「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLj0mYrO9E
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7agDIO8A2c
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdUyA1GQMp
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幼小我的父母就離異，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobvMpS5pO3
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIgnteqkfx
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對母親的記憶還是有，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPTpM4K3fy
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記得她很常酗酒，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADCrkrkPfr
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後來的日子，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZewFfuvAKT
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42L0XbOy1n
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忙於工作的他，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3xc8VPBMFU
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJq34EsmrS8
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到了上課時間再直接上課，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAnAfDVUvu
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmYdtKWEOw
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftdggQqPGh
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7ejB635Kz
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYOtqJ8f5u
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmWj0BQgEL
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父親工作的地方不一定，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquqHdEETdB
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輾轉的換了三所小學，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yLQnjCZsU
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrbqlunjcH
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他開始會喜怒無常，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyf07wah7u8
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4wVRCg7W8
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAg6DEjPHc
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很小我就與異性交往，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzeJmAzi9b
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDZfrwlLRE
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhz7JppHLDN
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEmrkhgKju
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我會睡在工地，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9tZWzH7Ef
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG04dxWEIQu
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOldvsnjZhX
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDByVBY7ctT
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他開始會講貶低的話語，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BEGBCScA0
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那些原本用來工作的用具，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSop0ZiDghq
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD46cNTw96g
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhykYre7c87
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHV5XsaBzF8
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmACZBj3t4
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要我轉告給老師，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1y0pF8caqs
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloe3xYV58E
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvYAvzfHHI8
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ947bwikfwM
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOxXIi6TCH
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細細去回想每個片段，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7sMBcs0dU
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxZ9n73LVe
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtb1Q9GnD2u
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrvkenpocd
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFGF4O0eEgL
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5X1hsaui3
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXwr5nqaCa
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZIfJ01gdeI
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPyQPdLRSs
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUd9aSQQzuX
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe9icZlZADx
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yAFfPxYgX
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正準備吃下第一口時，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8VSHH7jm02
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeMoP0H6Hpg
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。838Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJdYR8u6zT
然後按「加至主畫面」