長假,我待在家裡,哪裡也沒去。大部分時間都躺在房間的床上,偶爾看書,偶爾發呆。窗外的天氣很熱,蟬鳴聲從早上響到傍晚,好像沒有停過。28Please respect copyright.PENANA0v8eicTfnM
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「嗯......已經要上大學了啊。」感覺那段高中三年明明才剛開始,開學遇到安晴、與雪痕說開、與他們一起參加各類活動,總覺得昨天才結束而已。28Please respect copyright.PENANAE1C8ZB5Y5v
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我微微撐起嘴角,「沒有想到,竟然能過得那麼好。」我以為我到了高中會很不自在,怕又再次惹禍,結果沒想到......28Please respect copyright.PENANAPUJ3yGVbY4
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「叮!」手機的螢幕亮了起來,我拿起來,原本想說是那兩個人。28Please respect copyright.PENANAgkoJyVfKOc
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「雨序!我好想你,你有沒有空,可不可以出來見個面?」我瞪大眼睛,是予歡。28Please respect copyright.PENANAKwgdYhRmDS
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她上高中之後,我們聯絡得比較少了,偶爾傳訊息,偶爾在社群上看到對方發文。結果現在突然傳訊息,是想起我了嗎?28Please respect copyright.PENANAsEiNxQ93lu
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我思考一下,回了她:「可以啊。」 反正長假閒閒沒事幹,來敘敘舊也可以。
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「你想要約在哪?」我問她。「這裡可以嗎?還有可以約明天的中午12:10嗎?」她傳了個連結給我,我知道,這家咖啡廳很有名,評價很高呢。28Please respect copyright.PENANAHTkA1HbE0k
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「可以。」我傳了個兔子貼圖給她。便放下手機,躺回床上,盯著天花板看了一會兒。蟬鳴聲還在響,不吵,只是靜靜聽著。28Please respect copyright.PENANANvrPGj4DYw
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過了一下,我坐起來,走到窗邊,把窗簾拉開,看著外面的天空。28Please respect copyright.PENANAYWABT2efib
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「嗯......很美呢。」夕陽西下,大地被橘紅色壟罩,以前跟他們走的時候也是這樣。28Please respect copyright.PENANA1DrJK1BN09
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今天是好天氣,明天應該也是。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAmxeso8rWx0
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「明天要見予歡。」我在心裡對自己說。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAQ601cLONFu
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那必須得好好打扮才行,只是......我好像也就那幾套衣服而已。28Please respect copyright.PENANASA37ixTk5X
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「算了,出去跑跑散散心好了。」我換上外出服,穿起外套向外走去。28Please respect copyright.PENANAamYeBeQa6M
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我走到之前常走的街道上,一如往常,彷彿看的見當初的我們在那裏走著。28Please respect copyright.PENANAV9c7Mv1Ahu
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我沿著街道繼續走,腳步不快也不慢。路旁的行道樹還是一樣,樹葉被風吹得沙沙響。經過那家麵店的時候,我看了一眼,裡面的燈還亮著,有幾個客人坐在裡面吃飯。28Please respect copyright.PENANAT3kZcVWXEg
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走過那家店之後,我想起第一次跟安晴來這裡的時候,她問我「你以前念哪間國中」時語氣很小心。然後我想到雪痕跟我們一起吃飯的那個下午。28Please respect copyright.PENANA59oWerMpFa
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我沒有停下來,但也沒有想要忘記那些事。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAv8mAWO1b4c
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走到公園的時候,我在長椅上坐下來。天色已經開始變暗了,路燈還沒亮。公園裡沒什麼人,只有一個媽媽推著嬰兒車經過、跟幾個老人家在跑步運動。28Please respect copyright.PENANADUoqNAqKj7
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我坐在那裡,看著那個嬰兒,可可愛愛的,與她母親慈祥的笑容,我想起了我的阿嬤,她當初也是那樣對我的,我也很久沒回去了。28Please respect copyright.PENANAnqYFZpJgez
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我抬頭看著天空,慢慢的變暗。我站起身來,往家的方向走去。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAwcVMGmmGcN
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風吹過來的時候,涼涼的,跟剛才走路的感覺不太一樣了。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAWkVDdvFHvI
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回到家,我把門關上,沒有開燈。客廳還是跟出門前一樣安靜,只有窗外透進來的一點路燈光。 28Please respect copyright.PENANA1CorpJ88BO
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我換下外出服,洗了臉,躺在床上。手機放在床頭櫃上,沒有再拿起來看。房間很安靜,蟬鳴聲已經停了。 28Please respect copyright.PENANARPf5U8Td0N
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明天要去見予歡。我在心裡又說了一次。然後閉上眼睛。不是因為確定會是好的,是因為已經很久沒有在見到她之前感到安心了。 28Please respect copyright.PENANARaXHB9axZ3
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我閉上眼睛的時候,腦海裡浮現的是予歡國小的樣子。她跑過來叫我「雨序!」,聲音很大,好像永遠不會累。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAHh4TQgsF8j
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「我當初還問她那個奇葩問題呢。」我笑了一下。28Please respect copyright.PENANALvQx2cGvKw
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那時候的我們都還很小,還不知道以後會發生什麼事。我在心裡對那時候的她說了一聲謝謝。然後翻過身,慢慢睡著了。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAXn3pn09lmt
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隔天早上,我在鬧鐘響之前就醒了。不是因為緊張,是因為窗外的陽光比平常亮,照進房間,把天花板映成一片淺淺的金色。 28Please respect copyright.PENANARj7DksTGWF
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我坐起來,看了一下時間——十點。離約定時間還有兩個小時。我沒有賴床,站起來去洗臉、換衣服。換完之後,站在鏡子前面看了一會兒,沒有特別滿意,但也沒有不滿意。然後拿起手機,確認了一下地址,出門。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAklfU7MoXHI
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到了約定的地點,離約定時間還有一段距離。我站在門口看了一眼,還沒有看到予歡。28Please respect copyright.PENANAQ5QQJHjgbp
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「嗯,我太早來了。」我決定先進去找個位置等她。28Please respect copyright.PENANAHR8yrjNmgo
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一進門,我稍微觀望了一下,看見那個很久沒見的身影,予歡她正坐在那,拿著一個小鏡子整理頭髮,偶爾拍拍自己的臉頰,好像在給自己打氣?28Please respect copyright.PENANA5UiOiHiykr
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而且啊,她變得感覺好有氣質喔,不像小時候瘋瘋癲癲的,這就是所謂女大十八變嗎?28Please respect copyright.PENANA3Pp9E93qtj
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「予歡?」我走到她身旁,輕聲叫她,她很明顯被我嚇到了。28Please respect copyright.PENANAXeB7qQTa2n
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她轉過頭,愣了一下,「雨序?!你來啦!」咖啡廳聲音很多,所以她的聲音不算大聲。28Please respect copyright.PENANAttFe3RbGLc
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我揮揮手,坐在她的對面。「你感覺跟以前一樣呢?」她說。28Please respect copyright.PENANAeyYiP9x0rf
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「或許吧,我也不知道我變成甚麼樣。」我真的不知道,因為......28Please respect copyright.PENANAyjtdgCvaF5
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「感覺變得比較成熟喔。」她笑著說,「你也是。」我不知道回甚麼。28Please respect copyright.PENANARGmhMd9xdQ
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「雨序,我們那麼久沒見面了,想我嗎?」她狡猾的看著我,她怎麼變這樣了?28Please respect copyright.PENANAUnJMqZ0zib
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「不是有在聊天嘛,還好啦。」我笑著回她。她愣了一下「你怎麼這樣?應該要說「我很想你!」啊!然後來個大大的擁抱。」28Please respect copyright.PENANArKQKWhVntG
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我看著她,「是這樣嗎?」我不懂。「是的,所以來吧!」她站起來,往我這邊走,一把抱住我,「嗯!好香!」我愣在原地,「你這些年是這樣過來的嗎?」難不成......!28Please respect copyright.PENANAg1MwBpv4iE
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「沒有啦,跟朋友打鬧會這樣嘛。不喜歡嗎?」她睜大眼睛,楚楚可憐地看著我。感覺她以前就會了。28Please respect copyright.PENANAL597HDNHAo
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「不習慣。」我誠實地說,「沒關係,我會讓你習慣的。」她笑了,還是一樣燦爛。28Please respect copyright.PENANAIyS20cQIzS
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「你在學校都發生了甚麼啊?」我很好奇,她經歷了甚麼才變這樣。28Please respect copyright.PENANAUDL0xI7I5t
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她先是看我,在看向窗外,眼神裡充滿的悲傷,嘴角微微下垂。28Please respect copyright.PENANArZ33nA1iHT
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「啊......」她怪叫。接著再次看向我「就一些不想回想的事情。」她的語氣平穩,笑著講出這樣傷痛著她的事,看來我們都一樣。28Please respect copyright.PENANAv46SfegY72
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「啊,對不起。」我低下頭,不再多問。28Please respect copyright.PENANAcDTP9oF608
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「沒關係的,我也學到了很多。」我看向她,她沒看著我,「反正,有些事情注定沒有緣分。」我也知道,畢竟我跟他就是如此。28Please respect copyright.PENANAf26gNuLcbw
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我點點頭,沒有說話。想給他一些空間消化。28Please respect copyright.PENANAw4wCyahgdU
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過了一下,「那雨序呢?你也都發生甚麼啊?」她恢復一開始的神采,好似剛剛的愁眉苦臉只是演的。28Please respect copyright.PENANAokx0Gj2qtw
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「我的話......」我不知道要不要跟她坦白。28Please respect copyright.PENANAdWdAqxFUUV
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「不想講的話也沒關係,我想知道的是,你有沒有再被欺負而已。」我疑惑的看著她。
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她歪歪頭,「因為雨序你國小不是也有被欺負,我害怕你會在一次遭殃。」她怎麼還記得啊。28Please respect copyright.PENANAFOniUXpKQb
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「沒有甚麼事,過得很好喔。」我撐起笑容,想把那些事蓋下去。28Please respect copyright.PENANAZ4lIO9tGw6
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她喝了一口奶茶,「沒事就好。」她鬆了一口氣。總感覺她很像我的保母呢,哈哈。28Please respect copyright.PENANAhVLzKrJZmc
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「也許有一天,我也可以告訴予歡完整的故事。」 我小聲地說。28Please respect copyright.PENANAJoFiUQelF2
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她似乎敏銳地捕捉到了我的低語,「甚麼甚麼?」她靠過來。28Please respect copyright.PENANA03R3eHkXho
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「沒有,啊,予歡你大學要去哪裡啊?」我趕緊轉移話題。28Please respect copyright.PENANAIidMeGE2Mm
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「去大學啊。」我愣住了。28Please respect copyright.PENANADIiy6JR572
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她笑了一下,趕緊補了一句:「沒有啦,我打算去遠一點的,那裡有我想要的科系。」 28Please respect copyright.PENANAojnlBQiggx
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但我感覺的到,她是想將往事帶走。28Please respect copyright.PENANAjlayPTgwjE
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「你呢?」她反問我。「就這附近的一家大學,也還不錯。」她點點頭,「很好啊,那間不是也蠻好的嗎?」其實我只是懶而已,找得到工作就好,而且或許能碰碰運氣,遇見她。28Please respect copyright.PENANA5Mtn5VtGV0
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她笑了,我歪著頭看著她,「原來只是懶嗎?」她看向我,感覺還在憋笑。28Please respect copyright.PENANA6XAF6vlHYn
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我愣住,剛剛我有講話嗎?28Please respect copyright.PENANABWMKztkY1o
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我的臉瞬間發熱,「不要笑!不就一個小失誤。」我念她。28Please respect copyright.PENANA6e7hi1uz78
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「但很可愛嘛,你還是跟以前一樣。」她又笑了,但那個笑容是很欣慰的。28Please respect copyright.PENANArGrOZkmFPo
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我轉過頭,故意不看她。28Please respect copyright.PENANAAsBkfHJCH5
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窗外我頓時看見一個身影,他穿著短袖短褲,走在街上,那股氣息跟以前一樣。28Please respect copyright.PENANAtBq003XfhX
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我沒有追出去。他只是剛好路過。
我不想打擾他的生活。28Please respect copyright.PENANAlrUDac8phD
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「怎麼了?」予歡叫我,很擔心。28Please respect copyright.PENANAs06FSvk2Np
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「沒什麼,看見認識的而已。」我草草帶過。28Please respect copyright.PENANA46UjQcHyCm
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雪痕出來幹嘛呢?我好想知道,我搖搖頭,讓自己不去想。28Please respect copyright.PENANALl4Du0S8RP
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我們就這樣聊,聊到高中生活,予歡說她沒交到多少朋友,主要是覺得有那幾個就好了。28Please respect copyright.PENANAnFj3Xag0hJ
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我們還問彼此現在待在家都在幹嘛,我都在看書,她說我跟平常一樣,笑了幾聲。28Please respect copyright.PENANAjkTgW4gjMW
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我喝完杯子裡的最後一口,「喝完了齁。」她笑著看我,我愣了一下,那個笑容,不知道為什麼,讓我想起另一個人。「走吧。」我們一起走到櫃檯結帳。28Please respect copyright.PENANAeDas579CkF
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走到門外,「雨序,我很開心喔!」,「我也是。」28Please respect copyright.PENANARIOHmDJlbq
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她走過來抱著我,我沒有掙扎,回抱她,雖然有些奇怪。28Please respect copyright.PENANAU1MkZU7POm
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「不知道之後還能不能再出來玩呢。」她說,「你要的話,都可以的。」我說。28Please respect copyright.PENANARJZKpG9XIz
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「真的嗎?!」她跳開,很開心,「嗯。」反正我也沒多少朋友。28Please respect copyright.PENANAOhdPFaU2sL
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「那我之後會再找時間的。」28Please respect copyright.PENANAAqDep3mcZv
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「當然可以。」28Please respect copyright.PENANApk4YOQybTD
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「好啦,那就這樣喔,回家再聊!」她轉過身,往另一邊走去。28Please respect copyright.PENANAu1n1BCycAv
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我還看見她又轉回身來對我比個大大的愛心,我揮揮手,她感覺有些生氣,轉回去繼續走。真可愛呢。28Please respect copyright.PENANAQp8GaQ1RgP
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我站在原地,看著予歡的背影消失在轉角,才轉身往回家的方向走。街上的人比剛才少了一些,陽光還是很亮,但已經沒有中午那麼熱了。我走得很慢,沒有特別在想什麼,只是讓剛才的對話在腦海裡慢慢流過。 28Please respect copyright.PENANA7EZQsxHtd3
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回到家,我把門關上,換下外出服,洗了臉,坐在書桌前。窗外的光線已經開始變了,從刺眼的亮變成比較柔和的橘紅色。我沒有開燈,也沒有打開手機,就呆呆地坐在椅子上。28Please respect copyright.PENANAaO6Sv75mBL
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「要不我也找他們出來玩?」這個念頭只存在3秒便被我打消,算了。還是不要突然約人好了。28Please respect copyright.PENANAblmC4mjYhG
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就這樣,我坐在位置,看著太陽慢慢落下,直到我趴在桌上,沉沉睡去。28Please respect copyright.PENANA8uE67XEEzM
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晚上,我突然驚醒,我怎麼睡著了?明明就沒這麼累。
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我看著天花板,想起我還沒洗澡呢。28Please respect copyright.PENANA53qP1FZ0Rg
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我拿上浴巾、衣服往浴室跑去。28Please respect copyright.PENANAx1eed2BtT0
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我看向鏡子裡的人,跟平常沒兩樣,但嘴角微微揚起。28Please respect copyright.PENANAfCN9aHMpvR
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就這樣,長假很快過去了,明明整天都在擺爛,時間卻過得很快呢。28Please respect copyright.PENANAlJYyENBVP6
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大學新生報到那天,我走進校門的時候,被眼前看到的景象震住了。校園比我想像中還要大,到處都是人——有人拖著行李,有人拿著地圖,有人站在樹下跟家人說話。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAIIqxSb0Muf
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我站在入口,看了一會兒,沒有馬上走進去。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAcO0MugslVr
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我低頭看了一下手機上的報到地點,然後往那個方向走。走沒幾步,我就看到中庭那邊圍了一群人,好像是課表公布欄。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAjjppKS6Nbc
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我走過去,站在人群外圍看了一下。上面貼著密密麻麻的課程名稱跟教室編號,我還在找自己的系所。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAKYLgrJFhjY
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然後我轉頭,看到了一個人。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAcWpnTAyjki
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她依然駝著背,給人的感覺跟以前一樣。 唯唯諾諾,看起來很膽小。28Please respect copyright.PENANAXiDKfgkjsO
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我愣在原地,真的那麼巧?28Please respect copyright.PENANAiOdh1YlyWB
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我看見她走著走著,轉過身,與一個男生對到眼,趕緊轉回去。28Please respect copyright.PENANArUQmhjlQc4
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我站在那裡,看著她的背影,沒有馬上走過去。她看起來還是跟以前一樣,不太敢跟人說話。我心裡有一個聲音說:現在就走過去吧。但我沒有動。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAiv81m7bdYl
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我告訴自己,不急。這學期才剛開始,我還有時間。28Please respect copyright.PENANA4LdlNKfQdI
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我在心裡對自己說:這學期一定要成功。我欠她一個道歉,我也已經不想再帶著這件事走下去了。 28Please respect copyright.PENANAgj2nj4cjTI
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然後我轉過身,往報到處的方向走去。我沒有再看她,但我知道她在這間學校裡。我可以慢慢來。28Please respect copyright.PENANA6TqDNatRna
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這一次,我不會再逃了。 28Please respect copyright.PENANA3emEDnTxTJ
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