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連綿的霪雨,不停不歇的下著。843Please respect copyright.PENANAy4giOKxcfL
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『嘩啦——』843Please respect copyright.PENANABhgk1sMTIt
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「這都下多久了......」843Please respect copyright.PENANA6Enq7PhIG7
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意識模糊的睜著眼,望著玻璃窗上那隨著風搖落的斜紋雨滴。843Please respect copyright.PENANAfCflT7UBeB
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枕頭上一片濕溽,是淚水?還是雨水?伸手抹了一把臉上的濕潤,將手指送進嘴裡——鹹的、苦的,眼淚。843Please respect copyright.PENANAykBpdjzsGc
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尚未收拾完畢的行李散了一床,只能驅著身體縮在僅剩的小小空間裡,無法伸展的四肢捲曲的互相依偎。843Please respect copyright.PENANAn89mikE5Nr
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能夠一直這樣就好,不要醒來就好。843Please respect copyright.PENANAebgRNeqW5g
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『鈴——鈴——』843Please respect copyright.PENANAXZsHnDlBTL
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終究還是被鈴聲驚醒,是男人的來電。暫時搬去了他家,盡管家人反對,但最後仍然坳不過我,讓我住進了他家。843Please respect copyright.PENANA3EpcdcPcKp
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一路上,我們都沉默不語,他也沒有一字半句。843Please respect copyright.PENANAwfgMDWyJQH
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車子緩緩駛進曾經非常介意的那條路,那間A曾經去過的餐廳,以及A曾經去過的鞋店,都在。843Please respect copyright.PENANANmZ1WDE0uK
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「怎麼了?」他擔心的瞟了我一眼。843Please respect copyright.PENANAkNJelJO0x4
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「......不,沒什麼」我別過頭,敷衍的給了他一句話。843Please respect copyright.PENANAcSDFZfxCAe
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我幾乎忘了身邊還有個『他』存在,這個在我最難受時,毫不猶豫擁抱我的男人。843Please respect copyright.PENANAP20TypG0A1
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我選擇了報答他的方式——我和他在一起了,我們交往,甚至做愛。843Please respect copyright.PENANATGQdniNm8u
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離去時,我瞄了眼那七彩的招牌,燈光依舊炫麗,但我發現它的顏色似乎比以前更加地黯淡,是因為雨水沖刷,還是我的錯覺?843Please respect copyright.PENANAxjtM569AXU
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到了他家,忍不住又陷入淺而混濁的昏睡,雖然,學校的報告一樣都沒寫。843Please respect copyright.PENANAj7tWAyWUsW
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依舊是惡夢,那些還沒放下還沒看開的,一切。843Please respect copyright.PENANAZanzrTl2cZ
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某天,一邊刷牙洗臉,一邊看著鏡中的自己。瞬間被熟悉的感覺淹沒,彷佛在經過長久的割裂與漠視後,從前的自己回來了。843Please respect copyright.PENANA4ytOOJt2Ec
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從前的我,站在現在的鏡前,這浴室,這房子,此處悲傷與歡喜的交界,明明是他家,但我卻看見了她的身影,然後開始做惡夢。843Please respect copyright.PENANAkRU1hQ6jny
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是妳帶著惡夢回來了嗎?開始恐懼,拍打著水面想讓她的倒影消失......843Please respect copyright.PENANAYMhruRB51I
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「你在做什麼?!」他抱住了我,從背後將我泛著鮮紅的手腕錮住。843Please respect copyright.PENANAuyKBBykfB2
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紅?我流血了?滿地的碎片,是被我破壞後留下的痕跡。幾片碎片上,還殘留著我的血液。843Please respect copyright.PENANA2oeM7c9vKV
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「還會痛嗎?」843Please respect copyright.PENANAMqIyDVlOGy
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「不會了,謝謝。」843Please respect copyright.PENANAkihAUXCrcy
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他細心的替我包扎,也不管鮮血染上了他的手、他的衣服。然後,我們一起到了陽台,外面下著雨,小小的、細微的雨絲。843Please respect copyright.PENANAwLtU5U1Vxq
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這時候我想起了過去,也曾經與A在陽台,也是像今天一樣下著小雨。那時的妳,嬌嗔的說著,討厭雨天,希望能放晴。843Please respect copyright.PENANAVkUcK0HQgz
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那次是我的生日,沒有蛋糕、沒有蠟燭。盡管如此,我們還是用了火柴來取代那些,點了火光,許了三個願望:843Please respect copyright.PENANAATiaaVeG1Z
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聽說,第三個願望要放在心裡才會實現,但那時的我依舊認為『只要妳在我身邊,不管說什麼都會實現。』843Please respect copyright.PENANA9ZJ10iMtGV
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『我的第一個願望是,希望每天都是晴天。』843Please respect copyright.PENANAvOJrHYhvlF
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我一直以為,妳會陪伴在我身邊,直到一切的願望都實現。843Please respect copyright.PENANAbtSFG2ogi3
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『第二個願望是,希望每個晴天,我都能陪在妳身邊。』843Please respect copyright.PENANAddg0JmfSSu
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當時的我真的以為,我能夠給妳完整的幸福。843Please respect copyright.PENANAw3K2fFiEQB
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『第三個願望是,能夠給妳幸福。』
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恍惚之間,我回到了現實。843Please respect copyright.PENANAxeBH9z3JuD
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「如果......一直是晴天就好了。」我垂著頭,脫口而出。843Please respect copyright.PENANAUWrnYGDy7O
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「白癡嗎?一直是晴天,那地球得鬧乾旱了。」他抽著菸,望著遠方,語氣冷沉,卻帶了點譏諷。843Please respect copyright.PENANAkb20tGiuRc
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「也是。」843Please respect copyright.PENANAaVz7O59a7g
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我只是在逃避。843Please respect copyright.PENANALveM5xpkvm
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因為我想起了A...想起了我跟A的對話843Please respect copyright.PENANAytdkQgND10
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我對她說:『我愛妳,一定會給你幸福的。』843Please respect copyright.PENANAVxg9BgTP3e
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她對我說:『對不起,我要的幸福,你給不了。』843Please respect copyright.PENANAwJD3uCctdz
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從那之後,我的世界彷彿只剩下了雨天。
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夜晚,仍是下著雨,外頭黑壓壓的一片,烏鴉猖狂的鳴叫,似乎對我叫囂著。843Please respect copyright.PENANA5V4CHQAK1E
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我衝出了家門,正確來說,是他的家門。843Please respect copyright.PENANAzSpkKWCorn
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發了瘋似地,彷佛聽不見任何聲音,看不見身旁呼嘯而過的景色......妳的一切始終跟著我,逃不開,離不去。843Please respect copyright.PENANAmyfNlesoZA
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不停地跑不停地跑不停地跑不停地跑——直到,我發現自己跪在地上,眼裡的刺痛,分不清是淚水或是雨水。843Please respect copyright.PENANA1QVKtEUfJZ
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A離開之後,我的世界開始下雨,傾盆大雨,那樣的雨聲像要撞擊在心臟上一樣。843Please respect copyright.PENANAaGXgyRX1kT
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「別走!」
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總會想著,妳會不會後悔沒有緊緊抓住我?
總會想著,沒有我的晴天,妳是否也會那樣開心的笑著?843Please respect copyright.PENANA039HeIYmYI
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「不要管我,你回去吧!」
總覺得,不需要再說出任何承諾。843Please respect copyright.PENANAECDjoZCIw7
總覺得,這個世界已經沒有晴天。843Please respect copyright.PENANAXxqmjgBl0s
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就像聖誕節期盼著聖誕老人的到來,但隔天卻什麼都沒有一樣。843Please respect copyright.PENANAAuXVQcZeDv
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「反正,許過的願望,從不會實現。」843Please respect copyright.PENANA9HlCioIkXn
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雨水模糊了視線,令我看不清前方的景色,只依稀看見,背著光的他,眼裡閃著灼亮,不知為何,緊緊的瞅著我。843Please respect copyright.PENANAsLgPkpm2Pg
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「過來!」他對我喊著。843Please respect copyright.PENANAC2NnNxq7Yk
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「不。」我退後了一步。843Please respect copyright.PENANAqJgygIIVDs
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他低吼著叫了我的名字,通常他只會在真正發怒時,口氣才會這麼重。他不斷地靠近我,我不斷地後退,直到他抓住我手臂的剎那,才忽然發現,眼前的男人令我感到一股壓迫,但卻又無比的溫暖。843Please respect copyright.PENANAMjvj5EZkVA
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就像一道光線,逐步地想吞噬我築起的黑色高牆。843Please respect copyright.PENANAJTORuhD6Vz
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我又退了幾步,抗拒地想拉開與他的距離。843Please respect copyright.PENANAcM58skRm94
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「我......」843Please respect copyright.PENANAx5qfXncOPF
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「不要靠近我!」843Please respect copyright.PENANANaMWujiDo0
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我一直知道,他很溫柔,很有耐心的想將我從過去給拉出來......843Please respect copyright.PENANAb9oH3SHR1K
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但是,我卻無法相信自己。843Please respect copyright.PENANAIvA0pGH1G8
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「結束吧,我們結束吧!我許的願望終究沒有實現!我給不起任何人幸福!我沒有辦法——」843Please respect copyright.PENANAqwkEyTn9WJ
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「你是傻子嗎!」843Please respect copyright.PENANAJvEIslUhN2
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一陣狂風掃過我的面頰,在我眯起眼的同時,跌入了那寬實溫熱的懷抱。我被他緊緊的抱著,緊緊的錮著,無法呼吸,無法思考,然、後......843Please respect copyright.PENANAppXSEMmwmO
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「你給不了,沒關係,我給的起就行了!」843Please respect copyright.PENANAjzA3ewQLdw
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你打破了我築起的高牆,毫不猶豫的讓那強烈的光,刺透我的一切。843Please respect copyright.PENANAfQmVEbdHD1
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像烈日的太陽一般。843Please respect copyright.PENANAWSrELgk76n
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一直都相信著,只要許下願望,就一定能實現。843Please respect copyright.PENANAzi6YguQsW4
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就像期盼著十二月份的聖誕節、聖誕老人的禮物,明明知道一切都是假的,卻又想去相信。843Please respect copyright.PENANA6Bslk4JuY5
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「我們回家,好嗎。」843Please respect copyright.PENANAmg6PwO3ZnO
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即使如此,你仍然滿懷著耐心,待在我身邊。843Please respect copyright.PENANA0n8QloIAYw
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就算下著大雨,就算仍然待在黑暗之中,就算,依舊沒有放晴。843Please respect copyright.PENANAV1xA1ZcExV
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我衝上前,雖然無法完全拋棄過去,但是……843Please respect copyright.PENANA4jMVW8Mpjt
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我相信,未來的我一定會很感激妳,選擇給了自己一個沒有我的晴天。843Please respect copyright.PENANAqYopjdhBpL
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到底在打什麼鬼......
其實很簡單,就是受被前女友甩了,遇到了攻,但卻一直被過去的陰影所糾纏著的黑暗故事......
不知道這種敘事方式能不能被人接受......我盡力了Orz
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