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Meet me at the end / when writing becomes my therapy (1)
ISSUE #1
Author: Jadou
Meet me at the end / when writing becomes my therapy (1)
Author: Jadou
ISSUE #1
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Meet me at the end / when writing becomes my therapy (1)

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Dear Jade 

One day,

You will become

A radiant and dazzling presence

In this world,

Gently and firmly

Lighting up the lives of others.

I know you will,

Because you have

A brilliant inner self—

One you have never seen,

But others have.

They are irresistibly drawn to you,

Just to experience life with you,

Healing their weary souls,

So they can find the strength

To heal the world.

Love, Jade

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   So many questions fill my mind

   Yet no one can give me answers

   So I have to seek them myself

   Even if they will break me

   I’m still eager to learn

   What love really is

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The chill of his jacket

Draws me from my memories

In reality

I see

The stars sparkle in his eyes

As he speaks my name

My traveler’s heart begins to pound

For the first time in a thousand days

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But a bridge cannot stand

If both ends are broken

And that was the night

When we met

Known to our names

Yet unknown to each other

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When the night falls

I start to realize

That love is everywhere

But he’s gone

Leaving me alone amid the shatters

High above, on the rapid’s top 

I can’t walk back

I can’t walk—

As if I’ve lost my legs

And turned to a little mermaid

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But the mermaid

has a tail to swim to the ocean

She has the chance 

To explore the world

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Yet I have nothing

I have nothing left

As all my love has been taken away

I have nothing

 To offer the world

Even as it gently comforts me

whispering 

That it will all be fine

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I should forget

I should leave

I should let go of the past

But I still see him

In my sweet dreams

In my haunting nightmares

In my twisted memories

And in my broken heart

I remember

I still remember everything

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The warmth of his body

Leads me into memories

In the labyrinth

I see

A devil smiling beside him

When he calls my name

My once-calm heart

Trembles uncontrollably

For the first time in a thousand days

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He locks me in a small narrow room

Leaving me in darkness

But he is also kind

For he smiles

As he opens the door for me

And I follow

Becoming his stringed puppet

Unaware of my own name

Unaware of who I am

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The world is vast

Too vast to see

So vast I never want to go home

Then he calls my name

And I follow

walking through torment

 On my own feet

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But I’ve already seen the world

I’ve witnessed its beauty and its ugliness

I can distinguish truth from lies

My room is warm

Yet it holds no laughter

My heart is calm

Yet it is filled 

Only with the sound of anguish 

My heart

Is desperately waiting for redemption

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So I let myself fall

From the world’s highest cliff

For the first time in my life

And someone catches me

With a mighty force I never dreamed of

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He is the one I’ve been longing for

The one who smiles at me at the doorway

But I’m afraid to let him in 

Afraid to love

As those blue eyes

Remind me of the ocean

So I left

Without saying goodbye

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Three hundred and sixty-five days have passed

We never had the chance

To say “hi”

Nor the chance

to see the tears

In each other’s blue eyes

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Three hundred and sixty-five days have passed 

Isn’t it strange

That I still dream of him?

Isn’t it strange

That I still recall 

The scent of his jacket?

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Isn’t it strange

That I still see that boy’s smile

Even after ten years have passed?

I can still see 

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And him sitting by the basketball court

I still remember him sitting beside me

trying to talk to me

but I was so distant

Isn’t it strange

That I cannot stop crying?

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Isn’t it strange

That I still see 

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And who am I?

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Who am I, exactly?

Who are they, truly?

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Should I speak up?

Should I tell them my story

Or remain silent?

Will they catch me when I fall

Or will they push me off the cliff?

Will they flee in panic as I drown

Or will they risk everything 

To pull me out of the water?

Isn’t it strange

That I keep crying because of them?

Isn’t it strange

That I cannot stop crying because of him?

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Who is he, exactly?

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Love is strange

Why does he like me

When he knows nothing about me?

And why does he leave me

When he knows everything?

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Why don't I feel joy 

From those sparkling eyes

That say

‘’You are beautiful”?

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Do I love him?

If I do

Why am I sad?

If I don’t

Why can’t I walk away?

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Why do I care that he’s leaving?

Why can’t I let him go?

Why does it hurt so much

To watch his figure from behind?

Why do we like each other

Yet cannot be together?

What is this feeling of losing someone

Without saying goodbye?

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What is love, exactly?

Why am I afraid to fall in love

Even when my heart yearns for him?

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What is love, exactly?

Why do I see the ones I love in my nightmares?

Why does it ache so deeply

Even when they love me wholeheartedly?

Why do I want to escape

even though they love me so deeply?

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What is love, exactly?

Why does it look like

Pure white of a wedding

And 

A dark black of a funeral?

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Why does it feel like

The softness of a bed sheet

And 

A knife on the chest?

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Why does it sound like

“Goodnight” in the night

And 

“Goodbye” in the daylight?

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Why does it taste like

A drop of water in the desert  

And

The saltiness of the ocean?

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What is love, exactly?

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 Does it smell like

The fresh scent of the forest

Or

The stench of rotten decay from yesterday?

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Does it look like

The hunched figure in the distance

Or 

The brilliant smile in front of me?

Does it feel like

A tight embrace

Or

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What is love, exactly?

Why do I smile

When I say “I love him”?

Why do I cry

When I say “I don’t love him”?

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Is this love?

Or am I sick?

Should I see a doctor

Or am I actually normal?

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I’m sick

The doctor said

“She is very ill”

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Why are they worried when I am happy?

I’m sick

I’m very sick

I’m afraid

To love

I’m crying

When I feel love

and when I cannot feel it

I have to take medication

But it leaves me feeling empty

I don’t want

To live like this

I don’t want him 

To see me like this

I don’t want

To make him sad

I want to make him happy

I want to be his joy and peace

I want to be his home

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But I’m crying 

I’m crying because I can’t tell him 

How much I love him

I’m crying because he has never said

“I love you”

He has never said

“I love you, Jade

I love you so much 

That my heart aches

I have to go, I’m sorry”

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I don’t understand

I don’t understand him

I don’t understand love

I don’t understand people

I don’t understand the world

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I don’t understand

Why you cry when I am happy

Why you laugh when I am sad

Why you smile when I am afraid

Why you shout when I am crying

Why you left me when I needed you

And why, when I don't need you,

Do you come back to me?

Why do you make me

So confused?

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You tell me

That I can become anything I want

So why can’t I be a cloud?

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Why can’t I fly?

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Why can’t I live in the sky

In the woods

Or in the ocean?

Why can’t I be a cat

A bird

Or a butterfly?

Why can’t I be a butterfly?

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Why can’t I fly?

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Why can’t I go anywhere I want to?

Why are you afraid?

Why are you worried?

Why do you love me?

Why do I love you?

Why does seeing your back

Hurt me so deeply?

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What are you thinking, daddy?

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The afternoon sunlight

Caresses her hair

As she tells me a story

The person in her words

Sounds like someone I hate with all my heart

When his figure becomes clearly

My world begins to shatter

For the first time

in a thousand days

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How odd it is

That someone can be both kind and cruel?

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While another person is suffering?

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To deserve parents who love me?

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To lose their parents?

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how unfair the world is

So harsh

Yet so full of wonder?

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I am still able to live happily and joyfully?

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How strange

When I saw her hit her son

I could only watch in silence?

How strange

When she hit me

I could only cry helplessly like a child?

How strange

That the child didn’t cry

Yet I cried for him?

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What is love, exactly?

Why do I cry for him?

Why do I cry for you?

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Why do I feel such pain

When I look into his ocean eyes?

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Why is this world

Both beautiful and cruel?

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Have you ever gazed at 

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And asked who made them become this way?

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I would not exist

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I would never have existed in this world

I love you so much

That I never want to leave

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I’m shattered

I have lost the hands to create

Lost the mouth to speak

I have lost the inspiration to write

Lost the emotions to cry

I have lost the legs to walk

And also the courage to love

My heart

Is like black water

A still

lifeless void

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So I lock myself

In that tiny little room

Accompanied by a demon

who smiles at me kindly yet evilly

And says to me,

"Hello again."

As he closes the door for me

I have become someone

I never wanted to be

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From France to Taiwan

A flight distance of 10,099 kilometers

The demon has never left

He says

No matter where I am

He will always find me

He will always tell me

I don’t deserve to be loved

I don’t deserve to have it all

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 He is evil

But he is also kind

Because every lonely night

He is the one who stays with me

And gently tells me

That everything will be alright

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He is kind

But he is not the owner of my life

This is my life

I am the master

I have the right to decide 

What to do and where to go

And how to find happiness again

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I need no doctors

I need no medicine

I need no treatment

I need no sympathy

I need no jealousy

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I need to create

I need to speak

I need to write

I need to cry

I need to connect

I need to know

I need to know 

That I am not alone

I need to know 

That the world is vast

And in places beyond my sight

there are many others like me

I need to know

That I am not alone

I need to know I am loved

And I can surely love again

Again and again 

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I never wanted to find love

But it found me

In the mist on the sea

Since then

I found the courage

To venture out again

I am no longer afraid of getting lost

Because waiting

Is the most agonizing moment in the world

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But I’m sick

I have to take the medicine

To survive in this cruel world

I want to cry

I want to sing and dance

I want to see him

I want to hold him

I want to tell him

“I love you”

I want to say it gently yet firmly

"I have always loved you"

I miss him

But he will never know

He will never know

Because he’s already gone

I will never be able to tell him

How much I love him

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“You deserve better”

I think those words are unfair

How do you know

What does ‘’better’’ mean for me?

Sometimes

“Better” means an apple

Sometimes

It means a house

Sometimes

All we want

Is love from that one person

That irreplaceable soul

No matter how much ‘’better’’ we might deserve

We just want that unique person

Among all the beautiful people

We just want that ordinary stone

 Among all the shining gems

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I have a soul and a mind

As well as a voice and a body

I have a heart and a spirit

As well as dreams and desires

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I love the world

I never want to leave

I belong to nowhere

But it also means

I belong everywhere

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I want to see the world

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I want to see the world

Just with you

It must be so beautiful

Because I can

Sing loudly when I’m happy

Dance as if no one else exists

And scream so hard

To make the universe shine for us

We can embrace every kind of love in life

Because it already lives

within us

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I love you so much

That I’m smiling

I love you too much

That I’m tearing up

You make me feel beautiful

To be able to laugh

And cry

In every corner of the world

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I don’t know how to stop loving you

I don’t know what the future holds

I don’t know so many things

But I know you

I know I love you

I love you so much

That I never want to leave you

I never want to fly away

I never want to move forward

I never want another love

I just want you

All of you

Or none of you

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I love you to the point where I’m not afraid of change

I’m not afraid

To step out of the room

But I fear letting you come in

Because I know

His shadow

Will torment me every day and night

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You are the most unique person 

In the whole wild world

You are not bad

You are pure gold

You are family

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But I must leave now

Because I have fallen ill

I don't want to make you worry

I don't want to lie to you

I don't want to cry and say

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Even though I'm not fine at all

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I hope I can fly to you60Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJlhQFwwma
I hope I can be your home

But I am trapped

Trapped by my past

By the present

And by the future

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I am trapped by myself

Because the demon is within me

The demon is me

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I am trapped by myself

Because I have never said

“I love you”

I have never said

“I love you, Jade”

“I love you so much that I never want to leave this world”

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I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I love you so much

That I will never leave you

Even if it means 

Suffering all over again

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I love that

You want to cry

I love that

You take the medicine

I love that

You want to learn how to sing and dance

I love

Your crazy laughter 

Your odd movements

Your restless mind

Your immature temper

Your whirlwind emotions

I love your emotions

I love that

You are human 

I love your imperfections

And your perfection

I love everything about you

I’m simply and deeply in love with

Every version of you

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I know

You’ve been hurt

Disappointed

And frustrated

I know

Your heart has been broken

You’ve felt pain

And wanted to give up

But I hope you remember

Remember how much I love you

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I love your honesty

Your kindness

Your compassion

Your vulnerability

And your resilience

I love your true self

And the way you see the world

I love the knowledge you’ve gained from others

And your ability to help them grow

I loved you

I still do

And I will always love you

Even if you forget all of this after next heartbreak

I will still love you

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He says

“When happiness becomes pain

Pain becomes sorrow

Sorrow becomes calmness

Calmness becomes loneliness

Loneliness becomes happiness

And happiness becomes pain again

That is life

Life is short”

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But I refuse to accept it

Because happiness is eternity

When pain becomes part of us

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He also says

“You may never meet true love

You may never find the one

You may never build your home

Or settle down

That is life

Life is bitter”

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But I refuse to accept it

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Just because I haven't seen a desert

Doesn’t mean it doesn't exist

Just because I haven't been in a war

Doesn’t mean it doesn't exist

Just because I haven't experienced true love

Doesn’t mean it doesn't exist

The world is too vast

For such a thing to be impossible

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Isn’t it magic

To see the snow

In the hot summer?

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Isn’t it beautiful

To find a unique gem

Among eight billion people?

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Isn’t it horrible

To witness the war

Between cold hearts?

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Can I be happy?

Can I be content while someone is suffering?

Can I be selfish?

Can I leave this place so that I can love myself? 

Can I ignore things so that I can respect myself? 

Am I selfish?

Can I be brave for myself?

Can I live just once for myself?

Can I come back when I'm hurt?

Will you welcome me when I’m broke?

Will you love me when I have nothing?

Will you love me like I'm family?

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Can you tell me a story?

I’m wondering….

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What is love?

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What does it feel like

To find the right person

Among eight billion people?

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What does it feel like

To have a son or a daughter?

What does it feel like

To be a dad or a mom?

What does it feel like

To love someone 

More than you love yourself?

What does it feel like

To take care of someone

More than you take care of yourself?

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What is love?

Why is it so hard to find

When it’s said to exist

In every corner of the world?

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What is love, truly?

What does it feel like 

To meet the right person

In our lifetime?

Does it truly feel like

That you have the whole world?

Does it truly feel like

A pure love with no sacrifice?

Does it truly feel like

Home?

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I have stories to tell

And a life to cherish

I have choices to make

And questions to answer

I have the world to explore

And people to meet

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I can do it all alone

But I will never laugh sincerely

Without you by my side

I will never sing out loud

Without you listening

I will never speak nonstop

Nor dance wildly

Without you here

I will not be 

Who I am

Without you

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You should know that

It is never easy to find love

Because love speaks

In so many languages

We are born the same

But our environments, experiences

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I love the you who is different from me

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That would be so much fun

I’ll teach you my love language

And you’ll teach me yours

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And every bit of love

Because it is within us

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I know every time I collapse

You will hold me tight

And whisper to me

That how much you love me

That how precious I am to you

That how unique I am to the world

That how many people cry for me sincerely

And that how many people love me wholeheartedly

 I know you will

Because you have a brilliant inner self

That is why

I can’t help but be drawn to you

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You have a soul and a mind 

as well as a voice and a body

 You have a heart and a spirit,

as well as dreams and desires

You have rights and principles

As well as strength and power

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You don’t need someone to complete you

You are already whole

You are more than you think

No matter what others have done to you 

Or said about you

None of it defines 

Who you truly are

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No matter where you go

I will never stop loving you

It doesn’t hurt anymore

Because I’ve seen your soul

It is so beautiful 

That I dared not to touch it

When I had the chance

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I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I love you so much that it scares me

I used to think my life weighed nothing

But now I’m afraid of death

Because I know the regret I’ll have

Will tether me to this world

Keeping me by your side

To see your world

To live your life with you

To witness your happiness

And feel your sadness without me

To hold you tightly as you cry

And whisper gently in your ears

“

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I love you so much 

That I never want to leave you

I love you so much 

That I’ll never leave you

Until the end of your world

I wish I could be your happiness and peace

I wish I could fly to you

I wish I could hold you tightly

I wish I could be your home

I wish nothing but the best for you

Even if I can only love you 

From a distance

“

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We all are chasing one thing

One little thing 

That no one dare to say it out loud

When we have the chance

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So I will tell you

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Tell you I love you

Tell  you I miss you

Tell you what I’m thinking

Tell you I will never leave you

Tell you I will never break your heart

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But I’m sorry that I have to go

I’m sorry that I can’t fly to you

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I have a room to decorate 

And a bridge to repair

I have a story to tell

And a heart to mend

I have people to meet

And problems to solve

I have questions to ask

And truths to discover

I have myself to love

And a family to care for

They are my whole world

Without them

I wouldn’t exist

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But they are not

The owners of my life

I am

I am the master of my life

I can decide what to do and where to go

And how to be great

Even without them by my side

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So go ahead and leave me now

Go chase your beautiful dreams

Go meet your dearest friends

Go find what you truly want

Experience life and meet new people

Let the world see

That you’re thriving without me

Let the world know

That I can carry on 

Holding onto the beautiful memories

We shared 

Even if they are not real

Tell the world

How much you love it

That you never wanted to leave

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When my room is decorated

And my bridge is repaired

I will fly

Fly to nowhere

Fly to anywhere

Fly high

Free from this place

Weightless to the moon

And the endless universe

To see the world

Laid out before me

In ways no word could describe

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I need time

I need patience

 I need effort

I need answers

I’m working hard

To leave this place

And go to meet you

I’m working hard

To earn money

So that I can live in the unfair world

But still

Money cannot buy happiness

When it becomes everything

I don't want money

I just want you

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I loved you

I still do

And it will pain me

If you tell me not to

I don’t know how to control my heart

I’ve tried many ways

To sail to nowhere

To sail to everywhere

But every course

Leads me back to you

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Is this love?

Why does it hurt

When someone tells me it’s not?

Why do I smile

When I speak of your story to the world?

Who are you?

What lies deep inside my heart?

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I LOVE YOU

it’s simple

I LOVE YOU

It’s complicated

Because 

True love is priceless and eternal

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In this world

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So tell me

Tell me you love me

Tell me when you leave

Tell me when you return

Tell me when you have time

Leave me at my best

And return to me at my worst

Love me as you love yourself

Kiss me softly 

as if I were made of glass

And I will whisper gently in darkness

“I love you”

I will let you know

Though I shine for the world

I only wish to glow for you

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Only when we love ourselves enough

Will others be able to love us

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So come closer

See if my bridge is steady

See if one of us might fall

Come closer

In black and white

Don’t be afraid this time

Don’t fear love this time

Because I have finally learned 

What love truly is

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The bridge will never work

If one side is broken

So don’t meet me halfway

Meet me at the end

Meet me at my lowest

Meet me at my best

Meet me in black and white

Meet me in blue and yellow

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Lead me

Lead me to the place

Where we love each other

So deeply 

That we never want to part

Meet me at the end

So it will not hurt 

When we say goodbye

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I’m ready to love again

And I won’t be afraid

To experience another heartbreak

As long as I’m with you

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But I’m not waiting for you

I’m not waiting for anyone

I’ll keep moving forward

Without you

I’m not in pain

Because no matter where you are

I will always love you

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I will always love you

Until the end of my world

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So fly

Fly high

Fly to places where I cannot see you

Shine for the world

And be the light of others

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You should never forget

That you have such a beautiful inner self

And I will always love you

No matter who you are

And where you go

So

Go ahead and leave me

Just promise me

That when your time comes

you will meet me at the end

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Meet me at the end / when writing becomes my therapy (1)
Poetry
Last updated: Dec 23, 2024
Total word count: 3,998
Total reading time: 19 Minutes
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Jadou
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