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【最近陸續有些關於我和一位童年朋友的討論出現，首先謝謝大家的關心。】46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr76ihmNrtI
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剛翻過山頭的風，夾著落葉的氣味與曬乾衣物的餘溫。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLbwzJMJos
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星野莉奈走在堤防上，鞋跟落在水泥地面時，發出清脆的聲音，一聲一聲地迴盪開來，像是在提醒這條路還記得她。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPBrVkNk7T
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從前下課常常會經過的堤防。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KK0GKdPbm
那時候有兩個人陪她，一個走在前面，腳步又快又穩，幾乎從不回頭；另一個則總是邊走邊轉身看。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0HuIIA01p
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她是刻意回來的。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtGLuxkomQ
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這段時間以來，她沒什麼選擇要去哪裡。但今天早上，她特意搭車繞了一大圈，穿過熟悉的巷弄，從轉角的便利商店買了杯咖啡——然後慢慢地，走上這條堤防。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6pqKOuled
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有段時間沒回來了。這裡什麼都沒變，卻也好像哪裡都不對了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAacgkG8irP
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她越過欄杆，挑了一個熟悉的角落坐下來，雙手撐著身後，放在地上的咖啡溫度一點點流失。海面被陽光照得亮閃閃的。風很輕，把水面吹得微微發顫。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvgdUTovBn
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視線落在旁邊那塊地面上。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZyzYCk1rd
那裡曾有笑聲、有曬傷、有小孩的影子——現在只剩下幾片風裡翻飛的落葉。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvbyEmYFT3
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記得之前的某個夏天，哥哥被曬到一直翻著死魚眼，弟弟嫌地面太熱，一邊哼哼一邊把臉貼到她的影子裡避陽光——46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOGeW93vtB
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她忽然分不清，那些畫面是過去的記憶，還是她自己想像出來的。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkkGoEejOI
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斜陽傾瀉在堤防的弱波石上，抹上一層薄金色的光。初秋的風從海那頭慢慢吹來，帶著一點潮氣，也帶走了一些什麼——安靜、乾燥，空空的，像收尾的季節。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuN5HNZP9X4
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她靜靜等著。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB89sLnkquE
沒有傳訊息，也沒有打電話。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJS96ksQoB9
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她只是——想碰碰運氣。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpk77Azne09
也許會遇到那個，傻傻支持自己的身影。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfMMwgfiel
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那個會從後面叫她名字、會在她嘴角皺起來時遞糖果、會用一種單純到幾乎讓人想哭的方式說「好」的——46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwl91188Mj
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小凜。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWkLoliHaY9
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她很想再見他一面。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ943Ss3bSLN
很想告訴他——雪夜那天，他哥哥最想說卻沒說出口的話。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfH4Bx58uAa
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那些話一直卡在她胸口最深的地方，卡得太久，太久了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxI9oiReMUr
她覺得自己再不說，就會沒力氣說了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFZL8875y3
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她知道那不一定能修補什麼。但至少該讓小凜知道——不是因為他不夠好，而是因為他太好了，所以哥哥才會那麼怕他走錯路。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTUHioYAzF
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在無數的學生經過她後，她多等了一陣子；又多坐了一會兒。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavklgJxemZ
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還是沒有任何人出現。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKHgaMtPu5
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空氣悶得發膩，時間彷彿被什麼卡住不動。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXcMlZyK17
她盯著欄杆那塊地面，那曾是他們一起躺著看天的地方——46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtPfwUNEK76
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她慢慢意識到——46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHKmKdNV4f
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不是冴不在。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFk85mOQ7x
是連小凜也不在了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqHk1Xq2rV
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那份最單純、最直接、毫無算計的支持，早在那場雪夜裡，一起碎了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCt4MieI3n0
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胸口被什麼堵住，喘不過氣來——比那天回歸賽上，小凜看她的那道冰冷眼神，還更讓人窒息。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxpLSOdz0a
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直到這一刻，她才深刻體會到，那天雪夜他們真正都失去的，是什麼。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9L9CxXNM16
不只是一場爭執後的沉默——而是整個曾經彼此連結的、那個「我們」的形狀。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5O2sQdH4HE
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有什麼東西，徹底崩塌了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD6u8dfokqb
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她一直以為，哪怕不在彼此身邊，他們也都在某個地方，在那個不必說出口的位置上，一直佇立著——自己還撐得住，是因為他們還在那。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXnBwIFZIz
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可現在，那個「位置」，徹底空了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBq15N2s0v
她終於閉上眼。風從耳邊掠過，帶走了什麼，只留下記憶的餘溫——只是她，永遠也碰不到那些泛黃的畫面了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsMo9uQga0
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她慢慢站起來，沒有回頭看太久，只是輕輕低聲說了句：46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvP1Vy2lqX
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「對不起⋯⋯晚了一點。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJ81UFxqzc
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然後，她轉身，走下堤防。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3RmW0qexm
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——接下來，是她一個人的路了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AMb7dlNi7
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【工作這條路上，我一直都是一個人努力前行，也一直很珍惜所有合作的機會。】46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6u6udiqCe
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她走進那家駄菓子店。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHHgTlE9jP
門口還掛著同樣斑駁的布簾，隨著風微微飄起，進門時還是會叮鈴一聲響。裡頭的貨架沒什麼變化，空氣中多了一點乾燥的糖粉味。老闆娘坐在櫃檯後面，戴著花眼鏡在數零錢，一抬頭看到她，愣了一下。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcWeB86GIS
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「哎呦，好久不見啦！啊這次怎麼只有妳一個人？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquWvqtyUz2
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星野莉奈輕輕笑了一下。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡofgaXgtivE
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「小凜也很久沒來了耶，之前不是都會黏在妳旁邊嗎？以前你們一進門，都會先搶那個冰櫃。」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDq2TBoub7
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老闆娘笑著點點冰櫃方向，語氣一如既往地親切，像什麼都沒變。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdiTMvG9A7b
她沒有馬上回答，只是慢慢走向熟悉的冰櫃。門外的風灌進來，帶著幾片翻飛的落葉和一絲樹皮的味道，冰櫃表面起了一層淡淡的霧。裡頭還擺著他們以前常買的冰棒——汽水、巧克力，還有她一直最喜歡的紅豆牛奶。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuINgoaxrY
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她買了三支。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrl7ko4hXY
汽水，巧克力，紅豆牛奶。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SGgJgTSM8
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在結帳前，她看了一眼角落的抽籤箱。已經想不起，上次中獎是什麼時候了。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLd0yNZcqSA
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老闆娘抬頭看了一眼，還是笑著說：「是要一人一支嗎？」46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4k6gToSN0u
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星野莉奈沒回答，只笑了笑，把找零收好，走出店門。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUyfAr0JLH
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外頭天色已經暗了下來。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgMQXRwLvD
秋天的夜總是來得比預期更快一些，街邊的燈光剛亮，氣溫也驟然轉涼。騎樓前的長椅冷冷的，風帶著落葉打在磚牆上，發出乾乾的刷刷聲。她坐下，拆開紅豆牛奶口味的那一支，慢慢地吃了起來。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0e3RLv7Bsg
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甜味在嘴裡化開，比她記憶中的還要涼一些。不是夏天那種直白的冰，而是像從回憶裡挖出來的——久放在心底，反而更冷的味道。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqMcJIS6ZK
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汽水和巧克力口味的，她都沒動，就放在塑膠袋裡。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUV0tieHBYX
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沒拆，沒碰，就這樣靜靜放著。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrygxcUg5ko
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當她吃完自己的那一支後，夜色已經壓了下來，另外兩隻冰棒也開始融化，包裝紙因為氣溫變化而起了霧。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7P5tWE6ufM
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她沒有丟。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsGTEIYHkJZ
只是讓它放著。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR059ikFbfD
就像曾經的什麼——還沒說完的話、還沒修補的傷、還沒來得及解釋的背影。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtEZCe2hvn
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巧克力冰棒，跟著汽水口味，一路被她握在手裡。融化了，還是一起被冰進冰箱。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7KXrFiP4a
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在把冰箱門關上前，她又看了一次那兩根冰棒。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9rEV1ILuKI
整個屋子只有冰箱燈亮著，白光落在她臉上。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6zA6LcxTdp
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她站在廚房一會兒，才緩緩走到客廳。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvhhMxKJg6
媽媽那張封頂的模特照，依然對著自己微笑——最後走到聚光燈前的那種，沉靜而不喧嘩的笑。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YXxQZhwyi
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——不是妳做錯了什麼，也不是妳不夠好。是這個世界，有時候就是這麼吵、這麼粗糙。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbajsQT4d21
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眼神再次慢慢浮現出微光。她把手機從包包裡拿出來。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosx4f8mosF
訊息還沒回，電話也沒打。但社群軟體已經打開了好幾次。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8likO8381
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不能什麼都不做。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GExAu7eAV
至少，應該先站好自己該站的位置。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINFcR5PgHF
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『小川姐，我已經決定好了，就算不是妳原本安排的選項⋯⋯妳都會替我執行到底的，對嗎？』46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBG0my25sN
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送出，沒等回應。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TdUF0nLTO
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她把自己反鎖在房間裡，抬起頭，看向牆上一張張拍立得——那些被時光暈染的笑臉。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHPf7feoot
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正中央那張，是她和弟弟，一左一右，靠在哥哥身邊，笑得比什麼還要燦爛。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcmtpw0IWg
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『以後我要拿這張照片跟全世界炫耀，這傢伙我小時候就認識。』46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9wTMP6W3B
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她當時這麼說，語氣理所當然、眼神亮晶晶的。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLgDz4ZMlM
可現在，沒有炫耀，也沒有人替她開心。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0F4WCMsyMR
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她的眼眶有點酸，但沒有淚流下來。反而更堅定。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJLMDgEkmV
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【我依然會專注於每一次拍攝、每一個廣告，每一位信任我的廠商，也持續挑戰自己還不擅長的事物。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VUctmgwYA
希望大家能多多支持作品本身。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡna6vU6P0v0
#WorkInProgress #StillLearning #ThanksForCaring】46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzb1PbkbZA
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小川姐，對不起。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8EE9zWCx8
我是鏡頭前的模特兒「星野莉奈Rina」，可是絕不能否認那個在球場上、在堤防邊、三人一起的「星野莉奈」⋯⋯那是我真正的過去，我不能否認。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLnIuo8AHR
我也不要一個從小就討厭鏡頭、從不對媒體多說一句話的人，去替我開口。那不是他會做的事——也不該是他必須做的事。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm96Gbiw4Hw
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她放了一張照片。是攝影師在拍攝空檔抓到的角度。她側坐在窗邊，微微轉頭，眼神柔和，像是正在思考什麼。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwFcp1BIs5
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不是刻意擺拍，也沒有笑容。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2ejKitHNS
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她按下了「發佈」。46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KLi7IOHJy
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