晚安了,媽媽260Please respect copyright.PENANANVCp39xBR3
Good night, mom260Please respect copyright.PENANABCZFYMFPRm
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在最接近平安也是最接近瘋狂的器官
裏頭住了一隻蠻不講理的怪物
流著冰冷的血
它正是和理性作對的想法
「反正結果不會改變」
我在打一場毫無勝算的仗
而這個對手日益壯大的同時
堅持下去的決心也在漸漸消逝
理所當然地
反抗著的愚者總有一天會被之殺死吧
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不再期望與作夢的原因是什麼時候忘記的呢
「沒有了生存意義的話
我還是我嗎」
如此類推的自我質疑在心中多不勝數
只是質疑若能得到解答
我也不需要淪落到這等瘋狂
這是一道不可能解答的問題
因為自相矛盾
是矛和盾的偽命題
雖則如此
消極的心底話
自我厭惡轉化而成的自我質疑
的確可以逆轉回去
彷如化學作用的原理
而在沉思的環境下
一靜下來
當情緒沉澱下來
一切也會變得清晰
源於森林的聲音
它們在說什麼
它們的每一言每一語
「這全都是你的錯」
「這全都是我的錯」
其實不難發現
自己為什麼一直在為難自己
瘋了
我早已瘋了
我的思維早已被創傷侵佔
我無法分辨什麼選擇能夠拯救自己
抑或是兩者之間有什麼分別
黑和白
生和死
正義不正義
反正是一樣
結果會是一樣
反正無論怎選擇
結局也只會有一個
我這樣想法奇怪嗎
還是說這樣子想才正常
才合乎理論
畢竟命運和自由只有一者可以存在
而我確實是瘋了
記得那時
在我還沒有瘋掉的時候
簡單不過的日子
在我還未擁抱無知的時候
我曾經幸福過
然後那天來了
連冬天和夏天也判斷不到
究竟錯的是我
還是錯在這個夏天會下雪的世界
我會說大概是太寒冷的問題
記得
曾經有一個為我不惜一切的人
她是這麼溫柔這麼堅強
是這麼溫暖
她的笑容
她的懷抱在記憶中如此深刻
只是醒來後身體有點僵冷了260Please respect copyright.PENANAGXbQGF9nPJ
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Within the flesh which lies on the long bed, which dips toward the shadow of chaos and peace was absent from260Please respect copyright.PENANAVxkbG16YlK
There was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart260Please respect copyright.PENANAt874LGEcbj
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self260Please respect copyright.PENANAhLeixoDcm4
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"260Please respect copyright.PENANAlP3QRV48F5
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me260Please respect copyright.PENANAqVpGOQQHsH
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me260Please respect copyright.PENANA62x3MdoraP
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes260Please respect copyright.PENANA2RbNClVZrz
One day, I will be killed by myself
260Please respect copyright.PENANABNY0Ro2CYeThere was a raging monster that knows nothing but the word "cruel" with all its vile heart260Please respect copyright.PENANAt874LGEcbj
The cold-blooded beasts was the vicious voice that killed my rational self260Please respect copyright.PENANAhLeixoDcm4
Keep yelling to me, "Nothing will change despite your pain"260Please respect copyright.PENANAlP3QRV48F5
It is a losing battle that I must fight, yet the nightmare of that day always frightens me260Please respect copyright.PENANAqVpGOQQHsH
Acknowledging that one day I will eventually succumb to the madness breed inside me260Please respect copyright.PENANA62x3MdoraP
As this dreamland is only fertile for necrotic thoughts but not dandelions of hopes260Please respect copyright.PENANA2RbNClVZrz
One day, I will be killed by myself
When did I forgot to remember to forget ?260Please respect copyright.PENANA5bQ9YELYHu
Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again260Please respect copyright.PENANARuPtKCXNAU
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered260Please respect copyright.PENANAjKLHSKkuW4
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"260Please respect copyright.PENANAQ10iEs5ZrU
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind260Please respect copyright.PENANAcDnMBTscT8
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 260Please respect copyright.PENANAoXUWIH9OXd
However, if I really wanted to260Please respect copyright.PENANA2xU6WYlAhi
I can answer those ramblings260Please respect copyright.PENANA7DWza893L6
As easy as conducting an experiment260Please respect copyright.PENANAybW2laUBtv
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible260Please respect copyright.PENANAnPH2ROruSc
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning260Please respect copyright.PENANAP11JJJedjQ
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
260Please respect copyright.PENANA2QMWx7FID2Forget to reason with myself to never dream again, never wish again260Please respect copyright.PENANARuPtKCXNAU
Yet, the true question which kept me away from the wonderland was never answered260Please respect copyright.PENANAjKLHSKkuW4
"Does one who loses their purpose to live on, count as losing themselves as well?"260Please respect copyright.PENANAQ10iEs5ZrU
Meaningless questions such as these exists only to fill the empty space of my mind260Please respect copyright.PENANAcDnMBTscT8
Stuffed my brain to avoid giving room for insanity to take root 260Please respect copyright.PENANAoXUWIH9OXd
However, if I really wanted to260Please respect copyright.PENANA2xU6WYlAhi
I can answer those ramblings260Please respect copyright.PENANA7DWza893L6
As easy as conducting an experiment260Please respect copyright.PENANAybW2laUBtv
Reminding myself of chemical reaction can be reversible260Please respect copyright.PENANAnPH2ROruSc
My self-hatred can be reversed back to self-questioning260Please respect copyright.PENANAP11JJJedjQ
I can listen to the sound of truth, echoing from the depths of the forest
"This is all your fault"260Please respect copyright.PENANAu3yTPK5c3w
"This is all my fault"260Please respect copyright.PENANAOXW8sFBJro
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed260Please respect copyright.PENANAigPHJudLSX
I have already gone crazy and mad260Please respect copyright.PENANATEUY2idiF0
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself260Please respect copyright.PENANAqi520MU94l
"It is alright"260Please respect copyright.PENANAcsjxb4Tg6n
And it became alright for me260Please respect copyright.PENANAWVXIohTNK7
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them260Please respect copyright.PENANArYYkIPW6Iv
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path260Please respect copyright.PENANALGJzEPnVvT
Though, does it matter anymore ?260Please respect copyright.PENANAgB6v0OOvID
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?260Please respect copyright.PENANAmpq3xnlYKB
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after260Please respect copyright.PENANAAHfMOXtvmm
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Am I the weird one here? 260Please respect copyright.PENANADciY00c8z0
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me260Please respect copyright.PENANAAZq2dNC1t5
Am I the wrong one here?260Please respect copyright.PENANAEe6fHNxbBK
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist260Please respect copyright.PENANAvFw4Xr5aKU
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back260Please respect copyright.PENANAk78tH6BBqJ
I have already lost it all
260Please respect copyright.PENANAlrFBXvtPm1"This is all my fault"260Please respect copyright.PENANAOXW8sFBJro
The results was always there, which I just swept it under the bed260Please respect copyright.PENANAigPHJudLSX
I have already gone crazy and mad260Please respect copyright.PENANATEUY2idiF0
As trauma devoured my sanity and heart, the pain was so unbearable I lied to myself260Please respect copyright.PENANAqi520MU94l
"It is alright"260Please respect copyright.PENANAcsjxb4Tg6n
And it became alright for me260Please respect copyright.PENANAWVXIohTNK7
With the cost of the ability to tell what is right or wrong, to decide what is justice and sins, to see what is the difference between me and them260Please respect copyright.PENANArYYkIPW6Iv
My says in choices were all it takes to continue on this lonesome path260Please respect copyright.PENANALGJzEPnVvT
Though, does it matter anymore ?260Please respect copyright.PENANAgB6v0OOvID
If the past, the present, and the future was already well decided back then ?260Please respect copyright.PENANAmpq3xnlYKB
As my author said, I could not live happily ever after260Please respect copyright.PENANAAHfMOXtvmm
260Please respect copyright.PENANABrfqeF9n5A
Am I the weird one here? 260Please respect copyright.PENANADciY00c8z0
Please tell me, or is it just the voice inside my head trying to play tricks on me260Please respect copyright.PENANAAZq2dNC1t5
Am I the wrong one here?260Please respect copyright.PENANAEe6fHNxbBK
Thinking that "Freedom" and "Fate" are not things that can coexist260Please respect copyright.PENANAvFw4Xr5aKU
Please help me, since nothing I can do can bring my senses back260Please respect copyright.PENANAk78tH6BBqJ
I have already lost it all
Still, the cloudy memory tells me the same story every night260Please respect copyright.PENANAf3b5ecjZ3n
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad260Please respect copyright.PENANA5dUDcL1PKj
Days without worry and doubts260Please respect copyright.PENANAsw3F8LXils
Times that are as pure as crystal clear260Please respect copyright.PENANAvs08PjWf57
I was happy before260Please respect copyright.PENANABngSo3a1Ca
And on that day, when the light went off260Please respect copyright.PENANAYuyT6oROQH
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter260Please respect copyright.PENANAX0BV22YGKx
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer260Please respect copyright.PENANAnWUaBCpgc2
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything260Please respect copyright.PENANAxOqs5ui47y
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then260Please respect copyright.PENANAoIL4YkN3Pc
There was someone who love me260Please respect copyright.PENANALPghJFF96n
Taught me unconditional love260Please respect copyright.PENANAztLPxn4A11
She was strong, kind and lovely
A fairy tale set long before the time I had gone mad260Please respect copyright.PENANA5dUDcL1PKj
Days without worry and doubts260Please respect copyright.PENANAsw3F8LXils
Times that are as pure as crystal clear260Please respect copyright.PENANAvs08PjWf57
I was happy before260Please respect copyright.PENANABngSo3a1Ca
And on that day, when the light went off260Please respect copyright.PENANAYuyT6oROQH
And when you cannot tell whether it is summer or winter260Please respect copyright.PENANAX0BV22YGKx
In that ridiculous world, where it snows in summer260Please respect copyright.PENANAnWUaBCpgc2
I forgot whose fault it was for me to lose everything260Please respect copyright.PENANAxOqs5ui47y
Thus I guess I will just foolishly blame the terrible weather then260Please respect copyright.PENANAoIL4YkN3Pc
There was someone who love me260Please respect copyright.PENANALPghJFF96n
Taught me unconditional love260Please respect copyright.PENANAztLPxn4A11
She was strong, kind and lovely
And her smile was warm like the sun260Please respect copyright.PENANAlTvDC00cqY
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
I wished to wake up in her embrace every morning
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Yet her hands were cold that morning260Please respect copyright.PENANABSAKO4CWfO