晚安了,媽媽258Please respect copyright.PENANALU0RQP3i4d
Good night, mom258Please respect copyright.PENANAuvKeO4dq17
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再見了258Please respect copyright.PENANATlcEQjH6xs
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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了258Please respect copyright.PENANA7JX6TqOKfH
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from258Please respect copyright.PENANAXXhIzwVgSB
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart258Please respect copyright.PENANAezbljHdPFf
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self258Please respect copyright.PENANAS3xnf3aZYi
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"258Please respect copyright.PENANAUrb8gI9eRA
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me258Please respect copyright.PENANAy8CdzVc8mM
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me258Please respect copyright.PENANA11vW9Once6
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes258Please respect copyright.PENANAudaLnk2qXR
One day, I will be killed by myself
258Please respect copyright.PENANADZPeQ9v4LKThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart258Please respect copyright.PENANAezbljHdPFf
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self258Please respect copyright.PENANAS3xnf3aZYi
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"258Please respect copyright.PENANAUrb8gI9eRA
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me258Please respect copyright.PENANAy8CdzVc8mM
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me258Please respect copyright.PENANA11vW9Once6
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes258Please respect copyright.PENANAudaLnk2qXR
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?258Please respect copyright.PENANAtbVrIvpnPv
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again258Please respect copyright.PENANAz5PBbrIM04
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered258Please respect copyright.PENANAtwxVnDcExP
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"258Please respect copyright.PENANAaKA67fiV40
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind258Please respect copyright.PENANA6ndPC6pmPR
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 258Please respect copyright.PENANActTgEZSGnE
However, if I really wanted to258Please respect copyright.PENANAoOiWgbYLwH
I can answer those ramblings258Please respect copyright.PENANAH5oJq4ekpw
As easy as conducting an experiment258Please respect copyright.PENANA54DBRFkOuT
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible258Please respect copyright.PENANAxNCx4Yh5Ul
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning258Please respect copyright.PENANAi1rweNp5j7
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
258Please respect copyright.PENANAg1sEJ7K1h8Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again258Please respect copyright.PENANAz5PBbrIM04
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered258Please respect copyright.PENANAtwxVnDcExP
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"258Please respect copyright.PENANAaKA67fiV40
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind258Please respect copyright.PENANA6ndPC6pmPR
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 258Please respect copyright.PENANActTgEZSGnE
However, if I really wanted to258Please respect copyright.PENANAoOiWgbYLwH
I can answer those ramblings258Please respect copyright.PENANAH5oJq4ekpw
As easy as conducting an experiment258Please respect copyright.PENANA54DBRFkOuT
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible258Please respect copyright.PENANAxNCx4Yh5Ul
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning258Please respect copyright.PENANAi1rweNp5j7
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"258Please respect copyright.PENANAccQHwMAKNy
"This is all my fault"258Please respect copyright.PENANAEXObr7Ck5K
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed258Please respect copyright.PENANAjr3iCEtAuI
I have already gone crazy and mad258Please respect copyright.PENANAwM96X4cCjh
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself258Please respect copyright.PENANAzlZkDbYaRt
"It is alright"258Please respect copyright.PENANA7kDYLGHjs9
And it became alright for me258Please respect copyright.PENANA09BHinjVLe
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them258Please respect copyright.PENANApUURqQVHr4
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path258Please respect copyright.PENANAD7qkNWs2xN
Though, does it matter anymore ?258Please respect copyright.PENANAyvS15DjJIl
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?258Please respect copyright.PENANARnHisRlced
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after258Please respect copyright.PENANAW08wJXeHp9
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Am I the weird one here? 258Please respect copyright.PENANAuDYEfc8VAv
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me258Please respect copyright.PENANAdwhYiA1H46
Am I the wrong one here?258Please respect copyright.PENANA2pUM0I5Cyg
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist258Please respect copyright.PENANAOaIp8LRrXe
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back258Please respect copyright.PENANADG12A3JYON
I have already lost it all
258Please respect copyright.PENANA6W1ELah22y"This is all my fault"258Please respect copyright.PENANAEXObr7Ck5K
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed258Please respect copyright.PENANAjr3iCEtAuI
I have already gone crazy and mad258Please respect copyright.PENANAwM96X4cCjh
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself258Please respect copyright.PENANAzlZkDbYaRt
"It is alright"258Please respect copyright.PENANA7kDYLGHjs9
And it became alright for me258Please respect copyright.PENANA09BHinjVLe
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them258Please respect copyright.PENANApUURqQVHr4
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path258Please respect copyright.PENANAD7qkNWs2xN
Though, does it matter anymore ?258Please respect copyright.PENANAyvS15DjJIl
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?258Please respect copyright.PENANARnHisRlced
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after258Please respect copyright.PENANAW08wJXeHp9
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Am I the weird one here? 258Please respect copyright.PENANAuDYEfc8VAv
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me258Please respect copyright.PENANAdwhYiA1H46
Am I the wrong one here?258Please respect copyright.PENANA2pUM0I5Cyg
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist258Please respect copyright.PENANAOaIp8LRrXe
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back258Please respect copyright.PENANADG12A3JYON
I have already lost it all
Still, the cloudy memory tells me the same story every night258Please respect copyright.PENANA8Ohfgiipwc
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad258Please respect copyright.PENANAVLWGx4i9Sj
Days without worry and doubts258Please respect copyright.PENANAPZCZ63rEAX
Times that are as pure as crystal clear258Please respect copyright.PENANAhLLyZL7Ngk
I was happy before258Please respect copyright.PENANA5qMlGA5Ysf
And on that day, when the light went off258Please respect copyright.PENANALnpPLuchby
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter258Please respect copyright.PENANAWFuO2bPO3o
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer258Please respect copyright.PENANA8BxgC8Q4Sz
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything258Please respect copyright.PENANAblhx0oMttu
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then258Please respect copyright.PENANAgs55hQI54p
There was someone who love me258Please respect copyright.PENANANpITV6R2Ll
Taught me unconditional love258Please respect copyright.PENANAtkHC9e0sLT
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad258Please respect copyright.PENANAVLWGx4i9Sj
Days without worry and doubts258Please respect copyright.PENANAPZCZ63rEAX
Times that are as pure as crystal clear258Please respect copyright.PENANAhLLyZL7Ngk
I was happy before258Please respect copyright.PENANA5qMlGA5Ysf
And on that day, when the light went off258Please respect copyright.PENANALnpPLuchby
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter258Please respect copyright.PENANAWFuO2bPO3o
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer258Please respect copyright.PENANA8BxgC8Q4Sz
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything258Please respect copyright.PENANAblhx0oMttu
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then258Please respect copyright.PENANAgs55hQI54p
There was someone who love me258Please respect copyright.PENANANpITV6R2Ll
Taught me unconditional love258Please respect copyright.PENANAtkHC9e0sLT
She was strong, kind and lovely
And her smile was warm like the sun258Please respect copyright.PENANAwVnljtMcQY
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning258Please respect copyright.PENANAvNxchsR2Tn