As crazy as it seemed, I wanted to go back inside. Even after all I went through, going back was looking more and more appealing. The outside world was just too different for me to handle. 1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOTYerysrXl
My cube is all i'd ever known.
There was so much. Just too much. I couldn't deal with it. 1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq7NqujnsxA
My body froze up and I looked around for any sign of danger. My senses became more sensitive as I grew more parenoid. I had no idea what I was getting into. And I had no idea how traumatizing it would be. I just had to be free.
I had no idea there would be crisp white snow that painfully recalled memories that I had buried deep inside my mind. 1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzhSD2DamO
Memories of perfect white lab coats. 1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVU8LEvhGa
'White cloth walking just out of reach from my bound hands, coldly looking at me from afar.'1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapfdY6BtYB
Memories of blue gloves that smelled of the unpleasant combonation of rubber and disinfectant. 1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLnEk3IPr8
'Blue fingers reaching out to me. Hope that I will be saved, right before the betrayal and torcher.'1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2FUvn4Swi
Memories of white masks covering things unknown to me.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrThzxcHRVo
'The smooth curve of cheek, the unexpresive porceline mask. Never knowing white lies under there.'1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgzlfxPFdv
Trees that's ragged branches that lurked with dangerous unfamiliarity.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOplgPQdrep
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Skies that spread out endlessly making you feel as small and insignificant as the stars that shone above without purpose.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDWbIIUqEP
'Uselessness'1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIs9tLO0l5
And gusts of wind that felt like daggars piercing through your skin out in the cold November air.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAyzrXcTA4
And I was only wearing a thin brown covering. Nothing decent enough to wear out in the middle of the winter.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRbHSu9K4qV
I sat down and brought my knees to my chest, hugging them close to my body out of shock and in reaction to the unpleasant change in weather. Trying to process everything I was taking in at the time.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nKf1zpTUW
After a few seconds I jumped back up again, glaring at the pure white that covered the ground, momentarily distracted from how scary the outside world was.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDXV9j1aJIL
I laughed bitterly at how similar snow was to the Bleach Coats I had known so well. 1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rfKrStzKv
They were both perfect. So, so, untainted. As if mocking my dirty, scruffy apperance. And they were both so cold and emotionless. A perfect match.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF40RZTGsbp
But then my eyes grew wide with realization. I was outside. Finally. After all this time, I was free from my confinement. From my safe cell. My cube. I knew every nook and crany. It was so... familiar. Was I sure that I wanted to leave that and explore a world of danger and recklesness? 1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgTId5ew15
I took a step back due to my second thoughts and twirled around to face the cement building I just escaped from.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfQX413eA1
I saw a blurr of boring grey in the shape of a large square through the misty evening air. It was the same bland colour as I grew up with, but it was broken.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0OLjr6L1Q
It had cracks and dents. It had chiped paint and dry, Autumn leaves scattered here and there. It had old cigarette buds and the distinct smell of urine. To put it simply, it was beautiful.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAvO6OWiOC
Was this what the outside world look like? Was everything imperfect? My face strtched into a smile at the thought of broken, run-down buildings.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiZ3TnAcxH
And with that, I ran. 1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4bj2XP7MB
I relished in the feeling of the wind wipping my hair around, despite the the chattering of my teeth or the numbness in my bear feet.1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYg3aQTc6z
I ran and ran and ran until stopping before a wire gate. The gate separating me and my freedom.
You may think that I was free the moment I stepped out of that building, but I wasn't free from myself. I was still trapped in my insecurities. Even though I knew that even after passing through that gate, I would still be cautious and paranoid, I could be free. Truly free. 1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGRMsJFCn1S
And with a smile I oppened the gate to my new beggining.
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Eh? Eh? I rewrote it per LDF's extreemly awesome constructive critisism, now I hope it's a bit more realistic. I know its shorter than before, but I started and it ran away from me. Because of my inspiration, I might make this multi-chapter, but it will take a long time. 1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKXr0rJzeI
See you next time!1298Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtsj37B9xx
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