In Maxim’s childhood world, everything was quieter than elsewhere. Even the wind seemed to whisper softer by his window. He rarely cried—not because he was brave, but because crying made his head ache. And everything else ached too. He was the kind of child who could fall ill from a draft, from someone’s shout, from a TV turned up too loud.
His mother always said,259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGDIpsrEna
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“You’ve got too kind a heart, Max. It tires faster than the rest.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYJ7TvxgVp
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He didn’t understand then that she wasn’t talking about his heart, but his soul—and that it wasn’t kind, but fragile.
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A small table. Watercolors. A jar of cloudy water. A piece of bread. Maxim paints—carefully, meticulously, as if it’s something more than a picture. He paints a house. His mother. The sun. Himself—a little figure with crooked arms, but smiling.
His mother strokes his hair from behind.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kLpf1Y9wy
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“Pretty. That’s us?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojv6t9q6n2
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“Mm-hmm,” he hums.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeCsyQxuSC
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“Why didn’t you draw your dad?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLdll2fXBE
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He shrugs. “No space.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDzMzYxZjR2
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She smiles, but her eyes go sad. He notices—and feels ashamed. He wants to fix it, add his father in. But his hand won’t move.
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It’s just that next to his father, there’s always darkness.
His father comes home late. The smell of alcohol arrives before he does. Sometimes with the heavy footsteps, the door slam, the shouting. His mother shrinks then, becomes smaller, hides her smile in her palm.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwySU0YP9r
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“Go to your room, sweetheart. I’ll come in a bit.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpSwYber7x
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He obeys. Not always. Sometimes he sits by the door, listening.
At first—just voices. Then—thuds. Blows. The sound of things hitting walls. The sobs. The crash of falling objects.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsVUjHziTQ
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Then silence.
That ringing kind that makes your ears hum. He would press his hands over them, close his eyes, whisper:259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqRAEOr4V6r
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Please stop, please stop, please…
And sometimes, it actually did.
That day his mother told him that if he ever got scared, he should hide.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeLwmmeZdk
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“In the closet,” she said, opening the door where her dresses hung.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJbAIxzd6o
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“What about you?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmO7FnkHCnH
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“I’ll be right there. I promise.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1giYakKmQL
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He nodded. He believed her completely.
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His mother brews raspberry tea, sweet-smelling. Maxim sits at the table, swinging his legs.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91fqkc2yYg
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“You’ve got school tomorrow,” she says softly.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AfDPfg8Xr
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“I don’t want to go.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51fzEwWGhL
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“Why not?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMGrY52rES
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“It’s loud.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKI1fvXpCw
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She laughs. “But there are friends there.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4b3fQ0XIh
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“I don’t know how to make friends.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNv9Q55wRE5
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“You’ll learn,” she says with confidence.
He smiles. He likes it when she talks like that—as if she can defeat any misfortune.
But trouble never knocks. It barges in.
A slam. The door. A bottle clattering to the floor. His mother turns, no surprise in her eyes now—only tiredness.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzD1RpztApm
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“Again?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOfWmBoHQk
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“What do you mean again?!” His father’s voice shakes the walls. “Where’s the money, Natasha?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6dVyH5dnb
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“We… talked about this—”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqIhIjwPnkd
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“We talked? You talked!”
He staggers forward.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFugVzTR6y
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Mother grabs Maxim’s hand, pulls him toward the closet.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckXMjVL76l
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“Quiet. Quickly. Don’t breathe,” she whispers.
He obeys. He already knows something bad is coming.
The closet smells of soap and her perfume. Through the crack he can see a slice of the room. His father hurls the bottle at the wall.
“Stop!” she cries. Her voice cracks.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2UAAQUqUXV
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He steps closer. His arm rises.
Maxim wants to run out—but can’t. His body won’t move. His insides lock up.
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A dull sound. The crash of glass.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQ7yZ2Uxfk
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And then—silence.
That same silence he would hate for the rest of his life.
When Maxim opened his eyes, the ceiling was strange—white, with a crack in the corner. He didn’t understand where he was at first. The air was thick enough to write on with a finger. Moving felt like a dream.
The system’s voice hovered at the edge of hearing:259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrSIibKJFU
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[Mode: passive recovery.]
He blinked. His throat was dry. His lips salty—probably from tears.
On the chair sat Lapin. No ears now. Gray sweatpants and a hoodie. Calm eyes, almost curious.
“You lost consciousness,” Lapin said. “For about twenty minutes.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lXoBPQ8IH
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“And the neighbors?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmK8znb8hv
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“Gone. I convinced them you were sick.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc35YRXHTCQ
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Maxim gave a weak smirk. “Not exactly a lie.”
Lapin tilted his head slightly. “The system warned me. Your psyche is unstable.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoEZpojVO9z
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“Yeah. Thanks for the update, doctor.”
He tried to stand, but his legs shook. Lapin leaned forward to help, but Maxim waved him off.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hWh2A0Ihs
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“Don’t touch me.”
Silence. The air froze.
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Maxim turned sharply. “Stay out of that.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiBnGq3TOqy
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“I’m not in it,” Lapin replied calmly. “The signal was too strong.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKl5zsCUM9
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“It wasn’t a signal,” Maxim rasped. “It was a memory.”
He sat down again, buried his face in his hands. The quiet pressed in on him.
“When you were eight,” Lapin said gently, “you met what humans call… fear.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCR3s0tD1q
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Maxim gave a bitter laugh. “No kidding. Thanks, Captain Obvious.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oVr2dYHJs
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“You joke,” Lapin said, “because that’s how you survive.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdN0sdjpHX
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“It’s the only thing left,” Maxim murmured.
He closed his eyes. The scene replayed again. His mother. The closet. The glass.
Tears slipped down his face before he even felt them.
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“I know,” Lapin said softly. “The system showed me.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3t5z8JFQfb
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“Of course it did. It knows everything, doesn’t it?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUI6zbLGJzH
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“Almost everything. But not feelings. They can only be observed.”
Maxim let out a hollow laugh. “I don’t feel anymore.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8T1DN6oiQi
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“That’s not true.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWlozB6OUQ
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“It is. I’m just… empty.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1f2EpQE54w
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“Then where do the tears come from?”
He didn’t answer. His hands still trembled—but not from fear. Just because his body didn’t know what else to do.
Night. He never slept.
Lapin sat by the window, silent. His reflection in the glass looked pale, moonlike. Maxim lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking that once he’d wanted to be an artist. To paint people who smiled. But after that day, he never painted again.
Colors annoyed him. Especially red.
“You know,” he said quietly, eyes still closed. “My mom always protected me. Even when she couldn’t.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWzsIADleP
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“And you wanted to protect her.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡou2VFkeISY
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“I did.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKJMO97y7z
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“Why couldn’t you?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4nsvT0dgo
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“I was a child.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2RDz7un23U
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“But you still blame yourself.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSvXinHRHr
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“Of course. Who else is there to blame?”
Lapin came closer, sat at the edge of the bed.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQmALAbj7Q
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“You’re not guilty,” he said. “Weakness isn’t a sin.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6Tji9YlSK
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“For the system it is,” Maxim muttered.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeOymLuPv1
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“Not for me.”
He turned to look at him.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZU3kluCztF
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“Why do you even protect me?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyHMj0XZVf
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“That’s what I was made for.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN82MH1oYJC
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“Can you lie?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4bJSLBoevp
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“No reason to.”
He said it so simply that Maxim suddenly believed him.
Morning was gray. Still. The air felt lighter, but inside—still empty.
The system was silent, except for a faint pulse deep within:259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyXK0WGq7K
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[Emotional response restored: 12%.]
He smiled without joy.259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWOhvovPq1
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“Twelve percent. Progress.”
Lapin poured tea. “You’re still human,” he said. “You can feel.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0TboM2phh
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“What if I don’t want to?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLdahSDCB7
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“Then that will be your feeling.”
Maxim rubbed his eyes. “You know, Lapin…”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZem9kWS8ev
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“Mm?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UyeRaiv6s
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“If I ever break again—hide me in the closet.”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zmgQY2zf2
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“Like when you were eight?”259Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdpTeP7cy4
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“Yeah. Just… don’t promise you’ll stay.”
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“I won’t promise,” he said at last. “I’ll just be there.”
Light spilled across the floor in pale stripes. Maxim sat on the bed, sipping tea, thinking that for the first time in a long while—he wasn’t thinking about fear. Just quiet.
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And maybe, this time—he wasn’t alone.
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