晚安了，媽媽194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXIbQRxBwL
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再見了194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3G7JETpUxn
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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1WrkTUZLH
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo038pO9GJP
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztE6KfVKfN
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZ6jhRQJW3
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNJQSEWpff
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZLfbXA5D8
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVKOwCtveI
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4N0vl5DOmG
One day, I will be killed by myself
194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajcLVLM1NvThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡztE6KfVKfN
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZ6jhRQJW3
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrNJQSEWpff
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZLfbXA5D8
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPVKOwCtveI
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4N0vl5DOmG
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnclCP85G1A
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7VugiiTJ9
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGGkLgkDvu
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkry1ZCMety
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnm4GpBpjlc
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatTJutXihJ
However, if I really wanted to194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93BRutuTNU
I can answer those ramblings194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsIdaTZyBR
As easy as conducting an experiment194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGvxQZVuT0
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrvqiXg8uR
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr524gawP13
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
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Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGGkLgkDvu
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkry1ZCMety
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnm4GpBpjlc
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatTJutXihJ
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I can answer those ramblings194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsIdaTZyBR
As easy as conducting an experiment194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGvxQZVuT0
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrvqiXg8uR
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr524gawP13
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNrKdGN81q
"This is all my fault"194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvaqLo2mRq
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYehyVcjMzO
I have already gone crazy and mad194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9J2M54n5I
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWg724tHUw
"It is alright"194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcO0Mc1Mcd
And it became alright for me194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡih74sj5MQo
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7gqs7H0nb
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG01ywdZgd5
Though, does it matter anymore ?194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrZVxNAx99
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuQcyS6nmL
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSiSi7VdYO
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Am I the weird one here? 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeuPXLVgwB
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Am I the wrong one here?194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQewMSNGFVq
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4kZXNYoZ3
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8W8L7tzWyV
I have already lost it all
194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhFiIVkGlG"This is all my fault"194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvaqLo2mRq
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYehyVcjMzO
I have already gone crazy and mad194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs9J2M54n5I
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWg724tHUw
"It is alright"194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcO0Mc1Mcd
And it became alright for me194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡih74sj5MQo
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7gqs7H0nb
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG01ywdZgd5
Though, does it matter anymore ?194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrZVxNAx99
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYuQcyS6nmL
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSiSi7VdYO
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Am I the weird one here? 194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeuPXLVgwB
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Am I the wrong one here?194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQewMSNGFVq
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I have already lost it all
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A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvcbsyCxRN
Days without worry and doubts194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HnDl9HVcZ
Times that are as pure as crystal clear194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ljSuz8xXC
I was happy before194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaNVeEkenJ
And on that day, when the light went off194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljIhAYPKG4
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Taught me unconditional love194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKaRxhJKS3z
She was strong, kind and lovely
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Days without worry and doubts194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HnDl9HVcZ
Times that are as pure as crystal clear194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ljSuz8xXC
I was happy before194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuaNVeEkenJ
And on that day, when the light went off194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljIhAYPKG4
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In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaK3hC7Aup
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Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyFwS71eoo
There was someone who love me194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡin3xKjBtAO
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She was strong, kind and lovely
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I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning194Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJQN3bJPHz
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