Being a freak can be the best thing ever, trust me! I kind of see where you're coming from. I used to use my mind and the books I owned as my sanctuary. I was at one point very sad and I made some really stupid decisions, I won't bore you with details. I felt like I could only stay in my own head, but I ended up writing everything down in the form of stories and it helped me through stuff. Now my friends are my closest confidants, but I still use writing and my mind to escape sometimes.

I can empathize entirely with how you feel, not to say that I understand it completely. Only you can say that. I can promise, though, that reality gets better as you learn how to tread the waters. Instead of fighting the current, you figure out how to let it take you on a new journey. When you need a break, there is nothing wrong with sitting on the bank and embracing your imagination. That's what we're here for, after all. :)