「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuowDplHDT0
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNUkPPUR9g
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnI7HRUyI9
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幼小我的父母就離異，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWc0otWKAy
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WraxsToAc
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對母親的記憶還是有，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE86sksBJa5
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記得她很常酗酒，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7Yr7FYuSy
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後來的日子，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LtkaNurRX
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeHrNWwYsy
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忙於工作的他，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SrxO7SiE1
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstJW2UNcr2
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到了上課時間再直接上課，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44fmqxph6I
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaKY56vYQ9
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTKtSgFFEA
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgXzEYarpd
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oDADLVKlG
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpyfoQTgeY
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父親工作的地方不一定，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxZaVVHzAo
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輾轉的換了三所小學，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMMxi5PMw0
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyFobx8bEf
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他開始會喜怒無常，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡausc3t2pV1
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRFzMUPeSZ
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2c97WyRhmT
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很小我就與異性交往，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TfLWWk2JF
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZhMseCG9H
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7cxxjnpYhq
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87cEfBDsuW
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我會睡在工地，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuSHPp2neT
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWYzzpwiwFa
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLx0WCU7ce
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjbx7HHNO4
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他開始會講貶低的話語，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobH41Nl8IF
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那些原本用來工作的用具，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVG3x70lDBq
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2qJ9I9uob
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEpbfv4rTi
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5paDqUh7yn
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyi2HZQX89t
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要我轉告給老師，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96XPLc4awv
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN4yX4fOB03
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntYif67b9H
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Gzce8Szrt
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw32ucXumtX
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細細去回想每個片段，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujDX8rNIKq
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFbFtM2vjN
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUsTgkEZov
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡil3h6D5weM
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAH8py9b8q2
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvKBRrXDwy
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2Vbhq5b2y
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGaeJoYrMY
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqprzpXWIs0
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6kOWuPEU8
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokYGxpg1qg
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡob8RPKwWgl
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正準備吃下第一口時，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0bQ0u8zlB
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7oHFDZc9C
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。841Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ10gMbwgNPA
然後按「加至主畫面」