旅館的房門「喀」一聲被關上。
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賴夏陽拖著行李走進房間,動作慢得像耗盡了全身的力氣。
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他沒有立刻打開燈,只是靠著門板緩緩滑下,坐在冰冷的地磚上,額頭抵住雙膝,靜默得像時間停了一樣。
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空氣裡有股冷冷的霧氣,窗外是一片陰灰色的天。東北的冬天還沒正式降雪,但空氣已經結冰。
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他從沒來過這裡。選這個地方,只因為這裡夠遠,遠到好像能把那些眷戀和眼淚都隔在另一個世界。
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眼前的旅館房間簡單而乾淨,沒有什麼裝飾,像他心裡現在這片空白的地方。
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他站起身,把外套脫下掛好,打開熱水壺,開始燒水——動作有條不紊,好像還是那個什麼都會、什麼都能扛的賴夏陽。
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可只有他知道,他的胸口在隱隱作痛,那不是病的痛,是……寂寞。
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從醫院聽到「癌末」那天開始,他就明白自己的時間變成倒數。他以為自己會恐懼、會絕望,但沒有。他只是越來越安靜。
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因為他捨不得。
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捨不得那群朋友的笑聲,捨不得小月亮每天在他身邊嘮叨,捨不得還來不及說完的話,還沒走完的路。
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他拿出手機,螢幕暗著,沒有未讀訊息。
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他早就關閉了定位,也沒有告訴任何人。
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「這樣就不會有人難過了吧……」他喃喃自語。
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但說出口那一刻,他的眼眶紅了。
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沒有人會知道,這個在朋友面前總是嬉皮笑臉、吊兒郎當的賴夏陽,其實一個人住進異地旅館後,會偷偷用力吸一口氣,壓下想回頭的衝動。
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他望向窗外,雲層厚得像壓在心上的石頭。天氣預報說,明天會下雪。
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他輕聲說:
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「等雪來了……就當是我的最後一場煙火吧。」
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他閉上眼,靠在牆邊,第一次覺得,時間過得那麼靜,那麼重。
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冬月站在校園後門口,手裡握著那封賴夏陽留下的信。紙張邊緣有些捲起,像是被她反覆讀過。360Please respect copyright.PENANA4YFlcxpuXV
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曹敏紅著眼:「……妳瘋了嗎?他就這樣走了,連句話都沒說,妳還要追?」360Please respect copyright.PENANAbwCUQxo4nX
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黃炫承低著頭,一直沒開口,握緊的拳頭微微顫抖。360Please respect copyright.PENANAZhYF0b4XOR
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冬月把信貼近胸口,語氣冷靜卻堅決:「如果他決定悄悄離開,是因為他不想讓我們傷心。可我現在最傷心的,是他不相信我們能陪他一起痛。」360Please respect copyright.PENANAUF4TYP9RPv
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她的眼眶濕了,但眼神前所未有的堅定。360Please respect copyright.PENANAdIpkCrExP7
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「我不知道我去不去得了他身邊,也不知道他還願不願意見我……但如果我不去,我這輩子都會後悔。」360Please respect copyright.PENANAkExrEWOJT9
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曹敏忍不住哭出聲:「妳要去……去哪?妳知道他在哪嗎?」360Please respect copyright.PENANARFH2pRwbsW
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冬月點點頭,從書包裡拿出一張列印出來的機票與一份地圖:360Please respect copyright.PENANAYXugHJy3P2
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「他寫信裡提到的,是東北一個滑雪小鎮。我查過了,有個旅館在那附近,是他提過一直想看的雪景。」360Please respect copyright.PENANA0RwI5j3uQn
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她吸了口氣:「我已經訂好機票了,明天早上出發。」360Please respect copyright.PENANA5h9XGuKiiN
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炫承低聲問:「妳媽知道嗎?」360Please respect copyright.PENANAHxHv4byf0i
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冬月搖搖頭,頓了頓,才說:「我等一下要跟她說。」360Please respect copyright.PENANAlpLuGWFrGM
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那天晚上,家裡餐桌一如往常擺好兩人份晚餐。360Please respect copyright.PENANAydBpwPSZEM
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冬月放下筷子,看著媽媽,緩緩說:「媽,我想去找夏陽。」360Please respect copyright.PENANAXPHX2dQtSM
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她媽媽愣了一下,眉頭立刻皺起:「妳瘋了嗎?一個高中女生,自己飛出國?他都離開妳了,妳還去找他做什麼?」360Please respect copyright.PENANAfsGzmzPmt8
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冬月抿著嘴唇,沒有辯解。360Please respect copyright.PENANAME9Lm5eCqK
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只是輕輕從口袋裡拿出那封信,遞過去。360Please respect copyright.PENANAvLI8YJHTBY
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媽媽一邊讀,一邊皺眉,最後沉默很久。360Please respect copyright.PENANARePHQrY4b5
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冬月眼中泛紅,聲音卻很輕:「我不是任性。我只是……真的不想他一個人走過這段路。哪怕他什麼都不說,哪怕他推開我,我也想告訴他,妳不是一個人。」360Please respect copyright.PENANA1XaO7S65jM
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媽媽沒說話,只是看著眼前這個女兒。360Please respect copyright.PENANAtNrX6NbJgq
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曾經軟弱、曾經迷茫、成績不好就哭的女兒,現在卻像一個撐傘的人,要逆著風雨去找一個快凍傷的人。360Please respect copyright.PENANAPJue4W1deE
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她嘆了口氣,轉過身去擦眼角。360Please respect copyright.PENANAF2iSZ3H3zz
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「去吧。」她低聲說。360Please respect copyright.PENANAOQAU0gubDO
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「妳爸走的時候,我沒來得及說再見。那是我一輩子的遺憾。我不希望妳也有一樣的。」360Please respect copyright.PENANAvW4mGfkutz
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「但妳要記住,不管妳去多遠,做什麼選擇……妳都有家可以回來。」360Please respect copyright.PENANAKiOTZshLZi
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冬月猛地站起身,走過去抱住媽媽。360Please respect copyright.PENANA9mmdanQ4bs
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「謝謝妳,媽。」360Please respect copyright.PENANAknil6ccso7
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媽媽拍拍她的背,笑中帶著哭音:「帶夠衣服,東北會下雪了。記得拍幾張給我看。」360Please respect copyright.PENANAyfoi9dnFsS
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這一晚,冬月在房間裡收拾行李。外面風聲微弱,媽媽沒有催她睡覺,也沒有進來干涉。360Please respect copyright.PENANAFVpIh2nZOs
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就像她終於明白了:女兒不是要遠走,而是去完成一段愛與告別的旅程。


