Lucy?" I raise my head in alarm. "Lucy!" I turn to the familiar voice. "There you are!" I feel warm arms engulf me, pulling me, soothing me.637Please respect copyright.PENANA7aiCYzFELI
"Ray…" I choke out. Ray releases me and looks at my tear-stained face. He takes my hand and slips the blade from between my fingers, his eyes never leaving mine.637Please respect copyright.PENANA7NrP1peUKo
"Lucy," his voice is broken. "Please tell me you didn't."637Please respect copyright.PENANA9CLQEEjRVe
"I-I didn't." I take a deep, shaky breath. "But I almost did." He turns his head and shuts his eyes.637Please respect copyright.PENANA6dAbc0jOmu
"Promise me something, Lucy." He looks back at me. "Promise me that you'll never cut again, OK?" I nod. "If you ever fall back to this place again, call me over. I'll help you, Lucy." He grabs my hands. "Promise me."637Please respect copyright.PENANAEZQE4WMdBz
"I promise, Ray." I whisper, tears leaking out of my eyes. He pulls me into a tight hug, breathing out a sigh of relief. He kisses the top of my head and then moves back…637Please respect copyright.PENANAs12KdYmwbM
637Please respect copyright.PENANAaU0STl93Wu
I open my eyes and stare at my wall, but it's not there.637Please respect copyright.PENANArhIqXCKOG5
My blanket is hanging off my bed, my clothes are strewn across the floor, my hair is sticking to my wet cheeks and the window is shut, enclosing me in darkness.637Please respect copyright.PENANA4jyM143rLo
I feel nothing but pain and agony. A dark cloud is filling my head, making me seem heavy.637Please respect copyright.PENANAxSWjd8A1ZN
Fake.637Please respect copyright.PENANALlMS02brLm
Not myself.637Please respect copyright.PENANAvgK1se4Ara
The silver blade is shining, piercing the darkness with an evil light. It taunts me, challenges me, dares me to touch it, to pick it up and to use it.637Please respect copyright.PENANAbHTGZSgNIe
Oh, Ray. Where are you?!637Please respect copyright.PENANAUhVuyIRHZh
"I'm going somewhere with my parents and we won't be back until Friday. Call me if you need anything, OK?"637Please respect copyright.PENANAt2meuRObzN
Help me, Ray! Help me!637Please respect copyright.PENANAiRSnHypj0e
I punch in his number and put the phone to my ear.637Please respect copyright.PENANA1zSWDrQMTW
Voice mail.637Please respect copyright.PENANAM8SLqN7coO
I try again.637Please respect copyright.PENANAy9xvLAFzyu
No answer.637Please respect copyright.PENANAwlGpfCtuKK
I frantically pull at my hair, curling into a ball. I shut my eyes but a few lone tears escape. I shake my head, trying to pull myself out of my despair and trying, somehow, to pull myself together. I'm falling apart, breaking down.637Please respect copyright.PENANAWqejuxzMFM
I can't. I must stay strong.637Please respect copyright.PENANAm9iE14Pj8v
My tears come faster.637Please respect copyright.PENANAWLEIdWEfdh
Keep it together, Lucy. Keep it together.637Please respect copyright.PENANAtC8r6R7EtM
"Ahh!" I scream, pushing myself back. I lose my balance and fall off my bed, crashing to the floor. I cover my face with my hands, shaking, sobbing.637Please respect copyright.PENANAhFD5RLVpyI
"Ray!" I cry out. Please…637Please respect copyright.PENANAhQwbC2EGfV
My hands fall to my sides, my hair a knotted mess. I stare silently at the ceiling.637Please respect copyright.PENANAuM2qyNTjwd
Is it really that high?637Please respect copyright.PENANANls7t4S3zt
I curl up on my side, staring into the black nothingness under my bed.637Please respect copyright.PENANA0m4qRbUCvm
I must move… I need to move.637Please respect copyright.PENANAG0nyIcyBz9
I eye the door.637Please respect copyright.PENANAQQARe5zRuN
I will myself to sit up.637Please respect copyright.PENANATlaNUk9nem
My room turns upside down and goes blurry, my vision faltering. I still and wait for the dizziness to pass.637Please respect copyright.PENANA5SD4ROJXpA
I blink once – twice- and then sit on my knees.637Please respect copyright.PENANA6bAFjiLdoB
I focus on the door.637Please respect copyright.PENANAIbE2RhiYzP
I crawl forward.637Please respect copyright.PENANAOKuy8QAQpU
I need to get there.637Please respect copyright.PENANA4vmXssI875
I slowly try to stand up. I advance, pushing one leg forward and then the other, and repeat.637Please respect copyright.PENANAMZuuwOhjkL
My legs are wobbly, broken.637Please respect copyright.PENANAVWnJD9f3u3
Just a few more feet…637Please respect copyright.PENANAQOGZQcYSeO
I reach out my hand and take another step-637Please respect copyright.PENANApGxy6S2sec
and collapse to the ground.637Please respect copyright.PENANAFO9ihWFUjn
"No…" I try to stand again, but I can't get up.637Please respect copyright.PENANAUEuMNrUzhY
I grab at my bed sheet, trying to pull myself up. I feel around, grabbing at anything I possibly can. I grasp closer to my blanket and freeze as I touch something cold. Sharp.637Please respect copyright.PENANAVo7vkpjl0g
I suck in a breath.637Please respect copyright.PENANAcgatlOL6bC
A chill of excitement and fear shoots up my arm, down my spine and spreads through my body.637Please respect copyright.PENANA3jNMpkqD35
I bring the blade closer to me, another thrill flowing inside me.637Please respect copyright.PENANAy02WrZTgYE
Just once.637Please respect copyright.PENANA6QfTliCuOL
"Promise me."637Please respect copyright.PENANAKl6EMfkfIO
"I promise, Ray."637Please respect copyright.PENANAt5WIQIWJP7
No, I can't. I promised him.637Please respect copyright.PENANAU39jQMx8U6
But it'll feel so good…637Please respect copyright.PENANALdlKkLIL3U
I study the blade, turning it around in my hands.637Please respect copyright.PENANAVPJnEAGYM1
It'll be quick. Just one cut.637Please respect copyright.PENANAPHeI9wcTsF
It'll heal quickly, faster than normally.637Please respect copyright.PENANATh8mjrFG8d
Now's your chance, Ray… I look at the door, waiting for him to walk through and stop me.637Please respect copyright.PENANAmpfETMDufo
Anytime, now…637Please respect copyright.PENANAnhRRHXlKrb
My vision blurs. I feel drops on my skin.637Please respect copyright.PENANAHviKWp0bcK
Is it raining?637Please respect copyright.PENANA0Uc64GOepq
No, that’s impossible.637Please respect copyright.PENANAk6UWhlnNeo
I can't see.637Please respect copyright.PENANAgd299N1TEX
I try to take breath but I choke up, a heavy weight sitting on my chest. A rock is stuck in my throat.637Please respect copyright.PENANAHk22X2LRvO
I can't breathe.637Please respect copyright.PENANANPfZqcVUff
I thrash around, clawing at my throat. I make a gurgling sound, trying to swallow.637Please respect copyright.PENANAR0oy0oHgHV
What's poking my leg…?637Please respect copyright.PENANAIAjOcOZIMd
I look down, choking on air, and spot the blade.637Please respect copyright.PENANAKLATHiqs1e
How did it get there?637Please respect copyright.PENANAgxbEq0knZa
I take it and hold it closely to myself.637Please respect copyright.PENANAxmhOB2RxUx
How can something so evil look so beautiful?637Please respect copyright.PENANALFPkFTzqLW
I bring it down to my wrist and shiver.637Please respect copyright.PENANAzm6lm7DrY1
So cold.637Please respect copyright.PENANASgQjEOgjOc
I press down and drive it across my skin.637Please respect copyright.PENANAY1G4Ygtxhd
I let out a shaky breath that I didn't know I was holding. My blood drips warm and red down my arm.637Please respect copyright.PENANAywWELHk7z7
I take another breath.637Please respect copyright.PENANAtwXDoP4BQL
Another.637Please respect copyright.PENANAVM7vKQFOb1
My breathing comes harder, faster.637Please respect copyright.PENANAmH4m37U0RB
I slide the blade and cut again, slicing more of my skin. I gasp, my arm stinging. A groan escapes my lips as the pain takes its place, the sick pleasure mixing in.637Please respect copyright.PENANAq5Kihr9Qox
I lean back, resting my head against my bed.637Please respect copyright.PENANA9BuDjQ8GlI
I shut my eyes tightly.637Please respect copyright.PENANAgNqMTJosyX
I should not have done that.
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