Listen right now. Ok you listening? Good. You gotta go to a doctor maybe if this gets worse because like that could make you feel so much better. Or you could go to a therapist.
Please don't worry about me, I know it sounds really bad, but it was mostly one of those in-the-moment writings - I typed this during one of those peaks in emotion where it's most intense. I am working on myself, and am sure that over time, I will adopt a healthier mindset. I want to thank you for your concern and care, my goal is to improve things and it means alot <3