第一部分|計算之外的選擇75Please respect copyright.PENANAWDi5Lo6X8u
(時間點:悠然結婚2年,微瀾告白,兩人開始交往)
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許墨的世界,是黑白的。75Please respect copyright.PENANAuyRLa7rjWZ
他不認為愛情必須如烈火燎原,也不相信命運帶來的選擇會比理性更可靠。75Please respect copyright.PENANA1vSd7cSriM
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當悠然選擇了李澤言,他沒有猶豫,也沒有過度情緒波動,甚至沒有去想「如果」的可能性。75Please respect copyright.PENANAimKL0vEj8J
他清楚自己該做什麼,該如何整理自己的感情,他尊重悠然的選擇。75Please respect copyright.PENANABvaYwAcurO
他會安排好自己未來該待的位置。75Please respect copyright.PENANAnfXt2MciJT
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當他們這群人偶爾在一些場合中遇到,悠然說希望大家都幸福時,他思考的也是如何能讓悠然的這個願望實現。75Please respect copyright.PENANATvF5bvtBX0
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——於是,當微瀾站在他面前,帶著一絲隱忍的勇氣說出「我喜歡你」時,許墨思考了不到幾秒,便做出了決定。75Please respect copyright.PENANALomGMOYUN0
他可以選擇她,因為這樣的選擇並不突兀,也符合邏輯。75Please respect copyright.PENANAmLLphckLqK
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他們熟悉彼此,能夠理解對方,價值觀契合,未來的規劃也沒有衝突。75Please respect copyright.PENANA5NB4HMNs6v
她是理性分析下,最合適的選擇。75Please respect copyright.PENANAu7o8fHfycf
他知道,愛情不是必要條件,只要合適,感情可以培養。75Please respect copyright.PENANAhawEir4ySM
這個決定理智且穩妥,沒有風險,也不會帶來不可預測的變數。75Please respect copyright.PENANAXN8d3rsvDt
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唯一的問題是——75Please respect copyright.PENANAkEJKrjhN7o
他沒有意識到,這並不等於愛。75Please respect copyright.PENANA2lMsQQ4hIH
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第二部分|她一直在試圖說服自己75Please respect copyright.PENANAzaL7CDgqt0
(時間點:交往期間,微瀾尚未決定離開)
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那天,他們一起在沙發上看著老電影。75Please respect copyright.PENANAS9J7c9LFxW
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「你覺得……我們的關係,還不錯吧?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAflVubzkKBL
她不經意地問。75Please respect copyright.PENANAXrAzWUzkbc
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許墨轉過頭,看著她,語氣溫和:「當然。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAPzMQYpwBHo
這是一個再明顯不過的答案,他甚至不明白她為什麼會突然問這種問題。75Please respect copyright.PENANAlKxNxeWjLz
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但微瀾卻微微低下頭,捏了捏手指,笑了笑:「嗯……那就好。」75Please respect copyright.PENANA46XvXet7MF
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那個表情,他直到很久之後才明白,意味著什麼。75Please respect copyright.PENANAP8KK0LyG0h
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她並不是在期待他的回答,而是在試圖說服自己,這段感情是對的。75Please respect copyright.PENANADTImc5MiRN
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她一直在等待著,等待他某天會說出「我愛妳」。75Please respect copyright.PENANAABeBUsny14
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但她卻始終等不到。75Please respect copyright.PENANAkieqznVCYN
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第三部分|真正的缺失75Please respect copyright.PENANAB6BwvU4Oxi
(時間點:微瀾離開後第一年)
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微瀾離開了。75Please respect copyright.PENANA64vZXpaWA0
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許墨原以為,這只是她一時的情緒波動。75Please respect copyright.PENANAKiGVTNwILG
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她曾經也有過低潮的時候,只要給她一點時間,她總會回來。75Please respect copyright.PENANAksVWDSB3OO
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他習慣理性處理問題,以為這次也不例外。75Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3PXgwr0dH
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但當他真正意識到不對勁時,微瀾已經離開很久了。75Please respect copyright.PENANA0WeNItjPyA
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她沒有留下任何東西,沒有聯絡方式,甚至連最後的道別都沒有。75Please respect copyright.PENANAyG9xnApdRS
就連他書桌上的她的筆記本,也消失得乾乾淨淨。75Please respect copyright.PENANA5wXFEJZR7L
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——像是從未存在過。75Please respect copyright.PENANAzIPYBSE3T7
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他試圖回憶,他們最後一次共進晚餐時,她有沒有表現出異樣。75Please respect copyright.PENANA4scM67BOk9
她有微笑,話題也和平常一樣,語氣溫和,甚至還問他:「最近研究進展如何?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAnkHlGab8uT
當時,他只是淡淡地回應:「還不錯。」75Please respect copyright.PENANABabjjNTpT8
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然後呢?75Please respect copyright.PENANAxiQSUdBENg
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她似乎輕輕笑了一下,低頭攪拌著湯匙,沒有再多說話。75Please respect copyright.PENANAzpIwY7ztWv
現在回想起來,那份安靜,是否已經是某種無聲的告別?75Please respect copyright.PENANAjaY9zjUdU7
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許墨的手指無意識地蜷緊,指節用力到有些泛白。75Please respect copyright.PENANAMMEmqtAl27
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他開始翻找所有可能的線索——75Please respect copyright.PENANAFx0tFh1J2m
她的工作郵件,她的研究計畫,甚至連她在公寓的最後一筆水電費紀錄。75Please respect copyright.PENANA4NgalXCODv
他發現,她的辭職申請在她離開的一週前就遞交了,而他卻從未察覺。75Please respect copyright.PENANAt0sXG7DR8J
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這一刻,他才驚覺——75Please respect copyright.PENANAKdi2aO8LSQ
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她或許早已經計劃好要離開,連再與他做告別都沒有,只剩那句話。75Please respect copyright.PENANA5JeWM6rOVh
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許墨,愛情真的不能將就。
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一條條訊息,一頁頁資料,75Please respect copyright.PENANApfQ6LlaxZP
他以往能夠準確掌控的數據,現在卻無法告訴他她去了哪裡。75Please respect copyright.PENANAN6LAwy8ai4
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他試圖推演,她會選擇的去向。75Please respect copyright.PENANAmGkNSIW7Tz
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理論上,她不可能完全斷絕所有聯絡。75Please respect copyright.PENANAyXCXPKSWQo
理論上,她的生活總會留下蛛絲馬跡。75Please respect copyright.PENANAqWuyOK8yeF
理論上……75Please respect copyright.PENANAGOo3hfCQAL
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但這一次,他無法計算出該怎麼挽回。75Please respect copyright.PENANAWEOWUDlKVx
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因為她連「回應」的機會都沒有給他。75Please respect copyright.PENANADHpaz3ZEyk
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她是真的,想要從他的生命裡抽離。75Please respect copyright.PENANAtj8wUtGojC
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這是許墨第一次,發現自己再怎麼推演可能性,結果都不在他的掌控之中。75Please respect copyright.PENANAxHvk4ShsWc
這是他第一次,無法預測一個人會選擇離開他到什麼地步。75Please respect copyright.PENANA57mPqPI7n6
也是他第一次,意識到失去的重量——75Please respect copyright.PENANAYDaA5HbFY1
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不是一時的情緒波動,而是再也無法回頭的結局。75Please respect copyright.PENANAo8j8grkfIE
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他坐在書房裡,指尖抵著眉心,長久的沉默裡,連呼吸聲都變得寂靜。75Please respect copyright.PENANA6IvZE5a6hZ
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她的選擇,他該尊重……吧。75Please respect copyright.PENANAPGKjxbt2Ep
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第四部分|世界從來沒有色彩75Please respect copyright.PENANA1IQSW5LMtW
(時間點:微瀾離開後第二年,許墨開始尋找微瀾)
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他以為,自己已經習慣了沒有顏色的世界。75Please respect copyright.PENANAny2BZYa0m0
他以為,理智架構下的世界,是無需過多的溫暖。75Please respect copyright.PENANAh9VRUD3zkm
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黑白兩色,清楚、簡單。他曾以為,沒有多餘的色彩,世界就能維持理智。75Please respect copyright.PENANAeAfguVhBN7
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直到她離開,他才察覺——75Please respect copyright.PENANAuGCtPsdTUL
原來,黑白之間還有溫度的差別。75Please respect copyright.PENANAAsMpNQYH13
他才發現——這樣的世界,冷得徹骨。75Please respect copyright.PENANADZsGpXcKWR
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悠然曾是他唯一見過的色彩,他以為那就是溫暖的定義。75Please respect copyright.PENANAAIpohah0Wm
但最終,她的選擇不是他。75Please respect copyright.PENANAPSGSrADHMw
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但微瀾……75Please respect copyright.PENANA2XlPKbPasc
她像是水,一點一點滲入他的世界,悄無聲息地產生了溫暖。75Please respect copyright.PENANAZcaqTkD5cl
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她義無反顧,走進許墨的世界,慢慢地、靜靜地,將自己的痕跡留在他的生命裡。75Please respect copyright.PENANAFEmJeRoMrA
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她漸漸地讓他『習慣』了溫暖,她讓他以為這是理所當然的。75Please respect copyright.PENANAAdYuON80s4
直到這份溫暖抽離時,他才發現——習慣,才是最難戒掉的。75Please respect copyright.PENANAVN2275A1IY
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她的存在,不是色彩,而是光——即使世界再黑暗,光總會留下痕跡。75Please respect copyright.PENANAjxVv37weRj
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這一次,許墨終於明白,75Please respect copyright.PENANASrqLRj9Gf0
微瀾之於他,並不是因為「合適」,而是因為——75Please respect copyright.PENANAzHMvyQCmjL
即使她不符合任何條件,他仍然想要她能在自己身邊。75Please respect copyright.PENANA3FmF12f7zO
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第五部分|她回來了,但不是為了他75Please respect copyright.PENANAS8lcKU1ax4
(時間點:微瀾回國後一年,尚未復合)
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微瀾回來了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAX8pqFs7L0K
從蘇硯那邊的進度來看,她應該已經回來一段時間了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAlpuDZEGE6W
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她回來,沒有主動聯繫他。75Please respect copyright.PENANAPQfsIvBkS1
她只是悄然地回到自己的領域裡,重新適應這裡的節奏,就像這三年的離開,從未在她的生活裡留下痕跡一樣。75Please respect copyright.PENANAkft3hBiqQC
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許墨沉默地翻閱著研究報告,指尖輕敲著桌面,視線落在螢幕上,卻沒有真正讀進任何數據。75Please respect copyright.PENANAVhfwi5Tckf
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那天,他聽到外頭的助理們在閒聊:「蘇教授那邊來了個新研究員,聽說是蘇教授的學妹?」75Please respect copyright.PENANACyjip7sZRj
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「是嗎?我今天好像也看到她了……感覺有點眼熟?」75Please respect copyright.PENANApYljYYvD7J
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「不只眼熟吧?之前蘇教授提過,她原本就是這裡的人,只是後來離開了。」75Please respect copyright.PENANA7sqAqNTZfU
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「是嗎?那怎麼又回來了?」75Please respect copyright.PENANA5ZZOvtOi2X
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他聽著這些對話,沒有出聲,卻在某個瞬間停下了手中的筆。75Please respect copyright.PENANAhXmUyLCt99
他的思緒短暫停滯了一秒,然後,將手邊的資料闔上,淡淡地吩咐:「今天的研究報告,稍後再整理送來。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAmbdryepgXT
——是她嗎?她回來了?75Please respect copyright.PENANAXCEi8pMeWT
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那天,辦公室的門被推開的時候,許墨沒有抬頭。75Please respect copyright.PENANACi6Sixgfu7
直到她開口。75Please respect copyright.PENANAbc7Fx4qbEB
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「許教授……還是要叫許墨呢?」75Please respect copyright.PENANA4bgdmbOcsz
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他的手指微微一頓,終於抬起眼,看向門口的人。75Please respect copyright.PENANAoyM0eHv7XH
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她站在那裡,目光平靜,嘴角帶著一抹若有似無的笑意。75Please respect copyright.PENANAkObwyhbRov
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與以前不同,現在的她,少了幾分迷惘,多了某種篤定的氣質。75Please respect copyright.PENANA3rEaSOnjD6
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許墨沉默了一瞬,然後,微微一笑,聲音低而溫和——75Please respect copyright.PENANAlPNsdF6l2B
「都行,妳決定就可以。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAHIHNZxaeJH
「但如果可以的話……」他微微頓了一下,目光落在她身上,語氣輕柔,「喊我許墨吧。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAzak7R0mmH6
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聽到這話,她笑了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAv7XN5REiWF
「好久不見,許墨。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAux22Wy6zkw
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這一刻,他明白。75Please respect copyright.PENANAscZUTCEOti
她的回歸是為了她自己。75Please respect copyright.PENANAqI4VUFffqU
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但沒關係,他會等。