等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jllZ0SAGT
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RgOvoJBNF
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他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3PCAcOu63
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEvoWAMFdQ
「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMbyfvlSMA
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhoYoLezca
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNwdUbtJFq
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我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGNOe2cima
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKp6abJcV1q
所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7erBc810P
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ySxRhlUjX
只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AkTeNZlXN
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJyOV70iQ9
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz94ecHYZTz
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwz2MIj6vCO
我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUp2uF9FdB
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4CJa9DcjI
我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8dgyqrS0c
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碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uODtfAKUb
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI7hhpGfMe7
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdlUhBEirR
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbETpeaDwE
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡve5tu1rSOG
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSF4BCJpVKt
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9iS2LwroM
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyu7f5I3T2S
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7tN0FrJl1
「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvIXTtTNJn
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxeOD8Z0Z7
我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixTV5WMfG0
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaiThWszhBM
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cyCEQXvWK
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPCCdYyJjYI
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27wQQrfnZZ
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2DhAvz10F
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLodG9acYok
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yY8t7vy5j
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mz2G4c7bm
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtN3Zf1YrC
那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqOni7JCif
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我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnS2ciwY3R
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ln7kDkHEe
「這是新編的。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJRdffFAt5
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrkm5Y7IRpr
他看了看手繩，又看看我。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDjRWinMT4
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4NWDUgyuFR
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrfUkeZWpf
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGkO0gDckU1
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLO2OeNE6bS
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiEH9CW7FU
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHb0gIFPBND
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNrBLNYum4
「妳看。」他得意。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcYOXfBAm5x
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7QOoxQ7J1
「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbIfdhGkelW
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXAuIf8RQQ
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUuokuiSNW
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVpFOFxURHw
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5FO5YLS7h
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1LEnSN7rCr
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTAxDFVIFP
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「現在拍。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytD5285ssd
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「啊？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpHbbDyqRHy
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「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwZkA9M9Cq
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHzadOaFdU
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIa7OQ4iwgk
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDydDxdC8R
「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJ0xUhZd2P
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vK4CQiN3p
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHLNCjJZnI
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cvXONZma0
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWklwF6jZN0
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxoaCHkfIB
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrELfokJqI
我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrIYyyCNSyK
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUc09vz8QU4
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhZR1wWp4e
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkYmh4i3jL
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZ6yzNThDk
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAuNnkOyAh
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNLnyWZMr4
「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXUG6CyFLpQ
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5y93NQF1cK
「…有寫一些小故事。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNNa5K1ddQ
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「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MwCy7xgYz
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53FGFC7rnh
「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGG84C9QB6
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4asOigzTRT
「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7owIQ27vKd
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JcalTSFjJ
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwRnwHcknB
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsF3cKo6uVY
「妹。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhseGIzSOyw
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2VsRvJTZF6
「嗯？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi42IFNwYGM
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bGCNpQFrC
「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3C4VlT7Cb5
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLahLyp8qx
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRuffYDb9XR
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbylCq3Uwef
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3J76jpJbx
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLER3HqNJC
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ybMMe6P7A
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoT1l0SG2eV
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwPChX5vG6
那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ58yLxxOGEL
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdo0JV5SiX7
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzxEBOTXYDu
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WsmQv5WfQ
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkC9rRh7Qzm
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQP6j09Ih0w
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5XHG3wWAJ
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoG38SYGKc
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1W9kf7Xzl
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTkyLZtV4cx
我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniiGHy2uK4
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwJHFqezik
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKTPlZKTiY
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzayYsWKncU
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkvHvPR9Ia
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但我是欣慰的。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1NLI5HooD
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那一天來的又快又急。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdX1BbjKo6e
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「妹…」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWGXwykdCM
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvQYw8BYR3
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKF5eGfVJB0
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU0mxW2jMU
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBO8OTPW0n
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcMyegVfWPK
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYxkB7si1jJ
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoau2pS8ec
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlu2BFkZAgN
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HBoWvTKer
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEASd18u9p
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我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJ3AhaEvyR
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEWDxpAHbFU
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqt3QWiYDSu
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7dOLHvpqL
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2rNnuOy7v
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgX69As0W9
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeCCjRn7fm
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbItEMcwPV
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我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyaUsRM5q3
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53ywOezGrq
那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2yvPnlTk3
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「我真的，還不想死。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAG6cPsTxs
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKNwToRsR4
我握著他的手出了點力。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Ny4ohkVF9
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOwZ003nNp
「我很害怕。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRkioGxoUz
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「我很怕死…」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDD6zn4I581
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他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgFIQCt2Ja
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHLZMECXjs
那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwSjgSqciQ
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ618eDjuVIZ
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmelRRIGsUX
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZGZIUncPB
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBPWnyYWCFG
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyt7tX2u6KH
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfzM5PC9VE
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAN2NEQOajo
「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYicIOJ12GH
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWc7OPm7oP
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZQHRQZ6BS
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這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLh2hnVQj3
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoawtJlvVqs
「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb7e2VTBB0J
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6yj4A72CLK
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO3Trbyy6DU
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHECjNwwJ9J
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「妹。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvkahJQAN0
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「嗯？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRdpO9df2T
513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFzVQcL0F6
「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLPdVQJ0Ew
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sNnuavkEy
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「回去再看。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQkJb7YAWB
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「好。」我收起信。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftdYMZ1zOS
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「妳回去吧。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGa2XZLP6x
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「什麼？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp43fl6vYHN
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYFEPMBm69
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「為什麼？」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3w8iEfG1SH
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrw5LPrxA0
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「……」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2SAgh1NSVd
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「回去吧。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaZrrMaGn8
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7xVt8dT2C
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ34zUBIRyd
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我又抱了抱他才離開。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA64z2tElwQ
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncKyXk6uMv
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「英傑已經走了。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiYPN7UBXh6
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqlrxW4Ewh
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkj7HaSwD4P
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「Dear 妹：」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpobdCYFRw7
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「妳永遠是我的天使，513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZLeUG0Lmj
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請不要忘記我。」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrysPgdoAh
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「哥 英傑」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXXMdFennJ
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvY0jJdXjM3
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97KkDUJLov
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHff8So10U6
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqsHaH21sE
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUKlpBQlDr
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5inwkemD2b
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmzK2NyKAM
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdmkRyMwq8
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但我什麼也沒做。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyLdsobOEgs
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9drmZY7qT
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHm5kqKJiCK
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJBlHuZxNWt
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwqKPAFnRD
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr6PG8HLh29
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去年，我沒有寫信。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrPoYytiIT
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjf5o9xvS8
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3sGOGGp0Y
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64tYLqC9bV
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這是，我哥哥的故事。513Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTS8TTQDJkv
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