Chapter I: One Desperate Lover336Please respect copyright.PENANA0jZFJ8h1Sz
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April 2020
"Roses are red, violets are blue, I smile all day, because of you!" The young Kaduk enthusiastically said, But.. what response did he get? clearly, nothing! The young man desperately looked at his phone's screen and let a sigh out.336Please respect copyright.PENANAqVpBBkNu6d
"Lord, for how long does she want to ignore me? For how long should my soul be tortured? Isn't three years of suffering enough? What have I done to deserve this all?"336Please respect copyright.PENANAlYeIv4VEzE
He knew what he had done. In the depth of his heart, he knew that he was not the innocent man everyone thought him to be.336Please respect copyright.PENANAHv25UxfIY2
Feeling desperate and miserable, Kaduk did reach for his drawer, grabbed a pen, and started to write:336Please respect copyright.PENANA0uM2MpqugB
Alas... the man's tears can't be released from his chest336Please respect copyright.PENANAXdqfOaTSEa
Alas... his fruits never riped even tho he did his best336Please respect copyright.PENANAv2MKhWBdA9
Alas.... he never gave up on his thoughts336Please respect copyright.PENANAXnsxJOdnVR
Alas.... cause he gave it in and fought336Please respect copyright.PENANAWELfD3Q6S4
Alas... sorrows of the young man were never heard336Please respect copyright.PENANAmzKjvIDaGk
Alas.... he messed it all up and no one even cared336Please respect copyright.PENANA2tfv6Ay3WK
Alas... he climbed the rock all up to his fate336Please respect copyright.PENANAgpllFEdABa
Alas... & never knew he has no man but his mate336Please respect copyright.PENANA8Eh0cDJEHg
Alas... poor man was surrounded by emotion336Please respect copyright.PENANAmcnuJK2l5n
Alas... he was yet waiting for a motion336Please respect copyright.PENANAJz6sXD5Fqr
Alas... all he had was just his hope336Please respect copyright.PENANAsJUXlTl3iF
Alas... & what he got was a nope...336Please respect copyright.PENANAIc7cADI7nH
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"To send or not to send? That was the question!" He started struggling with himself, sending this poem to his beloved one could make everything even worse but... what did he have to lose anyway?336Please respect copyright.PENANAeNd4rGP4EQ
Who would ever imagine Kaduk, this humble but furious captain of FC Arman, a man who never cared about relationships, a pure virgin, falling in love like that?336Please respect copyright.PENANAyG89zxnGG3
Ever since he met Karnastiya, he faced a revolution in his heart and mind. He was not the man he used to be.336Please respect copyright.PENANA0PXTNvxzMI
For his heart and mind were stolen by one gorgeous, sweet, smart, and also an arrogant girl who was indeed far-fetching to impress.336Please respect copyright.PENANAjhVAlaApXU
Hours, days, and months passed by but there was no sign of success ahead.336Please respect copyright.PENANAEvpCJWDQ1o
His heart eagerly wanted him to keep going and not give up on impressing Karnastiya while his brain advised the opposite. But what was the best decision he could make?336Please respect copyright.PENANARfOxTxEOX1
Thus, continued the deadly combat between heart and logic...336Please respect copyright.PENANAxszlqo256y
With his tears dripping, Once again, he reached for his phone but on second thought, he put it back on the desk.336Please respect copyright.PENANADX8zWrqg08
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Chapter II: When it all began336Please respect copyright.PENANAzX7Rppn5IF
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November 2017
That was a mood-boosting rainy evening. The air was getting cold and winter was becoming easier to behold.336Please respect copyright.PENANAa1FprAHHVw
Business as usual, Kaduk was drinking a latte, surfing the net in the meanwhile.336Please respect copyright.PENANAKca9NG05jR
"Ah, someone has visited my profile, let's see who it is...336Please respect copyright.PENANAeCzMPHTdMG
Well, Her name is Karnastyia from Ukraine, hm, and she studies Persian literature. That's very interesting indeed!"336Please respect copyright.PENANAJz6RsL2UlJ
Possessing similar interests in history, literature, and video games, he decided to send her a message. This warm-hearted man was always eager to help those who wanted to learn the Persian language.336Please respect copyright.PENANAN0ffW965qD
"Good Evening Karnastiya, Thanks for visiting my profile. My name is Kaduk, just like you, I study literature, and of course, I'm in love with history! I will be truly glad if you grant me the honor to get to know more about you. Besides, don't hesitate to ask me if you might ever need help with your Persian studies :)"336Please respect copyright.PENANAqwkX0KwzbM
His high school studies were slowly coming to an end. However, Kaduk never wanted this to happen! He would definitely miss his classmates, teachers, and even Mr. Kazaki, the angry old man who was in charge of managing the school.336Please respect copyright.PENANAEDKGjsoP4p
Life was indeed peaceful and, beautiful. But we never know what expects us the next day. One day, when we don't expect it at all, the parrot of love sits in our hearts, building a nest.336Please respect copyright.PENANAKLGH3yXuqn
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February 2018336Please respect copyright.PENANAupLib6RgVx
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Having a wide smile on his face, he quickly reached for his phone and started writing an email to his old friend.336Please respect copyright.PENANAVqeP3Z8ZXS
"Dear Sandra, can you imagine? I mean, just, I don't know how to describe this godly creature. It's been a few months since I met a young lady whose name is Karnastiya. She is from Ukraine, just like you! I feel like I can never live a single day in her absence. With that much joy, she's brought to my life. We even play games together and guess what? She says that she wants to visit Tehran in the upcoming summer! She's someone I can talk to about anything that pops up in my mind.336Please respect copyright.PENANAVjmTL3CeuF
When she speaks, I can't stop smiling or sometimes I even laugh. One might think I'm crazy or something but let it be, isn't it how falling in love is?336Please respect copyright.PENANACeEDO9h65W
It's truly one of the most joyful feelings that have ever existed in the history of humankind.336Please respect copyright.PENANABvLgQGFdU6
I'll write to you again soon. Please take good care of yourself!"336Please respect copyright.PENANA8lHRsd5m8r
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June 2018336Please respect copyright.PENANA3tdIbyEiDO
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"She has just revealed that she's interested in someone, ah, it was like an arrow in my chest, a fiery arrow that ruthlessly burns the man's heart. To be honest, I can't breathe... just don't know what to do. I can't give up on her. Even if she has given her heart to somebody else! Yes, I will wait, but I won't tell her anything.336Please respect copyright.PENANARDjNt0uDJf
I know it might all be immoral, but how can I stop loving her? you know, dear Sandra, it's the first time ever that I feel like this, the first time that I am truly in love. I know it might sound stupid, but I will wait for as long as I need to. Who knows, perhaps, one day she'll realize that nobody loves her as much as I do!"336Please respect copyright.PENANA81wpSNWoVY
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December 2018336Please respect copyright.PENANAbgy8OCxB0E
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"Sandra, It's been already two weeks since I had a conversation with her and she has been offline since then. We were discussing a new movie and she suddenly disappeared. I'm nervous and stressed out.336Please respect copyright.PENANAVEoSQjvnsH
I remember some disputes had erupted in their relationship but I don't think it was that serious and I hope not! I just hope she's alright because I never want to see her sad. Even if it means that I'll have to keep her love in my chest and seal my lips forever!"336Please respect copyright.PENANAJ8E3yg8Rq6
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Chapter III: The Year of Desolation336Please respect copyright.PENANANnVGqIdJ4P
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July 2019336Please respect copyright.PENANAmblLAmq2ro
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"Doroha Sandra, it's been months since she went into the dark. I'm really nervous. What has happened to her? May the Lord himself protect her.336Please respect copyright.PENANA79lnsmYRS8
I just can't stop thinking about her. You might not believe but I even see her in my dreams in which, she's often silent. Once, she was sitting among sunflowers, looking at me with a smile on her sweet lips, however, she did not say a single word.336Please respect copyright.PENANA272Tty6vFy
The other time, we were somewhere near an abandoned workshop. I asked if I can hug her but she wanted me to enter the workshop and kill five cockroaches first. I know it might sound ridiculous but well, it is what is it. I managed to kill four cockroaches and damn, I woke up and failed to hug her. That was such a deep sense of frustration! Why can't we live in our dreams?"336Please respect copyright.PENANA2jBExahmCh
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October 2019336Please respect copyright.PENANAu9gM2rnvgZ
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"She's back! I can't believe this, Sandra, but the wait is finally over! what's more joyful than seeing your beloved one again? after nearly a year? My friend, I can't describe my excitement. It's truly a heavenly joy, given by God himself to enlighten my soul.336Please respect copyright.PENANAwkBTSGV4af
She said that she broke up with her boyfriend some months ago. Well, that was to be expected as I could see how nervous and upset she was back in late 2018.336Please respect copyright.PENANAsaBtci5ZBv
I even told her about my feelings, yes! I know it was kinda stupid to immediately jump on this topic but I couldn't hide my excitement and love anymore.336Please respect copyright.PENANAuUgEJd8nEw
However, I didn't get the answer I was hoping for. Alas, there's someone in her life.336Please respect copyright.PENANACDG8AHgfLg
I do feel like a concrete wall has collapsed on me..."336Please respect copyright.PENANAf2XkxDjgKC
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November 2019336Please respect copyright.PENANAtsjKkgip8X
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"What happens that one loses interest in one else? How those of the people who would hang out and chat every day and night, suddenly start to communicate less and less. It's been always one of my questions. As a random dude says: There are several continents and billions of humans but you lose your heart to exactly the one who doesn't have the same feelings for you.336Please respect copyright.PENANAf1LVOGmG88
The philosophy of life is indeed something complicated and uneasy to understand for us ordinary people.336Please respect copyright.PENANAfas3uDf52O
Yes, as you might have already guessed, it's been a while since I haven't had a chance to talk to her. In fact, I often find her online but I don't get any responses. However, I do know that I'm guilty of all this. Perhaps, I had a chance to impress her but lost it due to being too careless in expressing my ideas, thoughts, and feelings.336Please respect copyright.PENANAkE5ELEQbfR
It's surely understandable that I have pushed her away from myself. When I take a deeper look at it, I realize that she might have no reason to feel something for me and as I said, it's logical.336Please respect copyright.PENANA8dOdrWh1Ed
You can never impress someone if you fail to present yourself in a proper way.336Please respect copyright.PENANAoR5PQ2hlXW
I don't think I would love myself if I were in her shoes, definitely not!"336Please respect copyright.PENANAkSrLm0n48w
That being said, the young man decided to fade away, having no hope of winning Karnastiya's heart, Kaduk went into the dark for a while, trying to make the wrong things right in his life and make a much better version of himself. So that, who knows, perhaps he would have a chance to strike back!336Please respect copyright.PENANARhggsgXVYb
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Chapter IV: The Matter of Life and Death336Please respect copyright.PENANAlvMXqpGssZ
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"Dear Sandra, you must forgive me for not contacting you for more than a year. I understand that you might be really angry at me but to tell you the truth, I needed to stay away from social media. I really needed to have some peace of mind!336Please respect copyright.PENANAkzQhSpzt9z
Thanks to the Lord, I've made some good progress in my life. Now I'm a teacher and I have my own car! I call him "Busphalas". It's a glorious name, is it not?336Please respect copyright.PENANAjSQIfDkn4Q
Aside from that, I have started to play soccer again. Our team continues to smash all the opponents. How joyful it is!336Please respect copyright.PENANAAUjXB5i2pf
It was not easy to stop thinking about Karnastiya. She would constantly appear in my night dreams but I did it! I try not to think about her anymore. Though, I must confess that in the depth of my heart, something still loves her...336Please respect copyright.PENANANRsqp1yTLk
I shall contact you soon, please take care!"336Please respect copyright.PENANA2idrH4kaIT
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January 2022336Please respect copyright.PENANALlPIcRLitv
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"I could not bear this anymore. It's been more than a year already. Well, I know it was a stupid move but I called her. Hearing her sweet voice was such a heartwarming blessing. My eyes were wet and butterflies were flying in my heart. But I knew that she will slip away again so I wasn't surprised when she disappeared after a couple of days.336Please respect copyright.PENANAFT2XXQZFfO
Perhaps it was my fault again. Perhaps I was not able to keep her interested in conversing with me..."336Please respect copyright.PENANAXJWauHoRD2
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March 2022336Please respect copyright.PENANAbGzQdbETVQ
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"Who would ever imagine such a full-scale invasion happening in the twenty-first century?336Please respect copyright.PENANAuLBaOlzosT
Well, we all know what's happening in Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan, and many other parts of the world but a full-scale invasion? that's a new drama in this century.336Please respect copyright.PENANAUl7bwb2u5n
Please take good care of yourself, Sandra. You know how precious you are to me. Keep me updated on your well-being!336Please respect copyright.PENANAV2X669Dg9E
I had a phone call with Karnastiya. Thanks to the Lord, she's alright. I had never been as nervous as I currently am in my entire life. What if something bad happens to her?336Please respect copyright.PENANAiPIn9Ki4gB
It's not easy to have phone calls with her but I shall keep trying.336Please respect copyright.PENANAI4ZwjT5jxv
Stay safe, Sandra!"336Please respect copyright.PENANAjSflhNOxUN
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April 2022336Please respect copyright.PENANAKxjlCFINGO
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"My dear friend, the time has come and I have made my decision! I have applied to join the volunteer division so I shall meet you soon in Kyiv Oblast.336Please respect copyright.PENANAmSLWVDXoqa
I am having the hardest times of my life. How can I put everything I have, my family, and my loved ones behind and move to the other side of the world, putting my life at risk?336Please respect copyright.PENANAXPqEtbt9Ru
But something in the depth of my heart is telling me that everything will be alright and I will survive! Yes, I have absolute faith in this!336Please respect copyright.PENANA6AUBWzF3sg
Besides, I do have to protect her, how can I leave her alone? She needs me more than ever. She might not even care about my existence but I do, I do care about her!"336Please respect copyright.PENANA1yvQu4OdGr
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Chapter V: The End of an Era336Please respect copyright.PENANAUisiYv0nrs
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May 2022
"I was hoping to be assigned as one of the defenders of Kyiv so that I could protect her but... I was wrong! We were dispatched to reinforce Mariupol instead and things are just horrible here.336Please respect copyright.PENANAVsl0KuYsFV
There are wounded soldiers and civilians everywhere. Meanwhile, we are low on medical and food supplies...336Please respect copyright.PENANARJfY15T64x
I hope God will show us mercy because the Russian artillery is bombarding the city nonstop. There's no way out and now the city is fully under siege.336Please respect copyright.PENANAH7SXpF6GBF
I shall confess that I'm scared... But Sandra, what's nicer than dying for your beloved girl?336Please respect copyright.PENANAL2Q1OewBTk
Last night I started to write some verses but I failed to finish them, I felt desperate...336Please respect copyright.PENANAqaVoXNYpY8
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Nastiya... you, who walk in the ruins of the fallen land, arise!336Please respect copyright.PENANAUy3pXHrQua
Nastiya... your green eyes are what, day and night, are seen in the skies!336Please respect copyright.PENANAhTosPxW3aU
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I am afraid without serious action, there will be even darker days ahead of us.336Please respect copyright.PENANAzNuvS8ObRE
People have high hopes here, there's still some hope to break the siege and find a way out so we must not give up just yet. Nobody wants to surrender here, absolutely nobody!336Please respect copyright.PENANAm4lERH8wgO
I tell you, my friend, these people are so brave!336Please respect copyright.PENANAC5F7N7AyZA
In less than an hour, comrades and I will attempt to break the siege and find some supplies.336Please respect copyright.PENANALkcSL4WoWp
I promised Commander Radzinsky to not disappoint him. We need medicine or we will lose some of our best comrades.336Please respect copyright.PENANAPZU1MzLJlK
Yes, I am scared but I got no choice, I have to give it my all!336Please respect copyright.PENANAdwWBwdP1u2
You may not hear from me again because nobody knows if we will make it or not, but please tell her why I did this.336Please respect copyright.PENANAMk3PPS6GMZ
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God be with you336Please respect copyright.PENANAlB1wadVcPg
Kaduk"336Please respect copyright.PENANA7jDjmTp7VM
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And for months, what happened to this passionate lover, Kaduk, remained a mystery.336Please respect copyright.PENANARtF7QHeM5x
Until on a windy afternoon, a one-handed man, carrying his rifle was seen, wandering in an abandoned village near Bila Tserkava...336Please respect copyright.PENANAxXjxTcRZvy
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