
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtH5cTNfoMD
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uSUBKOH7p
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SgwYXTSYN
死寂。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtCRUkcz1L
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2jUdLCG0CG
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HyAtBhjpT
回家，晚飯。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbNJhffGUK
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQfJW7Q4mQ
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQLmUs4KaA
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ5fL8FobVl
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpdTdpVbpY
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAWNGiXI9y
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFuY6pfXjS
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFXebFl92N
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXffVxWasj
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfI0Yer5zCb
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSSDljOECD
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDR4ZjFsOn4
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWRlKxbdtP
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3cbhhInfW
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0AcpG3xNl
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZld1qmEQgP
男友家，床上。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfMj9s0dgw
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TlmRJgasI
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHf2Oxv8Tp
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAC9HqncyML
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavuBl2cRA9
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOcWoYmHme
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wqi1nJo6c
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ99XkOc3Y7
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdG1PWjLgkn
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjs6UhihOA
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTr3ElI9iH
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpC1CvX9svZ
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zwCU8GcuO
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAuNkkZcrQ
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR85MXQmQig
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9PU2XuRiI3
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7fR0D4D9V
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3Qw46Pn5R
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS4QIJaX05p
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TRCx3LC4w
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaT4gtwxL6b
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT4QCb52ddF
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNqpjcOhR9
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExkoKkbJix
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgNn2dE9rB
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWJEwjZuRj
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eGIfqsPtx
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcy3BIhNs2P
「在你體內。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruWzi5Dikt
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「甚麼？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAX6nuIA5vD
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IzIj61KZ6
「蟻。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWcDvopTzI
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpDdj4gvJV
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXu2T9vuhZn
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUkJCmRRWQ
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7T51My3cFz
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVSOjRswrV
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNT1X2eNDSf
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdx8mPT4zC6
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3To5AIQp3
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5COJvpi5hh
「誰？」另一聲音反問。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gFo5jYDrk
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIafnXVXQWq
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHln8QxsMhf
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8yJuedDjbK
靜。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHG1lSkJSm5
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yakM28Jxd
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxU4TFl3DT
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmCc1fPZch
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IDSU2S9fx
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dDYJqifLJ
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJP6lhq46q
我：「我有精神病？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Y2cdW5f6V
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsIULT4d5L
醫：「是情緒病。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOPV4ZSUvV
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywAYlOJUgJ
我：「怎麼辦？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2g8dNeXmG
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNOfGK66Qw
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKQ8ncf6Fz
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1tUhrs11z
我：「謝謝醫生。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXAUZqxKOf
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgS1rauWQ3
醫：「不用謝。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBHeZr7MkX
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAHrTH3gRr
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGV7nxNphRo
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6itPu9ET1l
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6eyfpY9aLw
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醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJOZRVMsGm
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男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspHjQBMhwI
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同事都勸我休息，減少工作量；390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAK6WBG1C7
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeOTJwzcEJX
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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