「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BdtOjkGsR
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0AmqfjjvY
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2mLzsfZWo
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0hSmxmk6Q
幼小我的父母就離異，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWITixg1bI2
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSIb0ji15Ld
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對母親的記憶還是有，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsicXQKvhf
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記得她很常酗酒，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gty5OoNKi
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後來的日子，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuiXlbzSoN
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBoaiP1eNi
我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zSi729lEn
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忙於工作的他，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIomYVhYk3N
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvT4CXGugOE
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeCDXDIfsW
到了上課時間再直接上課，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOuQ5Ao4fW
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwg470YYGw
什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUq3NUqjLPp
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMKdDOnLbBn
因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fpiJyFoKW
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNgWG4ljaXa
所以我總能寄宿在那裡，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelQjSf1Ciw
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9teiLdR0t
剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HVzOw8nFB
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEEP3HnWwjN
漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4UtxAXHPt6
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRtqXM849J
父親工作的地方不一定，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3LjBnm75O
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vA4MjIpHH
輾轉的換了三所小學，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2GbXzsdXO
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAWlOUdX4Y
以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9yFAum5XQ
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuBWGXl3Kk
他開始會喜怒無常，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQv7ypqunT9
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaa2odv8Jo4
沒來由的找我發脾氣，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEKPNdlp5Mo
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3coPA5vDov
下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQS3APB5Xn
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRglVat85O
很小我就與異性交往，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFC0XNkqAS
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDovBy7nWz
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOriI6EXyuM
家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLNRNxDDna
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7I9p55pEi7
偶爾我也會陪同他工作，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgHMl57qox
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我會睡在工地，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqtr6JGj6f
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoRia5zBSX
用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SuLAylCVm
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbPt5f9xFVv
父親在工作上十分認真敬業，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrQPQBJURC
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL60CYo1Egn
委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbMKSajlW0
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeBgTWwuta
他開始會講貶低的話語，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ591ZIDhNXO
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那些原本用來工作的用具，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwoQhEccCOj
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSXtYwfw3g
偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTuGszzzwK
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzK52mOvwCJ
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrjwItrvyY
有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgWlshW8ek
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCp8NLpaNF
他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOvLa6J2g6
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFCSCJeRI6
要我轉告給老師，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMZlUDupSv
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRdS7ZHFSv
電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhT7XUv1xr
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhIu33q956
老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlnIHTgOzf
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEWx7fDLQr
沒過多久被安排進了補習班，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwBQZAPJ8t
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7l4vwZZFd
那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzGUwcSYu0
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QCE92cyMd
細細去回想每個片段，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaL6KEc9BEo
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6r5ygAF0UR
父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgYbt3d6ZI
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9MNIGvf8a
仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbIkJkSrO5
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKhV8fLZqu
對他一個大男孩很不容易，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwsjD7klZu
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsc3URemuB
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJMHuUnyHn
卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVPBLknT3F
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAs798zwfI
走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW31zmZHJfQ
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvneMQDHkhq
我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcxe3yYEVa
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTiIUeBrVK
623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTdLt5Qe7y
是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE8k1jnuSAA
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5JNsVAbHO
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBjAFxkLnG
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正準備吃下第一口時，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKfoOzOk0U
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc499C7IusZ
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。623Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gYEFCLX6u
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