Prologue232Please respect copyright.PENANA6pHTuatnjq
Heat burned her eyes, making them tear in defense, in despair.232Please respect copyright.PENANA8lA3nZ5zPw
Hating what was happening to them and before them.232Please respect copyright.PENANAo3QAvKJ587
The light was so bright, so hot.232Please respect copyright.PENANAv2ksKHfkvK
Screams reached her ears, so high in volume and ferocity it almost made her eardrums bleed.232Please respect copyright.PENANArMcFNVZANS
Slowly realization hit her, screams?232Please respect copyright.PENANAq8KhcnRtXg
no, just one. One scream, Hers 232Please respect copyright.PENANAwiBH8Q0O2b
In despair, she jolted upright on her bed.232Please respect copyright.PENANAS1QFMxOnkx
Her breathing was still shallow and irregular as cold sweat poured down her sun-kissed skin.232Please respect copyright.PENANAcVZWIuyoSn
Oh, how she hated going down memory lane. The guilt that rode along with it.232Please respect copyright.PENANASTDXqmSlzd
Making her stomach twist in all different sorts of knots she didn't know how to untie.232Please respect copyright.PENANALTkXrnoD2k
She took a couple of deep breaths, steadying herself, before slowly standing up.232Please respect copyright.PENANAdBWU4dT0p1
Daring a quick glance at the clock an exhausted sigh escaped her lips.232Please respect copyright.PENANAk0cWZ8sZUM
It was 3 o'clock, freaking 3 o'clock in the morning!232Please respect copyright.PENANA4nOqyKL8n1
She sighed again. Well, at least she slept for a whole four hours this time.232Please respect copyright.PENANAciaw1PRu0S
In the ten years, since the insomnia started, she became an expert in power naps.232Please respect copyright.PENANA3M0f8rwOSY
She had to, to survive. As soon as her legs could carry her she made her way to the living room.232Please respect copyright.PENANAbZCup0zUcM
As usual, she stayed in a hotel room, the hotel changing weakly sometimes daily when it was necessary.232Please respect copyright.PENANAMIv4Mk0Jf8
Traveling from country to country to chase the best and hardest competitions to improve her skills on track.232Please respect copyright.PENANAPUIkb0eITj
The only thing in her life she actually, sort of, cared about. Running, endurance, pushing herself beyond her limits made her brains stop going places she didn't want it to go. Stopping the memories, the guilt.232Please respect copyright.PENANAFH30RZgqck
It was the only place where she was able to find peace of mind, for a little while at least.232Please respect copyright.PENANAtC4cWE2aMf
And she needed it more and more every day.232Please respect copyright.PENANAy34Lu3oxuF
Having lost everything in her past, at the age of twelve, the track was also the only place she dared to let have any meaning to her. The rest of her life, her surroundings?232Please respect copyright.PENANAn7b1ofyOwD
Hell no!232Please respect copyright.PENANA9y8nUQKhnx
Shielding her heart meant she would nothing, nothing! have any meaning to her.232Please respect copyright.PENANAOwAqggCFCB
That way it wouldn't hurt as much as you lost it. And after ten years of practice, she mastered the skill.232Please respect copyright.PENANADBBXEugFxN
Her heart was surrounded by a thick, impenetrable wall some would say, and she heard it more than once behind her back, as she walked through the halls of the college, that she seemed like a robot.232Please respect copyright.PENANAuT4gMDwHDI
Unresponsive, unsympathetic to anything around her.232Please respect copyright.PENANAwMzVt4ZiyB
If she spoke more than twenty fully formed sentences in a day, not counting interviews and media, it was a lot and people found her silence, her preference for solitude simply. Well, unsettling.232Please respect copyright.PENANAo6sddVssDi
They didn't understand, would never be able to understand how it felt to have nothing. Nobody to care about you, to listen to you, to comfort you.232Please respect copyright.PENANAelXb6Xcc1Z
So why would she bother trying to explain?232Please respect copyright.PENANA3fMcR0dJyX
They didn't care, not really. And they couldn't help her, or ease the pain she was now accustomed to.232Please respect copyright.PENANApepAhMhNZ3
They could however use her words for a couple of minutes of fame. Causing a sensation if the media ever found out the truth about what happened that night. That she lied. That she remembered everything.232Please respect copyright.PENANAyFgTUj7WqL
Everything!232Please respect copyright.PENANAzk3qoItlk0
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After taking a shower her discomfort from the nightmare finally resided to the back of her mind.232Please respect copyright.PENANABdAACMZYGa
She was still on edge, was familiar with the feeling by now, and knew the only way to get rid of it was to run. Deplete her energy. There was a time she didn't know when to stop.232Please respect copyright.PENANAiiFUNGeaVX
More keen on punishing herself, for her involvement in past events, than making sure she would actually survive the run. More than once it had resulted in blackouts, cardiac arrest, and eventually involuntary hospitalization.232Please respect copyright.PENANAdMqfLN3D0g
Yeah, she was a mental case and many psychiatrists had tried to peek inside her brain, the turmoil of emotions raging inside of her.232Please respect copyright.PENANAMYWmtTotVM
Of course, as the scared little kid she used to be, she resisted every single one of them. Making her time there only worse.232Please respect copyright.PENANA1w4EoLvduF
It all changed when Jonah, a junior high school coach and a total douche-bag, took it upon himself to teach her how to safely push her limits. How to become better and faster without causing major damage to herself.232Please respect copyright.PENANAybqyipo5Nb
She despised the guy and was pretty sure the feeling was mutual. However, she couldn't deny what he had done for her. Pulling her out of a downward spiral, a dark place she never wished to go back to.232Please respect copyright.PENANAZyHRX9sayo
He gave her the outlet she needed to survive, to cope.232Please respect copyright.PENANA1IcFx6UMCd
For that, she was thankful to him, and still was, but it didn't take long for their fragile cooperation to come to an abrupt end.232Please respect copyright.PENANApQB3JpVViE
He was a douche-bag after all.232Please respect copyright.PENANAipjHRsB2g7
He'd mistaken her silence for consent and started showing up at the most inappropriate times, the worst and the final blow to their teamwork, was showing up while she was showering.232Please respect copyright.PENANAwnCuMM4WN6
Without thinking twice she left, after kicking him in the groin that is, and never encountered him again.232Please respect copyright.PENANAb4Wdk0K9tj
Lucas, who was her coach these days, was a totally different person. Calm, loyal to a fault and a devoted family man.232Please respect copyright.PENANAstqrYocaK1
She liked that he didn't hover, as long as she ate three meals a day and performed as expected, that is.232Please respect copyright.PENANA55lEGcx2M6
Recently though he did seem to notice the change within her.232Please respect copyright.PENANAhk6lsaiOts
That he didn't hover obviously didn't mean he would let her suffer in silence.232Please respect copyright.PENANAhXsoDaSj0X
After yesterday's competition, he waited outside her dressing room. Guiding her to his office as soon as she tried to leave. They didn't speak, as was usual for them when it was just the two of them outside a working environment.232Please respect copyright.PENANAFwfv8wAn8K
But his expression had said enough, tension radiated from his normally stoic face and his small lips were pressed into a thin line, all signs that she was not going to like what was going to happen when he opened that door.232Please respect copyright.PENANA2kn31Tsbqr