I'm a horrible person.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSysDOBKTOy
Anti-hero, my ass. If I was a person reading this, I'd think that anyone who'd support the writer of this diary would be crazy. Despicable.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERnmpYxEb3
After all, I've ruined many lives. Broken up families. Hurt an unfathomable amount of people. There are even people that have taken their lives as a result of my actions.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ArFsF3G5r
But I don't feel anything for them.
It was fun at first, you know.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jeKKhEy9d
It's nerve-wracking. Exhilarating. The echoes of screaming. Distorted faces.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOr2QNGRFan
Projecting the faces of people I know onto the victims.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsl4qtk4oSz
Seeing people beg for mercy. A power trip, you might call it.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aNaR7XLEI
Have you ever had someone at your complete mercy? With their body under your foot, telling you to spare them at any cost. They would do anything.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2FFtunTDk
Feeling your fist connect with someone's gut. A crowd of people watching you, yet powerless to do anything.
It was my life. I would spend most, if not all of my spare time planning how I would be able to rise up the ranks. Get more media on me. My character.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aLLt4nBIz
I can't help but grin when I overhear people talking about me in person.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSN8qAGIhK
When I read the comments under compilations of my appearances.
But it's tiring.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcQA3hA8Yb
The constant hate. The fear of being watched. The fear of being discovered.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlH8xG9ATT
I don't usually say much, but when we're talking about something I'm passionate about, I won't stop.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2ISBbBhpy
Naturally, I'm grateful they put a curse on me so that I don't accidentally blabber confidential information about villains.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jqvQACfDF
But as heroes and villains are common topics of discussion, it's easy for me to get carried away. And after that happens, the anxiety hits.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHE1XASNMH
What if they figured out my identity? What if they realise how despicable I am?386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvb81BDYjb
I can't talk to them again. It's too dangerous.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwFTayWGJG
Call it an irrational fear, but I can't help it.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHS0OCU8rG2
Sometimes I wonder why they picked me when I knew what I was doing was wrong. Well, I guess it's better than those who flaunt their crimes.
And gradually, I numbed myself to humanity.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJuYxiXqV2
Those aren't humans. They're disgusting lumps of meat. They don't have a will of their own. Look, how they're squirming beneath my feet, promising to disown their children in order to stay alive. How one leaps in front of the other to finally die and be remembered as a hero despite living a life that can only be described as trash beforehand.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHwhZ5n42s
If I hated humans before, I came to despise them with all my being.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aX89l67Gy
Hope for humanity? Don't be ridiculous. Heroes don't exist. They're just garbage, like you and me, parading as luxury goods, made to capitalise and give false hope.
I'm tired of all this. Of being reminded of how revolting humans are.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMN3mTec3vD
Of being lonely.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBPC1VCnoU
Pathetic, right? Even though I think like this, I'm lonely. It's not something I'd like to admit. I'm always alone, so you'd think I'd be accustomed to it. And in most cases, I prefer to be alone. But I can't help but feel lonely sometimes.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HhDeI4L0o
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So I take comfort in my own world.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlADWIrGif
If the Organisation doesn't want me, then no one would want me.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsOc31FDeB
I joined hoping that I'd be of some help to society despite being a loser, only to lose what little faith I had left in the world.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9sXra3dSVV
Truly, I deserve to be called a villain in all aspects.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMVzfy4DHf
I hope you're happy. I hope the heroes are happy. I hope the higher-ups are happy.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfRWfBhQFv
Or maybe I hope that the world ends tomorrow and we all get what we deserve.
The power of friendship, the happy life that's always being portrayed in mainstream media doesn't exist. It's all lies.
I tried, you know. I tried hard. I had perfect attendance in school. I did well in tests. In sports. But why? Why can't I bring myself to try hard for anything now? All that's left for me is to be the villain. With no one on my side my whole life.
You don't need to pity me. The families I've ruined sure don't.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7DdYwBc3x
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I can't keep doing this forever. I'll have my memories erased, and then what? I'll just keep being unwanted. I'll barely pass my studies. Get a mediocre job that I despise. A quiet life that made no impact. I was raised to be "special", but I'm not even special to one person.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oCizXESKI
Why does a part of me keep screaming to be recognised?386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHd9FwxfSO
If only I could have been more dedicated. If only I could work harder. If only I had a dream.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhHM90zIWu
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What would it be like as a hero? To have people not looking up to me from beneath my feet, but from respect and admiration? To have cheers whenever you walk by instead of when you're defeated and humiliated? But I can't even handle the expectations of my parents, much less the expectations of the whole public.
I can't even be a proper villain. A villain wouldn't have thoughts like these, right? They wouldn't even be writing something like this in the first place.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzn8sM4REl
I can't be a normal human being. I can't be a hero nor a villain.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwrKMtogfd
I shouldn't even have been born.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkstwjGKami
The Organisation didn't even need to pick me; surely there are so many people out there who're better at being the villain than me.
Ah, well, whatever. It doesn't matter anyway.386Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5D5rKobRpy
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