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再見了262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6aiE0pnPx
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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoh5W3HSq0
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVZZjHLUW1
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWovX9hiz83
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxAqmPve8T
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1sO4gILhq
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGUrbcPWfN
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirrcz4nXKQ
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrGy0LGQCa
One day, I will be killed by myself
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlm4CpBajs0There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWovX9hiz83
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxAqmPve8T
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1sO4gILhq
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGUrbcPWfN
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirrcz4nXKQ
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrGy0LGQCa
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgW6tFtn5y
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhnBSF7Pm4
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJ31YOeW9Q
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHIrNlmUu7
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBdBaBcUgD
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wDcvcmL2n
However, if I really wanted to262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKU5NCkjO5d
I can answer those ramblings262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyG8wRzwAd
As easy as conducting an experiment262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoLVK0wfBV
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjKSPBnU65
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xy1A14lxQ
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xmu7MftR9Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhnBSF7Pm4
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJ31YOeW9Q
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHIrNlmUu7
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBdBaBcUgD
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wDcvcmL2n
However, if I really wanted to262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKU5NCkjO5d
I can answer those ramblings262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyG8wRzwAd
As easy as conducting an experiment262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoLVK0wfBV
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjKSPBnU65
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9xy1A14lxQ
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzbSXFS5ez
"This is all my fault"262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppLhgJSYEf
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9s6ltGPSf7
I have already gone crazy and mad262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aoH8bqGo2
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2vHsa8cXb
"It is alright"262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHKSJrKJzJ
And it became alright for me262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfDjsw4fUx
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEGr4hDRRm
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYPqpeHWP1
Though, does it matter anymore ?262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5gX74hY0n
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitYMXyp9fS
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡND8lrbt9wG
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Am I the weird one here? 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstnZrsNQBB
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla3rWz4kfQ
Am I the wrong one here?262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuwkjPCh8I
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjl47Ddk3u
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECcBnjYwsc
I have already lost it all
262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRf2Nulfto"This is all my fault"262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppLhgJSYEf
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9s6ltGPSf7
I have already gone crazy and mad262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6aoH8bqGo2
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2vHsa8cXb
"It is alright"262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHKSJrKJzJ
And it became alright for me262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfDjsw4fUx
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrEGr4hDRRm
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYPqpeHWP1
Though, does it matter anymore ?262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5gX74hY0n
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitYMXyp9fS
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡND8lrbt9wG
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Am I the weird one here? 262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstnZrsNQBB
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla3rWz4kfQ
Am I the wrong one here?262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuwkjPCh8I
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjl47Ddk3u
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECcBnjYwsc
I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaSmScU5wP
Days without worry and doubts262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4AHQxy2fG
Times that are as pure as crystal clear262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVXZIB7kcz
I was happy before262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QQRxCv7d7
And on that day, when the light went off262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1pqdOola5
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8QqmoU6OF
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrpjksHrAr
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhzXyblZUa
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcpECtxA5z
There was someone who love me262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7t1d8TX4DW
Taught me unconditional love262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRWUbLMv8A
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaSmScU5wP
Days without worry and doubts262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4AHQxy2fG
Times that are as pure as crystal clear262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVXZIB7kcz
I was happy before262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3QQRxCv7d7
And on that day, when the light went off262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1pqdOola5
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8QqmoU6OF
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrpjksHrAr
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhzXyblZUa
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcpECtxA5z
There was someone who love me262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7t1d8TX4DW
Taught me unconditional love262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRWUbLMv8A
She was strong, kind and lovely
And her smile was warm like the sun262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9r1767qzLo
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning262Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTJuTk6IQT
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