「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTXaxyfNw2Q
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaNWmJ3ZOz
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48QaJ8EZTs
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幼小我的父母就離異，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gHWEILeVP
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qBQJQjhqJ
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對母親的記憶還是有，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzvFzUj0L1
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記得她很常酗酒，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7yDlkEbA1
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後來的日子，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4s0e9SvWN
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxC3SumTRk8
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忙於工作的他，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOOQ1YJLeb
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzY0tn4bRHI
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalUX088A4L
到了上課時間再直接上課，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyBbAJNSux
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTl4WaGCeUE
什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvvCzFNGCP8
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡno1fVIVG9c
因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zWCNEjRKI
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqWifavKkL
所以我總能寄宿在那裡，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6bJlpEK9l
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWcSRDTJA4
剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bWei8Ou8W
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3GorqYxa6
漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2gB5VZ1d6
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPee9SZyQiX
父親工作的地方不一定，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQWzeYX2M7
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輾轉的換了三所小學，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl8XrXcVEg3
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxQKnDb4pf
以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRRrghGTD2
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他開始會喜怒無常，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eKGcDz3DV
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWw7Xov58Y
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7UzpV0mlv
下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5RmAANIxp
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很小我就與異性交往，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmTgsDhYsP
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05z82Lc6yv
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYCNGKuyQZ
家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjawWpgj61H
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyRMAvFocB
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我會睡在工地，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTYhNDx4dJ
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwq5P5GILPZ
用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKN6l1Sfmt
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEv9rWiCill
父親在工作上十分認真敬業，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQM7JNI8Kzy
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQRRzi1Ih3O
委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06MVdrxfX1
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIdMEaFq1n
他開始會講貶低的話語，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA8hxYO5ch
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那些原本用來工作的用具，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsxGLkdAvkZ
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMClYMoymUy
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLn0ryxebk
他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuAhRiLXyW
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYIzqE68Ai
有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwGjMsJrZM
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UU4AbiDxL
他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKL0Xj81qUq
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqHTIaSn92
要我轉告給老師，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqcbLW7EnR
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1s8uf5auoQ
電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBt7iKpr4tB
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvD2gPY1yfn
老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4G2ehHZGM6
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4C0Aa5QQ7
沒過多久被安排進了補習班，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8EEDM18AM
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeq6ZwRm9cS
那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYZkhNnPHw
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBz4SJ7uHQP
細細去回想每個片段，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfIUwpB8Cm
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4asRnHMxdy
父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMlos9QQ34
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg29idktLQg
仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDr3I3GDBS
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhZNm0X2Pd
對他一個大男孩很不容易，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxA3SJvXAfT
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AI5jCTexU
所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg19UZJCiF6
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbp1t2Xnab
卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5yzoGzNOAC
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4ASlc64V5
走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcm6c5AAkyp
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyILl1EdkG2
我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAzfcE6GsM
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8yfffWACv
打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHioUEGD6k2
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22WwjgUTH3
是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBvMF8AsIC
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwElzZIQgD2
還是有很多屬於他的回憶，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yAO50Hg6D
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvHcmadU0p
我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEtUoHZ5AV
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZrOj1TXuy
正準備吃下第一口時，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcNStCHuMQ
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwY9XOtCvpS
手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Zs6HWol71
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1VzSp2y3G
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