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下午8點，台北市街道上依然車流不斷。座落在路中心旁的義大利麵店內則格外的安靜，我跟女友小柔坐在角落不吭一聲，各自各吃著東西，像是陌生人倂桌，彌漫著尷尬的氣氛。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1NUuKao17
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「我們待會去公園坐一下好不好？我有東西想跟你說。」我率先打破沉默，決定要與她坦誠相對。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQglOuvops
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「好。」小柔簡短的回應，只低著頭用吸管攪拌著手上的冰茶，看不到她的眼神和表情。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeqkDPIzat
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人與人的關係尤其愛情，是很難掌控。有時儘管用盡力氣去喜歡，但結果還是無法做到。有時卻只需看一眼就像陷入瘋狂一樣，無法停止。人最難的就是了解自己，究竟自己為什麼會這樣子？為何回不去那樣子？這些都沒有答案。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2DEIbnLEZ
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路燈昏暗的公園裡，冷風颼颼，兩人坐在一張長椅上。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZ34cHivFW
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「對不起，我其實很早以前就想跟妳說了，只是我很猶豫。我們還是不太適合。我們......我們還是分手吧。」我不敢直視眼前的女孩，怕她露出什麼樣的表情，讓自己愧疚感更加的劇烈。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZ9b0Iczjl
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經過幾秒的寧靜，小柔卻只簡短的回應：「好，再見。」，就拿著袋子急步的離開。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDX7fW3cdJP
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這樣就結束了。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4hvRUvkl7
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這段感情沒有轟轟烈烈的結束，只像掉落的枯葉，靜靜的在冷風中消散。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr7KigFJAf
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我坐在公園的長椅上仰望著星空。很多回憶湧進了我的思緒，但卻不是小柔，是那個她。與她的一切就像是燦爛的煙火，讓人深刻但卻短暫。我對小柔只有很重的愧疚感，因為自私和孤獨，打擾了她。我還以為可以努力的愛上她，但結果還是不能用最好的自己對待她，我真的是一個很糟糕的人。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPdLuBBvWf
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沉重的愧疚感跟空虛，驅使我打給了久沒聯絡的老媽。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeimfhR8jM0
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「喂，阿媽，我同女朋友講咗分手。」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLW9TGVg9p
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片刻的沉默過後，94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0qrWhuCQT
「咁咪好囉...拖住人反而唔好，翻緊宿舍未？」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMggdnkuVTn
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「未阿，岩岩係公園講完，而家唔知去邊好。」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbG5TtPunJf
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「翻宿舍啦！都話左你太後生，仲未識咩係愛情，第時出社會先慢慢搵啦！上次已經....總之就快啲翻去啦，唔好搞太夜。」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDKLz1vqjC
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「知啦。」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8iTYoXvKZ
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為甚麼我是打給老媽而不是老爸呢？也許可能是她有離開我爸的經驗吧，我的本能就是想尋找一個人給我好藉口，讓自己凌亂不堪的思緒安定起來，而且老爸並不知道小柔。唯一一個讓我父母都知道的女友也只有她，那個曾經像是我生命中的月亮女孩。那時候愛人愛的像傻子般的自己、那時候的怔動、大喜大悲的過去，昔日的感覺已經無法再感受一次。妳又怎麼想的呢？小淑。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ15DA87NDNn
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（四年前）94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbezl8qzt5
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我來到台灣讀書的第一年。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwrrLR49YX
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「鄭志和？」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiyLvKXHSp
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「到！」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMQoAUXCu8
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「周業坤？」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLAU1guCiPq
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「到！」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTcK5DYq77
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「劉家瑜？」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsj7pVJI9j
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「到！」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYechOhENs9
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「李子妮？」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudfB4jXeC9
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「到！」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKvU9PxeWE
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「張逸晨？」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡszAbwzLq9S
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「到！」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJHH2Ab9L1
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香港學生到台後，學長姐正在點名人數。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERsou8assS
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去台灣的第一年，為了方便人生路不熟的僑生，學校的境外生學生組織提供了接送服務，帶我們去體檢，入住宿舍等等。點完名後，大夥們上了旅遊巴，準備前往學校宿舍。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdDLSUI7yJ
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「覺唔覺得坐前面三行揹住吉他條女幾正？」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUOWWUtYMq
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原本看著窗外的我轉過頭來，原來是那個身材微胖、帶著眼鏡，叫周業坤的男生跟我搭話。而他所指的女生叫李子妮，長髮平陰頭，穿著白色吊帶裙子，皮膚白晢，尤其是那雙修長的腿，真的滿正。阿對了，她是阿坤將來的女朋友。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TnEyBnh5x
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「恩。」個性比較內向的我微微的點頭，只簡短回了一個肯定。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDefNrjgvz
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我創造了幾秒的DEAD AIR後，阿坤再找了一個坐在我們前面的男生搭話，那個男生高高瘦瘦，耳朵帶著一個耳飾，穿著很時髦，有點ＭＫ。他叫鄭志和。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrenqSpKXj
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「你咩系?我中文」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqktiVIUA4A
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「新聞系」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbo1lhjooX4
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「企管系」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZQwpbkZeBC
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「你．．．．．．」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJVk7CiKOQ
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我們在車上簡單的互相介紹了一下自己，初步的聊了一下。原來他們兩個都比我大，97年生的我是他們之中的老么。那時候真的沒想過他們還有另外兩個人將是陪伴我度過台灣四年青春年華的兄弟。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3RTnB6oxE
到達學校，我們到了學校的中央廣場集合，排隊拿取來台前就訂購好的生活用品，準備進入宿舍。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡky1ERzJ1nw
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「那現在大家請排隊拿取之前訂購的物資，有訂購床具的人請先過來這邊！」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwK8zmotJd5
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境外會一名幹部在學校的中央廣場喊話。眾人紛紛按地區個別排隊等候物資分發。我們學校算是一個滿「東亞化」的大學，僑生裡面有來自不同地區的人，有來自香港、澳門、韓國、日本還有其中最多的是馬來西亞跟中國大陸。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE1Vkg4eZZd
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而剛好香港的隊伍在馬來西亞的隔壁。作為一名來台之前沒看過馬來西亞妹子的真男人，當然立即掃描了一下隔壁隊伍的風景。恩，果然很不錯。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgECmhWcc47
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「請問這裡是馬來西亞的隊伍嗎？」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjlYz2z66O
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突然有一個操著馬來西亞腔調的國語，輕柔動人的女聲從我後面傳來。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudpfsrAlus
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轉過頭來，她紮著馬尾、五官標緻、有著一雙好像要把你的心都要吸進去的明亮眼睛，身上還有一陣清香。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8bcg4PCZQ
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「恩......阿......這裡...香港.....那邊才是馬來西亞...」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZB6fFpvOR
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我頓時像有語言障礙的傻子，骨子裡的「毒撚」魂又在蠢蠢欲動，不敢直視她的眼睛。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi0e9o5Ekdq
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「謝謝！」跟我道謝後，她走回自己的隊伍。而我的眼睛卻一直離不開她的背影。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsJZDEBsao
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一直看著馬來西亞的隊伍，輪到她了。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MD7W8Qtym
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「妳的名字是張怡淑？對嗎？」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYg9EDccMBT
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「對！」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLDKFXJs8N0
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怡淑...真是很特別的名字。如果不是看到她本人還以為是個朝鮮阿姨的名字，不過現在這兩個字只讓我想到她的眼睛、她的臉蛋、還有她的香味。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdptTuuninD
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怡淑...張怡淑....怡淑....滿腦子都是她的名字。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9DCk9eZrN
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「張逸晨係唔係度？」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6HnkkksRe
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「你係咪張逸晨？」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmIcBE58zz
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「喂！！！」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQm922Nfzc
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「阿晨！」旁邊的阿和拍了一下我的肩膀，回過神來，看到臉很臭的香港幹部在面前盯著我。額，原來輪到我了。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQetLl2TpU4
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「佢岩岩叫左你好多次，你搞咩」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIEG20s1b7
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「係車度已經係咁，我發覺你都幾中意發呆。」阿坤竊笑94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pt0b00Ujf
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「......」94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlw7cZsPN8Q
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真是的！在香港的時候已經被朋友老是講我發呆，這不叫發呆，這叫若有所思好嗎？I am a thinker!94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhonD5X0qdJ
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那時我腦海裡都是那個月亮女孩，張怡淑。94Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIs1x8vOKf
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