#1 Entry: Why I Started This.740Please respect copyright.PENANAkDwrwtXQOD
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.740Please respect copyright.PENANAwMmZomsnwI
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAA19zXWyqtG
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.740Please respect copyright.PENANAp8PVcreYyL
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 740Please respect copyright.PENANACLi8MJ163t
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAcKqHQ1owaD
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAy0F1gOH6Ye
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAf6b4KZ049x
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAPGKPZvSkoM
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And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?740Please respect copyright.PENANAIjeNNigfJa
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.740Please respect copyright.PENANAig44ZC1dMN
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)740Please respect copyright.PENANAqd90qwUMcg
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAw0QJ3t5o1X
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAxg1BxcLTcG
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?740Please respect copyright.PENANAWVZdzuPevk
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAzqDpw5nHSd
So calling it off, was it that bad?740Please respect copyright.PENANAXtOaOQOTje
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 740Please respect copyright.PENANA6dAoFKlHeE
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)740Please respect copyright.PENANAONbg3iN1e7
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAXWh25MkT8h
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAMuoRJavZaL
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAaKfRwGCB0n
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 740Please respect copyright.PENANA4WgldPOgX2
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 740Please respect copyright.PENANAzn0lS0IKF6
Henceforth, we have this. 740Please respect copyright.PENANA30t5eQA6TF
Thanks for bearing with me. 740Please respect copyright.PENANANVvt7gUHcv
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