Hey, you are human. You are allowed to feel like shit. You are valid and I hope you know that. Please understand that to get better you need to accept that people are gonna be shitty, people aren't going to be good most of the time. What matters is how you handle it. We don't have control over what people do but we have control over our reactions ok. Be strong, you've made it this far.
Thanks for the advice. I try to get past the difficult things, but every win comes at a loss, and every time i get past something its just another scrap added to the bottle of hidden feelings.