In Maxim’s childhood world, everything was quieter than elsewhere. Even the wind seemed to whisper softer by his window. He rarely cried—not because he was brave, but because crying made his head ache. And everything else ached too. He was the kind of child who could fall ill from a draft, from someone’s shout, from a TV turned up too loud.
His mother always said,297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZMaWyBJjE
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“You’ve got too kind a heart, Max. It tires faster than the rest.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsjJmtQ4gB
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He didn’t understand then that she wasn’t talking about his heart, but his soul—and that it wasn’t kind, but fragile.
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A small table. Watercolors. A jar of cloudy water. A piece of bread. Maxim paints—carefully, meticulously, as if it’s something more than a picture. He paints a house. His mother. The sun. Himself—a little figure with crooked arms, but smiling.
His mother strokes his hair from behind.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjuBPWYBsS
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“Pretty. That’s us?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyU6nxSeHaK
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“Mm-hmm,” he hums.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXG1GPaQiZn
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“Why didn’t you draw your dad?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnzuxdTO9N
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He shrugs. “No space.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIB68WCWkYm
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She smiles, but her eyes go sad. He notices—and feels ashamed. He wants to fix it, add his father in. But his hand won’t move.
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It’s just that next to his father, there’s always darkness.
His father comes home late. The smell of alcohol arrives before he does. Sometimes with the heavy footsteps, the door slam, the shouting. His mother shrinks then, becomes smaller, hides her smile in her palm.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQG6eVkI2cC
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“Go to your room, sweetheart. I’ll come in a bit.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEg6oHS7qAK
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He obeys. Not always. Sometimes he sits by the door, listening.
At first—just voices. Then—thuds. Blows. The sound of things hitting walls. The sobs. The crash of falling objects.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcGNvIayGp
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Then silence.
That ringing kind that makes your ears hum. He would press his hands over them, close his eyes, whisper:297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrTOkM8dYX
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Please stop, please stop, please…
And sometimes, it actually did.
That day his mother told him that if he ever got scared, he should hide.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4uTt4lMPt
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“In the closet,” she said, opening the door where her dresses hung.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBr1tCZ1B3
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“What about you?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBvcfzZo9s
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“I’ll be right there. I promise.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyX35aVZzHb
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He nodded. He believed her completely.
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His mother brews raspberry tea, sweet-smelling. Maxim sits at the table, swinging his legs.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlscxqvlvtF
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“You’ve got school tomorrow,” she says softly.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2p1phqzHRF
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“I don’t want to go.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAjFb8FK2S
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“Why not?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWqnFqMTbV
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“It’s loud.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmEIBNu6SF
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She laughs. “But there are friends there.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHcMKtpd3x
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“I don’t know how to make friends.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9bYo3m6VL
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“You’ll learn,” she says with confidence.
He smiles. He likes it when she talks like that—as if she can defeat any misfortune.
But trouble never knocks. It barges in.
A slam. The door. A bottle clattering to the floor. His mother turns, no surprise in her eyes now—only tiredness.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7SMTfEMUp
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“Again?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSafkksb0A
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“What do you mean again?!” His father’s voice shakes the walls. “Where’s the money, Natasha?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8i73fQD806
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“We… talked about this—”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSX2Oxvz41Q
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“We talked? You talked!”
He staggers forward.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hbBLUUZcq
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Mother grabs Maxim’s hand, pulls him toward the closet.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7yox2YWQU
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“Quiet. Quickly. Don’t breathe,” she whispers.
He obeys. He already knows something bad is coming.
The closet smells of soap and her perfume. Through the crack he can see a slice of the room. His father hurls the bottle at the wall.
“Stop!” she cries. Her voice cracks.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdbmsgL44f
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He steps closer. His arm rises.
Maxim wants to run out—but can’t. His body won’t move. His insides lock up.
Then—a blow.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvqA3LcdkW
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A dull sound. The crash of glass.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUba2pAjrzZ
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And then—silence.
That same silence he would hate for the rest of his life.
When Maxim opened his eyes, the ceiling was strange—white, with a crack in the corner. He didn’t understand where he was at first. The air was thick enough to write on with a finger. Moving felt like a dream.
The system’s voice hovered at the edge of hearing:297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfKFWdLL6S
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[Mode: passive recovery.]
He blinked. His throat was dry. His lips salty—probably from tears.
On the chair sat Lapin. No ears now. Gray sweatpants and a hoodie. Calm eyes, almost curious.
“You lost consciousness,” Lapin said. “For about twenty minutes.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyjILmBoQL
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“And the neighbors?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpGZvUd1Bt
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“Gone. I convinced them you were sick.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLSggcRZUS
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Maxim gave a weak smirk. “Not exactly a lie.”
Lapin tilted his head slightly. “The system warned me. Your psyche is unstable.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdjvpSuCGF
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“Yeah. Thanks for the update, doctor.”
He tried to stand, but his legs shook. Lapin leaned forward to help, but Maxim waved him off.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmtPiDB7ET
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“Don’t touch me.”
Silence. The air froze.
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Maxim turned sharply. “Stay out of that.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ikKT1StVN
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“I’m not in it,” Lapin replied calmly. “The signal was too strong.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1q2IplTL0
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“It wasn’t a signal,” Maxim rasped. “It was a memory.”
He sat down again, buried his face in his hands. The quiet pressed in on him.
“When you were eight,” Lapin said gently, “you met what humans call… fear.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6p7wIhu8K
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Maxim gave a bitter laugh. “No kidding. Thanks, Captain Obvious.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiBOeXWq0N
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“You joke,” Lapin said, “because that’s how you survive.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQYebmYLQv
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“It’s the only thing left,” Maxim murmured.
He closed his eyes. The scene replayed again. His mother. The closet. The glass.
Tears slipped down his face before he even felt them.
“She died,” he whispered.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ibRLmDUkW
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“I know,” Lapin said softly. “The system showed me.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFE0RM4MAlk
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“Of course it did. It knows everything, doesn’t it?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg07l4YD6Dq
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“Almost everything. But not feelings. They can only be observed.”
Maxim let out a hollow laugh. “I don’t feel anymore.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOZ5wcCbk6
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“That’s not true.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFK0N7DGGF
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“It is. I’m just… empty.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtuA32ZMYd
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“Then where do the tears come from?”
He didn’t answer. His hands still trembled—but not from fear. Just because his body didn’t know what else to do.
Night. He never slept.
Lapin sat by the window, silent. His reflection in the glass looked pale, moonlike. Maxim lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking that once he’d wanted to be an artist. To paint people who smiled. But after that day, he never painted again.
Colors annoyed him. Especially red.
“You know,” he said quietly, eyes still closed. “My mom always protected me. Even when she couldn’t.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4rjv9wXin
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“And you wanted to protect her.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwMUFUAy9qT
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“I did.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1kzMvwmFj4
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“Why couldn’t you?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3nIy9XvRT
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“I was a child.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiN49dY6JLR
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“But you still blame yourself.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVNfSE67IQ
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“Of course. Who else is there to blame?”
Lapin came closer, sat at the edge of the bed.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RoJJz8dTF
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“You’re not guilty,” he said. “Weakness isn’t a sin.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSc1o0yddXe
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“For the system it is,” Maxim muttered.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMP11Dd9E4
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“Not for me.”
He turned to look at him.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccZ4kHBLXp
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“Why do you even protect me?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxemGKpdgy
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“That’s what I was made for.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymwKTaOHEx
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“Can you lie?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4o0sWf8PS
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“No reason to.”
He said it so simply that Maxim suddenly believed him.
Morning was gray. Still. The air felt lighter, but inside—still empty.
The system was silent, except for a faint pulse deep within:297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rfoHYQr58
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[Emotional response restored: 12%.]
He smiled without joy.297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuPXedRzCK
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“Twelve percent. Progress.”
Lapin poured tea. “You’re still human,” he said. “You can feel.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFZzUUX4Em
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“What if I don’t want to?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv0OyQFoBfG
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“Then that will be your feeling.”
Maxim rubbed his eyes. “You know, Lapin…”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhrCKOT2nd
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“Mm?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oRBPnM57A
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“If I ever break again—hide me in the closet.”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWwUS4Ja8s
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“Like when you were eight?”297Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrz7vNUZxDG
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“Yeah. Just… don’t promise you’ll stay.”
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“I won’t promise,” he said at last. “I’ll just be there.”
Light spilled across the floor in pale stripes. Maxim sat on the bed, sipping tea, thinking that for the first time in a long while—he wasn’t thinking about fear. Just quiet.
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And maybe, this time—he wasn’t alone.
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